Disclaimer: I own none of these characters; all belong to Shonda Rhimes. Any resemblance to the show is simply borrowed.
A/N: Little bit of a longer one for ya...enjoy!
Chapter 14:
Callie woke up in the middle of the night to a soft crying coming from upstairs. Figuring it was one of the kids, she trudged upstairs to see what was happening. As she got closer to their doors though, she realized the noise was coming from down the hall in her room. This woke her up a little more as she quickened her pace.
"Arizona?" she called softly stepping into the room.
Arizona was squirming in the bed as soft whimpers escaped from her. Callie slowly moved closer, realizing Arizona was dreaming.
"Tim!" Arizona suddenly cried out, and her voice grew louder with each plea of her brother's name. She was sitting up now and flailing her arms around wildly as tears poured down her cheeks.
Callie quickly made her way onto the bed and gripped Arizona's wrists to stop her movements. "Arizona!" she called out over Arizona's cries, "Arizona, wake up! Wake up!"
Arizona continued to thrash as Callie attempted to hold her in place. "Come on, Arizona," Callie plead softer this time, just wanting the poor girl to wake up from her nightmare.
Arizona's eyes suddenly flew open, as she looked around wildly, taking in her surroundings. Her movements ceased, but the tears still stung her eyes. She noticed the grip Callie had on her wrists, and realization dawned on her. It was just a dream. A horrible dream. Tears of relief, grief, and despair began quickly falling again as she fell into Callie's welcoming embrace, burying her head in the crook of Callie's neck. Callie kept her arms tightly wound around Arizona as she stroked her back up and down and whispered soothing words in Arizona's ear.
After a few minutes, Arizona's soft cries had turned to sniffles. Callie took deep breaths with Arizona, attempting to calm her down. She could feel Arizona's shuddering breath against her chest. Gently and slowly, she moved them both to lay down, still holding Arizona in her arms.
"What are you doing?" Arizona rasped out.
"What does it look like I'm doing?" Callie said softly, "I'm holding you."
"But-the kids, they could come in," Arizona mentioned quietly.
"So, they come in," Callie whispered, "I don't care. I'm not letting you go tonight."
Arizona swallowed back her tears and whispered, "Thank you..."
Callie wiped the hair out of Arizona's face as she held her cheek and kissed her softly. They snuggled closer as sleep soon overcame them.
Arizona woke up in the morning, her leg and one arm haphazardly thrown over Callie. She looked up at the woman in her arms and smiled softly. She was snoring lightly and it had to be the most adorable thing Arizona had ever seen. She placed a soft kiss on the cheek of the woman she loved. Yes, the woman she loved. She knew it with every fiber of her being, she could feel it, how much she loved the girl in her arms. She swore she could feel that love being reciprocated daily, and especially last night with the way Callie just held Arizona. Callie's strong embrace, yet the gentle and sweet way Callie stroked her and looked at her made Arizona's heart melt. She wanted to just wake Callie up and tell her, right then and there, just how much she loved her. But Callie started stirring slightly and groaning lightly, stopping Arizona from doing anything.
Arizona watched in awe at the beautiful woman asleep before her, completely unaware of her onlooker.
A slow smile appeared on Callie's face as she began moaning, and Arizona's eyes went wide with realization.
Callie's back arched slightly and her breathing quickened. "Arizona..." she moaned quietly.
Arizona clamped her hand over her mouth to keep from giggling, but to no avail. This was wrong. She shouldn't be watching and enjoying Callie's private, intimate dream, even if it was about her. Oh to hell with it, she was loving every second.
Callie's eyes suddenly snapped open as she clutched the covers and looked over at a smirking Arizona. Oh god. Why is she looking at me like that...
"So..." Arizona started, "Sleep well?"
Callie nodded and cleared her throat, "Uh, yeah."
"I bet you did," Arizona said lowering her voice.
"What?" Callie said feigning innocence, "I have no idea what you're talking about."
"Oh, so that wasn't you pleading my name?" Arizona asked innocently and lightly traced circles on Callie's arm.
