(Poppy's POV)
Adam had been nagging me to go home and get changed, but I'd fought against him. I wasn't leaving Rachel's side until she told me to...Mr Mead left shortly after but wanted us to keep him updated...By 7:30pm my eyes were drooping and by 8 I'd fallen asleep leaning against Adam's shoulder...
A little while later I was woken up by Adam shaking me softly...
"Poppy wake up, she's up" He said
That was all it took to jolt me awake and I nearly fell off the chair in doing so. Rachel smiled softly and I hugged her tightly.
"I thought you were gone" I sobbed "I thought you were leaving me"
"What?" Adam asked "Sam said she'd be okay"
"They always say that" I told him
"I'm not going anywhere" Rachel replied "I have to shout at you to tidy your room and embarrass you" She chuckled
My eyes widened a little bit and my cheeks flushed a deep red.
"You heard that?" I asked
She nodded chuckling softly.
I sat back down and rested my eyes for a minute, the next thing I knew Adam was waking me up again. I opened my eyes to see three sets of eyes watching me. Adam, Rachel and Lara. I sat forward and looked at Lara...
"When did you get here?" I asked
"Not long ago" She replied
"Lara's taking you home" Rachel said
"No...I want to stay with you" I told her
"Hey. Listen to me, you're going to have me for the rest of your life, I'm not going anywhere..." Rachel said "Lara's going to take you home, stay in one of the guest rooms and bring you back in the morning"
"Fine" I sighed glumly
I hugged Rachel goodbye and she kissed my head softly, then I hugged Adam and left with Lara. When we got in I was exhausted, Lara practically force fed me my medication and then I got changed like a zombie, falling over several times and eventually got into bed. I was out like a light...It had been a really scary and hectic day.
I ran towards Rachel, she wasn't moving. I pushed through the swarm of paramedics that were surrounding her just so I could see her, check she was okay...But the was this monitor and it was beeping continuously for ages as she laid in the long grass.
"Time of death...14:32" One of the paramedics announced looking at his watch
"NOOOO!" I screamed "RACHEL!"
Lara came rushing in and switched on the light quickly as I sat in bed breathing heavily.
"Are you alright?" She asked
"Where's Rachel? Is she okay?" I asked frantic
"She's fine. She's still at the hospital but she's fine, I promise" Lara said "Come on let's go and get a drink..."
"Will you take me back to the hospital?" I asked
"In the morning yeah"
"I want to go now..." I argued
"Rachel wants you to get some rest first"
I sighed climbing from my bed; I followed Lara down the stairs. But I stopped at the second floor; Lara didn't realise for a few moments and continued to walk down. Em's door was open just a little bit...I walked up to it and stood there taking a deep breathe. I put my hand on the white wood and pushed it open. It was the only door in the house that hadn't been taken down and put back...
(Lara's POV)
I hadn't realised Poppy wasn't behind me until I reached the bottom of the stairs, As I made my way back up the stairs to see where she'd gone I noticed Emily's bedroom door open and the bedroom light was on. I crept up to the doorway silently and saw Poppy sat on Emily's bed, her hand pressed into the material of the throw that was spread across the bottom of Emily's bed.
"Poppy?" I asked
Her piercing blue eyes flicked up to look at me.
"I haven't been in here since...Since she...You know" She said
"Yeah" I replied
"I just couldn't face it; I haven't even been to her...To her...The cemetery. I know some people have a bad day or a bad week or a bad month. But, me? its been a bad 2 years...Well a bad life but the last two years, there were just so many times I just wanted to die..."
She stopped and came out into the hallway, She sat down on the carpet and I slid down the wall and sat beside her...
"I didn't like you...You know? You were really annoying and you kept trying to get me to talk, I thought you were on my dad's side because you kept sending me to hospital...I didn't trust you" She said
I'd always figured that, I could always tell she didn't trust me.
"And now?" I asked
"You're the person I trust the most after Rachel of course..." She said
I smiled softly, I'd worked a long time to get her to say those words...But the look on her face told me there was more, I didn't have to ask her to continue though because after a few seconds silence she did so anyway...
"I didn't think I deserved your help. I don't...I did the one thing I promised myself I'd never do...I couldn't find a job...We were on our final warnings for the rent and bills, So I sold myself...It wasn't mine anyway. Tom already took that away from me...All that fighting to keep us together and I lost her anyway...I just feel like I deserve everything that I'm getting"
It was the most she'd ever said...In our sessions she talked about feelings and touched on things but she didn't just open up like she did now...