A/N: And here we go! remember to review so I know if I should continue because I have a few ideas for this story thinking of doing about 15 chapters...

He knew that he shouldn't be reading this clearly if Beckett wanted him to read it then she would have given it to him but after what they had both revealed to one another he needed to know what it said. After he read the letter he realized that he couldn't lose her no matter what this right here in this letter that Beckett had written he knew right then that this was not worth losing he would not lose her. He quickly got up and walked over to Beckett's door, he could hear a feint sound coming from her room "KATE?" she didn't answer "please, Kate" when she didn't answer again he opened her door he noticed that her en suite bathroom light was on he raced in to find her curled up in the corner her head placed in her knees she was crying this killed Castle he hated that he did this to her. He walked over to Kate he needed to know if what was on this paper wasn't a joke "Kate, I am so sorry you need to know I know it looks like I went behind your back but I did this to protect you that's all I just can't lose you Kate".

Beckett looked up wiping the tears from her eyes "they could have killed you Rick, this… this case is mine what if they killed you what about Alexis, Martha… me I… I what was I suppose to tell them that you got yourself killed for me? No Rick that's not fair this… this isn't your case you are not risking your life for my case". Castle leaned down and leant against the wall next to Beckett, he placed his hand on top of hers, "I told you I would do anything to protect you that's what I do, now it might sound stupid and delusional but I will do anything to protect the ones I love, anything" Beckett looked up at him "you need to stop Rick, please don't just think about me think about your daughter and your mother please." Castle breathed in before he answered "only if you promise you will stay away from this case please Kate if you back down I will too" Beckett just nodded as she got up "I… I just need to get some fresh air okay".

Beckett stood up before Castle could reach the door of the bathroom Beckett was gone he heard the door slam he quickly grabbed his cell phone and made sure he had the note, he raced out of their hotel room he knew that if he waited for the elevator he would lose her. He chose the stairs he ran so fast down the 30 flights of stairs cursing to himself he couldn't believe he didn't know Beckett felt this was for him, he made it to the end and as he opened the door he saw Beckett walking out of the hotel "KATE!" he was now running after her she must not have heard him as he opened the hotel entrance door she was just about to turn the corner when he called out to her again "KATE WAIT!" she turned around on her heel "WHAT?".

As Castle walked towards her he started talking "Did you mean it?" he stopped halfway to her "mean what Castle?" she wasn't in the mood for jokes she was a mess and she soon realised she was still in her jumper and trackies, "the letter Kate…" she reached for her pocket all she could think was crap "the.. the letter Castle you.. you weren't suppose to read that how?..." Castle shook his head as he walked closer to her "that doesn't matter I need to know though do you really feel this way about us? What you wrote did…. Is this how you truly feel is this us" he indicate between the two coincidentally pointing to both of their hearts "because what you wrote is what I have always wanted with you Kate always, please I just need to know…"

Beckett was crying again as she took a step closer "Castle I meant everything I wrote there's not a word, in there that I lied about I just didn't think you still felt that way". Castle walked all the way to Kate he grabbed her by the small of her back "Kate I love you I always have and whether you liked it or not we're going to be together I at least…" before he could finish Beckett stopped him "shut up and kiss me Rick" he didn't need to think twice he pulled her into his embrace this time their kiss was more tender then steamy, Beckett had never felt this not with anyone she knew this was it that Rick was her one and done. They soon broke as they both needed air, Castle rested his forehead on Becketts "I love you Kate, please promise me you won't chase after this case anymore because after reading that letter there is no way I can lose you not now not when I know, that this us that you feel exactly the way I feel. Because I love you so much and I want to be able to wake up every morning for the rest of our lives together promise me Kate". He wiped the tear from her cheek as he slowly traced over her lip with his thumb "promise Kate" Beckett slowly nodded she placed her hand on Castles cheek "I promise Rick but you need to stop too, because I want all of it with you and I'm so sorry that I lied and waited this long to tell you because what you just said about us waking up together every morning I need that I want that with you and only you I love you Rick". Castle laced his fingers with Becketts "come on Kate let's go back inside" she smiled biting the bottom of her lip as she rested her head against his shoulder as they made their way back to the hotel room where they planned to never forget this night where they finally become one and beat the odds.