Callie's face turned bright red as she pulled the covers up over her head in embarrassment. Humiliated. She felt humiliated. She felt like a stupid, horny teenager. She prayed Arizona couldn't smell her arousal.
Arizona laughed and attempted to pull the covers back down. "Oh, come on, Calliope, don't be embarrassed."
"I'm not embarrassed," Callie's voice was muffled by the covers, "I'm just cold."
Arizona pursed her lips and said, "See, and I'd say you're the exact opposite of cold right now." She giggled quietly.
Callie kicked Arizona lightly from under the covers and muttered, "You're mean."
"Okay, I'm sorry," Arizona said, her laughter dying down, "But seriously, you think it hasn't happened to me before?"
Callie's eyes poked out from under the covers as she looked at Arizona. "Really?" she asked.
Arizona bit her lower lip slightly and said, "Oh, all the time." Her eyes bored into Callie's.
Callie lowered the rest of the covers and muttered, "That makes me feel a little better."
"Seriously," Arizona said trying to help, "Cold showers have become my specialty."
Callie laughed lightly and tried to erase the image of Arizona showering from her already-turned-on brain. They kissed softly as Arizona hovered over Callie.
"So..." Arizona trailed off, "Wanna tell me about this dream?" There was a hint of mischief in Arizona's eyes.
Callie gulped. "I uh-I'm not so sure that's a good idea."
"Come on Calliope," Arizona said wiping the hair from Callie's face and gently lowering herself onto Callie. "What was I doing to you?" Arizona whispered in her ear. She knew they were treading dangerous waters, but she couldn't seem to help herself.
Callie let out a shuddering breath as she wiggled slightly under Arizona. "Well, uh, you were kind of...like this. On me," Callie struggled to get out.
"Mhmm," Arizona mumbled her fingers lightly dancing over Callie's skin, anywhere she could find.
"And-and then you kissed me," Callie groaned before Arizona plunged her tongue immediately into Callie's awaiting mouth. Before Callie knew what was happening, those heavenly lips were gone.
"What next?" Arizona whispered, her breath tickling Callie's face as her eyes roamed. Arizona slowly raised Callie's hands above her head, holding them tightly so that they couldn't move. She was straddling Callie's stomach, her back slightly arched so that her heaving breasts where directly in front of Callie's face as she looked down on Callie with blonde locks cascading around them.
Callie simply moaned at the sight she was welcomed with and the way Arizona's hair lightly tickled her face. "Um, you-uh...kissed me. More," Callie managed to get out.
Arizona slowly, tortuously made her way down Callie's exposed neck, sucking and nipping at the skin she found there. "Like this?" Arizona mumbled against Callie's skin.
Callie felt like her skin was on fire. Everywhere Arizona touched was ignited.
Arizona's right hand left Callie's wrists above her head to make her way down Callie's body, but her left hand still held Callie's wrists in place. Arizona's hand made its way down into Callie's boxers as she toyed with the elastic band on Callie's hip.
Callie arched slightly, needing more contact with the woman. Every time she tried to move her hands, she felt Arizona's grip get tighter, not letting them go.
"You have a...surprisingly strong hand," Callie groaned.
Arizona hummed happily against Callie's skin and gently moved her hand toying with Callie's waistband over more to the front, lightly grazing the skin just above where Callie needed her most. "My right hand is even stronger," Arizona rasped out smirking.
Callie moaned even more and arched into Arizona, feeling wetter by the second. "Please Arizona," she breathed out, "let me feel you. I need to feel you."
Arizona didn't need to be asked twice. She released Callie's hands completely and lost herself in a deep kiss as Callie's own hands roamed her body.
"You think I haven't dreamed about this too?" Arizona rasped out her face hovering over Callie, "What it would be like to feel every inch of you? To taste you?"
Arizona realized this was getting out of hand, but everything within her just begged to be fully touched by Callie.
Callie's eyes snapped shut and she bit her lip to stifle any louder moans aching to be released. Arizona seemed to have 10 hands. Callie could feel her everywhere, except for the places she yearned for her most.
