(Poppy's POV)
Finn seemed happy that I'd agreed to go to his after school and he led me up to the top floor and opened the window climbing out onto the roof.
"Finn! Are you crazy?" I asked
"Trust me" Finn grinned
Trust a guy I'd only just met? That was a big ask. But with Finn, I didn't remember all the bad stuff I felt free. He laid down in the middle of the roof and looked up at the sky.
"What are you doing?" I asked
"Just try it"
I laid down beside him and stared up at the clouds just drifting by slowly. Finn lifted my arm slowly, looking at my bruised wrist and scars. I pulled my arm away and put my hand over it. Finn rolled his sleeve up and showed me his arm, it was a mixture of cuts and scars much like mine.
"Helps doesn't it?" He asked
"Yeah..."
You'd have never guessed the secrets Finn was hiding because of the cocky, bad boy act he put on and I realised he was much like me...He pretended he didn't care, put the barriers up but inside...He was vunerable and in pain.
"No one gets it..." Finn said
"I know, they just stick you in therapy...Tell you to stop"
"They don't understand that you can't..." Finn said
"Why do you do it?" I asked
"My parents they hate me, after I turned 7 I pretty much became invisible to them...A burden. We moved wherever they want when they want, I don't get a say...What about you?" Finn explained
"My mum died, my "dad" was a drunk he hurt me, kidnapped me...I found out my dad wasn't my dad, my sister wasn't my sister and then there was a car accident and my sister died..." I told him
I wiped my eyes as tears spilled over and Finn took my hand again squeezing it softly.
"You know whenever I felt really low, I think of the beach...We went there once on holiday when I was 7, Mossley beach and I picture myself just walking into the water and it all just ending..." Finn said as he stared into the clouds he just seemed so calm and relaxed
"The last time I tried to...You know? I jumped off a bridge into a river, it was horrible...Choking on freezing water...Like being stabbed by tiny pins all over your body..." I trailed off
"What happened?" Finn asked
"I ran into someone unexpected, my shrink...She pulled me out..."
"That sucks!" Finn said
"Rachel's trying to help me but she doesn't understand that its just darkness...Constant pain..."
I turned to the right and Finn looked at me straight in the eyes and it was like seeing my own pain in his eyes...Before I knew it I was kissing him. I don't know how it happened it just did...I broke the kiss and when he leaned in again, I pulled away standing up...
"Finn...I can't..."
"Why not? He asked
"I just broke up with Bolton because I didn't think I could handle a relationship on top of the stuff I have going on..." I explained
"Bolton Smilie?" He asked, he seemed stunned by it
"You don't have to look so shocked?"
"Sorry he just doesn't seem like your type..."
I didn't say anything, Finn stood up and walked so he was stood directly in front of me. It was really hard not to get lost in his soft brown eyes, they were so warm...
"Its different with me...I get it. I get you..." Finn said
"If we got together, it'd kill Bolton...And I'm not a slag, I don't jump from guy to guy..." I told him
"Who cares what people think? You and me would be forever...We get each other"
Finn really was putting together a water tight case and it was getting harder and harder to resist him... But I didn't want to hurt anyone.
"How about friends?" I offered "And we see where we go?"
"It'll do for now, you're still coming round tonight though?" He asked
"Yeah" I nodded
We went down to the canteen and got there just before the bell went, we were first in the cue. I just got a sandwich and a bottle of water, I wasn't really interested in any of the new healthy food they were serving.
"Hey up trouble" Adam said "Who's your friend?"
"This is Finn, he's new" I told him
Finn just grinned that cheeky grin, he was about to come up with some cheeky comment until I elbowed him in the ribs...I ushered Finn over to a table in the corner and we sat down.
"Who's that then?" Finn asked
"Rachel's fiance and my dad"
"I thought you were Mason's adopted kid?" Finn asked confused
"I am...I was adopted before they got together, I didn't know he was my dad until recently..."
Finn sat there a confused look on his face.
"Its complicated" I told him
"You don't say..."