When I got home Lou had already gone back to bed, I pushed her door opened and walked in

"hey, just went for a walk am home now" I whispered she just groaned and turned over, I couldn't help but laugh she was such a strange girl but if you woke her up she could be such a bitch.

As much as I loved this life, being free to party and do what ever I wished without having to worry about protecting someone or dyeing for them. It wasn't mine, I wasn't human, I was Dhampir, my mother was a Dhampir and my father a Moroi, I was string, fast and a great fighter. I was also shadow-kissed, which came with gifts, I needed to know what they were before they came. Tonight I think I got just a taste of what was so come and I couldn't be here is I was going to be going through a change.

I hadn't seen Mason since I left Russia, now seemed like a good time to call him. I sat down on the end of my bed and closed my eyes, I thought about him, what he looked like, the sound of his laughter, his smile, his voice, everything I was about to call his name when I opened my eyes and he was already there, I screamed and fell backwards of my bed

"OH...MY...GOD...THAT...WAS...SO...GIRLIE" he gasped through his laughter, I got up and smiled he sat on the bed and I followed, I waited until he got all his laughter out then spoke

"sorry I haven't called in awhile" I whispered

"it's ok we've been watching" he smiled

"Mason I don't know what to do, I love living here I get to have a normal life, friends, parties, having fun and not having to worry about other stuff but I feel as if I'm lying to myself" I felt a tear run down my check

"that's because you are" he muttered, I looked at him shocked I never expected him to be so blunt about it, but he just smiled

"Rose your not human, your so much more, you are a Dhampir and shadow-kissed and a kick ass guardian" he smiled

"thank you" I held his hand in mine that still confused me how I could hold and fell him even though he dead

"I should be getting on with my life shouldn't I ?" he nodded and kissed my forehead

"sooner or later you will have to, but its your choice" I nodded and he continued "Anna said you might want to hurry with your task, she was watching before when you were fighting and you got really strong and fast, you didn't know what was happening did you?" I looked confused then remembered it had been like I was totally different person and I was confident and energetic, I smiled

"not really" I laughed

"well it will be explained in the book but you need to find it, she said you are advancing a lot quicker than she did and it worries her" he was starting to fade little around the edges

"you need to be going now don't you ?" he nodded and said his goodbye

"wait Mason, will you tell Anna I said hello and it would be nice if I could see her again also thank you for coming" I smiled

and he was gone

I sat down on my bed and sighed, I knew I needed to go Anna was right I did feel different and I was a little scared about it, I just really didn't want to leave my life right now I was having fun.

I got my things packed and decided to take a few of the guy's DVD's with me, I left some money on the side for them to buy new ones, once everything was packed I started on my note for them

Hey dudes,

I got to split off home, maybe we will see each other again some time, id like that.

These past few weeks have been the best, will miss you all a lot.

Love

Rose

P.S. Took a few movies with me hope ya don't mind, left money for them and some more have a few drinks on me

I put it beside the money and walked to the door, before locking it I took one last look and sighed, I felt tears building in my eyes as I walked away, I started walking to the bus station and waited.

I pulled out the map and tried to understand it a little, Anna had circled where I needed to be it was a place called Witherwack, it looked tiny but I hoped I could find my answers and then some where to eat and sleep.

The bus ride was maybe 10 minutes, we had crossed the water and the drive called to me when my stop came, I stood and looked around it was mainly homes, with small set of shops to my right, and I huge field to my left. I came across something like a quarry it had loads of fields and wild flowers growing in its own weird little way it was quite beautiful. I sat down and leaned against a big tree and eat the little food I had packed with me, I smiled at the view it was none stop fields most of them were farmers, I could see the ocean beyond that, it was quite stunning but nothing compared to home.

