Twilight belongs to Stephanie Meyer the only thing I own is the plot.

Bella POV

This is not how I wanted things to be. Jasper was supposed to be my rock my safe haven but he had lied and not a small lie a big murderous one. Finding out that I am pregnant was supposed to be joyous and celebratory but that isn't what I am feeling. I feel sad and angry and very disappointed. Alec is driving me to my first appointment I went and gave blood yesterday to confirm that I am indeed pregnant and it took everything in me just now to leave Jasper at home. But I feel betrayed and I don't want him to touch me or look at me and I want to cry in private, well away from him anyway.

"Bella it will all be okay I am sure of it." Alec says to be from the front seat. I nod not even looking at him because he knew and didn't say anything either but Jasper is his boss and I am only the bosses incubator. I sigh because thats not true and I know it but right now I don't feel like Jaspers wife or his partner. 20 minutes later and we are at the doctors office. I have already told Alec that I do not want him in the room and that I would like for him to stay in the waiting room much to his displeasure.

Sitting on the cold plastic bed covered in paper I am shaking from head to toe I am afraid of news that I don't want to hear. Knocking comes from the door and it opens and my doctor comes back in.

"I see that you got dressed Mrs. Whitlock. I have your results would you like to follow me to my office." She motions for me to follow her and I do. She takes a seat behind her desk and I take a seat in the chair in front.

"Well, it looks like to me you are about 6 weeks pregnant and your due date is June 5. This date is based on your last menstrual cycle. I have a prescription here for prenatal vitamins and some information for you I will schedule you another appointment for here in a month and at that time we should be able to hear the baby's heart beat. I have submitted all of your cultures and will let you know any results. Do you have any questions for me?"

"Probably a million and none of them are coming to my lips. But thank you I will read this information." i take the stack of papers that she is holding out.

"If you have any questions I wrote all of my personal contact information on your appointment card, don't hesitate to call. Congratulations on your pregnancy ." I nod at her not trusting my mouth to form actual words. I walk from her office toward the waiting room in absolute shock. Not that I wasn't wanting a pregnancy because I do but I wanted to find out with my husband beside me or a cute way of telling him like you see online and instead I had screamed it at him through it in his face like a weapon.

Walking in the front door of our home a couple of hours after I had walked out felt different for some reason. I wanted to call for Jasper and share everything that the doctor had told me but I don't because will not just let this go and maybe I am being petty about this whole thing but damn it I don't like being lied too. Upstairs is quiet as I walk toward the master bedroom making me think that Jasper is out and I am saddened at the thought that he is not home and chalk it up to the hormones. Undressing and turning on the shower I get in the warm water wishing I could turn the water up to almost blistering and sit here until my skin is red. As I sit on the bench and mull over what I want to say to Jasper I cry for Jessica, she wasn't in a good place and I can see that but maybe just maybe I could have helped her and she could have gotten clean. Her mother must be heart broken Mrs. Stanley was a bit of a whore but always a very nice woman to me. I wish for a second that I could call her and console her or go to her home with open arms but I can't my husband killed her daughter and I know that the families would know that I visited and now more than ever it would be for me to keep my head down to protect my child. A door in the house slamming brings me back to the steamy shower and as I stand to wash I hear Jasper yelling although I can't hear the words I know that they are angry.

Leaving my room washed and feeling a little better I search for Jasper so that I can make sure everything is okay. Jasper is pacing the hall down stairs with his phone to his ear he stops when he see's my and his face is sad. "Are you okay Isabella?" Jasper says in a very business like tone that makes me flinch he has never been so cold with me. I nod and turn to walk away but stop as anger rips through me white hot.

"YOU KNOW WHAT JASPER FUCK YOU! DO NOT CALL ME ISABELLA LIKE YOU ARE MY FATHER." I scream at the top of my lungs surprising even myself. Jasper takes long quick strides towards me grabbing both arms tightly. Leaning in as close to me as he can get without our bodies touching.

"I am not your father, I am your husband and I know that you are angry and that is fine but you will not disrespect me like that again in my own house do you understand? I don't talk to you that way and you will not talk to me that way." Jasper says calmly and I know that he is not one to be messed with so I turn as soon as he lets go and walk away.

