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Beckett bit the bottom of her lip she could feel and see the desire in his eyes "Kate, I…" before he could even finish what he was going to say Beckett grabbed Castle by the collar and before he knew it she was kissing him he was stunned at first but as soon as he registered what Beckett was doing he responded by moving one of his arms around her waist and resting his other arm behind her neck, she ran her fingers through his hair feeling the softness she had always wondered how it felt and now she knew. Beckett was hinting to Castle to open his mouth to let her enter he slowly opened his mouth for her as they both did a little dance with their tongues. Beckett felt Castle pulling back she assumed for air as he rested his head on top of hers their lips were barely touching now "Kate wait…" he whispered she could hear a panic in his voice "I… I need you to know that this… us… means a lot more to me then you may think" Castle lifted for a moment Beckett sat up a little looking Castle in the eyes, she needed to tell him the truth.
"Rick… I… I… I remember" she stuttered as her vision was blurred by her tears, she needed to explain herself "What… what do you mean Kate, remember what?..." Beckett sat up and placed her feet underneath her as she intertwined her fingers with his. "Rick when I was shot" she looked up at the ceiling biting on her bottom lip trying so hard to hold back the tears. "I remember everything Rick…." Castle glanced down and whispered "everything?" he tried to unlace his fingers with hers but she stopped him "please listen Rick…"
She waited for him to responded but he just stared at her "I was so scared Rick, so scared I can't imagine how it was for you when you told me you loved me I was scared you were only saying that because I was dying. I was scared that if I had told you the truth that you… that I would screw this up" she placed one of her hands on his cheek as she leant into rest her forehead onto his "I don't expect you to ever forgive me Rick, but I just hope you will still have me in your life because you are so important to me I can't lose you and I am so sorry I was just scared that if I told you that I heard and I also love you that I would lose you that someone would take you from me, I can't lose you not like that it took all my strength to survive losing my mother let alone you".
Beckett pulled back to look into his eyes he placed his hand on her hand that was still placed on his cheek "Kate, listen to me I know how hard this is for you, for you to open up but I need you to understand that no one nothing can take me from you, don't get me wrong I am upset that you lied to me but I understand I just wished you would have told me sooner so we didn't, couldn't do this" he wiped the tears from her eyes with his thumb "I love you Kate" Beckett smiled up at Castle "I love you to Rick, thank you for everything for helping me for not hiding from me".
Castle breathed in she was being honest and now it was his turn, "Kate, I haven't been completely honest, I need you to listen to me okay I need you to let me explain and remember that I love you so much that I would do anything to protect you". Beckett looked up her eyebrows furrowed "anything Rick".
Castle breathed in "after you were shot, Montgomery had sent a man some files that I assume is some type of blackmail used against the person responsible for your mothers murder and your shooting. This… this man he umm he called me one night to tell that I needed you to stop, to stop searching for your mothers killer, he told me that if I didn't then they would kill you Kate". She pulled back she couldn't believe it this was her mothers case it meant everything to her, and he kept it "what are you talking about, Rick no… your… your not apart, a part of this are you?" Beckett just couldn't contain her tears now
"No, no please believe me I had no partnership in this Kate, he called me but I needed you to stop and to tell you the truth I would have done it if it was a different circumstance because Kate I can't lose you ever." Beckett looked up at Castle she breathed in and nodded "I'm tired Castle I'm going to bed" Castle tried to stop her "wait Kate please" she turned to see him "no Rick I just need some time" she practically ran as she left for her room Castle noticed a piece of paper on the sofa as he picked it up and unfolded it he read the following line Richard Alexander Castle,
Oooohhhh haven't done a cliffhanger yet, until now...