I didn't think it was possible to hate myself more but here I stood looking at her and I felt my heart breaking, she should never have been dragged into my world. She looked like she was enjoying the pain I was under and I guess she was, she's not the girl I used to know
I stepped closer and pushed Stan back, he continued to untie people as I stood there facing her so this was it the beginning or the end and I needed to decide which it was going to be, could I really kill her though, could I really kill her like she was some unknown vampire trying to take my life and of those I loved, and then it hit me I could do it to save my 3 reasons for living.
"Hello Lou" I whispered my voice breaking a little
"I have been waiting a long time to see you again Roza" she laughed and walked towards me
"what happened to you ?" I muttered and turned to follow her movements
"you mean after you vanished with nothing but a note, oh a nice vampire came and told me about everything you were hiding from us and he gave me this gift" she waved her hand down her body and smiled, her fangs standing out against her red lips
"I am so sorry" I whispered broken and fell to my knees
"its all your fault Roza, if you had never come into our lives we would have been happy I could have been married with a perfect husband and beautiful children very much like yourself" she teased me
"you leave my family alone" I growled
"what like you left us alone, it is your fault that John and Adam had their throats ripped out that night, why the vampire sat and sucked the blood from their bodies and turned me into this so I could get my revenge"
"you were safer not knowing" I snapped
"safer then what Roza ?" I was standing right in front of me now and her face was right in mine "safer then inviting a strange vampire into our homes and listen as he told us what you really are, what kind of freak we had been living with and thought was our friend"
"and if you had known what would you have done ? There is nothing you could have done"
"we could have turned you away and been safe, they wouldn't have found us and killed us"
"your not dead"
"yes I am I'm a fucking Vampire Roza, the same things we used to laugh about in class and come up with stupid myths and the whole time you knew they were real"
During this time I had been keeping track of Stan he had everyone untied and they were getting out the back door, it seemed the only strigoi were in this room and if they stayed here they could get out safe
"oh we noticed them Roza" Lou laughed from my side
"but a bunch of stupid blood bags are not what we are after let them go, we came here for you"
"why ?"
"I want to watch as the life leaves your eyes just like I did when he killed John and Adam"
"who killed them ?"
"oh you know him, he was after you for a very long time"
"who was it ?" I screamed at her
"Victor" she smirked
"Victor Dashkov ?" I was shocked after all this time he was still hell bent and getting me to help him so much that he would turn a human girl to get at me, she nodded
"He's dead of course, I learned everything I would from him and then killed him along with that fucking idiot brother of his"
"so if he is no longer controlling you why are you here ?"
"I want you"
"why ?"
"because I realised something over the time I spent with Victor, if everybody wanted you so bad there must be a reason" her followers left the room and left only her and I
"I have been watching you for a very long time Roza and I want you to join me"
it was then that it ran through my head 'Join or Die' but I had already chosen my path, I wouldn't allow myself to become a weapon but that means I would need to make peace with never seeing them again
"you have been behind everything haven't you ?" her laughter answered my question
"you see I have met a few very talented Moroi and strigoi over there years and they have wonderful gifts, it was only to easy to have then cast a spell on you and watch as you tore your life apart, blocking those ghost friends of yours was a little harder but still we managed"
"you know I wont join you Lou" I growled and moved back
"then there is only one way this will end" she snapped and got ready to attack me, using my gift I pulled the darkness from her and watched as it shot into her chest knocking her on her ass and I took my chance to run
My breath was coming in sharp pants as I ran through the school, my body began to panic when I saw the strigoi at the gates and surrounding the school, she had everything covered there was no escape, I couldn't fight them all there was over a hundred and she was catching up to me, I was on the top floor and had no more room to run except up …. the roof
I raced up the stairs trying my hardest to get there before she caught me, I wanted a moment to say my goodbyes before I ended it, I kicked the door open and ran out into the cold night air, it nipped at my skin and burned my checks and ears finally my feet stood at the edge and I looked down at the fall before me and gasped in all the time I had been at this school I never knew the school stood this high from the ground. I stood above the open ground nothing lay below me but grass, I didn't have much hope I had given my stake to Stan as I pushed him backwards he would need it, I didn't have anything to use against her, she was strong and I was still weak from the magic used against me, I had pulled the shadows from her before and it had taken so much from me, my eyes scanned the ground below thinking of a way to end this and then I saw it.