Callie felt Arizona's hands stop, and when her eyes snapped open, Arizona was straddling her, looking at her with a smirk.
Callie glared at her and cleared her throat saying, "You know, in my dream you weren't this evil."
"I have no idea what you're talking about," Arizona said innocently tilting her head, but her eyes said something entirely different.
"Oh really?" Callie said rubbing her hands up and down Arizona's exposed thighs, "You kind of got straight to the point in my dream, if you know what I mean."
"I was just making your dream better," Arizona stated with a nod of her head.
"Oh, you're feeling pretty proud of yourself right about now aren't you?" Callie said chuckling.
Arizona shrugged and replied, "Yeah."
"Oh, okay," Callie said, then quickly flipped Arizona off of her and began tickling her senseless, "How about now?"
Arizona laughed hysterically under Callie's touch and responded between gasps, "Yes!"
Callie kept tickling her, laughing at Arizona's expense. They both laughed into a gentle, lingering kiss.
"Mommy!" Allegra called from outside.
They paused mid-kiss, Callie groaning slightly. "You know," she started, "I've never been too annoyed with my children, but you spend one night here and they're the biggest pain in my ass."
"Very cute ass," Arizona smiling up at her.
Callie rolled off her and called out to Allegra, "Come in, sweetie!"
"Wait, don't you want me to go?" Arizona asked looking panicked.
"No," Callie said honestly, "she's going to have to get used to you being in my bed." She smirked slightly as Arizona lightly kissed her cheek.
Allegra ran in and said, "Arizona! You're still here!" She jumped onto the bed in between the two and hugged Arizona.
"What am I, chop liver?" Callie asked feigning hurt.
Allegra turned around and kissed her mother's cheek saying, "Morning, mommy."
"Morning, babygirl," Callie said with a smile.
"Mommy, can Arizona stay for breakfast too?" Allegra asked wide-eyed.
"That's up to Arizona," Callie said glancing over at the woman.
Arizona feigned thought and replied, "I guess I could stay, but only if there's pancakes."
"Ooh, yeah, mommy can you make pancakes?" Allegra said bouncing slightly and clapping her hands.
"Yeah, please, mommy," Arizona said sitting up next to Allegra, both looking at Callie with puppy dog eyes and a pout.
Callie rolled her eyes and responded, "You two with the freakin faces, yes I can make pancakes."
Arizona and Allegra high-fived laughing.
"Allegra, you go get set up and we'll be there in a minute," Callie told her.
Arizona turned to look at Callie once Allegra left. Callie was giving her a look she couldn't decipher. "What? Why are you looking at me like that?"
Callie took Arizona's hand in hers and answered, "Since I told you about my dream...I figure it's only fair if you tell me about yours."
Arizona gulped.
"If you want to, that is," Callie added.
"It's not a big deal," Arizona said shaking her head, trying to wave it off.
"Arizona," Callie said knowingly, "it is. I woke up to your screaming last night. It's not nothing."
"Yeah, sorry about that," Arizona said sheepishly.
"No, Arizona don't apologize," Callie said toying with her hand, "Just...tell me what happened."
"If I tell you," Arizona started with a sigh as she already felt her eyes watering, "You might-you could think something, you might think I'm crazy."
"Hey, Arizona," Callie murmured gripping her neck with her thumb grazing a soft cheek, "You can tell me anything, you know that right? And I'm not going anywhere. I'm all in."
Arizona nodded as she felt tears threaten to fall. She sighed a ragged breath and started, "Sometimes, well pretty frequently actually, I have these dreams..."
Callie took both hands in hers and kissed her knuckles, urging her to continue.
"Nightmares. They're always nightmares. About the children I couldn't save, or want to save, or should have saved," Arizona closed her eyes as one lone tear escaped, but it didn't go far, for Callie caught it, "I see their tiny coffins, and their tiny hands and feet, and it's always awful. But last night...wasn't about one of those tiny humans."
"Okay," Callie whispered, eyes scanning Arizona's tear-stained face in empathy and pain.
