Kayyyyy, Guess who? :3 Alright guys, hope you liked the first chappie,One things been bugging me though, when I uploaded the chapter, FF seems to have like took out lotsa of words from different places, I had to edit it on the site like 7 times even though I proofread it and it was perfect before I uploaded it,I hope it doesn't do that to me again, but guys, should you find something out of sorts, or if there are parts missing, please tell me, I wouldn't want to seem like an author who doesn't care about my typos I only want my readers to have the best reading experience, I don't want them guessing what words should be where,so please tell me, I'll edit it.

Anywhooooozzzz,My blubbering is too much huh? :P

Oki oki Im going!Be warned,slight sex scene here…

Without further ado!

Chapter Two!

…You see what I did there…The rhyme :p Oki I'm really going now!

Here we go!

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*Natsu's POV*

I watch her dart out the guild doors. I'm not an idiot, even if that's what everyone makes me out to be.

She's Sad. I can smell it on her,her eyes betrayed her when she looked at me, I saw her sunken cheeks.I don't like her like this.

But I'm such coward, all I ever do is run. I can tell she has feelings for me. So what do I do?I go on mission after mission with Lisanna every time she gets suspicious of my actions towards her.

I can't help myself. She is undoubtedly my mate,and I, I'm a stupid fucking arsehole who can't do jackshit about my love for her.

I was supposed to tell her how I felt. I know that, but then after the war Lisanna and I got closer again. I have absolutely zero romantic feelings towards Lisanna,really. None, but it felt good for things to just fall back to the way it was before all the horrors of life came hurtling towards us.

I began to spend more time with her, I went out on missions with her, and then one day she confessed. I wish I had the guts to do that to Lucy…But when she confessed, I told her that she wasn't the one I was in love with,and she broke down. All I could do at the time was apologize,and hug her till she felt better, but unfortunately, that wasn't enough for her.

*Flashback*

I don't know what I'm doing,why am I letting her kiss me ?

She pushed me backwards, I was previously on my haunches, but now,I lay on my back, with her on top of me.

I open my eyes and stare at her. Every inch of my being rejected about this. Nothing about this turned me on, in fact,I just felt disgusted.

My body felt stiff, my heart clenched at the thought of Lucy finding out about this.

Lisanna opened her mouth and prodded my startled tongue with her own forceful one.

This was going too far, she needed to stop. I tried to pull away, turning my head,but she just mirrored my movements.

I grabbed her shoulders and pushed her off me.

"Lisanna No! I told you I just don't feel the same…I…I love her."I found myself saying.

She remained silent.

Then, to my ultimate horror,she morphed.

Into Lucy.

"Why Natsu?" She asked in Lucy's voice.I felt my eyes widen.

"I…I…I-"

She crawled back on top of me, why the fuck did we come to a hotel after the mission?

"You what?"

She felt like Lucy, Sounded like Lucy, Looked like Lucy,but she wasn't my Lucy.

I looked down at my pants.

Fuck could not be happening.

"Lisanna Stop it!"I began but she trailed slow kisses down my neck.

"But I'm Lucy…"She murmured against my skin.

"You're not."I would never be so forward…But my mind was clouded by the thought of being able to make love to Lucy,it made my body react,this was wrong.I couldn't move,the beast in me reared its head,it knew this wasn't Lucy, but at the slow rate I was taking to get my mate, this was the next best thing.

I turned us over and captured her mouth. I felt myself being pushed to the back of my mind as the dragon in me took the lead. I watched on in horror as I saw myself beginning to take off 'Lucy's' clothes. It hurt me that Lisanna used Lucy's beautiful body to get what she wanted.I saw my hand slide down her sides,and travel back up to her ample chest. I heard her moan, and I clenched my teeth. What did the beast think it was doing? Just a few minutes ago it was shouting NO. And now It trapped me back here to do this?To defile Lucy in this feral manner?

It didn't matter to me that this was not mattered to me was that Lucy's honor, her body's dignity was tossed around like it was nothing.

My body was grinding against Lisanna's.I forced myself into my mind, but I could only take control of my eyes,so I shut tightest I could.I pretended this was a dream.A dream where Lucy and I were already married and I wouldn't have to worry about stealing her dignity because she was already mine...But that didn't make what I was doing any better.

I heard her moan and realised my mouth was on her breast,I wanted to a scream.I was being turned,now she was on top off me,and I felt her pull down the zip of my dress coat.I refused to open my eyes.

This wasn't happening…This was NOT happening.

But it was.

Her hand was in my pants.

Oh fuck.

She reached deeper and found what she was looking for,and pulled it out.

Slowly, I felt her mouth on my member,there was no doubt about it. I was going to be raped-there was nothing I could do.

She began to suck, and I felt myself getting harder.I clenched my teeth as she went faster.I couldn't hide this from Lucy, what would I say?

I felt a hand reach up and hold my hip in place

Lucy and I were not in a relationship, but how could I not tell her about something like this?I was by no means a virgin, I had gotten drunk one too many times and found myself in the bed of many women.

But never had I intentionally gave in,and If I said my body thought it was her so I gave in she'd feel so violated.I couldn't do that to her.

I felt my release coming, but the horror had only just arrived. With my eyes still tightly shut,I had not seen her position herself above me.

When I felt myself inside her,was when I opened my eyes.

What the fuck.

