"Good morning, Cas" Said Dean sitting on a chair next to Cas's hospital bed "Are you feeling ok?"

"I'm fine…" Said Castiel rubbing his eyes and looking around, Castiel and Dean were alone in the room "What happened?"

"You collapsed" Said Dean fluffing his pillows "The doctor said you were under stress, physiologic stress."

"I see" Said Castiel closing his eyes "I'm sorry, but now I feel better"

"Then do you believe me?" Asked Dean sitting on the chair again "That you were under a trance?"

"I don't know, but I felt like it wasn't me talking before… I collapsed"

"What have they done to you?"

"They hypnotized me I think" Said Castiel unsure opening his eyes again "I don't remember much"

"Then I need to go to this clinic and find out" Said Dean standing up, Castiel grabbed Dean's hand tight

"Please, Dean… Don't go alone" Whispered Castiel, Dean smiled in a boyish way, Cas's true smile was on his face again. Castiel realized that he didn't feel any repulsion by touching Dean's hands; it's felt good to be himself again "Also, I'm sorry… I just wanted to be straight and I screwed things up"

"You still my angel, right?" Asked Dean kissing his cheek "But this time I'll heal you, Cas"

Castiel smiled and gripped Dean's hand tighter, his fear of losing himself again was there despite his smile. 'Thank you, Dean' thought Castiel while closing his eyes, he slept. The medication was making effect 'Good to see you again, Cas' Thought Dean while leaving the room.

"Can I see him?" Asked Michael to Dean coming into the waiting room

"He is asleep" Said Dean grabbing his jacket from a chair

"Is he fine?" Said Michael sitting back "What did he said?"

"He is fine; I guess I broke his trance… But I don't know if we'll be ok tomorrow or after, we need to undo what they've done to him"

"Then let's go" Said Michael standing up "To the clinic, right?"

"Sam, stay here with Rachel and if something happens with Cas, call me" Said Dean padding Sam's shoulder, Sam nodded "If you want to help, let's go"

Dean and Michael arrived on the clinic it was afternoon, Dean took two days to find the clinic at the first time he came to 'rescue' Castiel, now things were different, he needed to know how to mend Castiel's broken pieces.

Michael walked fast in front of Dean, if it was remorse or rage that drove him to the doctor's office or not, Dean just couldn't tell, but he realized Michael would protect his brother like Dean would protect Sam.

"You! "Shouted Michael walking into the doctor's office, the old man was surprised "What did you do to my brother?"

"I cured him" Said the doctor confused "What is the meaning of all of it?"

"My brother had a nervous breakdown!" Shouted Michael again, Dean held him stopping Michael to hurt the old man

"Just tell us what to do to get him back to the normal" Said Dean in a calm manner "And we'll leave"

"I hypnotized him, by his request I might add" Said the doctor diplomatically "He knew the risks"

"How can you be so cold about it?!" Shouted Michael again

"How could you?" Replied the doctor with a smile "You wanted him straight and cured, he is cured now"

"That's not a cure!" Shouted Michael "This is… Brainwashing!"

"Michael, wait for me outside"

"No, Dean!"

"Michael!" Shouted Dean, Michael nodded and left the room reluctantly, the doctor breathed out relieved

"I thought he would hit me"

"I will, if you don't tell me how to undo what you've done" Said Dean angrily, the doctor shook like a leaf, Dean knew who to get answers and he was too tired to play bad cop and good cop;

"I-I c-could call the clinic's security" Stammered the doctor

"They wouldn't get here in time" Grimed Dean "So, tell me how to undo this, doc"

"It's not that simple… You need to make him realized who he is, he needs to question about himself and what he is doing"

"How I do this?"

"By making him remember, make him remember who he is… It will won't be an easy task" Said the doctor resting his glasses on the table.

"My brother told me you guys use some kind of trigger and Castiel's trigger is…?"

"Well, you won't like it" Said the doctor nervous "It someone's name, he used to say it on his sleep"

"Whose name is it?" Shouted Dean impatiently

"It's Dean" Said the doctor scared, he knew that this was Dean, Castiel used to talk a lot about his ex-boyfriend, it was part of the therapy "I presume it's you, right?"

"Thank you" Said Dean turning around and walking thought the door 'So my name is the trigger!' Thought Dean a litter hurt, it was the perfect solution, Castiel always said his name, even in his sleep 'So what do I do now?'

While walking though the hallway, Dean realized that the clinic was almost empty 'where are the others patients and the nurses?' Thought Dean, Michael came to him anxious:

"What did he said?"

"To break Castiel's trance, we need to make him remember who he is"

"That's not much to go on"

"It's enough for me" Said Dean looking around and leaving to the car

"Dean?" Asked Michael sitting on the passenger sit "Why is this clinic so empty?"

"I don't know, but I've got an idea about what is going on"

"Cas?" Asked Rachel sitting in a chair by his side "Are you ok?"

"Rachel" Said Castiel smiling and holding her hand "I'll be"

"Why?"

"Why?" Repeated Castiel confused

"Why you had to let Michael take you there? You were happy, weren't you?"

"I don't know, Rachel… It's felt right that time, but now I'm not so sure"

"Look what they've done to you, Cas!"

"I did it to myself" Whispered Castiel "I always hated to be… To like boys, Rachel"

"But it's who you are"

"I know, and I hated myself even more for that" Said Castiel with his eyes wet, full of sorrow

"I never, thought you felt that way"

"I hated myself for a long time, Rachel… But now, I get that, no matter what I do… I can't run from myself"

"I wish I could help you"

"You are helping me, Rachel… But now, I need time"

"Brother" Said Rachel embracing him "Call me if you need me, ok?"

"I will, Rachel…." Said Castiel smiling "But I think I'll be ok."

"Dean and Michael can help you" Said Rachel kissing Castiel's forehead

"I think Michael already helped me enough, Rachel" Said Castiel in a hurtful tone "I just don't want to see him for a while"

"Cas, I know he screwed up… But he still our brother"

"Is he? Rachel?" Said Castiel closing his eyes "I am tired to be pushed around by him"

"Give him another chance, Cas…" Said Rachel trying somehow to avoid a fight "I know he is an idiot, but he just wanted the best for you"

"I don't know, if he wanted the best for me or for himself…" Said Castiel drowse "He was always ashamed, because of me."