"Last night, was one of the rare times it was even worse," Arizona's voice caught in her throat before she could continue, "Tim. It's a reoccurring dream where I'm standing in the OR and I'm operating on Tim, but Tim is little and I'm the age I am now, and he just keeps dying on me. And I can do nothing to save him and he's just lying there, bleeding out on the table, and my parents are watching the whole time."
By then, tears streamed down Arizona's face as she struggled to breathe, talking so fast that only Callie would be able to understand her.
"Okay, okay, shh," Callie pulled Arizona into a warm hug and whispered, "It was just a dream."
"It's not though," Arizona cried out pulling out of the embrace, "It's not. I wake up and he's still gone. He's not here. He'll never be here...and I could have stopped him."
"Arizona, that's not-"
"No, I could have stopped him, Callie," Arizona said nodding.
"I didn't know him," Callie said gently meeting her gaze, "But just from what you've told me and what I've seen...it seems like your brother was persistent, independent, strong, brave...nothing could change his mind. He was born to be a hero...he's kind of like his sister in that way." Callie wiped strands of hair behind Arizona's ear and smiling slightly.
Arizona shook her head slightly and whispered, "Stop. I'm no hero."
"Arizona, yes you are," Callie said in disbelief using both hands to hold Arizona's face now, "God, you have no idea just how amazing you are do you?"
Arizona said nothing as she let Callie hold her face.
"Just because you aren't physically out there in the war, doesn't mean you don't fight the battles everyday," Callie said powerfully. Her voice grew softer as she said smiling, "You're my Battleship."
Arizona let out a light chuckle as she wiped her eyes. She looked back at Callie seriously with bright blue eyes that somehow got brighter after crying. "He would have really liked you," she barely let out, "I wish he could have met you..."
"Me too, me too," Callie murmured rubbing Arizona's arms.
"And I wish he could know...how happy I am. How happy you make me."
Callie half-smiled. "He knows."
Arizona shook her head in disbelief, averting her gaze.
"Hey, look at me," Callie said gently lifting her chin, "he knows."
Arizona nodded as she felt more tears forming and her face contorting slightly and leaned in to kiss Callie hard. Tears fell down her cheeks as they kissed, Callie wiping them away as quickly as she could.
When they released, they left their foreheads together and Arizona sniffled. Callie wiped her eyes again and whispered, "Can I ask you something?"
Arizona nodded.
"Why have I never been here for any of your nightmares?" Callie asked, afraid to know the answer for some reason.
Arizona blushed slightly and answered mumbling, "I may or may not sleep better when you're sleeping with me."
"You don't have nightmares with me?" Callie questioned lovingly.
Arizona sighed, "I guess...I just...feel more safe in your arms somehow."
Callie's smile grew wide.
"What? Don't look at me like that Calliope, it's not like I want to need you like this, it just happened and don't let it go to your head because I wish I didn't-"
Callie cut her off by kissing her softly and whispered, "I'm glad you do. It just makes me even more crazy about you...I wish you would have told me sooner."
"Well, it's not exactly something I'm proud of," Arizona said.
"Still..." Callie trailed off, "If I would have known how you felt sooner...I would have never let you go."
Arizona smiled one of her big dimpled smiles as they both leaned in to kiss each other lovingly. "I still want my pancakes," Arizona mumbled against plump lips.
Callie laughed and whispered, "Anything for you."
That next week went just as wonderfully as all the others they spent together. Callie and Arizona tried to spend every night together, using the excuse of Arizona's nightmares, both knowing very well that they just couldn't stand to be apart from each other for a night. Those three words were on the tip of Callie's tongue multiple times, but it never seemed like the right moment. Either they were having too light-hearted of a conversation, or they didn't have enough time, or Callie simply chickened out out of fear. She was fairly certain Arizona felt the same way, but she couldn't risk it. It would break her heart too much to not hear those words back. Still...the way she looked at her...she swore they both felt it. She swore Arizona felt the undeniable connection and love that she felt every second with the woman.
Their little group was eating lunch at the hospital, Callie and Arizona having a small side conversation with Callie's arm thrown haphazardly over the back of Arizona's chair.
