A/N Another update! Let me know what you think.
My breaths are controlled as I breathed out through my nose and stared straight ahead at the mirror wall. Now that I'm able to leave the confinement of my room, I'd started to feel a bit better. The distinct beep of the machine rung out and I slowed my pace before stopping. My six miles for the day are done. Getting off, the Soldier held out a metal water bottle. Taking a few mouthfuls he stood with his arms crossed over his toned chest.
"I didn't tell you earlier, but you'll be moving into you own room"
"How come?" I asked as I followed him out of the training room and down the corridor.
"Steve thinks that you've adjusted enough and you should be allowed your own quarters. Of course you'll be monitored, but it's better than having to be in the medical ward" he replied while turning down a hallway I'm unfamiliar with.
Following along, we entered a quieter area of the building. Stopping, the Soldier pulled out a key card and swiped it down a panel next to the door. Stepping inside he flipped a switch and the lights came on "This is where you'll be from now on" he said while I glanced over my new residence. The room is a decent size with plain walls and carpet. There's a single bed and study area along with a small adjoining bathroom.
"Thank you" I muttered to the Soldier.
He nodded in return before holding out the key card "Here, and try not to lose it" taking the peace of plastic, I clutched it tight and moved over to the neatly made bed. There isn't much but a few necessary things. I don't mind. It's more than I've ever had. The Soldier walked out of the room "I'll wait outside"
"Alright"
Waiting until the door had closed, I sifted through the bag that had placed on the bed. Grabbing a few clothing items, I took a quick warm shower to get clean before I went for my lessons with Wanda. Since my first outing to the training room almost three weeks ago, I've slowly had more things added to my daily schedule to help keep me busy.
After doing my usual training, the Soldier would wait until I've showered and then take me to my education lessons. Wanda had offered to help teach me about what's happened during the last sixty-three years. Some of the things are interesting, although it's only basic knowledge and not anything too in-depth.
After dressing, the Solider took me up another level before dropping me off at the door. Sitting on two soft chairs, we faced each other as we read the same book "November twenty-two, nineteen sixty-three, the president of the united states John Kennedy" Wanda paused to look at me "Katya? Are you listening?"
My mind had wandered. I've been here for an hour reading the same book I'd already read in advance last night. I didn't want to tell Wanda that I already knew all of this. I know she's trying her hardest to help me "That man your always with, who is he?" I asked with a soft tone as to not make it sound as if I were demanding personal information.
I don't know what it is, but for some reason I can't get my mind off the couple. I know they like each other, maybe even love, as some would describe it. But I've never seen two people react like to each other. I've never seen two people hold hands and smile in an indescribable way. It's sparked my interest.
"His name is Vision" she replied. I could see that look in her eye. Pupils dilating a little and glistening with a shine.
"And he isn't human?"
"No, he's not. But he's more human than you might think" Wanda replied "Despite what they all might say, he understands me. Vision doesn't look at me as if I'm an explosion ready to go off at any moment. He doesn't try to supress me or my gifts because he knows there a part of me, and there's nothing anyone can do to change that"
I understood and I know the subjects a sensitive one for her by the way she looks away and plays with her fingernails. Although my olds self isn't usually in touch with people's emotional sensitivity, I now know that I shouldn't go any further. Continuing with our lesson, it was nearing two hours when a knock sounded on the door.
"Come in" answered Wanda. I thought it might have been the Soldier, but instead it's Steve.
"How's the lesson going? Learn anything useful?" he asked while giving us a white toothed smile.
"We've just finished the long lecture of John Kennedy" replied Wanda replied. Closing my book, I'm still unsure about the blonde man that stood by the door. It's isn't that he's done anything wrong, I'm just cautious "And what do we owe the pleasure? We still have a few minutes left" she joked.
Steve apologised "Sorry to cut things short, but the doctor needs to give Katya a check-up" he replied before looking toward me. I nodded my head and handed Wanda the text book before getting up from my seat.
"Thank you for the lesson" I said to Wanda.
"Not a problem" she replied with another smile.
Heading out the door, I walked alongside Steve as we made our way to the medical bay. I didn't make an effort to start a conversation. I didn't have anything I really want to say to him "How are things going for you here?" he asked.
"It's comfortable" I replied. Steve cleared his throat a moment later and didn't ask anything else as we arrived to our destination.
Half an hour had passed until the doctor left with his fresh blood sample. Rolling my sleeves down, the Soldier walked over to me from the door way "There you are. Wanda said you went for a check-up. Are you all done?"
Nodding my head, I followed the Soldier as we made our way to the cafeteria. Turning here and there, I eventually asked "Why is your friend trying so hard?"
