This chapter – Severus's POV
I am afraid. Of myself. I used to respect him, I wanted his attention, really enjoyed our talks over the glass of wine. And now he is here again. Beautiful, powerful and wanting my help to change wizarding world.
When I went to my Hogsmeade house he was there, behind my desk writing letters. House elves aren't scared of him and I am afraid again – what do you want, from the future, from me?
He lifted head and smiled. – Come in Severus, welcome home, dinner is ready. ,, He sounds like my wife... husband".
We ate dinner then without words went near fireplace for a glass of red wine. I took a sip and looked at him. Drink stilled in my throat because he looked at me so intensively, with passion. He took a step closer to the sofa where I sat.
-Thank you for letting me in. He said quietly. I nodded and stood up and took a step near him. We stood silently, both thinking what to do now, where this is going.
-I know you are very careful person so I don't want to scare you. But I want you to know that I like your companionship very much, in fact I love when you are with me, Severus.
We both stood there waiting. I took a step and now we stood only inches apart. He took my hands and intertwined our fingers. We smiled a little and I put my forehead to his. This felt good, we were shy like a schoolboys but moved on nevertheless. He angled his head and his lips touched mine. We both moaned and kissed each other again.
Wow. In past, after our drinking hours I wondered what his lips would feel like. Now I know – they are warm. And gentle. They don't hurry and savour my lips throughoutly. I untangle our fingers and lift them to Tom's nape, black hair. He starts fondling my back. We kiss several minutes then pull back and touch our foreheads.
-I really wanted this, Severus. You are wonderful. - Whispered he. He still fondles my back and I sign unwillingly.
-Yes, Tom.
Following days moved similarly. We have breakfast, he kisses me ,,have a good day", I return from Hogwarts, we have dinner, then sit in living room and drink, talk, kiss.
Now I understand him much better, trust him, and our kisses, caresses really make my heart beat faster. At school I feel several pair of eyes following me. Dumbledore, McGonagall, Potter notice that I have changed. I am calmer, don't insult students as much as before and start eating more. I don't tell anything but can feel Dumbledore's annoying twinkling eyes.