Argh! Really this chapter kills me! I almost died trying to finish this chapter. I cried to many tears of blood TT_TT but it's finally finished now I can finally rest until the next chapter … I hope you do review this time lol I almost lost my mind!

Disclaimer: I do not own Loveless… =[

Chapter 5: Angels Delirium

"Where is this place?" Ritsuka asked as he looked around.

Everything that surrounded him was pitch black except for the stars and moon that glitter in the sky and around him. There was white fog that seemed to emerge from the floor. He slowly took a step forward. This place was enchanting even in this eerie state. "Hello?" Ritsuka called out as he slowly started to step forward looking for any sign of life. He started to run and call out to anyone that might hear him. Surely there must be somebody here? How did he even get here in the first place? He thought as he kept looking around the place.

"Ritsuka!.. Come here" he heard a voice calling out to him in the far distance "Ritsuka". That voice he knew it! That voice he had been longing to hear it again.

"Seimei?! Where are you?" Ritsuka cried out as he started to frantically run toward the voice that called him. He stopped when he saw the figure of his brother. There he stood. Seimei's hair covered his face as he looked down to the floor he point to the ground and saw that there was a large pond or was it a lake? That separated them. The water was black and glistening with the reflection of the moon. Seimei stood on the other side and he cried out again "Seimei! Seimei! Don't go!"

"Ritsuka, I've missed you" Seimei said as he slowly lifted his arms and waited for Ritsuka to embrace him. Ritsuka ran into the water and started to swim towards his brother. He cried and kept calling out Seimei name. He felt that if he didn't, Seimei would just suddenly disappear again. How he had wished to see his beloved brother again. More than anything he longed to hear his voice and to hug him once more.

"Aah! Seimei!" He screamed as he felt what seemed to be vines wrap around his ankles and pull him under. He cried out to Seimei but the last thing he saw before he was fully immersed under the water was Seimei screaming and his image disappearing into the darkness. His voice was slowly slipping away and Ritsuka struggled trying to get back to the surface. But he was already so deep. He couldn't see anything darkness surrounded him and he was losing his breath. The water started to get into his lungs. It hurt. He slowly closed his eyes thinking this was the end.

- A white light instantly exploded.-

"Seimei! Hurry, wake up!...come on you promised"

[Huh? Is that me?... and Seimei?… ]

Ritsuka was on the bed trying to wake his brother up. "Alright..Alright Ritsuka," Seimei said as he sighed and sat up.. "Good morning Ritsuka" He smiled and ruffled Ritsuka's hair. "Mornin' Seimei" Ritsuka chuckled as he leaned in to give his big brother a hug.

"No morning kiss?" Seimei said as he tilted Ritsuka's face upward.

"mmmhmm" Ritsuka quickly pecked Seimei on the lips. "Can we go now?...you promised we could go see the fair today or did you forget?"

[ I remember this… That's when we first sneaked out of the castle to go to the carnival…Mom wouldn't let us go]

"And we are Ritsuka. But first-" Seimei said as he tap Ritsuka's nose with his finger "we have to disguise ourselves or we won't be able to leave this castle"

"How?" Ritsuka tilted his head looking confused.

Seimei chuckled softly, "I already have our costumes prepared.. they're hidden in the closet.. Go get them they should be in a large black box" To this Ritsuka got up from the bed and ran toward the closet. He took the box out of the closet and placed it in the bed.

[I always wondered how Seimei got those costumes…]

"What am I going to dress up as?" he asked opening the box and pulling out an elaborate prince costume. And a black eye mask. "A prince?" he said looking back at Seimei as he held up the Costume "Isn't it too big?"

Seimei leaned in and took the costume away from Ritsuka "That's because it's for me…oh and that cape as well" he said ushering Ritsuka to hand him the cape. "Yours is underneath"

Ritsuka handed him the cape. "But you're already a prince, Seimei. Won't it be easy for people to recognize you even if you wear the mask?" he asked.

"I'm not going to be a prince… I'll be a vampire and I'm planning on wearing a wig" Seimei got up and headed to his closet retrieving a purple box. "This has the accessories we'll need for our costumes." Placing the box on the bed.

"Ritsuka we should start getting ready if we want to have enough time to enjoy the whole carnival" Seimei said as he started to undress and change into his costume

[Ugh and of course I had to dress up as THAT]

"Uh yea" Ritsuka looked in the box and saw a silky dark red dress with black lace and a big bow. "What is this?!" he said turning to Seimei.

"It's a dress Ritsuka… You'll be a princess" Seimei said as his smile widened.

"But-But I'm a boy! I can't wear this Seimei!" He said frowning

Seimei walked toward Ritsuka and kneeled down in front of him. Taking Ritsuka's hand into his own and pulled it onto his lips "Ritsuka you have to if you want to go to the carnival… Besides when the guards find out that we snuck out they will be looking for us, but if you dress up as a girl then they won't recognize us so easily…Besides we can't get you another costume so quickly" Seimei said as he kissed each of Ritsuka's knuckles making the boy blush.

