I woke up in Dimitri's arms my back was to his chest and he was still asleep, I didn't want to move I just wanted to stay in his arms smiling into thin air.

Last night had been the first night in so many years that my heart had loved without feeling broken, Dimitri told me he would gain my trust and I couldn't deny he needed to, even though he had no control over the actions that tuck place that night when I had seen him and Lissa together, even though I knew he loved me, it didn't stop me from feeling betrayed, and it didn't make the knowledge of knowing they had slept together, his lips pressed up against hers, his hands holding her body, the two of them sharing something as sweet and loving as sex.

It my skin crawl and my heart pound in my chest, I knew I loved Dimitri like nothing else in this world, I always had and yet I still could not bring myself to see past this completely. Maybe all I needed was time and to be reminded of his love for me.

I got out of bed slowly trying not to wake Dimitri and got dressed, I didn't think anyone would up when I got into the kitchen it was still a little to early, however the further she walked she say Yeva sitting at the able sipping a cup of tea, she always was the first awake I should have known

I sat down beside her and smiled

"you do not know how pleased I am to have you home with us again"she whispered, I simply smiled

"I have missed this house and every one in it"

We sat in silence enjoying just being around each other again, I don't think I could have ever realised just how much I had missed home until this moment, Yeva had always made me feel safe and protected, which coming from me sound strange as I can protect my self but she always looked out for my well-being, helped me when I felt as if life couldn't get any better she always told me

'You will see in the end everything is better and if its not then it's not truly the end', that one phrase was guaranteed to make me smile.

"so Ангел I did not notice my grandson on the sofa this morning, so I assume he has been forgiven" she whispered but I could see that she was very pleased, I felt my checks changing into a burning pink, I sipped my tea hiding my smile.

"Yeva you know very well that I had forgiven him a long time ago, but my heart and brain are not always on the same page" I laughed, she simply nodded

"Ангел are you sure this is what you want ?" she muttered

"Yeva, I have loved that man, since I was 17, and I still feel the butterflies when he touches me, and my body does strange things when he smiles" I felt embarrassed at admitting that but Yeva was a mother and grandmother of course she would not mind.

"I'm so glad that you have forgiven him, I now how much he adores you, when you left he wept so much for you, I have never seen Dimitri look so broken" she looked away and I saw a tear slid down her check

I wrapped my arms around her waist and hugged her

"Yeva, that grandson of yours is everything I want and need, but he has to prove that I have not forgiven for nothing" I whispered in her ear, she laughed and went to get ready for the day, I sat at the table a little longer and watched the morning sky through the window.

It wasn't long before I was joined by someone, I looked to see Lissa and Christian sitting beside me smiling

"good morning" I smiled

"morning, sexy" Christian muttered, he never was much of a morning personally

"good morning" Lissa whispered

"so babe, I think we should talk" Christian smiled

"ok, what's up ?" I sighed, I wasn't really in the mood for talking I just wanted to relax

"well Lissa, has explained everything to me, and well you already know I have forgiven them, maybe you should forgive Dimitri, its plain to see that man worships you" Lissa nodded to show me she agreed

"I already have" I smiled and walked from the kitchen

I went back to my room, Dimitri was still sound a sleep I got changed in my training gear, which consisted of black jeans, black leather coat, my weapon belt, black sports bar the back of it was thin so most of my tattoos were viable, when I was in England I still continued to get them, they now covered my whole back, my sides and some had started to work there way across one side of my ribcage. I tossed a long sleeved black top over my arm with my coat.

I walked back down stairs, to find most of the family sitting in the kitchen having breakfast, when they saw me they all smiled, I knew Christian will have told them about my news.

I tossed my coat and top on the counter and went to sit for breakfast with my family, I turned to see every one there starring at me

"what ?" I muttered

"how many do you have now ?" Yeva smiled

I shrugged my shoulders and smiled

"not sure, I lost count but if I keep going I'm going to run out of room, but these 12 on my neck each one stands for 25"

I grabbed a plate and Yeva filled it with bacon and eggs, they continued to stare at me

"Kiddo, did you ever think about ya know keeping a journal to recorded them or soon you're going to look like a cheetah with all them spots" my dad laughed, it lightened the mood in the kitchen

Dimitri came down the stairs and said his good mornings, every one was watching when he came and kissed my check and sat down beside me.

