and this is why i didnt post this till i had quite some done ^_^ that way when life decideds to go in the blender you can sorta make it up to your readers ^_^ thanks to those who are sticking with me.

still dont own star trek... yay?

Episode 2-4.5 A Day to Remember

At breakfast Riley approached and Saya grinned. "Am I invited back again for decorating committee?" She asked and Riley informed her that this year, due to a large amount of additional work needing done it would just be the 2 of them. Saya felt a momentary possessiveness from Spock. As she walked with Riley to the room she asked him if he was still interested in a dance. Riley looked at her curiously but said he was.

They started and this year Saya decided on a gold theme with plenty of candles. Of course the candles did not actively burn but they looked like they did. The first day she managed to get most of the tables and chairs arranged as they would need. Saya was tired but could already see what she would do with the room with Riley's help by the time shift was over.

"Lt. Riley, Ms. Saya." Spock greeted them as they finished moving the last table for the day. Saya smiled and said hey back. "Lt. Riley, you do not have to trouble yourself with obtaining a ladder this year." Spock informed him and Saya smiled knowing that he was planning to be her ladder again.

"Honestly you make an amazing ladder. Don't have to get down all the time to move it." Saya said with a grin. Riley watched them with a slight smile and Saya said she would see him in the morning as she happily walked out with Spock. 'You like being my ladder huh?' She asked him mentally.

'I prefer it to possible alternatives.' Spock replied and Saya laughed. They entered the mess hall and got dinner. McCoy and Kirk joined them. "So Missy, I hear you are decorating for the Christmas party again. This time will you actually be attending?" McCoy asked her.

Saya shrugged "I no longer feel the need to run when too many people are around but I'm still not a fan of crowds. However my Christmas present to Riley this year is a dance, so I will be there for that at least."

McCoy looked between her and Spock. Kirk asked "I suppose that does not elicit any feelings from you Mr. Spock?" Saya grinned and told him that Spock was the one teaching her to dance.

Kirk asked if that meant that Spock knew how to dance and Saya and Spock replied in unison "Dancing is quite mathematical." Spock added 'Captain' to the end of his sentence and everyone paused a moment. McCoy, Kirk and Saya laughed and Spock merely raised an eyebrow, saying his usual 'interesting.'

Saya took everyone's dishes and returned them as the others got up to leave. Catching up easily she fell in step with Spock. "I'd love to see one of these dance practices of yours Ms. Saya" McCoy said but Saya refused saying she was still too self conscious about it.

Spock and Saya danced for a while. Saya was getting much better and as expected Spock was able to do it flawlessly. After a while Spock sat on their bed reading and Saya sat between his legs working on her present for Uhura. She had already put Kirk's aside, and finished McCoy's and Scotty's. Her present for Spock was finished quite a few months ago but she tried not to think about it so she could surprise him.

That night she finished Uhura's gift and put it aside with the others. Spock had agreed to leave that one drawer to her for holding surprises and secrets. She had told him it would pretty much only be presents. She smiled at the mutual trust, her trust that he wouldn't look and his that she wouldn't hide anything important.

Saya snuggled deeper into Spock's embrace, thankful for so many things and happy with her life. The next morning Saya woke slightly melancholy. Spock was familiar with it and knew why. Every so often she would think of her mother and miss her greatly but Saya handled it so Spock merely went on with his day and kept a quiet watch over her.

By breakfast she was her normal cheery self and Spock knew she had pushed it away again. As she went to help decorate more, Spock went to his station. Spock reminded himself to keep thoughts about his special project quiet so he wouldn't upset Saya with them. He knew that she woke melancholy that morning because she had subconsciously caught a little of what he was working on.

That day Saya and Riley finished putting up the last of the tables and decorated them. They had even managed to get some of the wall decorations up. "You know this doesn't go as fast with just the 2 of us." Saya commented panting slightly from the hard work. Spock entered and notified them that the next day he would be able to assist. They again went to dinner and both of them put up walls as they planned for their own projects.

After dinner Spock worked on practicing the waltz with her again. They had managed to obtain access to one of the larger rooms to practice the full dance in and she was getting fairly skilled at it when the intercom beeped for him. "Mr. Spock, we have reached beaming distance of star base 13 and you are being requested." Saya looked at him puzzled as the ensen conveyed the message.