"Lisanna please stop!Please this is wrong, I don't want this!"I fought to the front of my mind to say that, the beast was pushing me back into my subconscious.

She looked at me through Lucy's amber eyes.

"Please,Just this once.I…I love you."She said.

When my beast heard that, he found the energy to push me back into the darkness,Hearing that Lucy loved me gave it all the energy it needed to suppress me,to my surprise,I found myself letting myself go, Hearing her say she loved me…Lucy's voice saying that…It was like music.

I let out a low growl as I moved in and out of her,and she yelped as I increased pace ,so the beast knew that this really wasn't Lucy, it would have been slow and gentle if this was the real her,it knew that this was a hoax and was using this for the time being.

That means Lisanna and I are both being sexually assaulted.

My body pounded hard against hers, I felt my release building.

Her hand reached up into my hair and pulled, my body never stopped moving, but neither did hers,she met every thrust, arching her back.

I wonder what the real Lucy would do. No doubt, she'd be shy, and I would be gentle with wasn't like the others,she was so different,she was not like Lisanna,she was on a whole new level,she was my life, she's the reason I exist, I only want to exist to make her happy,No one else in this world matters but her.

I felt Lisanna clench around me, my release was coming too.

When I finally spilled myself into her, I breathed Lucy's name. The beast had done what it wanted and slowly gave me back the controls of my mind.

Immediately I pulled myself out of Lisanna and scrambled away.

"How could you do that to me!"I yelled.

She turned back into herself.

"Im sorry Natsu,I-"

"You raped me!"

She flinched at that.

"But Natsu you responded-"

"it wasn't ME who responded and you damn well know that, you know it's my dragon instinct to mate, you KNOW that, you KNEW that the beast would control me if you looked like her, You knew how desperate it was to have a bit of her Lisanna!You knew!"

"Natsu Im sorry, I did know, yes!But I love you too!"

"But I love LUCY!"

"You don't love her Natsu!YOU didn't choose her!The dragon in your heart did!It was the beast you didn't!"

That's what she was wrong about.

beast chose her,but only after I fell in love with her…

"I choose her too."

She looked shocked.

"I deserve a chance Natsu."She said

"I will only ever love her."

"I'm going to change your mind…I love Lucy too you know, I would never do anything to hurt her, shes my nakama, my sister, but Natsu,I loved you first,and she knows that."

"You may have loved me first,But I loved her last Lisa, that's not going to change."

"Youre my best friend,If anyone can change your mind,its me."She said.

I look away from her.

I pictured Lucy and my whole being melted at the thought of her, I looked at Lisanna and my whole being screamed run away.

I love Lucy.I love her so much…What the hell am I doing.

*End Flashback*

Lisanna and I agreed to pretend what happened never happened, but now, every time I looked at Lucy, my body wanted to claim her,it was getting so hard to restrain myself around her,the beast had been chosen her as my mate three years ago,I had been suppressing the urge to take her as my own all this time.I didn't know how long I had until my beast decided that enough was enough.

I want to run after her right now.I can still smell her from reeks of sadness,and I can't stand it any longer,but I only make it a few meters out the door when Gray stops me.

"You're not fooling anyone, you know."He says.I look at him, feeling confused.

"What was that Iceprincess?"I snarl, he's leaning against the door frame of the guild now.

"You're in love with her."He states plainly. I blink. I don't understand.

How did he realise the truth?I made sure all my points were covered, I even spent more time with Lisa to throw people off my trail!

"Question is, why are you hitting it up with Lisanna then?"He asks,coming towards me.

I frown.

"I'm not-"I start.

"Cut the crap,Whats your deal?Huh?You think this is funny?You think it's fun to go on missions and leave her behind?You think it's okay to just go ahead and be with Lisanna all the time?Especially when you've been giving Lucy false hope,hey?"Gray growls.I feel a vein in my head starting to throb.

"If you love her Natsu…Why are you making her feel so unwanted?"Juvia says,coming to stand next to him.

My eyes widen.

"Juvia read Lisanna's journal…Juvia knows what you two did."Juvia said, with hard eyes.

My mouth drops open.

They knew.

"You need to figure your shit out Natsu, really, Or a lot of people are going to start hating you and get hurt, and that Includes Lucy."

"Think about that Natsu."Gray says, looking at me with disappointment, and I don't blame him.

I know that Lisanna wrote whatever she liked in there, she wrote things that happened but always changed the story a little to suit her fantasies.

I can't let Lucy know about what I've done,She would never love me after that…

I don't smell her anymore…The train must've departed.

Damn it.

Why does it hurt to love her so much?

All I really want is to be with Her!WHY am I such a Fucktard?Why can't I just tell her?I'm so selfish…I know how much she cares for me,and I know I'm too frightened to be with her truly,So I always drop her the hints, to show her how I feel, but never too much.I give her hope so that she doesn't move on,so that she doesn't start having feelings for someone else…

I hate myself for doing that.

She's a person, an amazing,wonderful, kind, honest,beautiful person and I've been toying with her feelings and making her an emotional wreck!She deserves a man who can tell her exactly how he feels about her….But I don't want her to be with any other man but me…

Fuck.

When did I become so selfish?

A/N:Im really pissed with FF , the chopping of my words is becoming so bad,URGH.

R and R please,It will help this mood that the site has forced me into,Till next time

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