Breakfast went by quite fast, every one was sitting laughing and smiling, I had missed this having the whole family around the table talking with each other.

I had finished my food, Dimitri had hold of my hand under the table on my leg, I kept seeing him in the corner of my eye watching me with the biggest smile on his face.

Once every one was finished, I stood and grabbed my top pulling it on and then my coat, I kissed Dimitri on the lips and then turned to leave

"where you off, Kiddo" my dad smiled

"Hunting" I laughed and was out the door and running down the street, I was in the town down from ours this one was human, and there was Strigoi here.

I started my daily routine, I sliced my hand and placed bloody hand prints on the walls and lamp posts, leading them out to a quite field, that was in cover so no one would see me.

I sat in the middle waiting for them to arrive, but instead I sensed someone else I ran over to the wall to see Dimitri, my mother and father, Lissa, Christian, Rosalie and Paul

"what are you doing here ?" I snapped, there Strigoi were going to be coming first

"we wanted to watch you train" my father laughed

"do you know how dangerous that is, leaving your blood every were" Dimitri muttered

my laugh startled them all

"do not doubt that it will work" I looked over to see them coming

"stay down and stay hidden" I whispered then turned and ran into the centre of the field

"arw my sweet your blood is such a treat" one laughed, I could help but smile

"well what can I say, other than thanks" I smiled my man eater smile at him, there was 12 of them they were close to me, the tale blonde male that had spoke was within a arms length way, he lent in close and smiled

"i will love kissing your slender neck, what is your name my beauty" he whispered in my ear

This was when the fun began, I smiled

"Rose Hathaway" I whispered to him, his jumped back and a growl escaped his lips and he lunged at me

my stake was in his chest before the others moved, but as soon as his body hit the ground they attacked me, one by one they fell, it seemed stupid to use my gifts on them, when I could handle them with just my stake.

Each one that feel the next started to fight harder, they seemed to be pissed of with me for each of them I killed, it was very strange I had never seen a Strigoi fight harder when one of his group was skilled it was as if they were a coven.

When the last dead I cleaned my stake and walked over to my family all peeping at me from behind the wall, Paul was the first to talk

"Flower that was awesome" he shouted, then jumped in my arms I hugged him them placed him on his feet.

"that was training" Dimitri laughed

I kissed his lips and smiled

"I've missed your kiss" he whispered in my ear

my dad just hugged me and smiled, we started walking back home

"never do that again" I muttered to them all

"I can never tell how many will show up and if they smell you, I'll be fucked, and you Lissa were the fuck is your guardians" I snapped

"i told them to stay at home, I had your mother and Dimitri here" she laughed, she didn't understand how much dangerous she had just been.

I turned to my mother and Dimitri

"you both should know better to bring this lot out without more help" I scowled themselves

"since when did you become all knowing" my mother's tone was hard and cold, for the first time I looked at her and noticed she was scared and yet very jealous of me, she had liked being Guardian Hathaway that name had made people fear her and show respect now when she said her name people would recognise her as Rose Hathaway's mother.

"I will not change who I am for you, you think I wanted this to be a freak, to have these gifts that scare the fuck out of me, there are things about me you will never be able to understand, I can never change who I am, I am forever stuck like this, my life will never change I will die still fighting, I can never be a mother, not because the man I love is Dhampir, but because my body will never allow me to have a child I will never be able to feel a baby growing inside of me.

You are angry because you are no longer the great Hathaway, would you rather be like me, and never be able to relax if I get pissed off I could kill someone without even thinking about it, I can suck the life out of people just by looking at them" I took a deep breath tears were now running down my face

"of all people I thought you would be the one to tell me I was welcome not push me always because you don't like that I am a better fighter" I snapped

I couldn't watch her no more I ran from them and returned home, Yeva was in the kitchen but I ran straight to my room and shut the door, I had never cried like this in a long time, my own mother hated me just because I had surpassed her, my heart was breaking all over again.

I grabbed my towel and jumped into the shower, I just stood there an let the hot water run across my skin, it was so relaxing.

