I covered my neck with my hair and exchanged panics looks with Serena. "Your a fucking fangbanger!" Timothy said and i shook my head. "I don't even know how i got this!" He didn't believe me and well i'm sure you can figure out what happened next. The entire school knew and i was shunned, hated, picked on, called so many names it wasn't even funny, and they kept writing fangbanger on my locker with lipstick and other things they could get ahold of. I didn't take the bus today. I walked.
Getting home at 5 because i took my sweet time i pulled out my phone and txted Eric, telling him i wanted to know what happened last night. I didn't expect a reply and i didn't get one, naturally he was still dead for the day. I had put my things away, changed in to a pair of shorts and a t shirt and was now making tacos for dinner. About half way threw it i remembered i didn't even know if my dad would be home tonight. So i picked up the cordless and dialed his number.
"Hey Fae." He said.
"Hey dad, i was wondering if you had plans tonight?"
"Nah, just planned on staying home."
"Ok cause i'm making tacos."
"hmmm tacos."
"Well then hurry up and get home." I laughed.
"Yes ma'am, see ya soon."
"I'm not a ma'am and see ya." I said and hung up. I mixed in the taco seasoning and then went in to the fridge. Pulling out tomatoes, onions, and lettuce. I chopped thoses up and then pulled the shells out of the cabinet. I knew dad wasn't going to be home for a little bit so i put the veggies back in the fridge and left the meat on low so it would stay warm. I did have homework to do so i guess i should get starting.
About half way throught my calculus homework i heard something hit my window... looking outside i saw Pam standing there, she looked irritated and it looked like she had been pulled out of her rest early... Eric i so hate you right now. Quickly i ditched the books and headed outside, she was already on the porch waiting for me. "Eric would have came to explain things to you but he is busy with more important things than explaining things to a teenaged brat." She said and i just nodded, showing that i understood.
"I'm sorry for being a inconvience Pam but we both know that this isn't something i want. I would be more than happy to leave you two alone and live my own life." She just held up her hand to stop me from talking. "I didn't come here to listen to your sob story." I just waited till she talked again, i didn't want to upset her. There be no fury like Pam's. "You and your father went to hot shot last night, you killed four people, saved Godric, and then you let him feed from you. Do you honestly not remember any of this or were you trying to annoy Eric?"
I did... what? I looked down at my hands and for a second i saw the shot gun, dad's shot gun in my hands. Why would i be seeing that... i've never touched it. "You really don't know." It wasn't a question but even if it was i wouldn't have answered. Had i really done all that? "Come with me." She said, i realized it was a order. "Dad's coming home, should be here any minute." She wasn't in the least concerned about how he was going to act if his daughter was no where to be found. "That and the stoves on." I said remembering why he was coming.
"This is me not caring." She said and i took a step back but before i could step in to the house she grabbed my arm and dragged me to her car. "Let go!" I yelled but she just ignored me. "Hey! Let go of her!" Dad? I looked to see dad slamming on his brakes. She pushed me in to her car and looked at dad. "Do not piss me off. I may not be able to kill the seer but you are nothing to Eric." With that she was in the car and speeding down the road.
She pulled up in front of Fangtasia and pushed me inside. "Hey! Watch it!" I snapped when it hurt a little. "Stay here." She ordered and i glared. She walked across the room and disappeared down a hall way. I stood there annoyed and didn't realize that i was holding my hand to my neck in till i heard. "Does it hurt?" I looked and saw someone who looked vaguely familar, but i couldn't recall where i've seen this boy.
I didn't have time to answer before Sookie walked out and looked at me. "Faelyn what are you doing here?" She asked hands on her hips. Yes like i came here of my own free will. "Pam dragged me here. Literally. Dads probally panicking, he saw her force me in to the car." She looked pissed. "Come on where getting you home." She said walking towards me. "Ok." She stopped when she saw the bite mark. Did she bite you? She pulled my hand away to get a better look at him.
No. I really don't remember how i got it. Pam was telling me that dad and i went to hot shot last night to save Eric's maker but i don't remember anything. Bits and peices of little stuff, animals... big cats and some guy i've never met. She looked horrified for a split second, before she hid it. After all we weren't alone it the room. "It doesn't hurt does it?" She asked and i looked at the boy. "No it doesn't hurt." Was it him? She asked looking between the two of us. I don't know.
She sighed and turned towards the hall way again. "Come on, i need to talk to Eric and your not leaving my sight." I just followed as she started walking, i noticed the boy disappeared and when we got to the office i saw him sitting on the couch, Pam standing next to Eric who was sitting behind the desk. "What happened to her Eric?" Sookie was trying not to yell, not having the full story and i wasn't excatly a reliable source since i didn't remember anything useful.
