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Chapter 9
A few days after they split the kids were back home with Lita Alana asked where her dad was so she told her he was away for a few days. Lita knew she'd have to tell them eventually but right now it just hurt too much to even think about what happened.
"Daddy" Alana smiled as she answered the phone and put it on speaker so RJ could speak to him as well.
"Hi Princess how are you and RJ" Randy asked missing his kids he'd never been away from them this long but he knew Lita wasn't ready to see him yet and right now he really wasn't in the right state to see them he didn't want them to see him like this.
"We're good when you coming home Daddy" Alana asked.
"Very soon princess how's your mom" Randy asked hoping she still wasn't crying herself to sleep it broke his heart after Alana told him that a few days ago.
"Sad daddy mommy misses you" Alana said she knew something was wrong she never saw her mom upset before.
"I miss her to princess, I need you and your brother to make mommy smile again because I can't be there right now I want to be more than anything in this world" Randy cried this was the hardest thing he ever went through and all this because of one stupid mistake.
Lita couldn't believe what she herd she knew what she had to do after she saw John yesterday and he told her what Randy was going through and hearing how broken he was she knew she had to at least try and make this work.
So she rang her mom to come over and watch the kids she had to go to St Louis and see Randy. Even if this didn't work she couldn't live with the what if's anymore it was going to take a long time for them to get back to the way they was but they had to at least try they deserved that their kids deserved that.
After getting off the phone Randy felt so lost again he still couldn't believe this was happening they were so happy they shouldn't be going through this he needed his family back but he just didn't know how Lita wouldn't talk to him no matter what he tried.
John and Dave had been trying to get him to leave the house in the last few weeks but he couldn't he'd lost everything that ever really mattered to him he didn't care about wrestling anymore and he really didn't care if Vince fired him for no showing events.
Randy spent all day in bed or getting drunk it was the only thing that numbed the pain. As he got up to get another bottle of drink he heard a knock on the door he hoped to god it wasn't John again all he wanted to do was be on his own couldn't he get that though his head.
"What, what do you want" Randy said not even bothering to see who it was at the door.
"Randy we need to talk" Stacie said as she walked passed him.
"No Stacie we got nothing to say just go" Randy said.
"I'm not going anywhere this isn't healthy and clean this place up it's a pig sty" Stacie said as she saw the state of the place.
"I don't care, I have nothing thanks to you I hope you got what you wanted" Randy yelled he knew it wasn't all her fault but he needed to vent somewhere and she was there.
"Randy I didn't want this and I didn't ask for this to happen but this isn't healthy, you haven't been wrestling the last few weeks and do you really think Lita will take you back if you're living like this" Stacie asked as she walked through the door.
"Why do you care" Randy yelled.
"Randy you know I care about you, now go upstairs and shower while I clean up" Stacie said as she pushed him upstairs he looked like he hadn't washed in days.
Twenty minutes later Randy came downstairs and the place looked so much cleaner he knew Stacie was right he needed to stop moping around he had to do something to try and get his wife back.
"Thanks Stacie for doing this you didn't have to" Randy said as he took a seat on the couch.
"Yes I did Randy I feel so bad about what happened even if you're partly to blame I could have stopped you but it was like I was transported through time when we were happy and in love" Stacie said as she sat next to him.
"I know I'm sorry Stacie this wasn't fair to you I should never have come to you that day if I hadn't I wouldn't have lost the best thing that ever happened to me" Randy cried.
"You really love her don't you" Stacie asked already knowing the answer deep down.
"Yeah I really do she's my world and I've broken her how can I ever forgive myself I can't live without her or my kids Stacie what am I going to do" Randy cried.
"Don't worry you'll work things out Lita would be an idiot to let you go, it's just going to take time for her to trust you again" Stacie said as she hugged him she hated seeing him in pain.
"I don't think she'll ever forgive me Stacie I've hurt her to much this time" Randy cried.
