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Chapter 18

For Jesse St James, it was a long and gruelling night. As soon as Sebastian let the first tear fall, it seemed as though he was unable to stop. Joining him on the bed and gathering him in his arms, Jesse simply stroked his friend's hair, acting as a silent support as the other teen fell apart. Nights such as these were not a common thing in the Jesse/Sebastian relationship. In fact, Jesse had only played witness to Sebastian's tears once before, back when he had revealed the truth about his parents.

Letting out a sigh and rubbing his eyes, Jesse looked down at the sleeping form beside him. Sebastian seemed a great deal smaller in his sleep. He looked delicate and fragile, as though the gentlest of breezes could knock him to the ground. Jesse wasn't entirely sure how long Sebastian had cried for, or how long it had taken for him to finally fall asleep, he only knew that it was gut-wrenching to watch.

He hadn't managed to get any sleep himself. He'd been too worried that if he closed his eyes Sebastian might wake and have another breakdown. So Jesse had forced himself to remain awake, acting as a guardian angel and watching over his dearest friend.

They hadn't spoken the previous night. Jesse knew Sebastian well enough to know that he wouldn't be ready to talk. So all he could do was stay by his friend's side, hoping that his presence would act as some form of comfort. He was desperate to interrogate Sebastian about what had happened with Kurt before he and Blaine interrupted. He wanted to ask what Sebastian was thinking and feeling. He wanted to know the reason behind every last teardrop. But he forced himself not to ask any such questions. He couldn't force Sebastian to open up; he had to let him do it himself.

Feeling Sebastian stir beside him, Jesse lightly stroked his knuckles along the boy's cheek.

"Morning, beautiful," he greeted in a whisper as Sebastian slowly blinked open his eyes.

"Morning," Sebastian returned, his voice quiet and void of emotion. "Your hair looks awful," he added sounding a little more like his usual self but still not quite right. "Did Blaine tell Kurt?"

"No," Jesse answered knowing that Sebastian was referring to the bet. "We seriously considered it," he admitted and Sebastian didn't look the least bit surprised. "Are you going to tell him?"

"You know I'm not," Sebastian replied sitting up and rubbing his eyes. "Why don't you ask me for the answers you really want to know?"

"Because I don't want to have to ask," Jesse told him. "I just want you to tell me. That's what friends do, Seb."

"I don't make for a very good friend," Sebastian said as he leaned his head against Jesse's shoulder.

"Stop feeling sorry for yourself, you know you won't receive pity from me," Jesse chastised lightly. "You've been a grade A jerk, baby. And the fact of the matter is that it's actually been a challenge to like you these past few weeks. But you are my friend, and I love you despite your flaws and misguided decisions."

"You're really starting to sound like a girl," Sebastian groaned lifting his head up and ruffling Jesse's hair.

"Don't mess with the hair," Jesse snapped at him aiming a light punch to Sebastian's ribs. "And do something about your face. You look painfully miserable right now and frowning can lead to erectile dysfunction. This would be an opportune moment to work on your show-face."

"I don't feel like smiling right now," Sebastian sighed sinking back down in his bed and burrowing under the covers.

"Ok, Bas, baby, I want you to man up," Jesse told him pulling back the covers, moving off the bed then throwing Sebastian a pair of underwear. "You're acting like the victim here when you're not. I hate to admit it, but you're the bad guy. However, Kurt doesn't know about the bet yet so you still have a chance to do the right thing and make this relationship real, just like you want it to be."

"I don't," Sebastian shook his head fiercely as he pulled on the underwear. "In fact I almost succeeded in my mission last night before you and Blainers interrupted. You may as well pay up now as my victory is obviously inevitable."

"Do you honestly think I'm going to believe that after you spent the night crying in my arms?" Jesse asked.

"Damn, you noticed the crying, huh?" Sebastian responded looking to the floor. "I was so close you know? I nearly accomplished what I set out to do."

"But?" Jesse prompted waiting for his friend to elaborate.

"I froze up for a moment," Sebastian confessed. "He said that he thought he was falling in love with me. And I just froze."

"Kurt," Jesse said passing Sebastian a set of pants and a shirt. "His name is Kurt. And you probably froze up because you felt guilty. Guilt is an emotion that humans sometimes feel when they've done something wrong. I guess it's unfamiliar to you because you've been out of touch with real emotions for so long."

"This shouldn't be happening to me," Sebastian complained as he continued to dress himself. "I shouldn't have frozen up like that. This is who I am, this is what I do. I fuck guys and then leave them all the time. This shouldn't be any different."

"You're obliviousness is as cute as it is infuriating," Jesse commented. "Look, Seb, you fool around with a lot of guys. So do I, and there isn't anything wrong with that. We both have a reputation for sleeping around but not actually dating. The boys we seduce know full well what they're getting in to and we're just looking for a release, for a way to feel good. We always use protection and we're not setting out to hurt or humiliate anyone. Until now, with Kurt. You deliberately set out to be cruel and that's not who you really are."

"You still agreed to the bet," Sebastian reminded him.

"And I was wrong to do so," Jesse replied. "I just find it incredibly difficult to resist a bet and you know that. And I guess with all the no-strings-attached-sex that I sort of lost touch with feelings and emotions too. I still haven't met the right guy for me but I honestly believe with all the talent that I posses that you and Kurt could really have something. You shouldn't throw that away out of fear, pride or stupidity."

"You know I don't believe in love," Sebastian said distastefully.

"I know you fear it," Jesse answered softly. "And I know that there are painful reasons for you being a little messed up," Sebastian glared. "Don't look at me like that; you know you're psychologically damaged. I understand why you have a negative and fearful attitude towards love and relationships. If I'd been through what you went through and saw those hellish things you witnessed then I'd be terrified too. But somewhere inside I think that you know love is real. Or at least, somewhere inside you really want it to be."

