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WARNING – Suggestions of sexual abuse (mild)

Chapter 24

"I think it's going good!" Blaine yelled in Jesse's ear as they watched Kurt and Sebastian slow dance together. "Look, Sebastian's actually smiling. I don't think he's ever looked so happy. Aren't they adorable together?"

"They almost make me want to fall in love," Jesse hollered back, fighting to be heard over the music. "But I guess I'll have to settle for a one-night stand instead."

"Come on, Jesse, you're better than that," Blaine told him loudly. "You could have any guy you want. In fact, I'm going to make it my new mission to get you a boyfriend."

"Hold that thought, sweetheart," Jesse replied, his brow furrowing in worry.

"What?" Blaine asked following Jesse's line of vision. "Is that…?" his question trailed off as he watched the muscular blonde stalk towards where Sebastian and Kurt were dancing, two broad dark-haired men following close behind. "Uh oh," Blaine said helplessly hurrying after Jesse as he made his way towards Kurt and Sebastian.

"Hey, Seb," the blonde male greeted slipping his arms around Sebastian's waist and pulling him away from Kurt, spookily similar to how Sebastian had pulled Kurt away from an older guy a few songs before.

"Excuse me," Kurt huffed in annoyance, "we were dancing."

"Hey, back off, Jenkins," Jesse warned the blonde, Blaine clenching his fists and looking menacing beside him. "Ordinarily I love to cause a scene, but if you don't disappear within the next thirty seconds then things are going to get capital U ugly."

"No need to get the claws out, St James," Jenkins replied. "Me and the boys were just saying hey. Right, Seb?" He purred in the younger man's ear, one hand slipping under Sebastian's shirt to pinch painfully at a nipple.

"Get your hands off of him," Blaine snarled and Kurt actually flinched in surprise over Blaine's dark demeanour. As short as he was, Blaine currently seemed even more intimidating than the likes of Puck.

"It's fine, Blaine, I can handle this," Sebastian snapped, his pride obviously wounded over someone else coming to his defence.

"Haven't seen your sweet ass around here for a while, Seb," Jenkins commented, his fingers working on unfastening a few more buttons on Sebastian's purple shirt. "Me and the boys were planning one of our special parties," the two brutes with Jenkins grinned before extending their hands to touch Sebastian's exposed skin.

"Don't touch him," Kurt yelled making to yank their hands away but Jesse quickly pulled Kurt back and stood protectively in front of him. "Sebastian, just tell them to go away."

"Are you up for a party with us, Seb?" Jenkins asked as he cupped the younger boy between the legs in a grip that looked more rough than sensual. "You've always been one of my favourite fucks you know," he said into Sebastian's ear so the others couldn't hear. "You can bring your little friend if you like," he added in a louder voice casting an amused look over Kurt. "You remember how much I love virgins," he pressed himself against Sebastian's ass before nipping his teeth at his throat.

"I'm not interested," Sebastian responded coldly struggling against the larger male's hold.

"Hey, there a problem here?" An older man, a bear, asked.

"I think these three were just leaving," Blaine stated and as a group of the bear's friends gathered around, Jenkins backed away from Sebastian and left with his dark-haired cronies in toe. "Thanks," Blaine nodded in gratitude and the bear nodded back before moving away.

"I think that's enough fun for one night," Jesse said gently placing an arm around Sebastian and leading him out while Blaine escorted Kurt.

"Who was that guy?" Kurt asked once they were out of the club. "How did he know Sebastian?"

"That was Shane Jenkins," Blaine answered. "The guy's a total creep."

"Sebastian?" Kurt asked concernedly reaching out for Sebastian's hand.

"I'm fine," Sebastian said emotionlessly as he pulled his hand away.

"Don't push for answers," Blaine advised Kurt in a whisper. "Just give him some time."

Jesse unlocked his car and the four teenagers seated themselves inside, Kurt gazing worriedly at Sebastian while Sebastian stared out of the car window.

