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'Now, Lauren... I want you to close your eyes and imagine it never happened...' Lauren had been hearing these words for the past two weeks and they were slowly driving her mad, but she still focused on the task.
'Tell me whats happpening, Lauren' asked Savage. Lauren nodded and closed her eyes. She hated this bit, but if it helped her then she would do it.
'Hayley...My closest friend... She's reaching for something, something sharp because I can see it glittering... I think she's trying to hurt herself, but I dont want her too!' Lauren said, starting to freak out. She kept her eyes closed.
'Lauren, its okay. Tell her to step away, talk her out of it...' said Dr Savage, putting his hands on Lauren's shoulders. She started to calm down and soon, her face and body relaxed and she opened her eyes, a smile gracing her features.
'What happened?' asked Dr Savage. Lauren smiled at him, a glazed look in her eyes.
'I stopped her.. I stopped her hurting herself' she said. Dr Savage smiled at Lauren, making sure their eyes met.
'You're doing very good, Lauren. So good infact that I think we should reduce the sessions to once a week, rather than twice a week..' said Savage. Lauren looked surprised, but smiled
'Really? You think I'm ready for that?' Lauren asked, smiling. Doctor Savage nodded.
'What's its been Lauren? Nearly nine months, and your so close to the edge.. I can almost feel it' said Savage. Lauren smiled and nodded.
'I can't wait to tell to Mum!' said Lauren happily, glad she was finally getting her life back on track. Doctor Savage chuckled.
'Next week we'll work on this Joey person who you keep mentioning..' said Savage, making Lauren nod. He noticed she tensed up at the mention of his name and knew it was a touchy subject for her.
'Is that it? Can I go for today?' asked Lauren, going to left the chair, but Savage stopped her.
'Actually, Lauren. Would you mind staying a bit longer? I just want to get to know a bit more about Joey, before our next session... So, I can figure out what we need to work on...' said Savage, grabbing his pen and clipboard.
'Well, what do you want to know?' asked Lauren, her voice going small. Doctor Savage smiled gently
'As much as you can tell me...' he said. Lauren nodded and took a sip of her drink, before beginning the explanation.
'Okay... Erm, Joey came into my life in 2012. I didn't even know I had another set of cousins, until his younger sister, Alice arrived on the Square looking for Uncle Derek. Anyway, Joey arrived soon after and he caught my best friends attention. So... He started dating her and I was felt jealous, but at the same time sick... Sick that I was jealous of my friend dating my cousin, who I developed feelings for. The months went by and I found it harder not act on my feeelings until he broke up with Lucy... I got drunk one night and I kissed him, only for him to reject me...'
'How did you feel about that?' Savage interjected gently. Lauren looked at him
'Hurt. Upset. Terrified. I thought I'd ruined my relationship with him, until the following day when he kissed me... I was the one who rejected us then, saying it was wrong. I was having a constant battle with my head and heart, until a few weeks later, my feelings just spilled out...' Lauren trailed off, blinking away tears.
'It's okay. Take your time' said Dr Savage. Lauren wiped a tear away and carried on
'We slept together. We gave into our feelings, before realising that we couldn't be together in Walford, so we tried to leave... But we got involved in a car accident. Long story short, Uncle Derek used the knowledge of our relationship against us and made Joey end it. I found out the truth at Christmas and Uncle Derek got... Murdered...' said Lauren, her voice going quiet. Doctor Savage was quiet for a few minutes, before he remembered something.
'Lauren, when you first came to me... You mentioned something about a text message?' he asked. Lauren's eyes flashed with hurt and pain.
'That text sent me over the edge... Me and Joey had an argument last year over a guy and I left the place we staying at to move back home with my mum and dad... Basically, he told me never to contact him again...' Lauren let the tears fall and Savage passed her a tissue.
'I know this is hard... But can you remember how you felt?' he asked. Lauren nodded.
'Hurt, betrayed, angry. I wished, when I get that text, that I had died in the car crash! I hated him so much and then he tried to pin it on my Mum.. Thinking I'd believe him. I hate him for he did to me! I wish he never even existed sometimes! I wish I'd never even met him... Because if I had, I wouldn't be like this, messed up in the head!' cried Lauren. Dr Savage let her cry it out, allowing her to calm down, before speaking.
'Vent it out, all the anger, Lauren. Just vent it out...' said Savage, jotting some notes down on his notepad, hiding his smirk...