Once I finished I again looked to the map only to find out I had walked the wrong way and had to back track, when I got off the bus I should have turned right instead of left. I walked back and within 10 minutes I was standing inside a grave yard but the map said that this was were I needed to be. I called for Anna and when I opened my eyes she stood there smiling

"hello" I smiled in return

"hello, I'm glad to see you found this place quickly" I nodded

"ok were is it?" I muttered and looked around, she walked into the little church and I followed she pointed to the wall at the north side of the church, I walked over but there was nothing there

"pull up the stone your standing on it" she whispered

I did as I was told and inside lay a metal box covered over with dirt, I lifted it from its place it had been for so long, I reminded myself to be careful with it, the lid slid off and inside lay a small brown book it looked worn and tattered. I examined the pages they were in good condition for being buried for hundreds of years

"is this it ?" I puzzled

"yes that's my journal, I left in case someone like you needed guidance and help" she smiled I opened the first page and smiled in her hand was a written passage

To whomever may find this I wish you all the best and hope it brings some peace of mind to you.

Inside you will find tips on your gifts, you boundaries and thing to look out for, also you should have a bond mate there is a few chapters in there about thins you will experience with them.

Anna

I looked up to her but she had gone, I took the book out side and sat below a tree, I opened to the second page and started reading

Well by now you should now that you are shadow-kissed it happens when we die and a Moroi with spirit brings us back that means we are linked to this person until one dies or the bind it broken.

We have gifts like being able to see ghost, walking in both worlds, intense fighting skills, and so many more I will go into further detail further into my journal.

First off, I will tell you about my self, as I am writing with I am 27 years old, my bond mate is with me and he will also be putting some of his thoughts, feelings and experiences into this book.

I have been boned with him from a early age and we have been together ever since, I have no children, although I have been a mother, I am very in touch with my powers and can control them but even I sometimes have off days when I just can't be controlled am I sure to who ever is reading this you know of what days I speak of.

I felt rain drizzling down my check so stood up to leave, I put the book into my bag and pulled my hood up.

I turned to leave when I saw it, the tiny grave stone, it looked old and had been beaten by nature, it was chipped and dirty, I bent down an whipped it clean, I gasped when I read it

To our dearest child

We did not get to meet you but you will forever be loved

We will see you again young one.

Mum and Dad

Anna and Vladimir

I could not believe it this is were their child was buried, the baby they never even got to hold, I got an idea, I pulled the book out and started flipping through the pages, there had to be something about calling a spirit, I found it

' To call a spirit you must have a physical or emotion connection to the spirit, if not then you must hold or be near something that had a connection to the spirit '

Well what better connection then the babies grave right

' Concentrate on the spirit or object and will so see the person it belongs to, you must not let anything pull you from you concentration.'

I could do that easily, so al I had to do was think about the grave and think about Anna's baby

' But be warned not all spirits are happy about being called and are not willing to speak to us, if that is the case you must let them leave do not hold them their its is cruel and will be consequences. '

Ok so do not piss them off, I do not want a pissed of spirit, got it.

I sat in front of the grave and crossed my legs I left my self go completely lose, then I began to think about the grave and the little boy, I wondered what he looked like maybe he looked like Anna, I could not say if he would look like Vladimir I had not seen him so I wouldn't know, just then I heard a baby laugh.

I opened my eyes and their was a young women standing in front of me smiling down at the baby. She looked up at me and she looked confused

"would you mind talking to me ?" I asked in a quite voice, she thought about it for a few moments then smiled

"I don't mind" she had a very nice voice, it was sweet and kind

"is that the baby, that is buried here ?" she nodded and I smiled

"could I ask how are you here with him, I'm not meaning to be rude" I smiled

she laughed "well he is to small to come on his own, I found him when he came across, and I did not find a mother so he has stayed with me I don't mind I have 3 children myself there he's welcome, he's not trouble at all" she smiled at him again and made a funny face he started giggling.

"I know his mother and father, they never got to meet him when he was burn he died during birth and the doc took him straight away" I felt a tear run down my check, it was so sad I felt sorry for Anna never getting to hold her son.