Spock acknowledged and asked Saya to join him in the transporter room. Saya couldn't read what he was thinking and knew he was keeping something from her but trusted him. They got to the transporter room and Spock ordered the crewman to beam their visitor aboard. Saya watched as someone who looked just like her older brother materialized. She knew it was impossible but was unsure of who this person was.

"Ms. Saya, this is your older brothers great great great great great great great grandson Seong. I did research and" Spock started and Saya went cold.

"I'm sorry but I don't want to meet my brothers offspring. I'm sorry." Saya cut in as she started to walk out of the room. Seong quickly grabbed her wrist to stop her and she whirled, emotional pain in her eyes and glaring at him. "I don't want anything from you. I don't want to have you feel in any way obligated to me. I just want to live my life and move on." Saya snapped as she yanked her wrist out of his grip.

She again moved to leave and Spock mentally told her 'I have a legitimate reason for this action. Saya, please, give me a moment.' Saya looked at him angry and hurt. At the intimate way he addressed her, she turned around again and faced this link to her stolen past. "I do not want anything from you either Saya… Ms. Saya I will leave you completely alone after this but I have been given a burden, passed down through the years and I would like to relinquish it.

Saya studied him for a bit and he continued "The story goes that your mother looked for you for years. She found traces and knew something had happened. She finally found out that you had been taken and cryogenically frozen but by that time it was too late to help you. She instead hoped that someday someone would find you and look up your family. As such she gave each of her children and grandchildren a data drive instructing them to pass it down through the years, until any of them heard whisper of you."

Seong held out a data card to her. "Over the years many of us stopped bothering with it, or lost it. It has been converted to keep with the times but the documents are locked and unaccessed. No one knows what is on it but it is what your mother wanted you to have." Saya stared at the offered data card in shock, she felt like her brain had stopped.

She looked from the card to the face, so like her brothers and suddenly hugged him tightly as she took the card. "Thank you! Thank you so much for honoring my mother this way. Thank you for… everything. I apologize for being so harsh." Saya let him go and looked in wonder at the card. "Umm, if you want to contact me, maybe we can send letters… I just… I'm not really…"

Seong cut her off "I understand. I only wanted to deliver the task that we have had for over 200 years. I'm glad it finally made it to you. Have a good life." He said with a smile as he transported back to the star base

Saya stood there just staring at the card in her hand. Spock gently guided her back to their quarters as Saya continued to stare at the card in her hand. Spock could feel the chaos that her mind was in. as soon as the door to their room closed Saya threw her arms around him and hugged him tight. "I'm sorry and thank you." She told him between tears.

Spock held her for a few minutes until she calmed then suggested they attempt to retrieve the information from the card. They sat at the computer side by side as Saya put the card in. "This is what you have been keeping secret recently." Saya asked and Spock confirmed it. They discovered all of the data was password protected and Saya had no idea what it would be.

After a few hours and quite a few different attempts they called it a night. As they laid down for bed, Spock held Saya close and helped prompt her racing mind to sleep. She was still working on figuring out the password to get to what her mother left her. Spock looked her over as he attempted to calculate possible passwords. Setting his mind to sleep he soon joined her in peaceful slumber.

In the morning they both got up and Spock could see the remnants of her tearful night before. As they walked together to breakfast they continued to contemplate the password issue. They were sitting quietly and eating when Uhura joined them. Saya looked up and smiled but Uhura promptly looked between the 2 of them. "What caused the tears Saya?" Uhura demanded.

Saya gave a single laugh before her eyes teared up again. "Mr. Spock found one of my brothers descendants. Apparently my mom found out what happened to me and through my brothers got a message to me. We are still trying to get to it but…" Saya wiped the corner of her eyes and grinned "She knew, she knew what happened."

Uhura studied both of them in turn and told Spock "You definitely came up with the best Christmas present for her." With a smile before leaving to prepare for her shift. Saya started to the mess hall the party would be in and Spock walked with her. Before she could ask he told her that he was free to help.

As soon as they walked in Riley zeroed in on her face and glared at Spock. "Who made you cry?" Riley demanded.

Saya rubbed her face and chuckled "I must look terrible." She commented and Spock informed her that she did show the signs of a recent bout of crying. "Well, it was Mr. Spock but not bad." She quickly explained and Riley went back to his friendly self. Saya pulled out the golden orbs and hanging candles and got them ready for Riley to pass up to her.

