Dimitri stood looking at me with nothing but pain and sorrow in his eyes, he gave me a weak smile and pulled me into his arms
"you need food, Roza, come down I made breakfast" he whispered I didn't trust my voice I simply nodded and aloud him to pull me from the room, I had no want for food but he would only worry
"were are the children ?" I muttered
"they are waiting for you, they've missed you babe" he smiled and it was genuine, as soon as we turned the corner into the kitchen I saw my beautiful babies waiting for me
"momma" Lilly smiled and ran to me, she was so like me, curly brown hair down to her waist, chocolate eyes and a cute ass button nose, yet she was calm and patient like Dimitri I smiled and kissed her nose
"hey button" I looked up to see Blake watching me "what no kiss for your mom," I laughed
"always for you momma" he laughed and hugged me, having them with me now is what I needed
I sat down and watched as Dimitri placed a plate of food in front of me, my stomach turned at the sight of it but I forced myself to take a mouthful, chew and swallow, then repeat
mouthful, chew, swallow
mouthful, chew, swallow
mouthful, chew, swallow
After maybe 10 minutes of this I had eaten everything and turned to see Dimitri watching me, he smiled but it didn't quite meet his eyes, his hands intertwined with mine he leaned over and placed a kiss on lips, it was soft and filled with so much love and smiled
"I'm going back upstairs" I muttered and lifted myself out of the chair, I kissed the kids and then headed back up to her, I would sit at her side like I have for the past week trying to guide her back to us
"good morning Yeva" I whispered as I sat back in my chair and took her hand in mine
"wont you wake up soon ? We need you …... I need you, please just wake up Бабушка"
and still no change, she had been like this for 2 weeks now and I new what was coming but I did not want to accept it, I needed her to wake up but she showed no sign of waking up, the rest of the family had accepted it they had all said their goodbyes but I held on, I held onto my hope that she would not leave yet
I lay my head down and felt the tears running down my check, my gasps for breath the only sound in the room, I felt myself slipping out of my body and floating, I new where I was going I didn't need to concentrate any longer I simply went there when I needed to
"hello Rose" Vlad smiled, as I sat in their kitchen
"hi" I sighed and gave him a small smile
"there is still no sign Rose, she is still wandering" he placed his hand on mine, and the tears started running down my check, where she was I couldn't go, I could be here in the world of dead or there in the world of living but Yeva was in neither
"where is Adam and Anna ?" I smiled
"she has taken him to see Sarah Beth, she really enjoys seeing him grown up"
"that's really nice that she is staying in his life …. I mean death …. no, I mean .. I'm confused" I growled at myself, but was shocked to hear Vlad's quite laughter beside me
"you always make me smile Rose, you are my favourite living person" he laughed
"well your one of my favourite dead people" I smiled
"I better be going" I sighed and stood up, Vlad pulled me into his arms and kissed my forehead
"maybe it is time for you to say your goodbyes to Yeva" he whispered I couldn't reply, I didn't know what to say so I simply left
I opened my eyes hoping to be surprised and yet I was again wrong, Yeva still lay unmoving, my hand wrapped in hers and my breathing the sound filling the room
"please Yeva, I need you to wake up you have always been there what will I do without you" I sobbed into the sheet
I I closed my eyes and remember when I had been happy and one of the best times in my life
the entire family had gone camping up the hills, we all sat round a fire, the kids sat melting marshmallows or cooking hot-dogs, I was wrapped in a this wool blanket leaning against Dimitri's chest, never had I been so at peace, I looked around Lilly and Blake were only a year old, Blake was resting against my legs talking to Pot, Lilly was asleep with her head on his legs she looked so peaceful, Yeva and Olena, sat together enjoying the night air and their family being together, Viki and Christian sat playing with Rosalie and Alic, Lisa sat with Eric and Anna-Bell laughing at the faces she was pulling at Leo how was fighting with my dad as my mom laughed, everyone was enjoying this time together and making the most of it
"I love you Roza" Dimitri whispered in my ear
"forever and always Dimitri" I smiled and closed my eyes
I had been so happy, everything had been perfect and in less then two year everything had fallen apart, Viki and Christian were arguing, Lisa had started using more magic so the darkness was back and with revenge, my father had to travel so my mother left with him and Leo but the worst and the thing that was killing me the most was Yeva, she had been getting ill for sometime then two weeks ago she collapsed in the garden and she hasn't woken up since, I know she is not going to I can see it when I look at her and yet I can not let her go
"you have to dear" the whisper came from behind me, my eyes snapped open and I turned to face her, her body shimmering, her voice soft like a whisper and there she stood, my Yeva
"I don't want to" I gasped
"I'm only waiting for you child" she sighed, and I felt guilty but I just couldn't say goodbye to her
"it wont be goodbye for us, my child, you will visit me and I you, when ever you need me" she smiled
"it wont be the same" I muttered and whipped the tear from my check
"different is not always bad Roza, you are my example to that" she gave a soft laugh and smiled
"wont you stay just a little longer, then I will let you go"
"I can not Roza, it is my time, I am ready, Please let me go" she smiled and she was gone, I again was left in this cold room with my silent and unmoving Yeva, I turned to face her and sighed she was right of course, she always was but it didn't make it any less harder to do
I leaned up and kissed her forehead, leaned over to her ear, took a deep breath and said one of the hardest things I would ever say
"goodbye Yeva, rest now and forgive me" my voice broke and tears ran down my face as I listened to the women who had been there for me for the past years and did nothing but help me, the grandmother I never knew I needed but glad I found, she gasped her last breath then she was still forever it was then that I truly broke down and the sobs racked my entire body, Dimitri came running into the room, looked at his grandmother then to me and sighed, his eyes filling with tears as he wrapped me in his arms against his chest
"it's ok Roza" he whispered and simply rocked me back and forth as I continued to cry, trying to release the pain in my chest.
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