"Cas, are you sleeping?" Whispered Dean looking at Castiel's face, it was a dark night
"Dean, I'm trying" Said Castiel with his eyes closed
"Aren't you curious why I fought?" Asked Dean resting his head on Castiel's chest, he was glad that they were sharing a bed
"I'd rather not know Dean" mumbled Castiel half asleep
"They wanted to move to somewhere else" Said Dean listening to Castiel's Heartbeats
"So?" Asked Castiel yawing
"It means that I wouldn't see you anymore…" Whispered Dean closing his eyes and caressing Castiel's chest with his left hand, Dean just wanted to feel connected, he had so many things in his mind that he couldn't sleep
"That's not so bad" Said Castiel a little drowse "You just met me, it's not like we have a real relationship."
"Can we have one?" Whispered Dean bringing his body closer to Castiel's body under the blankets
"Maybe" Said Castiel smiling, he thought that was sweet the way Dean just asked him if there was any future to their relationship
"I need you, Cas" Said Dean listening Castiel's heartbeats speed up a little, he knew he had struck Castiel's weakness there, he knew Castiel avoided human contact and people, because he had some bad experience with someone "Isn't that enough for begin a relationship?"
"Dean, it's not that easy" Said Castiel breathing deeply "You think you need me; maybe you just need a real job and a real home… Not me."
"And If I need all of it?" Whispered Dean opening his eyes and facing Castiel's eyes open in a surprised expression "Including you."
"Dean, you aren't making any sense" Said Castiel smiling again, it was sweet what Dean was trying to do, but he knew that they couldn't be "You are tired."
"Cas, why can't you believe me?" Asked Dean whispering, his forehead touching Castiel's chin "Is there something wrong with me?"
"No, Dean" Said Castiel in a sad "I'm not ready for any of this…"
"Cas" Said Dean kissing Castiel's forehead "I don't know what happened to you, but I'll be here your you."
"You don't need to, Dean" Said Castiel closing his eyes, Dean laid on Castiel's side again
"But I want to be, Cas" Castiel smiled and held him closer to his chest
"Thank you, Dean" Dean smiled and thought 'Is it a game?' even so he was falling for Castiel in a way he never had fallen for anybody else, he felt it was like the first time he told someone that he would "be there".
Dean closed his eyes and listened as Castiel slept, his heartbeats were so calm like an ocean and his body was warm, he didn't feel so must lust as he felt at the beginning. Dean thought about the 'one night stands' with girls and boys he had, neither of them meant anything, nor Anna nor Lisa, he was falling for a guy that he barely knew, a simple librarian.
Another morning came, Castiel opened his eyes and Dean was still asleep on his chest, Dean had a serene look upon his face, he looked like a lost child, a rebel without a cause or maybe just a faithless man; who could blame him for not believing on others? Castiel knew too well that trust must be earned, Castiel touched Dean's arm that was upon his neck, and Dean was too hot;
"Dean" Said Castiel taking the covers off him "Wake up, you are burning up"
"Cas?" Asked Dean smiling while touching Castiel's face "I feel strange."
"Stay still" Said Castiel dialing on his cell phone "I'm calling a doctor."
Dean smiled again, he was drowse and happy at the same time; everything was spinning too fast "Cas, I'm not ok."
Said Dean before closing his eyes and trying to move, Castiel held Dean by his shoulder and laid him in the bathtub "Dean hang on, I'm bringing some ice" While Castiel ran to the kitchen Dean turned the cold water on, he knew If his body temperature continued raising he would convulse, Castiel dropped some ice cubes on the bathtub and turned the water off after it filled the bathtub "I'm here Dean, I'm here" Castiel whispered countless times holding Dean's head
The doctor came after some minutes, he told Castiel that Dean had just an infection from the cut, the doctor gave Castiel a prescription from some meds, Castiel thanked the doctor that left the apartment, He came back to Dean that was in the bathtub still, but now looking better.
"Cas" Said Dean smiling wolfish "I'm sorry, I never meant to cause you so much trouble."
"It's no trouble" Said Castiel drying Dean's hair with a towel "You will be ok, maybe I should call your brother."
"No" Said Dean grabbing Castiel's hand "I really don't want to worry Sammy."
"Dean, I know it's not the time to give you a lecture" Said Castiel resting his hand on Dean's cheek "But you must think before you get yourself in an idiotic fight."
"I know, man" Said Dean closing his eyes and resting his head back "I'm sorry."
"I'm bringing you some medication" Said Castiel calling his boss "I'll be with you this week."
"But what about your job?" Asked Dean looking at Castiel with his cell phone against his ear
"I'm sure I can take a week off" Said Castiel smiling, Dean smiled too closing his eyes, after the call, Castiel turned to Dean and continued "Since when have you been a road dog?"
"My father raised me this way" Said Dean reaching out for Castiel's hand and grabbing it lightly "My mother always hated him for that."
"Is that what you want?" Asked Castiel curious, he wanted to know a little about Dean, He was confused too because helping Dean was so natural to him that he didn't even bother to stay by his side
"I want you, Cas" Said Dean smiling, his eyes were full of hope and sincerity "An angel is like you, and you are like an angel."
"Henry V" Said Castiel smiling, he knew that line too "I thought you aren't a guy who liked books."
"I don't like books, but I like you, Cas" Said Dean gripping Castiel's hand tightly "If you like beautiful bookish words I'll give to you if you only ask me, would you like it?"
"I would" Said Castiel smiling "But only if you want to say it, please Dean, I'm not trying to deceive you…"
"I know you aren't" Said Dean closing his eyes and resting his cheek on Castiel's hand
"Dean, if you say nice things to me, do it because you want, not because you think you have to" Said Castiel caressing Dean hair "I'm saying, I'm not ready for a relationship."
"Why not?" Asked Dean opening his eyes, Castiel just smiled sadly and kissed Dean's cheek
"Because I'm still broken" Said Castiel looking at the little melting pieces of ice cubes in the bathtub
"Then let me fix you, Cas" Said Dean standing up and holding him "Let me fix you."
"I don't know if you can" Replied Castiel wrapping a towel around Dean's waist
"Then let me try" Whispered Dean kissing Castiel's lips "And I'll fix you."