"You couldn't go two days without sex from me!" Addison said to Mark a little too loudly.
"That is just...completely true. I can't deny it," Mark said shrugging with his grin.
Callie shifted slightly in her seat, afraid of the direction this conversation was going. Arizona squeezed her thigh in reassurance.
"I could," Addison stated. Everyone at the table laughed. "What? I could!" she insisted.
"You can't keep your hands off me," Mark said cockily.
"That's such a lie," Addison said rolling her eyes, "Callie's the sex animal of this table."
Callie spit out her drink as Arizona started to choke on her food. "Addison..." Callie warned.
"What? It's true. She can't go two days without touching herself lately."
"Addison!" Callie shouted in horror. Arizona gulped at the new image suddenly in her mind.
"The walls are thin, my dear," Addison said grinning.
"I gave you that key for emergencies only!" Callie said in anger.
"Um, I was out of wine," Addison said as way of explanation.
"Oh, still. This is such a load of horse-"
"Hey, I didn't say it was a bad thing," Addison said cutting her off, "Probably good for Barbie over there when you two finally start bangin'."
"Jesus Christ," Callie said putting her face in her hands.
"Wait, you two still haven't..." Colleen said in disbelief.
"Nope, our little friends over here are choosing a life of celibacy," Addison said as though it were gossip.
"Addison, you really don't know when to shutup, do you?" Callie said glaring at her, too afraid of what Arizona was thinking right now. Arizona just looked on, eyes wide at how quickly the conversation took off.
"Oh, man!" Colleen said going on with it, "That's hard to believe, because I was going to say Arizona is the sex animal of this table."
"Okay!" Arizona said interjecting finally, "I think we should keep me and Callie's sex life private please."
"Or lack there of," Addison mumbled, high-fiving Colleen.
"Seriously, do you have Turrets or something?" Callie asked.
"Callie, it's fine," Colleen said trying to be helpful, "You shouldn't be embarrassed, because I'm sure Arizona is in the same boat."
"You would know," Addison commented.
"Hey!" Arizona said, offended.
"Oh yeah, Colleen and Arizona used to do the horizontal tango a while back," Mark murmured nodding his head.
"Stop picturing it, you ass," Addison said hitting him on the arm.
Callie's jaw tightened as she felt her blood boiling. She took her arm off the back of Arizona's chair and placed it in her lap.
"Yeah we did," Colleen said nodding, "and she couldn't go two days without it either."
"That's...that's not true," Arizona said shaking her head as her cheeks flushed, afraid to look at Callie.
"She said I was really good at the good stuff," Colleen said sideways at Addison, who fist bumped her.
Callie looked at Addison at that and said, "Really?"
"What?" Addison said shrugging, "I'm just saying, props to her. Maybe she's the sex animal of the group."
"This is getting way out of hand," Arizona said trying to stop it from going further.
"Would you rather us talk about your celibacy, or your obsessive need for sex?" Colleen questioned.
"Neither!" Arizona shouted.
"Yeah, guys..." Addison said softly looking at Callie, who's eyes were welling up. She realized it might have gone too far. Callie wasn't sure why her eyes were welling up, but they were, and she hated herself for it.
"I was just saying how impressed I am that you've gone this long without it," Colleen said shrugging, "It has to be a new record for you, what with all the sleeping around you've done at the hospital."
"No..." Arizona said shifting, unsure of how she was supposed to answer this.
She glanced over at Callie and their eyes met for the first time since this whole thing started, and that's when Arizona saw the pained expression on Callie's face and the tears forming in her eyes.
"Calliope," Arizona murmured, brows furrowed, as she attempting to latch on to Callie's arm.
Callie stood quickly with her tray and said, "No, it's okay I have to go...wash my face." With that she turned quickly and left before anyone else could see her tears fall.
"Thanks a lot, jackasses," Arizona said glaring at the table before getting up to follow Callie.
Arizona finally found Callie in a room she'd never been in before. It was dark and there was a light noise emanating from the big room. Callie was standing with her back turned on top of what looked like a big air vent.