"Your brother withheld information about the people who might have been holding Godric prisoner. Instead he brought his teenaged daughter and got in to a gun fight with a good amount of people. She nearly got raped and managed to save herself, killed four werepanthers in the process." I knew he wasn't done, he was just making sure Sookie could take whatever was coming next.
"Fae noticed that Godric was in need of blood and refused to bring one of the were's for him to feed from instead offered herself. She knew there was a chance that he could have killed her which is why she told me not to let him." Sookie looked at the boy and then back at Eric. "You know how reckless Jason can be and you left him alone! and she payed for it!"
"If i really killed those four people then i didn't pay nearly enough." I said looking down at my hands. I had shot and killed four were's? I felt so guilty. She reached for me but i took a step back out of her reach. "Don't touch me." I whispered and ran out the door. Threw the club and out the exit.
It felt like i was carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders, but i knew i wasn't. It was guilt. The guilt of knowing i had ended peoples lives. That i had been the one to pull the trigger.
Sookie's POV
"Fae!" I cried out as she took off down the street. She was beating herself up but didn't she see that it was for their protection? That she did it to save herself, Jason, and Godric? My neice wasn't a murderer and that was what she was seeing herself as right now. God knows what she would do like this. I ran after her, pushing myself to catch up. "Fae! Stop!" I yelled but she just ignored me. Please Fae! Calm down and stop running! Your not a murderer! She didn't listen, either that or she didn't hear me.
I saw Jason speeding down the road, obviously on his way to Fangtasia to get Fae but when he saw us running down the road he yelled. "What the hell's going on!" I knew i would have to explain it later. "I don't have time to explain it right now Jason! Help me stop her before she does something stupid!" He did a U turn and started trying to get ahead of her.
Eric was behind her and had stopped her from going any farther. I was slightly relieved in till i saw her stop fighting against him and fall limp in his arms. I skidded slightly nearly falling down, stupid heels! As i stopped in front of her. I could tell just by looking at her that she was having a vision. It scared me because she has never reacted like this to any of them before. "What happened?" Jason asked taking her from Eric. "She didn't remember what happened last night Jase." I said and he looked at me. "Eric explained everything. She thinks she's a murderer."
Faelyn's POV
I sat up and looked around. I wasn't in my room. I was in a office, sitting on a black leather couch... where was i? I stood up and walked slowly out the door. As soon as i looked down the hall i knew where i was. Fangtasia. Everything hit me and i knew everything i had done. Slowly i walked down the hall and looked out at everyone. Dad, Eric, Godric, Pam, and Sookie. They all looked at me and i could tell that they expected me to run again but i wouldn't do something stupid like that again any time soon atleast.
Dad and Sookie got up and walked towards me, both looking slightly relieved but worried at the same time. "I'm sorry." I said and dad just laughed. "Oh i no and your grounded for real this time. Your not going anywhere except school and home for a couple of weeks. Can you guys respect that?" He said looking at the vampires. I could feel the tension in the room and decided to break as best as i could. "Dad... i am grounded i can't fly." He looked back at me and laughed, Sookie was laughing to.
"So i see you doing better then?" She said and i nodded. "It's alot to accept." It was and the hardest was accepting that i had shot and killed a child, well i guess she wasn't really a child more of a teenager probally about 14, 15 years old but still she hadn't deserved it and more than likely had just been listening to orders. That was probally one of the reasons i had repressed it.
It was self defense and she was attacking with the intent to kill Faelyn. I know she was, all she had to do was lock her jaws around my jugular and i was done for. I know. It was at this moment that i really took and looked at my dad, he was bruised and beaten. I could see he had tried his best to clean up but you couldn't hide this from anyone. "Does that hurt?" I motioned to the darkest bruise on the side of his head and gently touched it. He winced and i quickly pulled my hand back. "Oh this. I've had worst." He was trying to shrugg it off, make it so i didn't worry.
"Fae what happened? You never reacted to any of your visions like that before." Eric said getting up from his throne and coming towards me. "It was of the past, what happened at Hot shot. It was overwelming and i suppose i passed out." I didn't really understand but i could tell from Sookie's mind that i had went limp and didn't move in till i woke up.
I went over my entire day in my head and had to admit it wasn't boring. It was crazy. "Wait! Their doing what at your school!" Sookie freaked and i looked at her shaking my head. "Nothing, stop freaking out over nothing." Don't! "What's going on?" Jason asked and i looked at the floor. Great... thanks Sookie. "That Timothy Preston kid saw the bite mark and told the entire school. She's being accused of being a fangbanger." Yup... great.