By the time I had finished my shower I had come to the conclusion that I didn't care, I couldn't change what I was and I don't think I would just for her, with my gifts I could help people and set souls free, she didn't understand that she would always be the greatest fighter to me, as it was her that had made me want to become a guardian, she would always be my mother, my hero.

I got out the shower, wrapped in a huge white fluffy dressing gown I walked into my room to find Dimitri sitting on my bed

"hi" he smiled, I went over to him and cuddled into his side he kissed my forehead

"I'm sorry, you had to see my melt down" I whispered

"don't worry, you seemed pretty upset are you ok ?"

"yeah I was just surprised that she would think that of me, she will never understand what I go through just to get up and dressed every day"

I felt my heart pounding in my chest and a lump in my throat making it hard to swallow

"can I ask what did you mean you can not be a mother" he whispered, I could tell he didn't want to ask in case it upset me.

I got off the bed and walked over to my bag, I pulled Anna's journal out and started to read him a passage

'this is the one thing in this whole book that brings tears to my eyes as a write, I lost my child many years ago and have soon found out that, most shadow-kissed will lose many children in their life time, our bodies are to complicated to handle, however it is not impossible, and if we do manage to bare a child, it will have no such affects that we have it will be born completely healthy and normal.

But the chances of this are so low that if you do not handle heart break easily then I suggest you do not try to have young'

I turned to face him, he had tears in his eyes, I smiled at him but it was a small sad smile.

"I am so sorry, Rose" he whispered

"it's ok, I have come to terms with it, besides the only man I have ever wanted to have children with was you, so I'm not losing out on anything" I smiled.

He pulled me into his arms, I sat on his lap with my back to his chest

"I love you Rose, you are the only person I have loved" he whispered

"I love you too Dimitri" I smiled

"this may be a bit personal but have you been with any one else in the past years ?"he muttered

"well, about a year after me and Christian first came here, we tried begin together but we were just meant to be friends, but other than him no I've been with no one else"

He nodded against my hair "did you sleep with him ?" it was so low I barley heard him

"yes we made love"

"have you been with anyone ?" I smiled, but there was nothing but panic in my eyes that he had, that maybe he had found someone else other than me, even though he had told me that he loved me I couldn't help but worry that he may also love someone else

"other than the one you no of, no I haven't"

So he had only ever slept with me and Lissa and I had only ever slept with him and Christian, that was extremely weird but I could help but smile.

"in that passage you read, it said Anna had a child Would that be Adam that you spoke of, Rosalie's ghost boyfriend ?"

"yeah, he was still born, they never got to meet him, Vlad was his father, when they died and went to the dead world they could find him because they had never seen him, so when in England I found his grave and called his ghost a women showed up with him her name was Sarah and she had been looking at him. Eventually I was able to return him to Anna, his name is Adam" I smiled

"so you found there child for them ? Rose you really are an amazing person"

His lips meet mine they were just as I remembered soft and filled with passion.

I knew we should be taken things slow after all we had only just gotten back together yesterday, but when he kissed me like that I just couldn't help but let my heart lead me, my lips never left his, I turned around and straddled him, I began kissing down his neck and in the hollow at the bottom of his throat, a growl ran through his chest it sounded fierce and wild but it was sexy as hell.

I pulled his shirt up and ran my tongue down his chest, he pulled my lips back to his, and things started to get a little to heated, he was in his boxer's and I in my thong and bra, when I pulled back and took a deep breath

"we should wait" I gasped, he just nodded

I climbed off him and walked over to my draws, I got a pair of shorts and a strap top.

His hands wrapped around my waist

"you are the most beautiful women I have ever seen" he whispered in my ear and kissed my neck

I could feel just the kind of effect I have on him, from his member digging into my butt, I laughed

"you're getting a little to excited" I whispered against his lips

he laughed and pushed me against the wall and kissed my breast, he hands explored my body making me moan and my breathing coming in quick short gasps.

I pushed him off me and smiled, he let me get dressed and we walked down for Dinner holding hands.

My family was sitting around the table we joined them and once everyone was finished we went into the living room and I put the movies that I had taken from Lou and the guys, I sat and watched my family, talking and laughing and I couldn't help but smile, I had never ever in my life been this happy, I had the man I loved at my side smiling at me, my parents ,my grandmother and second mother along with my sisters, brother and the kids. My life was good.