"Calliope..." Arizona whispered into the room.
"Just leave me alone, Arizona," Callie said in obvious pain as she choked back her sobs.
Arizona didn't listen as she approached Callie slowly. "Calliope, please look at me."
Callie whipped her head around, make-up staining her face and tears in her eyes. "What?" she asked harshly.
"I just..." Arizona struggled to speak, "I want to talk to you."
"About what? There's nothing to say," Callie said shaking her head.
"Yes, there is," Arizona said stepping closer, "I didn't want you to hear all that, like that. It was inappropriate and wrong and mean and just...out of hand."
"I hate our friends sometimes," Callie grumbled with a slight chuckle.
"Me too..." Arizona said softly.
"And I hate that I'm crying over this!" Callie yelled throwing her hands up.
"It's okay," Arizona stated.
"No, it's not okay, Arizona. I hate that I feel like this, this irrational jealousy that's just bubbling inside me and creating this-this monster!" Callie said out of breath, "And I hate-I hate the fact that basically everyone I work with has seen you naked, and you didn't even tell me about it!"
"You don't think I hate the fact that Owen has seen you naked and we have to see him everyday?" Arizona responded, "I hate it. And I didn't tell you because they don't matter, and because I didn't want to subject you to that. It makes me crazy to think about you and Owen!"
"Well Owen is the father of my children! I have to see him."
"I know! But you're just going to have to get over the fact that I have a past too. Not one I'm necessarily proud of."
"I'm fine with you having a past. I just didn't know I was working with it. Seeing it everywhere. I felt blindsided out there, Arizona!"
"I know, and I'm sorry! What's this really about, Calliope?" Arizona asked her voice growing softer.
"I just..." Callie trailed off in frustration, "I don't know how to compete with all those women Arizona..."
"There's no contest," Arizona said furrowing her brows, "You win every time. Nobody compares to you..."
Callie shook her head slightly as more tears threatened to fall. "How do you know I'm worth this!? I mean, apparently you can't wait for sex this long, and God knows we've waited, so what is it? Am I not going to be good enough? Those women are beautiful, experienced, smart..."
"Calliope, stop!" Arizona shouted, "You're always more than good enough, you have to know this by now. Those women-they mean nothing to me. But you...God, you mean everything! I've told you this. You have nothing to be ashamed or worried about."
"I can't help it!" Callie exclaimed, "I just...I think about them with you...and I can't help but feel like I'm just another one. Another number. Another lay for the books."
"Great, now I'm a whore," Arizona said rolling her eyes.
"No, I didn't say that!" Callie said rubbing her temple in frustration. She groaned, "God, I just want to stop...feeling so much, you know? You just, I want you to be mine and only mine and the thought of anyone else's hands on you makes me crazy."
Arizona's expression softened again. "Then...don't think about it. I don't want anyone else's hands on me, don't you get it? You're it. I'm all in, remember? All in. I already know you're better than all those women because...you already are, and you will continue to be, and always will be."
"But how do you know!?" Callie cried out.
"Because I love you!" Arizona shouted in exasperation.
Callie's eyes went wide at this sudden confession. Arizona even seemed taken aback by her own words, but there was no going back now.
"I do..." Arizona said shaking her head, "I love you. And I know it's too soon and this is probably not the right place or time, but I'm tired of holding back because...I love you. I'm in love with you. I think I always have been...and you're just, you know, you're just...inside me! I can't get you out and you're there and it feels real and wonderful, but it's scary. God, it's so scary how much I love you. And I just can't stop saying it now that I said it. I love you."
Callie's face had softened and a new set of tears formed in her eyes as she slowly smiled as Arizona kept rambling.
"Can't you see that? Can't you see how crazy you make me and just how much I can't...I can't breathe when you're not around? I've never felt like this about anyone in my entire life. I'm so immensely, undeniably, irrevocably in love with you."