"ugh! But Seimei! What if we just cut some wholes to your sheets and I'll be a ghost!" Ritsuka said as he smiled at Seimei.

[Really anything would have been better than that! Tch! ]

"That's not cute Ritsuka. Besides I want you to be my date for the carnival. Won't you listen to your big bro." Seimei said as started to tickle Ritsuka and place butterfly kisses on Ritsuka'a neck.

"hahahaha Seimei Stop! That tickles" Ritsuka giggled as he tried to get away. "ok-okay I'll wear it!"

"You're so cute Ritsuka" Seimei said as he placed on last kiss on his neck.

[Seimei..why can't we go back to that time?... Why didn't the world just stop when you died…]

Once both Ritsuka and Seimei had finished putting on their costumes and were ready. They both put on black cloaks and snuck out of the castle. They only took of the cloaks once they were near the carnival.

[Ah I remember everyone kept staring at me and Seimei… It was so weird…]

Once they arrived everyone couldn't help but stare at the handsome couple. All the women blush and smiled at Seimei trying to get his attention. Seimei didn't pay any attention to them and instead took Ritsuka's hand into his arm and smiled at him. All the women present instantly glared at Ritsuka and he felt goose bumps at the sudden reaction. "Seimei don't… they're glaring at me. Why?" Ritsuka said as he tried to take his hand away from Seimei's grasp but he stopped him before he could. "That's because they are jealous of you. You look beautiful Ritsuka and these women know they can't compete against you with their dull looks. Don't mind them they just don't know there place." Seimei then turned and smiled at them before taking Ritsuka's hand and walking away.

"Their place? That's mean Seimei." Seimei stopped and took a seat on a bench. His attention now on Ritsuka. He asked "why?"

"because you say it as if they don't matter or something like that."

"Is that bad?"

"Well yea? I mean as the future king shouldn't you care about everyone equally?"

"Yes and no Ritsuka… You see it is true we were born into power and we do have a responsibility toward these people…but even so to me only you and I matter in this world and that is why we may do whatever we like."

"But that's wron-"

"Do you want to play some games or do you want to see the play first?" Seimei asked as he hugged Ritsuka tightly.

"mmm…uh games?" Ritsuka said as he thought about the possibility of winning some prizes…maybe he could get one for his mom. He smiled at thought he looked around for the easiest game. And noticed Duck shooting game. "Can we try that one?"

"Sure." Seimei took ritsuka's hand and led him toward the game. "How much for a game?"

"2 coins" The robust man said as he leaned near Ritsuka and grinned at him. "Are you going to play or is it going to be the little missy here?" The man looked like he wanted to eat Ritsuka up. Which scared him and he opted to hide behind Seimei. the man looked up at Seimei but instantly fell back.

[I wonder why he seemed so scared when he looked at Seimei's face? ]

"Ah-uh…uh here's the bow and arrows.. umm.. you just gotta hit all three ducks to get a prize..uh" The man said as he scattered to his feet to get the bow and arrow and he placed it at the table in front of Ritsuka. He then ran back and leaned back against the wall waiting for the boy to play but not taking his eyes of Seimei.

"Go ahead Ritsuka" Seimei said smiling at the boy.

"Umm ok" Ritsuka grabbed the bow and arrow and aimed it at the duck but the arrow slipped between his fingers and hit the shelf underneath the ducks. He tried again and this time the arrow when to high hitting one of the prizes. "Like this Ritsuka" Seimei said as he grabbed Ritsuka's hands and pulled the bow making the arrow hit the duck. "Ah I got it!" Ritsuka giggled "But we only hit one…so I guess we're not getting a prize" Seimei glanced at the man "Uh that's not true.. um you do get a prize but it's only a small one" The man rushed to a cabinet and took out a small rubber duck with a sailor hat. "Here" he handed it to Ritsuka "Really? Ah thanks" he said taking it and smiling at the man.

"Ritsuka we should go play a different game now"

"Ah ok"

With this they headed toward a balloon popping game where they had to throw a dart at a balloon in order to pop it. "We need to pop 3 balloons to get a large prize."

"Ok" with that Ritsuka threw a dart. The dart landed on the balloon but it did not pop. "What?! Why didn't it pop!" Seimei chuckled and threw one of his own darts instantly popping a balloon. "That's not fair Seimei" "Life isn't fair Ritsuka..haha I guess I'll be the one taking the prize."

[Grr he did end up taking the prize…I was never really good at those games but Seimei always won and gave me the prize. That always made me happy]

Once they had finished playing all the games Seimei asked Ritsuka if he wanted to go see the play the theater was show casing. But Ritsuka was already tired and he knew if he attended it he would fall asleep there. So he opted to sit by the lake and watch the sunset with his brother and all the prizes they had won that day. "Brother do you think mom will like them"

"The prizes?"