"I can't fall in love," Sebastian insisted. "And Kurt shouldn't be around me. What if I end up doing to him what my father did to my mother?"

"You're not your father," Jesse told him simply.

"I should break up with Kurt," Sebastian said. "The relationship isn't real anyway. It's the best thing to do."

"That's the easiest thing to do," Jesse corrected. "And totally something a girl would do."

"You're just saying that so that I'll do the opposite because I hate being associated with anything considered feminine due to my ongoing anger with the stereotype that all gays act like girls," Sebastian stated knowingly.

"Did it work?" Jesse asked.

"Maybe," Sebastian shrugged. "Come on, I seriously need a cup of coffee and you need to fix your hair before you're forced to join an 80's hair band."

XXX

"May I sit with you?" Kurt asked as he stood before Blaine with a breakfast tray.

"Of course," Blaine responded and Kurt gingerly sat down. "Did you sleep well?"

"Not particularly," Kurt admitted. "I was awake all night wondering what's going on with you, Jesse and Sebastian. I know you're keeping something from me."

"Have you tried these waffles?" Blaine asked cutting up a piece and offering it to Kurt on a fork. "They're delicious."

"Don't change the subject," Kurt groaned rejecting the offered waffle piece. "I thought you were my friend."

"Kurt, I am your friend," Blaine told him earnestly reaching his hand out to lightly squeeze Kurt's arm.

"If that's true then why aren't you being honest with me?" Kurt enquired. "Just tell me what's going on, please. I deserve to know."

"You do," Blaine nodded in agreement. "But you shouldn't be hearing it from me. This is between you and Bastian. I would like to help and I really want things to work out between you two but I really believe you should talk to Sebastian."

"How can I when you drag me away from him and Jesse holds Sebastian hostage?" Kurt retorted. "You interrupted a really private moment between us last night."

"I know and I'm really sorry, Kurt," Blaine apologised. "Listen, whatever happens, I'd really like for us to continue being friends."

"What could happen that would make me want to not be your friend?" Kurt asked suspiciously and Blaine shifted in his seat uncomfortably.

"Look, Jesse and Bastian are here," Blaine pointed out and Kurt turned his head to see the two boys walking towards them with coffee and toast.

"Hey," Kurt greeted reaching his hand out to hold Sebastian's.

"Hey," Sebastian replied staring down at their conjoined hands.

"Look at me," Kurt requested tilting Sebastian's chin up. "What's been going on?"

Sebastian looked to Jesse and Blaine but they deliberately avoided eye-contact, forcing him to answer the question solo.

"Have you ever seen She's All That, How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days or Cruel Intentions?" Sebastian asked.

"Sure," Kurt answered with a shrug. "They're some of Rachel and 'Cedes' favourite movies."

"And you remember how the movies go?" Sebastian asked fingering the rim of his coffee cup while Jesse and Blaine kept their eyes downwards but listened intently to every word being exchanged with the couple before them.

"Some jerky guy makes a stupid bet over a girl and ends up falling in love with her," Kurt answered. "They're all good movies but they pretty much have the same storyline."

"Wait, the guy falls in love with the girl?" Sebastian asked with a mixture of horror and confusion. "In which movie?"

"All of them," Kurt told him. "Didn't you see them?"

"I only really watched the beginnings," Sebastian answered. "So the guys fall in love with the girls? What happens after that?"

"The girl finds out about the bet, she's rightfully angry but ultimately ends up forgiving the jerk-turned-good-guy and they pretty much live happily ever after," Kurt explained. "Apart from Cruel Intentions, that film ended in tragedy. Spoiler alert, there's a character death. Why are you asking me about chick-flicks anyway? Planning to take me on a movie date?" He asked with a flirty smile.

"No, I… I don't think that's… we can't," Sebastian said taking a gulp of coffee followed by a deep breath as he tried to get a hold of his composure.

"Sebastian, what's wrong?" Kurt asked placing his hand on Sebastian's arm only to have it shaken off.

"I don't think we should do this anymore," Sebastian said incredibly quickly without looking at Kurt. "We're not working out," he said feebly before hurrying away.

Hurt and confused, Kurt stared after Sebastian not knowing what to do or say. He then turned to look at Jesse and Blaine to find them both avoiding his eye.

"Someone tell me what is going on," Kurt demanded.

"He's just having a bad day," Blaine excused with little conviction.

"Fine, don't tell me," Kurt retorted in irritation. "The three of you can keep your dirty little secret. Clearly you are not my friends." He swept away discreetly wiping off a tear that had dared to fall down his cheek.

XXX

After leaving the breakfast hall Sebastian had made his way to the library to allow himself to puzzle out his thoughts. Upon arriving to his favourite spot in the library he found himself forced into a chair opposite a woman in a tracksuit.

"Name?" The woman asked.

"Sebastian," he replied. "Who are you?"

"Oh I'm not going to dignify that with an answer," she told him. "You know why? Because you should know who I am."

"Seriously, who is she?" Sebastian asked turning his head to the side where he was flanked by Santana, Brittany was on the other side.

"This is Sue Sylvester," Santana informed him. "And you've pissed her off."

"Oh, oops," Sebastian muttered uncaringly making to stand up but the two girls forced him back into his seat.

"Listen up Meerkat face," Sue snapped glaring at the teenage boy in a manner similar to how she glared at Will Schuster's hair. "Before even looking at your fancy private school face I decided that I didn't like you. And now I've seen what you look like, I like you even less. So I'm out to destroy you, starting with this nifty little newspaper article."

She passed the newspaper article over to Sebastian and smirked in satisfaction as she watched him gulp.

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