Although Callie was really enjoying this particular rant, she couldn't handle anymore space from the woman. She lunged at her, pulling her in fiercely and kissing like she'd never been kissed before. Her tongue made an immediate entrance, and she didn't care about her lack of oxygen, or the previous tears, or the obvious need she was showing right now. Of course in that moment, the fan beneath them turned on loudly, wildly sending their hair and parts of clothing up in the air with force, but their lips remained attached, for this force was no match for the force of their kiss. The only reason Callie yearned to release this kiss were because of the three words she'd been wanting to say for weeks now.
She held Arizona's face a mere inch from hers as she smiled and said, "I love you, too. You know that right?"
Arizona shook her head slightly. "You don't have to say it just because I said it."
"God no," Callie said capturing her lips again before quickly releasing, "That's not what this is at all. I've been dying to tell you this for weeks now. I love you. I'm so in love with you..."
Arizona smiled brightly.
"Come here," Callie instructed as she backed away and pulled Arizona with her.
"What? Where are we going?" Arizona asked, allowing herself to be pulled.
"I want to show you something," Callie said pulling her quickly as they climbed the stairs of the hospital.
As they went higher and higher, Arizona realized they were going on the roof of the hospital. "The roof? What's on the roof?"
"You'll just have to wait," Callie said smirking.
"Another one of your places? You sure do have a lot," Arizona said chuckling.
"Shutup," Callie muttered before reaching their destination. Arizona followed Callie across the roof to one side where a bed of rocks laid. Callie dug beneath them and pulled out a piece of paper, handing it to Arizona.
"What is it?"
"Read it," Callie said nodding toward the paper.
Arizona took a deep breath and opened the piece of paper hesitantly. "Is this a Bucket List?" Arizona asked looking up at Callie.
Callie nodded with a smile, "I wrote it around the time Owen and I were done. Around the time I met you. Just...some things I wanted to accomplish with my life again. A fresh start."
Arizona swallowed and looked back down at the paper filled with things such as travel and skydiving... she read out loud, "Tell Arizona how I feel about her..." she felt her eyes well up as she looked at the check mark and back at Callie.
"Even then I knew...even if I didn't know exactly what that was, I knew..." Callie trailed off and let Arizona keep reading.
"Fall in love again," Arizona whispered as she saw the check mark beside this one as well. She kept going for fear she wouldn't finish since she was getting choked up, "Meet my one true soul mate." Of course this box was checked off too.
"How did you...when did you-" Arizona was at a loss for words.
"I think I've always known..." Callie said trailing off, "But the night I checked both of those boxes off, was the night after our second date."
"Even then..." Arizona trailed off taking a shuddering breath.
"Always," Callie whispered, "Now do you believe me? I love you. And I'll say it as much as you need or want to hear it, because it's true. It's...it's the most true thing I've ever known. You have no idea."
Arizona smiled brightly as a few tears escaped and she let out another breath, "I think I've got a clue."
Callie stepped closer to her, but neither were touching yet, standing a foot apart. "You're it for me, too, Arizona. You're it. And I never really believed in fate or that soul mate crap...until I met you. You just, came into my life and changed everything and turned my world upside down. I've never loved anyone as much as I've loved you, and it scares the crap out of me. That I know my life without you now, is no life at all, that you waltzed in and buried yourself within me. I just can't help but feel that...nobody has ever loved anybody as much as I love you."
Arizona shook her head slightly before rasping out, "I can think of someone," and lunged to capture Callie's lips with her own. They both moaned into the passionate kiss, somehow even more perfect than all their previous kisses. Because this time, neither were holding back. They poured everything they had into the kiss, giving themselves up entirely. They swallowed each other's moans and "I love you's" and frantically tried to feel more of each other. If they weren't in such a public place, both were sure they would be ravishing each other by now. Both felt an overwhelming amount of love radiating from somewhere within that didn't exist until they met one another. Both knew, it was a love that couldn't be duplicated or replaced, that it was one and only.
"I don't think I'm ever going to get tired of saying it," Callie said, breathing ragged and tired.
"And I'll never get tired of hearing it," Arizona murmured, kissing her love once again.
Yep. Permanently, exponentially, inexplicably, irrevocably in love.
Lots of cheesiness, but I couldn't resist ;) Hope you liked it!