Part 5

Upon returning outside you noticed it was slightly awkward. It was understandable from your point of view seeing as how you just explained the history of you and your ex to your new friends, but he didn't know that. Everyone played nice and the evening wasn't completely ruined by your ex's unexpected drop in. He of course was TRYING to be loving and doting on you, but you knew it was only because Jensen was there. You did notice it was slightly awkward between Jensen and Daneel as well. She seemed to be overly affectionate compared to how he was being with her. Then there was Gen and Jared, the power couple that you could just tell how much they loved each other by the way they looked at each other.

You remembered when people used to think that about you and Eric and you couldn't help but get a little sad. You were disrupted from your thoughts by Gen and Jared saying it was time for them to go. Shep was asleep in Gen's arms and Tom looked dazed as Jared carried him out.

"Thank you for having us y/n. It was great meeting you." Jared departed with a half hug he could manage with a child in his arms and you patted Tom's head.

"We definitely have to have a mommy's day and do some play dates. The boys love Rose." Gen also gave you a hug.

"I would really like that. And I know Rose would be absolutely thrilled to play with the boys again."

"I guess we should get going too." Daneel expressed as she tried to get up with a passed out JJ in her lap.

Jensen wasted no time assisting her trying to take JJ from her, but she assured him she had her just fine.

"Thanks for having us over. JJ really enjoyed herself." She gave you a polite smile, but no hug or offer to get the kids together again... not that you expected one either.

"Thank you again for having us over, even if it didn't go nearly as originally planned. I hope you enjoyed yourself too." He stood close to you as if wanting to do a hug goodbye, but was cut off by Daneel calling for him to get the car door to put JJ inside.

You decided to walk him out, "I did have a nice time. Thank you for coming and inviting the others. It was amazing getting to meet them too."

He hesitated at your door, "Are you sure you're going to be ok?" He asked gesturing in the direction you last Eric in.

You placed your hand on his arm, "I'll be fine. Thank you." You really were glad he was being such a great friend.

"Call me if you need ANYTHING...I mean it."

"Jensen! Door please!"

You gave him a thankful smile and sent him on his way. You watched as him and Daneel exchanged words as he placed JJ in her car seat before getting into the driver's seat. You shut your door as soon as he started their car. As soon as you turned around you saw Eric standing in your hallway, hands in his pockets, with a thought in his mind.

"Umm...I put Rose in her bed and she's out like a light."

"She had a busy day."

"Yeah..."

"Well, get home safely or where ever your hotel is at if you're staying in town. Have a good night and a safe drive back."

"Y/n..."

"Don't...we've been through this too many times. I'm exhausted. I can't do this, not tonight, not ever."

"But y/n I miss you guys like crazy. I miss my girls. I miss coming home to you guys. I miss everything we used to do."

"And don't think that we don't miss you. We do, but Eric...I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE...Please, just go..."

Before you could think he closed the space between you and placed a fevered kiss on your lips. You got lost in the moment before returning to your senses and removed yourself from his embrace.

"Get out..."

"But y/n..."

"Get out before I call the police. This is MY home and I want you out!"

He looked as if you just shot him and a part of you died seeing him look like that, but you couldn't do this anymore. The constant pulling you in, making you feel special again, promising to get married and have another child...only for a month or two to go by and he's backing out.

He left frustrated, but you had to watch him go. As soon as he left, you locked your front door, leaned back against it, and felt yourself break all over again.

That hole in your heart ripped open again, gushing with pain that hurt so much, it almost hurt to breathe. You were broken from your melt down by your phone ringing. You let it go to voicemail a couple of times before actually getting up to see who was trying to call you, worried it was Eric. You were relieved, but panicked to see it was Jensen that was calling you. You didn't want to answer, but upon seeing he had sent you a couple of texts and already a couple of calls, you tried to pull yourself together before answering.

"He-hey..."

"Y/n...what's wrong? Are you ok?"

"I'm fine..." You tried to take a deep breath, but came in broken stutters.

"You don't sound ok...he didn't hurt you did he?" You could hear tension building in his voice.

"No...not physically anyways..." you sniffled.

"I think that still warrants for me to kick his ass."

You let out a light laugh.

"There she is. The y/n I know."

You silently smiled feeling so grateful for a friend like him right now.

"Do you want me to come over? I can get some ice cream on the way."

"Thank you, but no. I don't think Daneel would be comfortable with that. I'm actually surprised we're having a conversation this long, this late. I'm pretty sure she despises me."

"She doesn't despise you...she just sees you as a threat. I mean...she doesn't know you and being a celebrity, she's not quick to trust, worried about being taken advantage of..."

"Well I would never take advantage of any of you."

"Well I know that. And I'm pretty sure Gen and Jared do too. "

"Well thanks. I'm glad, because I like all of you guys too." You bit your lip at what Jensen had said about Daneel seeing you as a threat.

You didn't understand why. You knew you weren't hideous, but you didn't feel you were even close on the scale next to Daneel.

"I should be getting to bed. Rose probably won't let me sleep in...thanks again for coming over today and checking on me about Eric."

"Any time y/n."

"Goodnight Jensen."

"Goodnight y/n."