A/N: Ahhhh! Just got my 100th review you have no idea how much they mean to me! A lot of the stuff I right about is stuff I've been through...And your reviews really help cheer me up :) xxx
(Poppy's POV)
We seemed to wait for ages; maybe it was just me because I hated it in here. The place made me nervous and it was just me and Rachel, she was being so nice and supportive I just felt even more guilty. The curtain finally opened and Sam came in, she pulled some gloves on and moved the dressings away from my arm. I stayed quiet as she numbed it and stitched it up.
"There all done" She said pulling her gloves off and putting them in the bin
"Does that mean I can go home then?" I asked
"Not just yet, Lara wants to do a medication review before we let you go" Sam smiled
"Can't I go home now and we do that another time?" I asked her
"Poppy..." Rachel said
"Yeah sorry you're right, I'll wait. This place just freaks me out" I said
"Well Lara shouldn't be too much longer" Sam said
Sam left the cubicle leaving me and Rachel alone again. I was shaking and I couldn't stop, Rachel reached out and took my hand softly squeezing it.
"Have you told Adam?" I asked
"Yes" Rachel answered
"He's not coming in though is he?" I asked
I felt bad enough without Adam giving me that look as well, I was still scared. Was I doing the right thing?
"No he's not. We thought we'd give you sometime" Rachel said softly
The curtain opened and Lara came in and perched on the side of the bed next to me.
"Where's Finn? Is he okay?" I asked
"Finn's fine...He's gone home, he said he'll text you later...Let's talk about you. First I need you to know that if this happens again, it's out of my hands you'll be re-admitted" Lara said
I nodded gently. "I know, I'm going to stick to the plan this time, I need help"
"It's good to hear that, I hope you do. I'll be seeing you twice a week as Rachel explained before, on a Saturday and a Wednesday. I want to change your Thorazine dosage so you take it twice a day instead of once and I'm going to prescribe Fluoxetine once a day and we'll see how we go with that. You might have some side effects, drowsiness, and nausea for the first few days but they should improve after a week or so...If they don't give me a ring and we'll review it again. Okay?" Lara said
I nodded; I was going to stick to this. I knew I'd never lose Rachel and apart from her, I had nothing left to lose.
"I'll get your prescriptions written up and then I'll get you discharged" Lara smiled
When I got home Adam came rushing into the hall, he crushed me to his chest an action I hadn't been expecting...It was the first time he'd hugged me and I didn't know what to do, it was like all my instincts just abandoned me and I ended up standing there, stiff as a board. He bent down in front of me.
"Are you okay?" He asked "What did the doctors say? I'll kill Finn Sharkey"
"I'm fine! None of this was Finn's fault. It was mine" I said quietly and walked into the kitchen...
****** A week later ******
I'd managed to get myself into a routine and I was getting help, I still had a long way to go but I'd accepted that now...I still hadn't told Rachel anything other than what she already knew. I still had a lot of secrets, but they were buried for now. I dyed my hair back to brunette, it suited me better. I'd been eating proper meals and we'd all eaten at the table since Adam moved in, he was literally obsessed with cooking.
I was behaving in school a lot more and I didn't kick off because of stupid stuff anymore or just to wind people up...Now Mr Tyler had been suspended pending investigation, I had no reason to. I sat at the back next to Lindsay in english as Mr Clarkson handed out our essays on Romeo and Juliet, it was an important one...It was part of the coursework that went towards our final grade. He placed Lindsay's in front of her.
"How did you do?" I asked
"B" Lindsay replied
"That's great Linds" I smiled
Mr Clarkson smiled as he placed my essay in front of me.
"Well done Poppy!" He beamed "If only you let that brain of yours out more often, you're a smart girl!"
I smiled and looked down at my paper at the percentage and the grade in red pen. 96 percent...A*!
"Sir? Is this a wind up?" I asked, a little confused. I was convinced I'd get a C at most.
"No." He answered "You really nailed the relationships and themes throughout the play and you made a really good use of the quotes...Keep it up!"
A smile spread across my face...Me...An A*! I couldn't believe it! And I couldn't wait to tell Rachel! I struggled to stay sat in my seat for the rest of the lesson and when the bell went I practically jumped from my seat and grabbed my coat and bag.
"Poppy can you wait a minute please?" Mr Clarkson asked
When the class had emptied out I walked down and stood in front of his desk.
"Just wanted to say well done again, I'm impressed. Just keep your head down...No more troublemaking" Mr Clarkson said
"Yes Sir" I smiled
I left the classroom to see Mr Mead was waiting for me in the corridor.
"Poppy can you come with me please?" Mr Mead asked
I nodded simply and went with him still holding my english paper in my hand...
A/N: Sorry this has taken longer to upload, I was having a bit of a dark spell and everything just seemed a bit pointless and I didn't know what to write, but I'm back on track now...Fingers crossed. Reviews are always welcome! Let me know what you thought! :) xxx