I feel so bad about not updating is absolute ages! And since it's almost Christmas I will update soon another soon after this one. I won't update a chapter on Christmas cuz well... It would be Christmas!

Thanks to y'all who are still reading this and being real patient with me. Much love to y'all! xx

Alright now, this chapter may be full of questions. The chapter with all the answers is gonna be hard to write since I keep adding more and more questions to this lil 'ol story.

Read on y'all! And an early:

Maligayang Pasko!

I slowly let out the breath I was holding when he tightly hugged me. I threw my arms around him and squeezed tighter.

"Come on Kim, I'll help you through this" I jerk away from his grasp. Does he really think I'm that weak?!

"I don't need help" I state, crossing my arms "I've already decided that he is no longer my brother"

"Isn't that a little harsh? Everyone deserves a second chance"

"Everyone except AJ" I tell him and walk off.

I'm lying on my bed, in my room, staring at the ceiling. How dare he?! I'm not weak! I can take care of myself! Why can't he understand my choice? I bet he would do the same thing.

As all the questions filled my mind, I slowly lulled myself to sleep.

I slowly bend down and sniff the flower. It's amazing at how something so delicate and beautiful can be so deadly and poisonous. I caress the petals with my hand, being careful not to touch any of the poison.

"Where is she?" I hear someone ask. I look up and see three figures. "She didn't want to come, I'm sorry" one replies. The first one sighed and put his head in his hands. "I need to tell her, she needs to know"

I'm instantly confused. Who is 'she'? What does this girl have to know that could make someone so upset?

"You should know" I hear a voice behind me say. I look up and see 'dream boy'. "Careful with that flower," he points out "It's a deadly beauty. Kinda like you." I stiffen. I look up to face him but he's gone.

"Are you sure you don't want to come? He is your brother." Cole asked as he put his coat on. I nodded my head. "I'm sure. Anyway AJ is NOT my brother" Cole sighed.

"No matter what you say or decide kiddo, he's still your brother"

"I wish he wasn't." I mutter

"You don't mean that"

"Yes I actually do" Cole shook his head and grabbed his car keys. "JEFF!" He yells, "We're going! Come on!" Jeff then comes thundering down the stairs and stands in front of Cole, his messy, brown hair, sticking out everywhere. Jeff kisses my forehead and bolts out the door.

"Remember kiddo," Cole says as he hugs me bye, "He's your brother no matter what and you know that deep down inside your heart, you want him back" I stiffen as Cole's words hit me like a ton of bricks. He ruffles my hair and he clicks the door shut.

"Yeah right," I mutter, "I would never want him ba-" I never got to finish my sentence as I broke into a sob. "I miss the old AJ" I whisper. I roughly wipe away the tears and gather myself up. This time HAS to be the last time he makes me cry. It WILL be the last time.

As my eyes catch the picture on the windowsill, I break a little. It was taken 3 years ago, my brothers and I were so happy. Cole was tackling Jeff and I was riding a piggyback from AJ. I could feel a lump growing in my throat. I cough and turn the picture down so I wouldn't have to see it anymore. I won't cry no more, I've had enough of the tears and feeling weak.

I grab my coat and keys and walk out the door. If I'm gonna forget him, then the first step is to get as far away from all the memories as possible. I decide to go to the one place that AJ and I never went to.

The old, abandoned house.