Chapter 2
But a house gets cold when you cut the heating
Without you to hold I'll be freezing
Can't rely on my heart to beat it
'Cause you take part of it every evening
Take words out of my mouth just from breathing
Replace with phrases like when you're leaving me.
I walked into my loft and locked the door. I made a beeline straight for the couch and flopped down onto it. I took a deep breath, kicked off my shoes and lay down. A million things were swimming through my mind. Quinn Fabray, a woman who I spent months telling myself was just a friend, admitted that she was in love with me, and I just walked out on her with nothing but the promise of a phone call in the morning. She had called herself and idiot for admitting her feelings to me. No, the real idiot sitting at that table was me! I reached for my phone, contemplating whether or not to call her, but the chances of her answering where very low, and with good reason. Why was I so afraid to tell her I felt the same way? Maybe because I was afraid of a repeat of what happened with Finn? But no, Quinn wasn't Finn… I smiled at the realization that their names rhymed. Quinn was definitely not going to give me the same distress Finn did. She had ambitions; she was at Yale for heaven's sake! Studying drama no less! And her photography was simply amazing! She was amazing. I took a deep breath and rubbed my eyes. Yes. I was in love with Quinn Fabray as much as she was in love with me, maybe more. And I, always the genius, walked out on her. If Kurt had been here he would certainly have slapped me in the back of the head, and I would let him because he'd be right. He himself knew how long I had been crushing on her, even if I hadn't always been so honest with myself. Now I had the opportunity to tell her how I felt and I ran, because I'm a coward. There was not much I could do but beat myself up until morning, then I'd keep my promise and call her, and explain to her that I love her as well, and let her kill me for what I did to her.
Then it hit me, at some point during our conversation, Quinn mentioned the hotel she was staying at. I put my shoes back on and grabbed my purse. I walked out onto the street and hailed a cab. I gave the driver the address and sat in silence, practicing what I would tell her when I arrived, and preparing myself for when she slams the door in my face. After a few minutes I was walking through the hotel doors. My first instinct was to go to the reception desk and ask for Quinn's room. Then I saw the bar. I took a deep breath and decided I needed a strong drink before I did what I was about to do. I walked in and the first thing I see is Quinn sitting at the bar. Perfect. I thought to myself, and then I noticed she was talking to another woman. Suddenly I felt scared and very jealous at the same time. I seriously debated turning around and walking away, but I had come all this way to tell Quinn my true feelings for her, and god dammit that's exactly what I was going to do. I took a deep breath and walked over there as calmly as possible.
"Q-Quinn?" I said, she turned on the bar stool and looked right at me.
"Hey Rachel." She said with a sigh. I looked at her eyes and noticed that she'd been crying.
Way to go genius, you made her cry. The voice inside my head said, and for some reason it sounded like Kurt, probably because he was my personal Jiminy Cricket.
"Can we talk?" I asked her, wanting to blurt out a million and one apologies there and then. She took a deep breath, making me hope she was at the very least thinking about it. She reached into her purse and handed me a card.
"Here, go wait for me in my room, I'll be up soon okay?" she said. I took the card in my shaky hand.
"Okay." I said. I smiled at the woman Quinn was talking to and walked off to the elevator. I saw the room number on the card and followed the signs to which floor I had to go to. I arrived and went to the room. I walked in closed the door behind me, taking in the scene of the room. It had a double bed, which at this point looked very inviting, because I just realized I was exhausted. I put my purse on the bed and went over to see the view Quinn had told me about earlier. She was right, it was an amazing view of Central Park, the lake was visible. Now I knew why Quinn had spent an entire day in here taking pictures of it. I took my coat off, finally feeling the central heating of the place kick in. I tossed it on the bed next to my purse and kept enjoying the view. After a few minutes I heard someone knocking on the door.
"Rachel?" her voice came through the door, I opened it and let her in, shutting the door behind her. She giggled.
"I'd say make yourself comfortable but it seems you already have." She said, noticing my purse and coat on the bed. I couldn't help but smile, she turned around and looked at me. I looked up at her.
"Quinn, I'm really sorry for what I did earlier. I-" I began but she cut me off.
"Didn't know what to do or say when your friend confesses her love for you? It's okay, I get it, I freaked you out, which is why I regret doing it in the first place. I hope this doesn't ruin our friendship." She said, barely looking at me.
"It won't." I said. I took a deep breath before continuing. "because…because I love you too."
She didn't say anything at first, she just stood there, staring at me, I think, I didn't have the balls to look up at her until I heard her footstep. She slowly walked over to me and put her finger under my chin, lifting my head up to look at her.
"So why didn't you just tell me?" she said in her soft, gentle voice.
