"How could you not tell me?" Julianne paced back and forth, and every once in awhile she would stop and stare at him, cutting him off right before he could answer. "How could you not tell us. Derek, we had to find out from the tabloids! the tabloids!" Derek winced at the volume of her voice. He swore her eye was close to twitching. "Mom nearly had a heart attack."
"I meant to tell you guys, I really did." he leaned against the island counter in his kitchen and sighed, "I guess I just forgot."
"Forgot? Forgot?! Derek, how in all of tarnation do you forget to tell your family that you father a child?!" Julianne rubbed her temples and took a deep breath before she crossed her arms over her chest. "What does Sarah think about it?"
Derek's head shot up and he stared at her. He had completely forgotten about her and her little melt down from about a week ago. "Her opinion doesn't really matter anymore. Not that this was really any of her concern to begin with." Julianne's eyebrows raised and she looked at him like he had sprouted two heads and a tail. "We broke up Jules."
"What? Why?" She hopped up on the counter and waited patiently for him to tell her what happened.
"She told TMZ about Shawn behind our backs." His voice was soft, just above a whisper. Julianne's eyes went wide and she gasped, "That's not even the worst part. I found out by flipping through channels with Mark." Derek laughed and shook his head while Julianne watched him like he was insane. He cleared his throat and crossed his arms, "I guess I should have seen it coming. You know, she didn't talk to me the entire car ride home. And I guess I should have sensed something when I saw her surfing through Tumblr staring at pictures of Shawn and I. She just looked so mad, I guess she had a reason to be. But she never even asked how I was feeling. It was like she didn't even care.. like she was only thinking about how it made her look."
Julianne nodded slowly, taking in all he had said to her. After an awkward silence, Julianne looked at him, "well, have you talked to Shawn? I mean, this can't be easy for her."
"I sat outside of her apartment for almost an hour before I finally figured out what I wanted to say." He smiled as he remembered how nervous he got. For whatever reason, he liked knowing that she made him nervous. "When I finally worked up enough courage to knock, she didn't open the door. She just yelled at me through it."
Julianne broke out into a fit of giggles but he gave her the evil eye so she did her best to stifle them. "I don't mean to laugh, but…" she trailed off and broke off into a fit of hysterical laughter.
"It's not funny." he said deadpanned. He was trying so hard not to push her from the counter, but it was taking all of the will power he had. And he didn't know how long he would hold out. "I'm going to push you."
"Okay, I'll stop." She took a deep breath before she looked at him again. "When's her next ultrasound?"
"I think it's today." He shrugged, "I tried calling her but she didn't answer. She's probably still upset at me."
"With good reason." Julianne jumped from the counter and grabbed her purse, "Call her before it's too late." Julianne kissed his Cheek before she left. Derek stared at his phone and didn't know what to do. Did he know what he wanted to say?
Shawn plopped down on her couch and pulled out the little picture, and dvd from her bag. Tears welled in her eyes as she stared at them and an unfamiliar feeling came over her. She didn't know what it was. It definitely wasn't happiness.. Happiness didn't feel that weird. It wasnt guilt.. But for what ever reason, she felt like she was missing something.
She was..
Shawn felt incredibly guilty for not answering Derek's phone calls. He had gone out of his way to talk to her and apologize for the "TMZ" incident. He sat outside her apartment for only God knows how long, and she left him out there. Maybe she should have talked to him. Maybe she should have heard him out. "Oh, this is ridiculous?!" She grabbed her purse and put the picture and then DVD away.
She made her way over to the elevator and waited impatiently for the doors to open. "Oh my God!" She banged her hand on the door, "COULD YOU BE ANY SLOWER?!" she huffed and the elevator doors opened.
After what seemed to be the longest elevator ride ever, Shawn made her way down to her car. After she climbed in and buckled herself in, she gripped onto the steering wheel. Taking a deep breath, she pulled out of the parking lot and desperately tried not to speed.
Her resolve lasted about 2 minutes and she sped down the road.
Derek laid sprawled out on the floor, staring up at the ceiling, in his living room. He had been laying there for hours, holding his phone close. He had been contemplating whether or not to call Shawn since his sister had left him. Maybe he was thinking too hard. He was probably making it a lot harder than it needed to be.
He felt absolutely pathetic, and the little voice in his head was telling him he was. He wanted to laugh, cry, and scream all at the same time. But then again, nothing about his situation was entertaining, at all. Here he was, a grown man, laying on the floor because he couldnt pick up the phone to call someone.
He was about to lift the phone to his ear, when there was a knock on the door. HE gingerly got up from the floor and walked over to the door and opened the door as a smiled spread across his lips, "Hi."
"Hi."