The mood of this room plummeted or maybe that was me, because when i looked up everyone except Pam and Godric looked angry. Yeah it was me. "Whats the name of your princibal?" Eric asked pulling out his cell phone. "Yeah your crazy if you think i'm telling you anything." I said and felt Sookie looking in my head so i shut her out. "There are other ways for me to get the information Faelyn." He threatened and i just looked at him.
"Leave it alone. So kids are talking? I don't care." I wasn't going to argue with a vampire about this. He looked at Sookie but she shook her head. "I can't read her mind." That was for sure. I love my aunt but damn. There was a reason i wanted them to butt out and if i say so myself it was a good one. If i allowed Eric to get involved then that would only make the fangerbanger insults, jokes, and all the other get worse. I could barely handle it today and that was without a vampire involved.
"... Fae did you turn the stove off?" Dad asked randomly and i looked at him. "No Pam wouldn't let me back inside the house." Something was bothering him. Oh my god please tell me i didn't burn down our house. "Ok you guys can talk about this later." He said grabbing my hand and dragging me outside. "Bye!" I called, Sookie waved smiling.
When we got home, i found that the house wasn't on fire and dad was just looking for a excuse to get us out of there. "That was good." I smiled as i made his plate. "I no." He smiled as he took off the gun holster and kicked off his shoes. "How would you react if i said i was considering sending you to Bon Temps to go to school?" I looked up at him, surprised. "Um... your serious?" He nodded. "I don't want to leave Serena. I like Bon Temps but she needs me and just because i'm being picked on doesn't mean i should run and hide." Wow i think i just had a great gran moment.
"I guess your right but why didn't you accept help from Eric?" I looked at him, passed him his plate and shook my head. "Because the viking would only make matters worse. Shoe maker hates me as it is, if a vampire showed up to 'talk' about what was spreading around the school that would only be proof in their eyes that i was one of those women. It's just better if i handle it myself." Dad nodded and took a big bite out of his dinner. "This is good! Where did you learn how to make it like this?" He asked and i smiled. "Economics." That had to be one of the classes i could actually stand.
"Well i think you need to get back in to that class." He said before he continued eating. I was proud of myself. I didn't cook much but that was because we had take out majority of the time. I was surprised i wasn't overweight.
The rest of the night was spent watching tv, scary movies, action, anything but girly movies. That was intill i feel asleep on the couch. When i woke up i saw a note on the coffee table. Picking it up i saw.
Went to Mcdonalds for breakfast, left a egg, bacon, and cheese bagel and one of those coffee drinks you like so much in the fridge. If things get to hard at school just give me a call and i'll pick you up, i've already talked to Andy. He says he doesn't mind you hanging with us for the day. So you could do that or hang out with Sookie or Sam. Just don't get in to any fights, let me handle that expessially if it's with your stupid princibal.
I smiled, most people thought that my dad was going to screw up with me but i don't think so. Sure we don't have much but we have what we need and dad's a good guy, he's just careless sometimes... ok most of the time but he alway's makes sure i was taken care of.
I jumped up from the couch and went in to the kitchen. Opening the fridge i pulled out the Mcdonalds bag and opened it. Sure enough dad had left me my bagel and Mocha Frappe. Did i mention i have the best dad in the world?
After breakfast i jumped in the shower and tried not to think to much knowing that i would just upset myself and i needed to be calm for the most part. I knew that would be shot as soon as i got on the bus. I let the hot water run over my body as i washed my hair then i rinsed all the soap out. Turning off the water and grabbing a towel i dried my hair and then my body. Stepping out of the tub i slipped on a pair of dark blue panties and the matching bra.
I walked the few steps to the counter and grabbed my tooth brush, brushed my teeth and then put it away. I brushed my hair and pulled it into a messy bun, there was nothing i could really do about the bite mark. Everyone knew it was there, might as well show it off. Besides it had been my choice to help Godric it didn't matter what they thought. Right? It was in the middle of putting on a pair of dark gray capri's that i saw two dark purple bruises on my arms right above my elbows, they looked like hand prints.
I must have gotten them when that guy was restraining me. I sighed and pulled my pants up. What kind of man does that? Grabbing the long sleeved black shirt i put it on and picked up my dirty clothes i left the bathroom and went to my room. Dropping my clothes in the hamper i picked up my off white tenni shoes and pulled a pair of black socks out of the dresser and put them on. Picking my books up i put them back into my backpack and slung it over my shoulders. Wincing slightly which meant i probally had a bruise there to and probally somewhere on my back since the guy had hit me with something. I shoved my cell phone in my pocket, grabbed my house key and left.