"I was scared." I said, I could feel a lump building up in my throat.
"Of what?" she said, smiling at me softly.
"I…I don't know, of history repeating itself, I guess, I mean, after what happened with Finn I-" I blurted out until she stopped me.
"Rach, I'm not Finn, I'm not going to disappear and not talk to you for four months!" she said, her hands now on my shoulders. Tears had started flowing by now and she was wiping them away gently with her fingers, much like I was doing when she was telling me the same thing I was telling her now.
"I'm sorry I ran out on you like that, I just panicked, I couldn't think of what else to do!" I said through sobs.
"Shh, Rae, it's ok!" She said pulling me in for a hug. My arms went around her neck as she pulled me in a held me as tightly as possible.
"How can you forgive me so easily?" I sobbed into her shoulder.
"Because I love you, and I know how hard it is to have to admit something to yourself which could completely change the way you live." She said, placing a soft kiss on the top of my head.
"I love you too Quinn, and I'm not going to hide it anymore, I promise!" I said, letting go of the last few sobs into her shoulder while she rubbed my back gently. I pulled back and looked at her. She smiled at me; I took a deep breath and leaned up, giving her a light kiss on her soft lips. I felt her hand gently travel up to the back of my neck and pull me in closer as she deepened the kiss. I couldn't resist swiping my tongue across her bottom lip, begging for entrance, pretty soon our tongues were battling each other in between our mouths. My hands were busy playing with her hair as she held me close to her. I let out a soft moan as her hands travelled down around my hip, pulling me in closer. I felt her hands travel around and grab my ass, I couldn't help but smile into the kiss. She took a step towards the bed, not breaking the kiss, as soon as I felt the edge of the bed hit the back of my legs I sat down on it. Quinn straddled me and cupped my face with her hands, pulling me in to kiss me again. Somewhere between starting up the kiss again and me running my hands underneath her shirt, we ended up lying down on the bed. I helped her take her shirt off and she flipped us over so that I was on top, straddling her hips. I refused to break the kiss, enjoying the feeling of her tongue in my mouth. I felt her hand go up my back and fiddle with the zipper of my dress. Eventually I felt the dress loosen up around me and Quinn was pulling it off of me. She looked down at my legs.
"Oh my God Rachel, thigh high stockings?" She said with a chuckle.
"What?" I said, not sure what she meant.
"Nothing, it's just really, really hot!" She said, biting her lip.
"You want me to keep my stockings and heels on?" I asked with a wink. She looked at me with the sexiest smile ever and nodded. I leaned back down to kiss her again. She flipped us over once again and lifted my legs up; I wrapped them around her as she lifted me up, setting me down with my back against the head board. She kept kissing me softly on my lips as her hands went around my back, unclasping my bra. I felt it loosen and snatched away in an instance, laughing at the sight of it being thrown across the room. Suddenly I felt Quinn's lips on my breast, sending a wave of shivers up my spine. She started kissing down my body, lingering in a few spots for an extra second or so. I felt her fingers hook under the waistband of my panties, slipping them off gently. I bit my lip, anticipating what her next move would be. She placed her hands on my thighs, spreading my legs open. I felt her lips on my inner thigh as she kissed, licked and nipped at the skin. My breathing got shallower as she got closer and closer to my center, close enough for me to feel her hot breath, causing more shivers of ecstasy to run up my spine. She continued to tease me, getting closer and closer but never actually touching me, always going back to leave a few kisses on my thigh before re-starting the torturous act.
"Quinn, please!" I groaned, throwing my head back in frustration. Suddenly I felt her mouth on me, her tongue exploring me. I let out a loud moan. I felt her fingers slipping inside of me, bring me closer and closer to a climax. My moans got louder, and I stopped caring whether or not someone could hear me, my mind was pre-occupied with how amazing I felt. Quinn's fingers were pumping in and out of me with amazing velocity and force, the palm of her hand smashing into my sensitive clit every time she entered me. Suddenly, my breathing got heavier, there was a buildup of pressure in my lower abdomen, increasing every second as she went on.
"Oh God! QUINN!" I screamed as the pressure was released, making me buck my hips off the bed as I rode out my orgasm until I flopped back down on the pillows, breathing heavily. Quinn came back up to face me, planting a deep kiss on my lips. I slipped my tongue into her mouth, tasting myself on her. I deepened the kiss, wrapping my arms around her neck and pulling her closer to me. She supported her own weight on her hands which rested on either side of my head. I lifted myself up on my elbows to try and get closer to her, but it didn't work the way I wanted it to. I pulled back and smiled at her as I sat up, wrapping my arms around her neck again. I distracted her with a passionate kiss, then when I found the opportunity, I flipped us over so that I was on top.
