"Cas?" Asked Dean knocking on the door again "Please talk to me"
"Why would I?" Said Castiel emerging from the bathtub, he was there looking at the mirror haunted by his reflection, trying to figure out why his heart hurt so badly "You are a liar"
"Cas, please forgive me" Begged Dean while his sorrow brought him to his knees "I told you that in the beginning it was a game to me, but I love you"
"I know, Dean…" Said Castiel, he was disappointed not angry "Meg, told me everything"
"Did she?"
"She also told me you really love me that it was supposed to be just a silly joke"
"So why are you angry?"
"You played with me like Balthazar was planning to do, again"
"I confess I did played with you" Said Dean with his hand on the door, he was filled with the desire to hold Castiel hopping somehow to erase his mistakes, every one of them "But only in the beginning"
"What do you want from me?" Shouted Castiel punching the door, he was angry because it was true, Castiel wished it was all a lie, even Dean's love for him "Do you want my paintings? Then take it!"
"No, Cas… buddy, I need you" Said Dean with his cheek against the door, hoping that his love for Castiel would melt not only the door, but every barrier between them "I need you"
Castiel opened the door and looked at Dean's eyes in rage, offended by the way Dean looked back at him, with love and wanting, because Castiel wanted to hate Dean, not love him.
"Why?" He shouted "Why do you need me?"
"I can't explain, Cas" Said Dean embracing him as the sun embraces the morning skies. It wasn't only an embrace it was Dean's apologies with his flesh and bones "I just need you"
Castiel closed his eyes and embraced Dean tight; his words ran from his vocabulary, leaving only his books on his mind, unaffected by his rage and fear "I wish I could hold you till we were both dead… I shouldn't care for your sufferings. Why shouldn't you suffer? I do! Will you forget me? Will you be happy when I am in the earth?"
Dean smiled, he knew this line, it's was Cathy's line "Don't torture me till I'm as mad as yourself" he interrupted Castiel kissing his neck "Do you reflect that all those words will be branded in my memory, and eating deeper eternally after you have left me?"
Castiel held Dean tighter and kissed his cheek crying with a mix of rage, sadness and wanting:
"You teach me now how cruel you've been, cruel and false. You deserve this!" Said Castiel pulling Dean away gently "Tell me the truth now, Dean, but only the truth"
"I will" Said Dean looking at Castiel's eyes, tears coming down from his eyes hit the ground like little explosions.
"If you were in my shoes, would you forgive?" Asked Castiel whipping his tears, Dean closed his eyes and breathed deeply as if the weight of the word were on his shoulders
"I wouldn't forgive, if I didn't love you" Said Dean thinking how doomed he was, Castiel would never forgive him for that, he played a dangerous game and he would pay it with a river of his tears
Castiel smiled at Dean's sincerity and whipped Dean's tears with his sleeve like he would to do a little child "It' is hard to forgive and look at those eyes" Said Castiel holding Dean's face with both hands "Kiss me again; And don't let me see your eyes!"
"It means you…" Said Dean unsure
"I forgive what you have done to me." Said Castiel Kissing Dean's mouth, it was a long deep and passionate kiss, as powerful as an earthquake, nothing could stop this moment. Castiel knew that even if death took him, he would come back to this memory and take a hold of it like his love for Dean, Castiel realized that he loved Dean more that he could ever love someone.
"Does it mean that you love me?" Asked Dean surprised panting, Castiel just took his breath away with this long kiss
"I love you" Said Castiel holding Dean's face with some kind of lust and wanting.
"I want to make love to you" Said Dean embarrassed, he understood now the difference "I want to love you"
Castiel just smiled and took Dean to his bed "Dean" He whispered on Dean's ears while taking his pants off
"What?" Asked Dean smiling and unbuttoning Castiel's blouse
"Say you love me" Whispered Castiel on top of Dean's body
"I love you" Whispered Dean with a grim, Castiel took Dean's pants off and torn his t-shirt "Cas, easy" Said Dean chucking, Castiel just smiled and in silence he rode Dean slowly and steady
"C-Cas" Moaned Dean grabbing Castiel's rips tight "I love you"
"I love you too" Moaned Castiel riding Dean every time deeper
"That's it; honey" Said Dean biting his lips "Faster"
"Dean" Whispered Castiel going faster and faster
"Cas" Shouted Dean "I love you"
Castiel smiled and bit Dean's ear causing him pain and pleasure at same time, Dean held Castiel hip's tighter than before, marking his fingers on Castiel's waist
"Tell me you need me again" Whispered Castiel with lust and pain
"I need you" Said Dean in a frenzy stroking Castiel's deeper and faster
"Dean" Shouted Castiel while Dean reached his climax, Castiel just fell on Dean's chest exhausted listening Dean's heartbeats
"Cas" Said Dean caressing Castiel's back with his hand
"Dean, that was great!" Whispered Castiel running his fingers thought Dean's chest
"Yeah, it was, Cas" Chucked Dean, he couldn't tell when was the last time he had sex "I love you" Continued Dean kissing Castiel forehead
"I think you hurt me" Said Castiel playfully looking at Dean's hand prints on his waist
"I'm sorry" Said Dean smiling "I got carried away, but you hurt me too"
"Where?" Asked Castiel curious, Dean took Castiel' hand and laid it on his chest
"Here" Said Dean holding Castiel's hand against his heart and closing his eyes, Castiel smiled and kissed Dean's hand
"Does it hurt now?" Asked Castiel smiling
"No" Said Dean smiling, he understood what making love was about. Dean pulled Castiel closer and looked in his eyes, so deep and full of hope. Dean realized Castiel was more than a boy he loved, Castiel was a powerful force of nature as his love was. "Cas, are you God?"
"It's a nice compliment" Whispered Castiel with a smile "But no"
Dean chucked and kissed Castiel briefly "Don't you ever change."