Spock boosted her onto his shoulder and they started hanging them from the ceiling. About lunch time Kirk and McCoy entered as Saya was finishing hanging the last of the candles and McCoy said "I don't believe it! I really don't believe it! Our very own Mr. Spock is acting the part of a ladder!" Spock carefully put Saya back on the ground as he informed McCoy that belief was not required.

Saya grinned and looked at their work. "I think we can do the tree after lunch." She commented as she finished putting the leftovers away. They walked to get lunch together and McCoy continued to tease Spock about having Saya on his shoulders. 'He's had me on far more than his shoulders.' Saya thought but thankfully stopped herself before saying it. Spock stared at her a moment and she blushed slightly but ignored it.

At lunch McCoy said his almost standard line of the possibility of making a human out of Spock. Saya replied instantly "Oh, i really hope not! I like him just the way he is!" McCoy and Kirk stared at her for a moment before laughing. Kirk asked how the visitor went and Saya tearfully explained. "He gave me something from my mum. She knew what happened to me and left messages with all of her kids and grand kids to be passed down until someone found me."

"I always knew Mr. Spock was the type to make a pretty girl cry but even I didn't expect this. So what was the message?" McCoy asked as he passed her a napkin.

"We don't know yet. It's password protected for me and…" Saya stopped and thought a moment. "For Saya, that might be it but the number 4 instead of the word." She bolted from the room to go try it. Spock cleaned up their dishes and followed at a more reasonable pace with McCoy and Kirk. they saw his smile the moment Saya managed to get into the files.

As soon as the door to their quarters opened Saya happily called out "I got it. That was the password!" Between sniffles. Spock walked behind her to see her going through photos by the thousands. Saya explained "Some of these I was a part of but she also saved important photos over time for me to see from after I disappeared. See this one is her me and 3 of the 5 dogs in that picture." Saya pointed at the picture she had made.

Kirk and McCoy politely excused themselves as Saya continued to see the family that she had missed. Going into another file she saw a multitude of documents. Opening the first she started reading a letter her mother had written to her. Spock rested a hand on her shoulder to give her comfort as she read about her mother coping with her disappearance and the guilt from the situation.

Spock reminded her that they needed to get back to work and she again went to the mess hall that they were decorating. Spock set the tree up for her and between the 3 of them, they managed to get it decorated beautifully. "All that is left tomorrow is a last check and arrangement of food day of." Saya said as they left.

Saya immediately made a beeline for their quarters and sat at the computer to keep reading her mothers letters. Spock silently got them dinner and sat Saya's meal in front of her. Saya smiled and wiped a tear from her eye as she picked up the plate and carried it over to the table with Spock. "Thank you. I had better pace myself in reading or I will be inclined to stay up all night to finish every letter."

Spock could feel the mild regret in Saya and was about to inquire about it when she answered "I got angry at you and didn't give you a chance to explain. For that I am sorry. Forgive me?" Spock informed her that the apology was unnecessary and she insisted "It is. You have never done anything to hurt me and I should have given you a chance before getting mad… Though if i had, i wouldn't have gotten mad, but that's a side note."

Spock did his customary lip twitch telling her "all is forgiven." and cleared away their dishes. Saya got up and stretched. The past days had been chaotic and quite emotional. She knew that many days to come would be emotional as well, but she was glad that Spock was with her through it all.

Spock came up behind Saya and wrapped an arm around her as he buried his face in the nape of her neck. Saya started to turn but felt and heard Spock rumble. She instead started running her fingers through his hair as he ran his free hand down her body. After a quite passionate love making they laid in bed ready for sleep.

"I make it hard for you to repress your emotions, especially with our bond, don't I?" Saya asked. It was one thing that concerned her every so often but this was the first time she asked about it.

"It is manageable." Was his only reply as he rested his lips against her forehead. Saya drifted off to sleep smiling and grateful for the amazing man that had wound up in her life. The next morning was Christmas and Saya got up and dressed excitedly. This year Kirk had insisted others take their rolls on the bridge and both of them attending the party.

Saya decided on the Greek style dress for it because it would go with the theme best. Spock had already gotten his dress uniform on and Saya observed him as she got dressed. There was a knock at their door and Spock let Uhura in who promptly went to help Saya do her hair. As soon as Saya was done and dressed she went to her secret drawer and pulled out the woven wire earrings for her.

