Ana

I am sitting on the mat with Christian and he is looking devastated. I can tell he is battling with this. So I decide to help him out.

"Christian before you tell me your story I want to ask you a few questions."

"I will answer them as honestly as I can Ana." Ok I know he is an honest man and I have to go there.

"Christian do you still practice the lifestyle?"

"No I do not. I have not for 6 months now."

"Do you still need it?"

"No I do not. I had decided before you even came to me to give it all up. I had even got Taylor to remove the playroom that was in my penthouse. I will be honest with you and say yes I do enjoy the kinky parts of it and will probably never give that up. But all the heavy shit. No definitely not."

"Will you want me to be like them?"

"Never Ana. Don't ever put yourself in the same class as them. You are sexy and beautiful outside and in. When I first saw you I knew there was something different about you and I just knew I wanted you in any way I could have you. Ana you are very special to me. If I am being honest with you I would say I want you as my girlfriend." Ok that was exactly what I was wanting to hear.

"Do you really?"

"Yes I do. Will you be my girlfriend Ana?" He is so fucking sexy and irresistible. I smile back and him and I can see his eyes light up.

"Yes I would like that. But I need you to be patient with me. I carry a lot of baggage with me. I have two more problems. Alcohol is a trigger for me so when I am around you could you not drink? I know it's not fair of me to ask you."

"Baby I will wait till the end of time just to have you. I will do anything to make you more comfortable. I don't need alcohol so it's gone."

"Ok secondly dont ever let anyone grab me unaware. I cant control it sometimes and I react."

"Ok I have personal proof of that one but same goes for me baby." I am confused about what Christian means.

"What do you mean?"

"I did tell you before that I have a fear of being touched on my chest and back. When someone touches me there I can feel the pain from the cigarettes and it feels like I am back there again." This breaks my heart hearing him confess this to me. I take off my jacket and am sitting there in my sports bra. I turn my back to him and move my hair out of the way and I hear his sharp intake of breath.

"Ana I am so sorry. I did not know." I can hear how horrified he is by his tone of voice.

"Christian it is ok. It was a long time ago." I can feel his soft fingers gliding over them. I flinch a little then relax.

"Ana why are your scars so dark?" I take a deep breath to calm myself because it is still hard talking about it.

"Once a week for 4 years he would burn me 6 times on the same place. The hospital I was in said my burns were so deep and scared so bad this was the best they could do for me. It does not hurt Christian. I actually have no feeling there what so ever. Apparently the nerves were damaged over time." I can't even look at him. I did not realize the tears were running down my face till it dripped onto my legs. I have not cried in years over this.

"Ana he is a fucking bastard. I am sorry you had to go through that. Were was your mother?" This was were the sob escaped and he scooped me into his lap.

"I am sorry baby you don't have to talk about it." Through my tears I say.

"She was there all along and she did not help me. What is not in the file or my medical records is the beatings started when I was 4 years old. Every night he would get drunk and hit me. This is the reason I was put into homeschooling, because the beatings were getting so bad the school had made some enquiries and mom lied and said I was clumsy and fell all over. For 10 years she allowed him to do this. When the burning started she would be the one to hold me down or I would get it worse. I became so numb I eventually didn't need her to hold me down. I still get nightmares of him coming for me."

"Ana 10 fucking years and the bitch done fuck all to help you?" All I do is nod.

"Christian don't be angry for me baby. I do not hold a grudge against her. She is the one that has to live with this guilt. I know she is remarried and they have 6 kids and two more on the way that I have never seen. She called me last week asking for money to go on holiday and I said no. That is why when Morton asked her where I was she thought she will tell him to spite me."

"Ana the things you are telling me about her are sickening."

"Don't Christian I still see her now and then. She is my mother after all." Somehow I end up on the mat alone and Christian is standing over me screaming.

"You fucking still see that bitch? Are you fucking crazy?" The door flies open and both Taylor and Alex rush in. Alex sees me crying and scoops me against him and sits on the mat with me in his lap.

Alex

What the fuck is going on in there? I am alarmed when I hear Christian screaming at Ana. I run into the room and scoop her into my arms and sit with her on my lap. She is absolutely sobbing. I need to know what this is all about? Then he shocks me by what he says to her.

"Ana that is un-fucking-believable." Christian is still screaming at her and she is terrified. I need to get out of here with here but I need to know what made him this angry. Then he speaks to me.

"Alex did she fucking tell you the fucking bitch of a mother done absolutely nothing when that bastard abused her for 10 fucking years?" What the fuck? I only thought this went on for 4 years. That would make Ana fucking 4 when all this started. Now I can see why he is angry. She has never ever spoken about this it does not even show on a single medical history. Because I trusted Ana and respected her I never did an extensive search on her history which is now coming to bite me in the ass. I only knew Morton and the 4 years she suffered.

"Did she also tell you Carla used to pin her down so he could burn her with fucking cigarettes?" I am getting more and more riled up because that was another thing I did not know but he needs to calm the fuck down for Ana.

"Christian you need to calm down. Shouting is a trigger for Ana." I can see he is shocked by his behavior. He kneels in front of me and starts apologizing to her but I am not sure she can hear him. She is shaking in my arms then she surprises me by going into his arms and getting comfort from him. This is fucking amazing.

Taylor

This is so fucked up. This little lady had it 10 times worse than the boss did. She is so fucking strong. I can not get over that a mother would ever allow her 4 year old baby girl to go through such abuse. It is sickening. I think of my little girl and I will kill the bastard that tries to touch her. The fact that Carla held her tiny body down so he can use her back as an astray makes my throat tight. I can just imagine the pain she went through. Then the boss carries on talking. I think he needs to get it out.

"Alex did she also tell you that once a week for 4 years he would burn her 6 times on the same burns? This is why I am so fucking angry and because she still allows that vile women in her life. She fucking lead that bastard back to Ana because she would not give her money. What next? When she does not get her way next time then what is she going to do to Ana? I am sorry but I will not sit around and do nothing and allow that women to destroy and corrupt everything Ana has worked so hard for. Why the hell does Ana still see that women?" I agree with the boss 100%. Ana is to trusting for her own good. Ana had calmed down and stopped crying and is looking at the boss. It breaks my heart when she whispers just loud enough for us to hear.

"Christian please don't shout at me like that. I was so scared. You sounded like him and I thought you were…." Oh fuck I can't hear anymore of this and I storm out of the room to go work my frustration out of the bag. I have never ever felt like shedding a tear until today. Seeing her so broken cuts me up.