"Cheater!" Quinn mumbled playfully. I smiled at her and winked.
"I think I owe you a little something." I whispered in her ear. I pulled back in time to see her biting her lip. I licked my top lip before I planted a soft kiss on hers. I reached down and unbuttoned her jeans, sliding my hands down underneath them and playing with the waistband of her panties as I placed a few soft kisses starting from her collarbone and going up to a spot behind her ear. As soon as I got to that spot I focused on it, knowing it to be a favorite for certain people. As I started licking and nipping at it I felt Quinn's hand go to the back of my head and heard a light moan escape from her lips.
"Shit Rach, how did you know?" she sighed.
"Would you believe me if I said it was dumb luck?" I whispered into her ear as I continued my work on the spot behind it.
"I have to, no one else knew about that spot. And I mean no one!" She said with a slight giggle.
"So none of the guys at McKinley?" I asked.
"Those idiots? Please, they don't even know what sensuality is!" She said, rolling her eyes. "To them, passion is plowing at you until they get off, and then saying 'I love you' when they do! And none of them mean what they say either!"
I couldn't help but place a soft kiss on her lips, which didn't go unwelcomed. I pulled back and rested my forehead against hers.
"I promise you this will be different" I whispered, giving her another peck on the lips, then went back to the spot behind her ear, enjoying the feeling of her hand running through my hair. After about a minute on that one spot, I continued down to her neck, going down to her chest. I reached behind her and unclasped her bra, slipping it off and enjoying the feeling of her breasts in my hands as I placed soft kisses in the valley between them. I couldn't help but notice how Quinn giggled every now and again, signaling to me that she was enjoying the feeling. I kissed a trail down from her chest to her center, as if I needed to follow it back or risk getting lost. Once I arrived at my destination, I slipped my hands underneath her panties, pulling them and her jeans off swiftly and tossing them aside. I looked up at her and saw her biting her lip and smiling at me. Damn, I thought to myself, if she keeps that up I'll need to have another round. I kissed up along her thighs until I finally slipped my tongue between her folds and onto her engorged, pulsing clit. I started slow, circling it with my tongue while my hands just kept her legs open for easy access. Then I slipped two fingers inside of her, enticing a moan from her lips as I felt her grab the sheets of the bed tightly. I pumped in and out of her until I heard her moans getting louder and louder, then I added another finger.
"Shit Rachel! God that's good!" I heard her say amidst the gasps and moans. I smiled and continued fucking her, teasing her with my tongue as I went along. As her moans got louder and more frequent I increased my speed both in my fingers and my tongue.
"Oh God!" She moaned, "Rae! I'm Gonna-"
She didn't have time to finish her sentence before she let out a half moan, half scream, bucking her hips as she reached her climax. I went back up to face her and was greeted by a smile. I lifted the fingers that had only just come out of her and brought them to my mouth, licking them clean of her juices. She kept staring at me with a smile, as if she didn't believe what she just saw in front of her.
"What?" I asked with a smile.
"Nothing, it's just that was incredibly hot." She said. I giggled and leaned down, kidding her on the lips. She pulled me down so that I was lying beside her and wrapped her arms around my neck, deepening the kiss. I lifted my hand and cupped her cheek, my other arm trapped underneath her, but I didn't mind, I just wrapped it around her waist and pulled her closer to me.
"God I love you!" she said, resting her forehead on mine and smiling at me.
"I love you too," I said, "and I'm sorry I was such a big coward to just say it immediately!"
"Stop apologizing," she said, placing another soft kiss on my lips. "I'm the one who dropped the bomb on you, I had been preparing that speech for two months! You had all of three minutes to realize what was going on, I'm the one who should be sorry!"
"Look, let's not argue, we both love each other, which was the final outcome of tonight, let's just focus on that okay?" I said, cuddling into her.
"Deal." She said, placing a kiss on my forehead. "So, you want to stay the night?"
"After tonight, I don't have the energy, nor the wish, to get up and get dressed just to go back to that lonely loft." I said with a giggle.
"One thing hasn't changed since Lima." She giggled.
"And what, may I ask, is that?" I asked her with a smirk.
"You still speak in paragraphs." She giggled.
"I only do so to make my point clear, lest I fall to misinterpretation." I explained.
"Rae bear, chill, I was only teasing cause I think it's cute!" She said.
"Rae bear?" I said, raising an eyebrow.
"Yeah I made that nick name up when I found out what your last name was, lame right?" she said.
"Actually I think it's kind of sweet." I said, leaning up and giving her a peck on the lips. "Goodnight, Quinn"
"Goodnight, Rae bear." She said, causing me to giggle softly as I cuddled into her chest and drifted off to sleep.