The entire ride to school people kept staring at me. It was uncomfortable and serveral times i nearly pulled my hair out of the bun but i knew if i did that then these people would know it bothered me and it would only get worse from there. Every little thing would set these guys off, i had to be careful in till things cooled down and probally even then.
Serena had silently been sitting beside me, she was and i quote 'examining it' i would call it staring. I found that annoying and had nearly snapped at her in till i read her mind and found that she was curious that's when i became concerned and worried that she would want to know what it was like and because she knew i didn't remember she would probally go find out for herself.
Most of the kids avoided saying anything to me in the classes but when i was in the hall i was free game. It was like i had a target sign over my head or something, but more than likely it was on my neck. I would hear things like Whore, slut, and fangbanger when they didn't stop to say something but when they did it was stuff like. How does it feel to betray you own race? Filthy whore and how many dead things do you spread your legs for each night. Great huh?
Probally unnessary to say but my whole idea of letting them know it didn't bother me wasn't working all to well, it just seemed to fuel them. It was when i was pulled in to the student concellors office for help to get over my 'addiction' that i cracked and decided that i wasn't going to take this anymore. Honestly i had listened to the woman for a full 30 minutes list reasons why i shouldn't be with or anywhere near a vampire. "Can you just do me a huge favor and shut up! I know this ok! and what kind of idiot is addicted to that? Where do you even get that from?" I pratically yelled before leaving the room slamming the door behind me.
Slipping in to the girls bathroom, i pulled out my phone and called dad. As soon as he picked up. "Please come get me." What i hadn't known was i wasn't alone in the bathroom in till one of the girls from my chemistry class stepped out and looked at me with disgust. I heard my dad say i'll be right there before she started talking. "You can't even wait can you? Disgusting. Women like you should be burned." I glared and thrust the phone at her. "Why don't you ask who's on the god damn phone before you jump to conclusions!" She looked at it and seemed to pale.
I pulled it away from her and hung up, glaring at her. "I'm not going to apologize." She sneered. "Oh i know, you people are all the same. It's amazing, you believe the latest gossip without even bothering to find out the real story." She rolled her eyes and put her hands on her hips. "Like you even know what happened. Word is you don't remember. But thats a lie to isn't it?" I glared at her. "So desperate for something you can use to spread more rumors huh? No i don't remember anything you bitch!" With that i left walking down the hall to my last class. Dad wouldn't be here for a little while anyway's.
As i stepped in to my chemistry class, everyone looked at me except Serena. Like i was the plague... like i was some horrible person. I came very close to running out of the room, instead i took a seat in the very back of the room next to Rena. Even Mrs. Mitchell was shooting me funny looks. "Are you alright?" She whispered. Really? You had to ask? "Dad's coming to pick me up. I can't stay here any longer." I whispered. "Is there something you would like to share with the class Ms. Stackhouse?" Mrs. Mitchell asked.
"No Mrs. Mitchell, i'm sorry for interupting." She nodded slightly and continued with the lesson i wasn't even remotely paying attention to. It was about half way threw the class that i picked up threw the minds of the receptionist lady that my father had come to pick me up. She told him that she would send a student to come get me and she did. Just she sent the guy who started this whole mess.
When Timothy walked threw the class and motioned for me to come to him i picked up my bag after he had annouced that i was going home. Everyone looked relieved even Serena looked slightly relieved... I blocked out everyones thoughts and went to him. Silently following him out to the hall way. "Hows it going?" He asked even though he was in front of me i knew he was smirking. "You know how it's going." I responded coldly. "Bet you fanger ain't happy about this huh?" I just sped up so i was walking beside him and shrugged. "I wouldn't know because i don't have one."
He looked at me and the next thing i know i was slammed up against one of the lockers. "Then where did this come from?" He asked tilting my head to the side roughly. "I don't know!" I screamed at him. "Bullshit." He snapped. "You don't get bitten and forget something like that!" I glared at him. "Sounds like your speaking from exprience Timmy." Obviously you do because i actually forgot. "I have never touched one of those dead things." He said threw clentched teeth.
I wanted to push him away from me. I wanted to scream and punch him but i didn't do any of that. Instead i slipped out from his hold and started walking to the office. "Don't come back Fae. If you do you'll have hell to pay." I looked over my shoulder and smiled coldly. "Of course you people just love destroying peoples lifes. Go fuck yourself." I flicked him off.
As soon as i walked in to the office dad led me out to his police cruiser. "What happened?" He asked and i looked at him, fighting against the tears. "I'm not sure i can take this. It seems like even Serena is starting to judge me."