*** 1 week later ***

Sitting in the Cullen's sunroom waiting for Esme so that we can put the final touches on next weeks charity costume party I am still wrapping my brain around the last week. Jasper has been pretty absent coming home very late or not at all working all the time. I wonder if staying mad is worth it Jasper has apologized and I have been bitchy, I miss my husband and I am exhausted most days it is hell just getting up my whole body is tired. Esme comes strutting in the room and all thoughts of Jasper float away and work takes over.

On the way home I fall asleep Alec has been watching me like a hawk for the last week and I imagine that is what Jasper has asked him to do. The door opening wakes me up and Alec tells me we are home. I set out of the car about the time Jane comes out of my front door with Jasper showing her out my mouth drops open and I am stunned into silence.

Following Jasper inside he goes straight to his office and goes to close the door and I catch it.

"I don't want to fight tonight so if that's what you want go yell at the roses." Jasper says his voice void of any emotion. His words shock me because he just had that bitch in my house and he expects me to just be a little mouse and let it go.

"No Jasper I am done fighting you obviously are done as well." I turn to walk out and he grabs my arm and pulls me into him. As soon as my body connects with his I sag in relief it has been almost two weeks since he has held me and I have missed his touch.

"I am sorry I know that you do not like her but we needed to talk and so I figured I could get it out of the way while you were not home so that her presence didn't upset you. I am sorry about lying to you about Jessica as well darlin' I thought that waiting to tell you was the best choice and then things were going so well that I didn't want to mess that up. I was wrong I should have told you in Italy and that was a mistake that I wont make again if I can tell you I will. You know that I won't tell you everything everyday because somethings I can't but the things I can I will."

Jasper is holding me to his body like I am going to run as soon as he loosens his grip. He lays his cheek against my hair and sighs.

" I don't beg but tonight I am begging love can we please stop fighting and avoiding. I need my wife by my side, I need you."

I am crying and I don't know for sure why aside from the fact that it takes to much energy to be mad at him and I miss him too.

"I miss you too Jasper and I am sorry for being such a bitch but if you ever lie to me the way that you have this time I will go live with papa." I say knowing that I cannot take the lies in this life loyalty is everything and I will not be blindly loyal to anyone.

When I step out of Jasper's space he try to hold tighter and I hold his hands and look up at him.

"I am not going anywhere Jasper I just want to know why she is here in our house." Jasper sighs and squeezes my hands.

"She came to me some months ago and told me some very value information about her father. I have since been getting other valuable information on others from her. I can't meet her anywhere that we could be seen no one could know it could get her killed and a war started. I was not trying to hide this from you we haven't been in contact in weeks she has been away so when she made contact I just needed any information she had it was very important. I will not be using Jane to spy anymore though because as soon as I make this hit they will know that it was her. We will make sure she is protected as Alec likes her they have been spending some time together."

A nod that is all I have I am not sure what else is possible my mind is racing with all of the information. Jasper picks me up bridal style and takes me to our room deposits me on the bathroom counter and turns on the bath. After it is filled with hot water he comes to me taking my hand he pulls me off of the counter and pops the button on my pants and pulls them down kneeling in front of me I grab his shoulders for balence and step out of my pants. Jasper looks up at me as he grabs the bottom of my shirt lifting it enough to show my belly button and kissing me just above the top of my panties where we both know our child is. My eyes well with tears as Jasper closes his eyes with his lips against my skin.

" I love you and your mommy more than anything pea I won't ever lose either of you." He whispers and returns his lips to me as I move my hands to cradle his head my stomach. He looks relieved and I feel guilty this time has been very hard on him and that is my fault. I reach for my shirt and pull it over my head and unclip my bra ad he pulls my panties over my hips. Standing he takes my hand and climbs in the tub and I step in after him. We sit with my back to his front and our hands intertwined over where our child grows.

Love is not easy and love is not kind but a love like ours is worth the fight.

AN: And that is the end I am working on a sequel and I will finish writing it in total before I publish the first chapter. I have loved this story I really have it is the Bella / Jasper story I always wanted to read. Thank you all for always sticking with me I love you all! Bis später!