"Yea…Do you think she'll accept them" Ritsuka said as he turned to his brother and smiled sadly at him.

"I think it's better if you keep them" Seimei then placed ritsuka on his lap hugging the boy as they both stared at the sky.

"Brother?"

"Yes Ritsuka?" Seimei said as he nuzzled his face on Ritsuka's neck.

"Is being who your not a sin?" Seimei sighed and held Ritsuka closer whispering into the boy's ear. "It is not a sin Ritsuka. You are who you are. No matter what you will always be my Ritsuka. So don't listen to what mother or other people say."

[But Seimei mom died without seeing Ritsuka again…and you died as well. So whose Ritsuka am I now?]

"But they say I've changed… that I'm not the same..that I'm not Ritsuka"

"People always change it is impossible to remain the same. Our bodies are proof of that we are born,we grow old until we die. We can not remain in the same form and thus the same thing goes for our minds. We are not stoic Ritsuka we need change. There is nothing wrong with you.. but I am worried about something"

"Worried? About what?" Ritsuka answered turning so he could see Seimei face.

Seimei chuckled "Yes… I'm worried that Ritsuka will stop loving me"

"That will never happen! I love Seimei and that will never change even if I die Seimei is the most important person for me in this world" Leaning in to give his brother a tight hug.

[How could I not love you? You were always there when I needed you. You took care of me when mom beat me and you protected me…but most importantly you were kind towards me even though I was not Ritsuka..]

"Good" Seimei said as he leaned in and kiss Ritsuka on lips.

"Anyways those are the prizes I won" he said as he winked at the boy "I won the rubber ducky tho" Ritsuka said as he crossed his arms obviously annoyed that he hadn't won anymore prizes. Seimei chuckle and said, "Yea with my help"

"Hmph! I'll win more next time"

"We'll come back again Ritsuka I promise. once I finish my business with the Butterfly Clan and the rest of Seven Moons I'll take you here again. Maybe this time you can win some prizes for me"

[Soubi's clan? And the rest of Seven moons? Speaking of which i've never met them before even though I'm prince… I wonder if the old Ritsuka met them before?]

"Eh? Okay… but why do you have to go see them so suddenly? Is there something wrong?"

"I'm just going for a trial… I have to go or else the Butterfly clan will go off with my head"

[That… I had forgotten about that! So Soubi knows Seimei?!]

"Eh?! A trial?! Why?!" Ritsuka asked feeling worried for Seimei.

"Don't worry Ritsuka it's nothing that can't be solved" Seimei said as he patted Ritsuka's head.

"But you never tell me anything about the Empire or the other clans and why would they do that?" He asked wide eyed

"They won't kill me haha that's why I'm going to clear up things.. So you don't have to worry"

[What if they did kill Seimei?! I mean Seimei was murder when he was on his way to meet them for the trial! Why didn't I think of this before! Did they just decide to kill him off?!... But… But why?]

"but-"

"Ah do you want to know what crest name the voices gave me?"

"You have a different name?" Ritsuka asked tilting his head.

"Yes. You also have one. Mine is Beloved"

"Beloved?"

"It means to be loved by everyone…"

"That fits you Seimei" Ritsuka smiled."What about mines?" he asked pointing at himself.

"That's a secret for now but you'll find out soon" Seimei said as he winked at Ritsuka.

-The image suddenly vanished-

. Seimei is this your way of letting me know what happened? Did they decide to kill you? But why? Aren't we a part of the Seven moons empire why would the betray you?! I don't understand but I won't forgive them if they are responsible! Soubi must know something.. he must know who killed Seimei.

-Ritsuka wakes up-

Huh? Why is he crying? That face…. Why is he so sad?...No! remember what's important you have to ask!

"Soubi…you know who killed Seimei."

P.S. Really I struggled so much to write this chapter for three days! I couldn't get past the part of them leaving the castle! X.x I don't know if it's cause I just wasn't in writing mode or if my brain overloaded trying to figure out how to express Seimei's character! Yea I think this was Seimei's fault grrr! It's so hard trying to write Ritsuka's Seimei.. I mean trying to express his love for Ritsuka and his touchyness, his disreagard for others and his over possessiveness of Ritsuka. Trying to get a peek into has dark twisted mind without him blowing his cover with Ritsuka is extremely hard! It would have been so much easier to just write a plain evil Seimei but no he has to be so contradictory when it comes to Rit-chan! Ugh really my brain is still blowing steam lol There was so much more to this chapter but I thought that it was already getting really long and I just wanted to get it over with! XO But anyways atleast this chapter is finish and I never thought it would be this hard… I just hope this will be the only chapter that is so hard to write… T_T So please take pitty on my bloody tears and overworked brain and Review… Even if you think it sucks just say so lol But please give an explanation as to why it sucks lol please and thank you ^.^ also there might be typos and what not… .