" that's horrid, if you know them maybe you could tell them I have him, I would love for him to meet his mother" I smiled and nodded

" I know Anna would want that she searched for him many years but they never knew what he looked like so they never found him" I didn't understand why I was telling this women so much but I felt as if I could trust her

" maybe when I learn how to get back to the other world, we could arrange for Anna to meet you" I smiled hoping she would agree

"I would like that very much, next time you need me, if you think of him and me ill come, my name is Sarah Beth" she smiled

"before you go, do you think I could hold him" I was worried to ask I did not know if she would be ok with that, but she smiled and held him out to me, I lifted him into my arms and smiled, he had Anna's eyes

"hello" I whispered he looked up at me and smiled

I kissed his forehead then handed him back to Sarah

"thank you" I smiled

she nodded and left, I stood at his grave a few minutes longer, I could not believe I had found him, I couldn't not wait to see Anna and tell her, I so badly wanted her to be happy.

I walked around until I started to get tired, my mind was spinning. In the space of a few hours I had left my second home, followed the map and found Anna's journal, then found Anna's long lost son.

I found a small BnB, I went inside to ask for a room there was a little old lady sitting in a comfy chair reading, she smiled and handed me a key asking if there was anything I needed, which I declined with a smile. My room was small but lovely, I needed somewhere I could just relax and sleep, I tossed my bag down and grabbed the book, laying across the bed I began to read about travelling to the world of the dead

When travelling to the spirit world you need to split you soul from your body, this make take some work but you will learn how, first you need to get comfy and try and forget about everything around you, think about your body floating and your soul slipping out of you mouth, then imagine a dark bubble and your inside, once there you need to remember why you are there are you will want to stay there, concentrate on seeing a spirit that has passed over and you will see a light, when you see it you will be pulled to it, don't fight it once through the light you will see the other world.

I figured I could give it ago, I had no intention for it to work but practise makes perfect. I lay back and relaxed, trying to rid my mind of thoughts I failed the first few tries but I finally managed to do it and felt my body relax against the soft bed. I did what Anna had described about imagining my soul separating from my body, floating just about me and then it happened I felt myself being pulled into the familiar darkness, it was nice the feeling of floating around however I knew I had something I needed to do, I thought about Anna and needed to see her and I saw the light coming closer, I closed my eyes to shield them from the brightness.

I could smell fresh flowers and feel the sun against my skin, I opened my eyes and gasped I had done it, my first attempt and it had worked I was in the world of the dead. I stood and smiled even thought I had been here before it still took my breath away, it was magnificent.

Once my mind had caught up with everything I had just done I looked around and the place I stood was where I had been with Mason the first time I came, I knew where to go from here and my legs didn't seem to no any restraints as I started running towards Anna's home.

I could help but have a smile on my face, I was happy I didn't think I could do it and I had, I had also found Anna's son and knew I will make her happy.

I came up to Anna's cottage and she was again in the garden tending to her roses

"Anna" I shouted when I reached the gate, she jumped in surprise

"Rose, how did you get here, oh my you not dead are you ?" she looked really worried I laughed and shock my head

"I read your journal, I didn't think I would be able to do it the first time I tried but here I am" I smiled, she looked shocked and a little bit scared which worried me why would she be scared of be being able to do this, this is what she wanted me to have the journal for wasn't it ?

"that's fantastic it took me at least a year to learn how to come here, you must be good" she laughed but again it was filled it fear, of me, I tried to push it aside for now until I felt able to ask her why

We walked inside and again she made tea, I waited whilst she fussed around and then was seated before I began

"is Vlad here, I need to speak to you both ?" I smiled and sipped my tea

she was confused but nodded

"Vlad sweetheart, could you come here please I have someone I want you to meet" she called

we waited a few moments then a tall man walked in and joined us, he was fucking stunning, tall with a muscular body which was not normal for a Moroi, a head full of lush dark hair that fell into his eyes which were a pale green, they were stunning, his lips were plump and pink when he smiled I nearly melted where I sat. I had been expecting an old man for some reason even though I knew that here they could change their age but still I wasn't expecting Vlad to me a fucking hunk.

"Hello, I'm Vlad" he smiled and held his hand out to me

"hi, Rose Hathaway" I kinda stumbled as I spoke still dazzled by him, his head whipped round to see Anna

"the Rose you've been telling me about ?" he looked surprise, what was it with people being surprised around me did I just have this effect on people or were they just a little weird ?