It was now that my entire life ran through my mind it has been a none stop up and down battle and from one day to the next I didn't know where I stood. The worst moments of my life like nightmares that never end then there was the highlights, Dimitri, his love, his smile, my family, each and everyone of them, my children my little miracles, my ability to save people etc. standing here now if I had to choice I don't think I would change my life, without the bad I wouldn't have found the good and be willing to end my life to spare theirs
"not thinking of jumping are you Roza ?" Lou's voice shocked me I hadn't heard her come out onto the roof I turned so I could face her
"not yet some things I need to finish before I finally take the jump" I smiled
"still the same Roza" she laughed moving closer
"answer me Lou is this what you have really turned into ?"
"of course this is what I turned into I am a VAMPIRE Roza what do you want me to be ?"
"I don't know I guess you would still remember who you where" I muttered looking down at her feet, she had moved closer to me and was moving to my right but I had been watching and hoping for this
"You did this to me Roza, you made all this happen"
"how ? By wanting a normal life, wanting friends" that stopped her and she looked at my face
"you have friends Roza, if I remember the Princess Lisa is your best friend"
"You remember the girl I told you about the one who betrayed me ?" she nodded and then it finally hit her
"she was Lissa" she whispered more to herself than me, there was a silence between us before she spoke again
"it wont change nothing Roza, you have a choice take my hand or die"
"you know what my answer will be Lou" I sighed
"then you know what will happen" she whispered before jumping at me, I grabbed her wrist and pulled her closer to me, we now stood at the edge of the roof her locked in my arms, she tried to pull away with everything she had but that made me tighten my grip, I looked into her blood red eyes and a tear ran from mine
"I am so sorry Lou" I leaned forward and kissed her check it was impulse not thought out but I did it anyway "I can set you free" I whispered and pulled her with me as I fell, she tried to get me to loosen my grip but I held closer and turned us so I now rested on her, as we fell I watched as my memories of her flashed through my mind the times we spend in our flat watching movies and laughing together, our nights out with the boys and our conversations in class, I truly believed her to be my friend and I had destroyed her in more ways than one and now I was about to destroy her one last time, the closer we came to the ground I saw the silver that was about to aid me, I had saw it when I stood on the ledge thinking of home and it was this that gave me the courage to fall, it would make sure I was not used by Lou and that she could rest
I took one last look at her before we crashed to the ground I gasped as the cold hit me but my eyes never left Lou's she was watching me, when she finally realised what had happened many emotions crossed her face but the finale one to linger was peace, a small smile crossed her lips as she took her last breath "thank you Roza" her voice was weak and quiet but I heard it she was still there, the sweet girl I had met on my first day of class, the girl who dressed like she pleased and spoke her mind, the girl who grew up in a small town with her parents and younger siblings, the girl who loved myths and stories, the girl I had just killed.
I waited till she was gone before I pulled myself off her, I screamed as the silver stake that had pierced her heart pulled its way out my chest, double staking, I knew it would happen and it was a price I knew I would pay, I fell back when I was finally free and looked up at the night sky. I could feel the numb tingle start and knew I didn't have long.
So peaceful tonight, nothing but endless darkness a lit with the bright little stars, so much beauty in this world not many take the time to see it I would do it every night with Yeva yet I longed that I had done it more my eyes closed as a smiled smiled bless my lips perhaps for the last time Funny the little things you think of in your last moments alive.
"we're here my Angel" The voice I had missed so much whispered to me, she was here, she was finally here the moment I needed her she came, it took all my strength to open my eyes and look at her she leaned over me a smiled on her face, I looked around me to see Mason, Anna and Vlad had come also
"home ?" I gasped between the pain, they must have known what I ment as they turned to Vlad he looked down at me and nodded
"everything is going to be fine, little one" he smiled and his hand hovered above mine, in a sign of comfort, I didn't have the energy to nod I simply closed my eyes and took my last breath, I was ready they were safe and I would forever watch over them
The darkness came over me like a light sheet covering my body, the pain stopped
And I felt Free !