"Three years…" Kaidan thought aloud, it had been that long since Shepard had sacrificed herself to synthesize Organic and Synthetic D.N.A. Was it a dream? Did it all happen only in his subconscious, and he was simply on the verge of waking? No, the solemn truth was that Shepard was gone forever; and he was left alone. "Dammit!" he screamed as he angrily punched the wall facing him, if only he were stronger, if only he could hold her one last time before she ran head-long into the Citadel. Losing Anderson was enough, but this was the kind of grief that only one who's lost a soul-mate can understand. Just as he had resolved to start over again today, and 'start over' meaning: leaving his room, eating breakfast and trying to forget the fact that his Commander was not the only casualty suffered, but the only one on his squad that died.
As Kaidan sat on the couch he sighed softly, before lying down and looking directly at the ceiling. Even in the future, a house still had optional 'popcorn' ceilings simply for ascetics. There in his family home in Vancouver, he lay daydreaming about his past. He thought of how his grandfather taught him about his family history, they weren't always a part of the United North American States. No apparently, during the 21st century Vancouver was part of a country known as Canada "The Great White North". As he thought he began to smile as he remembered other fond memories: Like when he had trapped his sister in one of the guest room closets and only let her out when she paid him 5 candy canes. That was the same day that the men from Jump Zero arrived to haul him off to BAat training.
Kaidan soon found himself sinking into depression as it seemed that every thought he had was of the negative things in his life. He, who had tried so hard to be the positive person for Shepard, and others to lean on during their mission against Sarren and the geth, was now tormented by thoughts of despair and melancholy. Before he could let out another sigh a voice mail was received "Hello?" the familiar voice of a Quarian rang, "Kaidan, I know you're there. Please pick up." The clearly feminine voice pleaded. It was of course, Tali'Zorah; she had been checking up on Kaidan ever since he had returned home from the hospital.
Why she took an interest in him at all was beyond him, because even though he wasn't cruel towards her, he was never particularly friendly towards her either. With a grunt Kaidan lifted his arm and activated his Omni-tool "Not now Tali." He said with ominous inflection in his tone. Silence, now entered the room again and for a second he almost thought that she was gone "Kaidan you should talk about this, I'm coming over." She retorted before he could disconnect the line. He didn't respond, ever since Shepard died the whole crew just kind of dispersed again but Tali stayed in contact with Kaidan, maybe as a way to help him cope.