"oh I'm so sorry, how did you die ?" he was concerned I laughed and that startled him

"sweetheart she is not dead just visiting" Anna laughed along with me, it took him a few moments to catch on and laugh with us he sat beside Anna and they waited for me to begin

"so what did you want to talk to us about ?" she whispered

"I found him" I couldn't keep my excitement out of my voice or off my face

"you found who ?" Vlad muttered but Anna had a lovely smile on her face

"you mean it you found him ?" she gasped and I saw tears run down her checks, she turned to Vlad and smiled

"she found him, she found Adam" he wrapped his arms around her and kissed her with as much passion as he could and let me tell you that was a lot of fucking passion, you could tell they were so in love with one another, I smiled

"Adam ?" I whispered

"we were going to call him that but never got the chance to"Vlad's voice was spiked with sorrow when he spoke

"Anna he is beautiful, he has your eyes" I smiled and made her cry more, but they were happy tears .. I hope

"so how do I find someone here, do you guys have like a phone book ?" I sipped my tea but the look on their faces was identical, pure humour then they burst out laughing whilst holding each other

"a phone book for the dead ? I never thought of that" Vlad gasped in between giggles

"no we don't have one but if you need to find someone , you just think of that person and they will come to you" Anna managed to put on a straight face whilst she spoke but I could see humour still in her eyes.

I stood up and walked outside, they both followed me and waited as I stood at the end of the garden path, they watched as I closed my eyes and smiled, I thought of the beautiful women that held Adam in here arms and looked at him with eyes filled with such love, then I thought of Adam how he had his mothers eyes and how he had smiled at me, when I dared to open my eyes I smiled at Sarah was standing before me with Adam in her arms, I walked close and smiled

"Hello again Sarah" she nodded and smiled

"you also stranger" she laughed, I was a little taken back until I realised I had not told her my name

"oh, I'm sorry my name is Rose" I smiled, I looked down at Adam in her arms he was awake and watching us with a look of wonder in his eyes

"may I take him, that's his mother and father" I nodded behind me, when I looked Anna was crying and Vlad held her to his side trying to hold her up, Sarah smiled and handed Adam to me, as I walked down the garden path I could help but see the sweet little boy in my arms and think of my family. I stopped just in front of Anna and Vlad and smiled

"Anna, Vlad I would like you to officially meet your son Adam" I smiled and handed him over to his mother, how started to cry more, even though I didn't think it was possible to, she kissed him and whispered words to him and then handed him to Vlad, so she could pull me into her arms

"Rose I have known you a long time, and love you, you have given us the greatest gift you could ever give a person, how can we thank you" she whispered I shock my head and smiled

"no need for thanks" I smiled and turned back to Sarah, I took her hand and pulled her forward a little

"Anna, Vlad this is Sarah she had been looking after Adam whilst he has been here" Anna pulled Sarah to her and kissed both her checks

"thank you so much" she gasped, Vlad leaned over and kissed her check also, then turned back to his son and continued to smile down and the laughing little boy in his arms

"it was my pleasure he is such a good boy, I'm glad Rose found him, no child so go without their mother and father and vice-versa" she smiled, I could feel myself getting weak and knew I would be returning soon

"hey guys I think I got to go soon, I'll come again soon and see you" I smiled watching the family reunited

"thank you so much Rose, I will always be in you debt" Vlad whispered just as I was fading.

When I opened my eyes I found my self back in the room, and in body, I was crying I had made Anna and Vlad so happy, seeing her hold her son had made me realise something I longed to be a mother, to feel my child growing inside me, and then hold it and watch it grow while protecting it, I smiled a sad smile to myself, they only man I had ever wanted children with was Dimitri and even if I forgive him, we could never had a baby together or bodies did not allow it. That night I fell asleep dreaming, that myself and Dimitri some how managed to have a child together, my skin tone and hair colour, with his eyes and smile, it was the happiest dream I have ever had, but I knew I would wake up feeling regretful I had dreamed it as I had told Dimitri to move on with his life he need to find some one who could return his love and I would never have a child with him, but I didn't care for a few hours I would feel pure happiness as I held my imaginary baby in my arms and told him I loved him.