"Cas, are you upset?" Asked Rachel petting his head like a dog, people that walked nearby just passed without looking inside the coffee shop. Castiel just smiled, she knew he was hiding something.

"I am, sad… I think" Said Castiel meekly, his voice went almost unheard, but Rachel had seen this all before, Castiel was the youngster of three. Michael, Rachel and Castiel, Michael was the most explosive and Castiel the most serene, Castiel and Michael used to fight a lot, but Rachel knew how to make them behave like brothers, she also knew when something was wrong with her brothers.

"Why, Cas?" Asked she caressing his hand

"Dean and I had a fight… I mean, not really a fight, but we argued"

"About?"

"His son"

"What?!" Said Rachel surprised, Castiel was calm as always

"I mean, maybe he isn't his son"

"Ok, first things first Cas" Said Rachel chucking "Tell me what happened"

Castiel breathed deeply and told her what happened, while telling her that Castiel realized how silly and stupid this fight was.

"Cas" Said Rachel holding his hand tightly with a smile in her face "He said he loves you, what else do you want from him?"

"That's the problem" Said Castiel taking his hand off his sister hands "I don't want anything from him"

"You are saying you don't love him?" Asked Rachel frowning an eyebrow

"No, I like him… But I can't be the one he is looking for, Rachel"

"Why not?"

"Because… Because…" Stammered Castiel almost reluctant, but he finally released it surprising himself with the answer "I don't want to love him!"

Rachel laughed softly and embraced Castiel briefly:

"We don't choose to love" Whispered she with a big smile "Love choose us"

"Rachel, Love doesn't exist"

"Of course it does" Said Rachel offended

"It doesn't Rachel" Said Castiel standing up and picking his book from the table "One day you'll realize that"

"Cas?" Said she standing up again, Rachel was afraid Castiel would do something against himself or do some other crazy thing "Are you going home?"

"I 'm hungry" He continued "I'm going to the diner"

"Cas, don't do anything to yourself, ok?" Said she holding his hand, Rachel would go with him, but she knew that Castiel wanted to be alone, and it was better this way.

"I'm just going to eat, Rachel" Said Castiel smiling, but she still feared he would do something. Castiel had an expression of sadness, but not a panicked type. He had this cold, acceptance sadness, the kind seen in people that gave up the fight.

Rachel kissed Castiel goodbye and watched him drive his car until he disappeared on the distance. This end of afternoon was sad and confuse, Rachel had a bad feeling that she was losing her little brother.

"Are you still reading this book?" Asked Balthazar sitting face to face to Castiel on the diner "I never knew what's up with you and those dramatic books"

"Good evening, Balthazar" Said Castiel messing with his food on the plate

"You look, not good" Said Balthazar feeling a little out of place, maybe it was Castiel's strange greeting that had this effect on him. Balthazar lived two years with Castiel, but he realized that Castiel truly changed like a caterpillar.

"Thank you" Said Castiel with his eyes on his beef "its strange how you still here"

"Excuse me?" Said Balthazar confuse

"You still in town, did you really changed?"

"I think I did" Said Balthazar laughing, but Castiel kept his eyes on his plate "What's wrong?"

"What isn't wrong?"

"That's kind of pessimistic of you, Cas"

"I think it's fitting for a simple librarian" Said Castiel with an angry, but low tone

"Cas, there's something going on, isn't?" Balthazar feared that Castiel knew about his scheme, but he dismissed that thought quickly

"Maybe"

"Castiel, what happened with you?" Said Balthazar resting his hand on his shoulder

"Live, happened to me…" Said Castiel with a pause, looking at Balthazar face "Above all this, you happened to me"

"Me?" Asked Balthazar puzzled, did he find out about Balthazar's plans?

"Yes, you!" Said Castiel angry "I gave you everything, there's nothing left for you to take!"

"Cas, I didn't come back for things"

"Yes, you didn't" Said Castiel despising this phase like a poison on his lips

"Cas, I'm sorry I was young and stupid" Continued Balthazar trying to calm him down "I never meant to hurt you"

"Then why did you come back?" Asked Castiel dropping his fork on the plate "And don't you dare to lie to me!"

"I came for you, Cas" Said Balthazar kissing Castiel's hand "I realized how foolish I was, is it too late?"

"You liar…" Said Castiel putting some money in under his plate "You fucking liar!" Continued him standing up "I'm tired of this town, full of liars"

"So come with me" Said Balthazar holding Castiel's forearm "Let's go see the world together"

"I was your boyfriend, you LOVED me, right?" Said Castiel releasing his forearms from Balthazar's grip "I would never leave my home with a liar like you"

Castiel left the Diner and Balthazar just stood there, like an orphan child, that waits his parents, but he knew that this time he was truly orphan; Castiel would never give him a second chance. Balthazar looked at Meg behind the counter, she smiled warm to him 'Now, I lost him' He thought 'Maybe it's time to go'

Dean was sitting on the couch, the TV was off, and he felt strange. The pipes were ok, he had fixed all of them in this sort time he stayed with Castiel. 'I can't believe Lisa never told me' Thought Dean to himself, he never felt so betrayed and so foreign to himself as he was.

Castiel opened the door and walked pass him, Dean lifted his hand

"Evening Cas!"

"Don't speak to me" shouted him from the bathroom, Dean stood and knocked on the bathroom door, he was curious 'was Castiel upset with him?'

"Cas, did I do something wrong?"

"Dean" Said Castiel turning the water on to fill the bathtub "Leave me, please"

"Do you need something?"

"Yeah I do" Said Castiel opening the door "I need the goddammit truth!"

"Cas"

"Leave me" Said Castiel upset

"Cas, let me help you"

Castiel just closed the door and rested his back against it in silence, he had too much lies already.

"Why are you acting like this?"

"Because I found out about your bet and Balthazar's intentions… I'm not stupid"

"It was an idiotic thing to do, Cas" Said Dean resting his back against the door too "I'm sorry, I was a jerk that time"

"So it true then?"

"Yes, but I love you Cas" Said Dean sitting on the floor "You don't believe me, do you?"

"I don't believe a word that coming out of your mouth" Said Castiel in a hurtful tone while sitting on the floor

"Cas, please… don't do this to me"

"I'm not doing it" Said Castiel turning off the water "You are, Dean"

"Come on, Cas… We can fix this!" Whispered Dean thought the door

"It's not broken, Dean!" Shouted Castiel, submerging himself inside the bathtub hoping he could drown everything, Dean, Balthazar, his father's absence and even his feelings. Everything became silent and Castiel smiled.