"Because he cares about you" he replied. I didn't understand why. I don't know Steve and he doesn't know me. As far as I'm concerned, the only reason I speak with him is because he's old friend with the Soldier.
"He's your friend, that doesn't make him mine. I don't understand why someone would go through the trouble when we barely know each other. I have enough people helping me as it is. Do they think I can't take care of myself?"
The Soldier shook his head "No one said that" he replied "Me and Steve, we come from a different time. In our old lives the morals of our world were different. You have to realise that just because the everything around us has changed, it doesn't always mean where the same"
"Haven't you changed?" I questioned as we stopped in the middle of the hallway "Wanda told me the reason you're here. Your friend might think he's the saviour in the equation. He thinks he's helping those around him. Look at where you are" I said with a gesture "You're hiding away because of the decisions he's made. The people need to realise that their Captain America isn't the hero the world thinks he is"
The Soldier took a step toward me "Steve has done nothing but protect us. We all wouldn't be here if it weren't for the things he's done"
"Your right" I agreed "Your all here because of the things he's done. Fixing the problem doesn't count if you're the one who caused it in the first place"
Giving the Soldier one last look I turned the way we came. I very rarely go to the cafeteria as the some of the others don't particularly agree with my being here; even if they don't physically voice it. I felt a warm hand grab a hold of my arm "Where are you going?" asked the Soldier.
"Back to my room. I don't want to make anyone uncomfortable"
"You can't keep confining yourself. If you make the effort I'm sure they'll do the same" said the Soldier. I sighed as his light grip didn't falter. Turning around, he let go of my arm and we made our way to the cafeteria.
Entering inside, there's hardly anyone but a large group of familiar faces down the back end. As we approached a dark skinned man with no hair spoke up before taking a sip of water from his cup "I didn't realise we were having extra company"
Wanda gave the man a look before speaking "I don't believe you three have officially met. Katya, this is Sam Wilson and Scott Lang" she referred to both the men who sat side by side. The man named Scott didn't make eye contact, and the other didn't look away "Come sit with me" spoke Wanda.
I contemplated the situation. I think it would be best if I left and ate in my room like I usually do. Suddenly I felt a solid presence behind me and I knew it's the Soldier. Keeping in a sigh, I went and sat next to the brunette woman as she gave me a tray of food. I'm still getting used to the change in sustenance.
Looking to see the Soldier sitting beside Steve at one end of the table, a complete silence had washed over us "So, did anyone see the game last night" asked Scott, clearly trying to defuse the tense situation.
"You know, I'm starting to think you two are related" spoke Sam as he gestured to me and the Soldier, although his muddy brown eyes never left my face "You both just sit there like a bunch of robots" he spoke with an unfriendly tone. I know his real quarrel isn't with the Soldier, it's with me.
I leant back a little, my posture correcting as I glared "Sam, just let it go" said Steve with a hushed tone.
"Let what go Steve?" the man asked mockingly "The fact that you think it's perfectly okay for a cold blooded killer to walk around without supervision?"
Steve shook his head "You know that's not true. Bucky's always with her wherever she goes"
"Oh, you think that makes me sleep any better at night?" Sam spoke sarcastically "Well, let's not forget she sleeps right next to us too"
Scott snapped his head up "She does?"
Ignoring him, I sat collected although angry at the man who's against me. Getting up from my seat, I watched as Wanda went to say something, but I couldn't as I'd already left. Striding down the hallway I didn't get very far when a hand pulled me back "Katya, stop. He didn't mean it" spoke the Soldier as I hurled around to punch him in the face.
He grabbed my fist before it could make contact "Not everyone's going to understand you like I do. They don't know what's it's like to be us, not even Steve. I can't help you if you're always trying to run away" he let go of me "If you want to leave, I won't stop you. But once you're gone that's it – you're on your own"
How could he say that to me?
"You have no idea what it's like to be me" I spoke with a venom in my voice "You might have done Hydra's dirty work when they need you, but at least you know who you are. All I have is what they taught me. What they drilled into my mind and body. Now look at me. What do I have to show for it? I wake up in a strange place with nothing but your word that everyone I knew is dead. That the man who raised me from a child is dead. That he put me to sleep for sixty-three years only to leave me with nothing but you" I shoved the Soldiers chest "I would give anything to know what it felt like to have a mother and father. To know what it feels like to have ever been held or – loved"
The Soldier nodded his head "Fine. I might have known what it felt like to have all those things, but now I know what it feels like to have it all taken away from me. The friends, the family and the woman I loved – they lived their lives and died and I wasn't there. Sometimes it better to have nothing than something"
The Soldier gave me one last look and left.