It was an awkward and silent drive back to Dalton Academy. Parking his car in the lot, Jesse craned his neck round to survey Sebastian. He shared a look of concern with Blaine before exiting the car. Blaine and Kurt stepped out while Sebastian remained where he was.

"Let me deal with this," Jesse told the other two as he opened the car door to speak to Sebastian.

"I don't want to leave him," Kurt said.

"I know, Kurt," Blaine sympathised. "But Sebastian can be difficult. It really is better to let him cool down."

"Whatever, I'm fine," Sebastian insisted as he got out of the car and began stalking up to the school with his hands in his pockets.

"Seb, wait," Kurt called jogging after him. "Are you sure you're ok?"

"Never better," Sebastian responded and he removed one hand from his pocket so he could take hold of Kurt's. "We'll see you two losers later," he called to Jesse and Blaine over his shoulder.

"Hey, where are we going?" Kurt asked struggling to keep up with Sebastian's fast pace.

"My room," Sebastian answered leading Kurt up the spiral staircase.

"Sebastian?" Kurt asked nervously as he was pulled inside the other Warbler's bedroom, the door slamming shut behind them. "What's going on?"

"Relax," Sebastian told him as he kicked his shoes off then immediately started stripping. "This'll be fun. I promise."

"Sebastian?" Kurt asked shaking his head in confusion, turning his eyes away and staring at the carpet once Sebastian was naked.

"Your turn," Sebastian said before stepping up to Kurt and making to pull his shirt over his head.

"No," Kurt stated firmly ducking out of Sebastian's way. "What do you think you're doing?"

"I'm sorry," Sebastian apologised with a laugh. "I forgot. Kurt Hummel likes romance." He turned his back on Kurt to put some music on. He then twirled back round to Kurt and lifted him up bridal style to carry him to the bed.

"Sebastian, stop it," Kurt snapped as he was dropped onto the mattress. "This isn't funny."

"Ssh," Sebastian soothed as he crawled onto the bed, Kurt still averting his eyes to his naked form. "Don't be scared. Just go with it, baby."

Sebastian straddled Kurt's waist and forced their mouths together.

"Stop it, get off," Kurt huffed shoving Sebastian away. "What the hell is wrong with you?"

"This is what you want isn't it?" Sebastian asked gesturing down at his naked body.

"Sebastian?" Kurt asked in a whisper, shaking his head again not understanding the other boy's behaviour at all.

"This is what I do, Kurt," Sebastian said crawling over him and holding himself above the clothed boy so they weren't actually touching. "This is what I'm good at. And truth be told it's all a guy like me has to offer." He pressed a kiss to Kurt's neck. "So stop being such a prude and just take it." He covered Kurt's mouth with his own, his tongue invading Kurt's throat and his teeth nipping at Kurt's lower lip. He was soon forced away and landed in a heap on the floor.

"Put your clothes back on," Kurt demanded not looking at all impressed. "Now!" Kurt insisted.

With his eyes downcast, Sebastian got up and pulled his pants back on along with a casual sweater. He turned the music off and ran a hand through his hair before punching the wall in frustration.

"Come sit with me," Kurt called softly and with a groan of annoyance Sebastian slumped beside him on the bed. "Now tell me what's wrong?" Kurt requested gently wrapping his arms around the other teen.

"I don't know," Sebastian shrugged. Kurt let out a sigh before pressing a kiss to Sebastian's forehead. "What are you doing?"

"Just trying to be a good friend," Kurt answered. "You're upset, so I'm here to comfort you."

"That's what sex is for," Sebastian pointed out.

"No, it isn't," Kurt responded. "Sex isn't supposed to be something you do to cope when things get bad. It's supposed to mean something. And it's like my dad says, you shouldn't throw yourself around like you don't matter, because you do matter. You matter to me. And when you and I have sex I want it to be special. I want it to happen because we both want it to because we want to share something wonderful. I don't want it to happen because you're upset or angry about something. Understood?"