Lauren returned home, later that afternoon. She sat down on the sofa and curled up, dragging the throwover on the back of the sofa, over her. She scrunched it up and allowed the tears to fall.
Flashback
Lauren and Tanya pulled up at the house, where Tanya now lived. She saw a man and two boys, who looked to be around her age, standing at the top of the steps. Lauren looked at Tanya and swallowed. Tanya saw the nerves in Lauren's eyes and squeezed her daughters hand in comfort. Lauren took a deep breath and climbe dout of the car, smiling at the people at the top of the steps. She pulled her suitcase behind her and slung a bag on her shoulder, walking up the pathway.
'Hello, Lauren. Bryon Marques. Heard so much about you' he said, introducing himself, holding out a hand for Lauren to shake. Lauren shook it and smiled at him.
'Nice to meet you too, Bryon' she replied, before turning her attentionto the boys standing next to him. 'And you are?' she asked politely.
'Richard Marques and this my younger brother, Lewis' replied Richard, holding out a hand. Lauren smiled and shook the boys hands.
'Nice to meet you both' she said. Richard mentioned for her bag.
'Let me take that for you..' he said, leaving the bag off Lauren's shoulder. Lewis rolled his eyes at his brother's antics.
'I'll show to you room if you like...' Richard asked. Lauren smiled and nodded, following him inside, her Mum, Bryon and Lewis following. She was lead up the stairs and and into a room. She gasped when she saw it. It was bigger than what she had had at home with Abi.
'Oh... Wow!' said Lauren, making Tanya giggle and put her hands on her daughters shoulders and smiled.
'You can dercorate it however you want. Just let us know, when you've settled in..' said Tanya. Lauren looked at her mum and nodded.
'I'll be down in a bit. I'll just unpack and that, I'll be soon' said Lauren. Tanya knew that was her cue to leave, she smiled and montioned for the others to leave the room with her, leaving Lauren to unpack. Lauren heard the door shut and fell to her knees, sobbing. She cried for everything that she had gone through, the end of her relationship with Joey, leaving Max and Abi behind. She cried until she had cried herself out. Once she got herself under control, she took a deep breath and got to her feet, unpacking all of her clothes and toiletries. Once she had unpacked eberything, she stood back and admired her handy work. Sh smiled and nodded.
'Hey Abs, What do...' she trailed off as she remembered where she was and sighed, looking down to the ground...
End of flashback
Lauren wiped her eyes and closed them, before doing another excercise that Dr Savage had been drilling into her mind. She closed her eyes and focused on her breathing and her emotions, telling herself to calm down and relax. She did and opened her eyes, smiling to herself. She got up off the sofa and went to make herself a drink, whistling to herself. She noticed then, that Tanya seemed a little distant from her lately and that she missed having nights in with her mum. She grabb dher phone and dialled Tanya's number. She waited a few minutes, before it went to voicemail.
'Hi mum. It's me. Just wanted if you wanted a little pamper night tonight? Just us two? Call me back' said Lauren, before ending the call and going back to making her drink...
Tanya arrived home, four hours later. She lost track of time and only just gotten Lauren's voicemailon her mobile. She set her key in the lock and unlocked the door.
'Lauren, darling I'm back! Got some stuff from the salon I thought we could use?' shouted Tnaya, as she entered the house. She enter the living room to find it empty. She fornwed.
'LAUREN?' she shouted up the stairs. She headed for the kitchen to see if she had gone outside, but couldn't see her anywhere. She placed her hands on the counter, feeling a peice of paper beneath her hands. She forwned and lifted it up to read, a loud cry ripping from Tanya's mouth.
'LAUREN?' she screamed, rushing up the stairs...
Meanwhile, unaware of the drama unfolding in Greece, Abi, Max and Oscar all settled down infront of the TV with fish and chips, for a late dinner.
'Where's Kirsty tonight, Dad?' asked Abi
'Working. So, we can what we want!' said Max. Abi smiled before tucking into her fish and chips. A few minutes later, frantic banging came to the front door.
'Oh for god sake, can't we just have one night with no dramas!' groaned Abi, as Max set his food onto the coffee table and heading to the front door, the banging never stopping.
'Alright! Alright! I'm coming!' he shouted, before wrenching the door open, his mouth falling open in shock and surprise.
'Daddy!' cried Lauren, before she fell into Max's arms, sobbing. Max pulled her inside and wrapped his arms round his eldest daughter and held her as she cried...
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