Uhura grinned happily and thanked Saya before going off to get ready herself. Saya felt Spock's eyes on her and raised an eyebrow in question. "Your beauty surpasses all logic." Spock told her. If she wasn't so schooled in keeping a neutral expression her mouth would have fallen open.

Spock eyed her a moment more before leaning down and giving her a kiss. "I believe you have gifts to deliver." He reminded her and she blinked a couple of times before getting the other gifts out. Spock carefully took the bottle of scotch and the embossed drinking glasses to carry and Saya carried Kirk's gift. They knocked at his door first and thankfully found him still in his quarters.

"Umm… I know you like antiques and stuff. These are girly, sorry, but they are over 200 years old." Saya said as she held out her no longer used glasses frame. Kirk looked them over and smiled at Saya as he said his thank you. Saya smiled back but quickly left as she and Spock went to visit McCoy next. For him, she had embossed a drinking glass set which he appreciated.

Scotty she gave a bottle of scotch she had managed to get. She had woven a plaid cozy for it and Scotty was quite happy with his gift. They returned to their quarters after stopping for lunch and Saya pulled out the last hidden gift. "Made this a while ago for you." She said as Spock uncovered it.

Spock examined it for a few moments before smiling his smile at Saya. "thank you." Was all he said but Saya could feel his mind calculating. Taking a seat next to him she waited for him to explain his thoughts. "You got this roughly a year ago. I saw the rough outline carved when you cut yourself. You have been observing and carving this for quite some time." Spock said. Saya smiled and told him that she had finished it back in August but was keeping it for his Christmas present.

Spock put it on one of the display shelves before pulling her into a hug. After a few minutes Spock said in his measured baritone "We are expected at the Christmas party." Saya grinned and they walked, side by side, as they always did, to the mess hall. Kirk and McCoy greeted them at the door. Saya ducked away before they could say much as she went to find Riley.

"Umm, I wanted to give you a Christmas present this year but didn't know what I could make for you. So instead I decided to give you the dance I promised so long ago." Saya told him with a smile.

Riley looked around for a bit before asking her "Are you sure Mr. Spock won't mind?" Saya looked at him slightly puzzled before saying that Spock was the one who taught her to dance but they had to wait for the waltz because it was the only one she knew. Riley laughed and joked as they wandered back over to Spock, Kirk, and McCoy. Uhura greeted them and Riley nodded to her, Saya wondered why but said nothing.

Soon a waltz came on and Saya walked onto the dance floor with Riley. They started out well but Saya soon discovered it was more difficult to dance with someone shorter when she had only ever danced with Spock. Riley nodded again and Saya looked at him puzzled until he answered "I still owe you. Consider this payback." Before he spun her into Spock. "Take over for me Mr. Spock It seems she is used to a taller dance partner." He said before moving to stand by Uhura.

Saya was finding it fun to dance with Spock in the unrestrained space but after some time was wondering if the music had gone on longer than it was supposed to. The song finally ended and as they stopped dancing Saya looked around. Everyone was watching them. Saya turned bright red and stared at the floor as she mumble asked "Did I dance that badly or something?"

Spock observed her a moment before informing her "The most probable cause of their reaction is the oddity of seeing me dance as well as the skill at which the dance was performed by both of us." Saya looked at Spock quickly as they walked off the dance floor and over to their friends. She was not overly comfortable being the center of attention like that but it was quite enjoyable to dance with Spock in the open area.

The others couldn't help but tease them. Spock gave little response but Saya was still blushing profusely. McCoy commented on Spock being able to dance and Kirk teased him slightly about having any kind of emotional response to such a romantic dance. Uhura and Riley were speculating how the crew would take that dance. After some time it was discovered that Kirk and McCoy were the cause of the song going on longer than usual.

The party started to mellow out and Saya used it as an excuse to return to their quarters. Spock of course followed her, calculating that she wanted to read another of her mother's letters. Once in their room Saya quickly pulled all the clips out of her hair and ruffled it. It tousled down in a beautiful half up, half down fashion and she left it, not really paying attention to it.

Saya went to the computer and pulled up the next letter. Spock sat on the bed behind her and watched her read as he heard her thoughts. After she finished they got ready for bed. Saya again thanked Spock for the effort he went to getting the letters from her mom. Saya fell into a contented sleep. Spock watched over her for a while, enjoying her dream of dancing with him, before falling asleep himself.

*END*