"Yeah," Sebastian answered quietly with a nod. "I'm sorry," he apologised with his eyes screwed shut. "I shouldn't have acted like that before. I was just… I don't know. I don't know how to do the whole romance and feelings crap. I'm only good for one thing… sex."

"That's not true," Kurt told him. "You're smart, you're good at sports and you're on the Warblers and…"

"And you're better than me at all of that," Sebastian commented bitterly. "I used to live in France yet you speak better French than I do. You're smarter than me and you're a better singer and dancer. You're even better than me at soccer. And you dress better."

"I do dress better," Kurt admitted.

"You're better than me at everything," Sebastian said. "Let's face it; you're way too good for me. The only thing I'm better than you at is sex. It's all I have. I can't give you anything else."

"Yes you can," Kurt insisted with a tender smile. "You can give me your heart."

"Oh god," Sebastian groaned with a roll of his eyes.

"Whenever you're ready, Sebastian," Kurt said gently brushing his knuckles across Sebastian's cheek. "I'll be waiting," he assured him pressing a kiss to the corner of the boy's mouth. "Goodnight."

He moved off the bed and strode across the room to the door. His fingers were barely on the handle when Sebastian called to him.

"Wait," Sebastian asked and Kurt turned his head to look at him. "Stay?" He asked quietly. "Just… we don't have to do anything. And we definitely don't have to talk about feelings or anything but… just… just stay?"

"Not tonight," Kurt said softly. "Another time."

"What?" Sebastian huffed in shock not having expected Kurt to reject the offer.

"When you ask me to be your boyfriend again, then I'll spend the night with you," Kurt told him firmly.

"You bitch," Sebastian swore turning on his side so his back was to Kurt.

"Goodnight, Sebastian," Kurt replied fondly before stepping out of the room and carefully closing the door behind him.

Making his way through the deserted corridors, he headed purposefully towards Blaine's dorm room. He rapped his knuckles smartly on the door and soon enough Blaine opened up to let him inside. As he expected, Jesse was also there.

"How is he?" Jesse asked.

"I think he'll be ok," Kurt answered as he perched on the edge of the bed.

"So what happened?" Blaine queried joining the other two on the bed and hugging his Dobby doll to his chest.

"He stripped naked," Kurt told them.

"Yeah, he does that a lot," Jesse said without surprise.

"I got the impression that he wanted to be… um, intimate," Kurt mumbled.

"You mean sex," Jesse replied. "Intimacy is a different thing altogether and it's not something our beloved Sebastian knows about."

"Ok, yes, he wanted to have sex," Kurt confirmed, his face flushing as he said the word. "But I said no and he listened but… he thinks he's only good for sex. He doesn't think he's worth anything else. Look, I need to know, who was that Jenkins guy?"

Blaine and Jesse glanced towards one another looking uncertain on whether to say anything or not.

"Please, just tell me," Kurt begged. "You know I can't ask Sebastian. He'll just close up. What did that Jenkins Neanderthal do?"

"He and Sebastian have…" Jesse trailed off unsure how to phrase it.

"Had relations," Blaine replied darkly.

"Sex," Kurt said quietly looking down at the bed covers. "Was it… consensual?"

"Yes," Jesse said at the same time Blaine spat out the word "No."

Kurt pulled his eyes up looking between the two. Though Jesse's answer seemed far more desirable, Kurt found himself needing Blaine to elaborate on his far more disturbing answer.

"No?" Kurt questioned in a whisper.

"It depends how you look at it," Jesse interjected before Blaine could speak. "Technically, Sebastian was a willing participant. He went with Jenkins fully intending to have sex. So in that respect it was consensual."

"But you said 'no'," Kurt looked to Blaine needing to hear more.

"I think Jenkins might have been Sebastian's first," Blaine admitted. "We're not sure," he turned to look at Jesse. "He's never actually told us. We know he fooled around with boys in France but I think Jenkins was probably the first time he went all the way."