When Lita got to the house she thought about knocking but that would be silly and from what John told her he wasn't answering the door anyway so she used her key it had been a while since she was last here after they bought the ranch in Cameron they wasn't really here that much. When Lita walked though to the lounge she couldn't believe what she saw there was Randy and Stacie in each other's arms she couldn't believe this now she just felt like an idiot for coming back Randy was still having an affair with this woman.
"What in the hell" Lita yelled as she walked over to them.
"Li, it's not what it looks like" Randy said as he got up.
"No it looks worse" Lita cried not again she couldn't go through this again.
"Li I swear nothing was going on I was upset and Stacie was trying to help me" Randy cried he couldn't believe this was happening.
"Cut the crap I came here to give us another go, but now I can't if you want to be with Stacie so bad be with her because I'm done" Lita said as she turned around to leave.
"Lita we weren't doing anything I just came here to help him he's been a wreck without you here he was crying because he missed you so much I just tried to help him" Stacie said.
"You know what I don't care anymore I'm done, you two can't seem to stay away from each other and I just can't trust you" Lita cried.
"Li please I can't live without you please just give me one more chance I promise you I won't let you down again I swear to you" Randy begged wishing he could hold her again.
"Randy we got so much to talk about" Lita cried she knew they had to talk about this they couldn't keep going through this.
"I'll leave you guys to it" Stacie said as she left.
After long moments of silence Randy knew he had to say something he just hoped that they could work this out he couldn't live without her anymore. "I missed you" Randy said as he walked towards her.
"Don't. I missed you too even though I shouldn't" Lita said as she backed away from him this was already too hard she couldn't be too close to him.
"Lita what can I do to prove to you how much you mean to me. You're my wife, my soul mate, my best friend I can't be without you" Randy asked he would do whatever it took he couldn't be without her anymore.
"I never thought that you could do this, you have always been so devoted to me, so loyal to me" Lita cried
"I still am" Randy said.
"No you're not, if you would have had faith in me in us, you would have come to me instead of conveniently believing the worst so you could have an excuse to go to her. Now look where we are. I tried, I tried to get past it I came here to try and work things out and look at what I find. You and her together again I can't keep going through this my heart is so broken right now I don't think it will ever heal" Lita cried.
"Li I'm so sorry I know I should have come to you when I saw you with Adam but I couldn't I was so mad and I know it's not an excuse for what I did but can you please try and forgive me I can't live my life without you" Randy cried.
"I can't all I see is you in her arms holding her the way you hold me, I can't I just can't" Lita cried.
After standing there in silence for a few minutes neither knew what to say they still had lots of things to discuss, they couldn't keep going round in circles like this.
"Lita please remember all the good times we've had, we can be like that again I swear to you. I remember everything about us do you remember our wedding day" Randy asked hoping this worked he had to make her see what they have.
"Don't please don't" Lita cried.
"You were walking down the aisle you looked so perfect like an angel sent down from heaven just for me. I was so nervous, so was you and you looked at me and smiled, I'll never forget the word you said to me "Hi". I don't think I've ever been happier when I heard that one word. I knew than there was nothing to be nervous about I'd waited my whole life for that moment. I especially remember it because it's the day I put this ring on your finger" Randy smiled as he took her hand and traced the ring he's given her over seven years ago.
"It was also the first time we kissed as husband and wife, I remember that kiss, I'd kissed you a million times before, but I remember that kiss the most because it was sacred. My heart was pounding so hard, I felt dizzy because I was so happy and over whelmed" Lita cried as Randy moved towards her she knew what was coming and tried to move away "I can't do this I can't" she cried.
"You can't do what" Randy asked tears streaming down his face.
"I love you too much to fight with you, I don't want to fight with you" Lita cried as he tried to pull her into his arms again.
"Then don't fight then, we have to do this we belong together we have to at least try, I don't ever want to give you up, you're my life" Randy said as he held her it felt so good to be back in her arms he couldn't wait anymore he had to kiss her and to his surprise she let him.
"I can't do this it feels wrong" Lita said as she pulled away.
"Li please" Randy cried.
"I'm sorry I just can't stop picturing you with her" Lita cried as she walked away this was just too much she didn't think she could take anymore she couldn't understand how they got here they were happy how could he do this to them.
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