'A ray of sunshine came and went

A beautiful treasure only lent,

In God's keeping quietly sleeps

A child we loved but couldn't keep.'

Chapter 3: Realization: April

"You have a great house." I complimented, looking at the pictures hanging on the wall.

"Well, Thank you dear, but it was all Wyatt." She informed, laying the dining table, as she was still having trouble saying his name.

"Who ever did it. It looks great."

I continued looking around at all the older pictures by the stairs. I stopped at a smaller, higher, one and stared right over at it. Susan came up behind me and smiled.

"Oh, that's Penny up on the farm when she was about five." She beamed, pointing her out. "She was always a great help up there." She added, as I smiled at the picture of my wife holding a rake double the size of her.

I couldn't say anything. I was to taken aback from the picture, and how cute she was.

Penny walked through from the hall as she sighed loudly. I turned to face her as she looked mortified.

"Please don't look at those." She pleaded, trying to stop me from looking at the photos. "They're old and embarrassing." She laughed.

"How would you feel if I told you that I have seen a picture of you on your twenty-first birthday." I smiled as Penny glared at me, instantly remembering the picture being taken.

She turned to her mother, who was busy arranging the silverware on the table.

"Okay, why would you show him that?" She asked, her voice higher than usual.

Susan shrugged her shoulders as Penny glared back over at me. I raised my eyebrows over at her as she laughed under her breath.

"Mom," Penny started, grabbing her mother's attention. "There's something I want to give to you." She smiled as I but my bottom lip slightly. "I'll go and grab it."

She excused herself from the table and walked out into the hall. I sat there awkwardly as Susan turned to me. She asked what it was as I casually shrugged my shoulders, pretending not to know what it was Penny had gotten for her.

"Here." She smiled, handing her mom a wrapped present.

I tried my hardest not to smile, as not to give it away. Susan pulled away the wrapping paper and immediately turned the photo frame around.

She looked blankly at the picture as Penny was slowly about to explode with excitement.

"Penny, what is this?" She asked, trying not seem rude about it.

"I just thought you would like a picture of your grandchild." She beamed, not giving her mother eye contact.

Both Susan and Sara looked up at Penny with huge smiles on their faces. They quickly stood up and hugged her as Ruby sat in her chair, looking confused about the entire thing. Isabella jumped up from her seat to see the ultrasound.

"Really?" Sara asked, pushing Penny away with her hands.

"No... I just took that picture off the internet." She answered sarcastically.

Isabella looked up at Penny and scoffed slightly, "That's naughty."

"But, I was being sarcastic." Penny informed as she nodded her head.

"Well, we are so happy for you." Susan interrupted, turning Penny to face her. "Both of you." She smiled, turning to me too. "And we all wish you the best of luck."

After dinner, I continued looking around the ground floor of the house, as everyone was making glance after glance at the ultrasound.

Penny followed me through to the side living room. She crept up behind me as my mind was set on the old photos, hanging on the wall.

"What you doing?" She asked, making me jump.

"Just looking around." I smiled, whilst my heart was beating faster than usual.

She smiled and looked at a few of the pictures, whilst still keeping an eye on me. She stepped back closer and ran her hand up my arm.

"How about I show you my old room." She winked as I looked bug-eyed at her.

"Are you suggesting what I think you're suggesting?" I asked, before swallowing deeply as she nodded, biting her lower lip.

I grinned as Penny slowly lead me to the stairs.

I lifted my head as my hand landed on the empty side of the bed. I cautiously looked around the pitch black room. I scurried my hand around the bedside table to find my phone, before the light filling the room as I pressed the home button.

I sighed after noticing it was early, and I was exhausted from traveling back from Nebraska the day before.

I jumped out of my skin as I heard retching coming from the bathroom, and I immediately burst out of bed. Luckily the door wasn't locked. I quickly sat by Penny's side. I grabbed her hair out of the side of her face, rubbing her back with my other hand.

After she was finished, I ran back through and grabbed the glass of water that she had taken to bed the night before and brought it to her.

She grinned as she took the glass out of my hand.

"Thank you." She said, with her hoarse voice.

"You're welcome." I smiled, sitting back next to her.

"I think it was all the traveling." She guessed, placing her head on the lid of the toilet, like it would happen again. "I'm sorry I woke you up." She apologized.

"I woke up before." I informed, shrugging my shoulders.

Penny nodded as I gazed into her eyes.

2009:

"I missed you so much." Penny gushed, in between kisses.

"I missed you too." I smiled.

"I couldn't even think of anyone else while you were gone." She smirked, trying to compete,

"Me neither. Except for one night when the heat went out." I informed without thinking.

Penny glared at me, whilst we were both still holding on to each other's waist.

"Long story, it's... Don't ask." I pushed it aside, before returning to kissing her.

I stopped as I heard the knocking if my roommate on the other side. I whispered close to Penny, only to have him to hear it.

"It's not a good time, Sheldon." I insisted, walking forward and away from the door.

Penny glared at the door as he started knocking for her.

"Oh, this is ridiculous." She sighed, marching over to the door. "What?" She asked as Sheldon was angrily standing on the other side.

"Hello, Penny. I realize you're currently at the mercy of your primitive biological urges, but as you have an entire lifetime of poor decisions ahead of you, may I interrupt this one?" He asked,

"It's great to see you too. Come on in." She said, obviously angry at him.

I was sitting on the couch, waiting for Penny to return home. I held a wet washcloth against my lower lip.

I had gotten into a fight with Sheldon earlier after he pushed the limit. But Sheldon didn't punch me, Amy did. I admit that I hurt him first. But his verbal words pushed my physical limit.

I removed the washcloth as Penny walked through the door.

"Leonard, are you okay?" She asked, placing her bag by the door.

I turned to face her and nodded. Her jaw almost dropped as her eyes were glued to my swollen lip.

"What happened?" She questioned, walking toward the couch.

"It's a long story." I sighed, covering my finger over my lip.

"Well, I want to know who did this to my baby daddy." She smiled, placing her hand on my knee.

"It was Amy.." I sighed, as she looked it disbelief.

"Sheldon's Amy?" She asked, her voice sounding surprised.

I nodded as it hurt to move my lips to much. Penny gazed around the room before standing up and tracing around the room.

"Why? What would she do something like that?" She wondered.

I shrugged it away, hoping she would drop the subject. She got her phone out of her jacket as my eyes were glued to Penny's tiny bump, which was made apparent in her outfit.

"Hi, Ames." She smirked as my heart skipped a beat. "I'm just calling to ask a question.." She paused for a moment. "What the hell did you do to my husband?" She yelled as I looked over, raising my eyebrows.

Penny continued to shout down the phone as I felt the pulsating in my mouth and lip. Penny walked out to the kitchen as my phone chirped on the coffee table.

I read the text from Howard and waited for the attachment. As soon as it came through, I followed it as it took me to YouTube.

I quickly turned it down as the music started blasting through the speakers on my phone.

Penny reemerged from the doorway with her phone on her shoulder.

"Sorry." I whispered, listening intently to the music.

'Sun shines on my bedroom wall, And today is the day, it's the start of it all it's true. I wanna be more like you.'

"More Like You." I mumbled the name of the song to myself, the music still blurring away in the background. "I came across this earlier! You need to listen to this!" I repeated his text out loud.

'A life without hope, a life without dreams ain't good. I wanna be more like you. I wanna be more like you.'

I listened carefully, taking in every word. I started smiling uncontrollably, noticing that I can't keep these fears in my shoulder. That I had to enjoy it, and look forward to having the baby in my arms in the future, no matter how long it would take.