"And if he wasn't the first he was definitely one of Sebastian's earlier bed partners," Jesse added.

"But why do you say it wasn't consensual?" Kurt asked Blaine.

"Because Sebastian was young, naïve and emotionally damaged," Blaine answered. "And Jenkins was older than him. He was taking advantage. And the age gap was illegal. Jenkins is probably partly responsible for Sebastian's attitude towards sex. If he'd been with a gentle lover who treated him with respect and affection then maybe Sebastian would act that way with other people. Instead Sebastian started screwing around with any guy he could get, not caring about the guy's emotions, or even their names. And in doing so Sebastian forgot to care about his own emotions. If he'd had a good first sexual experience, emotionally good, he wouldn't be the way he is now. I'm sure of it."

Kurt nodded thoughtfully as he processed what Blaine had said.

"What do you think?" Kurt asked Jesse wondering what his opinion was.

"I think Blainer's could be right, China Doll," Jesse said as he ruffled Blaine's hair. "I mean I've slept around just like Sebastian has and that's probably due to the fact that my first time really sucked. The guy suffered from a hideous case of P.E."

"P.E?" Kurt asked dubiously.

"Premature ejaculation," Jesse clarified. "Then he rolled over leaving me fully unsatisfied before asking me to show myself out. I have to admit, it kind of hurt my feelings."

"Sorry," Kurt apologised not knowing what else to say.

"Don't worry, I think it happens to most people," Jesse shrugged.

"Premature ejaculation?" Blaine asked.

"Sucky first-time sexual experiences," Jesse said. "Then if you're next handful of experiences don't improve your attitude to sex isn't going to be great. I mean, physically, my next few sexual experiences were epic. But they still didn't have any emotional element. So when I have sex, it tends to be purely for physical gratification rather than an emotional connection. That's the way Sebastian is too. We're both just waiting for some amazing guy to show us something deeper. And for Sebastian, I think he's truly blessed to have found you, Kurt."

"Hey, I'm totally gonna find you a boyfriend, Jesse," Blaine assured him. "And Kurt will help, right?"

"Definitely," Kurt smiled. "And you're a less damaged version of Sebastian so it won't be as difficult. Or if you feel you'd like to experiment I can give you Rachel's number," Kurt laughed.

"No thank you," Jesse replied. "If I was straight, then I'm sure Rachel would be a perfect match for me. However, I am completely, totally and proudly one-hundred percent gay."

"It's getting late," Blaine observed looking at the time. "We should probably get to bed."

"Good point, I need my beauty sleep," Jesse stated before stripping down to his underwear and climbing into Blaine's bed. "Night boys."

"Um, goodnight," Kurt said looking at Blaine in confusion.

"It happens sometimes," Blaine shrugged. "It probably means he doesn't have clean sheets on his bed," he explained politely holding the door open for Kurt. "I'll see you at breakfast."

"Ok," Kurt nodded. "Hey Blaine," he asked before the other boy could close the door. "It was going good tonight wasn't it? With Sebastian I mean. Before that Jenkins guy interrupted. It was going good right?"

"It was," Blaine confirmed. "Night, Kurt," he said kissing his friend's cheek.

Returning to his own room, Kurt was surprised to find Sebastian sleeping in his bed. He had no idea how the boy had gotten in but he didn't have the heart to wake him and interrogate him about it. While he was sleeping, Sebastian looked so calm and peaceful.

Making the effort to be quiet so as not to disturb his guest, Kurt changed into his pyjamas. Turning the light off, he tip-toed to the bed and slipped under the covers. He stared up at the ceiling for a while not really knowing what to do with Sebastian sleeping so close to him. Shifting onto his side so his back was to Sebastian, Kurt closed his eyes and tried to find sleep.

Some time during the night, the two boys ended up entwined together, their heads resting on the same pillow and one set of their fingers laced together.

To be continued

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