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Song is 'I don't know how to love him' from Jesus Christ Superstar (also performed on Glee by Tina/Jenna)

Chapter 25

A beam of sunlight streamed in through a gap in the curtains, illuminating a trail across the length of Kurt's room. As Sebastian woke up, he blinked open his eyes, the streak of sunlight going across where his knees were under the bed covers. Sebastian sat up, taking great care not to make the bed squeak and then turned his head to peer down at Kurt. The pale boy was still in a deep slumber. Gazing down at him, Sebastian was surprised to learn that Kurt Hummel didn't look like an innocent untouched angel when he slept. In fact, there was something sultry and a little naughty about the way he looked in his sleep.

Running a hand through his hair, Sebastian silently debated with himself over what he should do next. A large part of him wanted to sneak out of Kurt's room before the boy could wake. They had spent the night together. And it wasn't a night of conjoined naked bodies and pleasured screams and moans. They had simply shared a bed, an act far more intimate than a casual one night stand.

But there was a part of Sebastian that wanted to stay to watch the other teen wake. Of course, that was a very small and fearful part. There was also a voice in Sebastian's mind telling him he should sort out his hair and freshen his breath.

So after a few minutes of silent deliberation, that's what Sebastian did. Moving quietly, he slipped out of the bed and tip-toed to Kurt's adjoining bathroom. He used Kurt's toothbrush to clean his teeth, washed his face, emptied his bladder, and sprayed his armpits with deodorant before taming his hair. Satisfied with his appearance he returned to the bedroom to find that Kurt had rolled over to the part of the bed he had previously been sleeping upon.

Striding across the room, Sebastian knelt by the bed to watch Kurt, occasionally glancing to the door as the temptation to run away continued to pulse through him. Kurt's lips parted and a few indistinguishable murmurs sounded from his mouth. Cocking his head to the side, Sebastian continued to watch for a while as Kurt shifted a little, his pyjama top riding up to expose his lower belly. With a wicked grin, Sebastian moved down and pressed his lips to Kurt's skin, blowing raspberries on his stomach.

"Argh!" Kurt yelped as he was startled from his sleep.

"Sorry, couldn't resist," Sebastian laughed just barely managing to duck as Kurt haphazardly swung a pillow at him.

Kurt grunted in response before kicking the bedcovers off and stretching out his limbs as he let out a long yawn.

"You know, when I found you sleeping in my bed last night, I didn't think you'd still be here when I woke up," Kurt said. "Not that I mind," he added quickly.

"I did seriously consider quietly slipping out before you woke up," Sebastian admitted. "Wanted to in fact."

"So why didn't you?" Kurt asked.

"Not sure," Sebastian shrugged. "Maybe for some stupid romantic girly reason that you or Blaine would probably come up with. Or maybe the temptation to rudely wake you up was just too powerful to ignore."

"Well, if it makes you feel more comfortable we can go with the second option," Kurt said.

"Good decision," Sebastian nodded standing to his feet. "Now, get dressed so I can take you to breakfast."

"Take me to breakfast?" Kurt asked with a coy smile. "Do you mean that in a 'date' way?"

"Don't be ridiculous, Hummel, nobody has breakfast dates," Sebastian scoffed.

"Will you hold my hand when we walk through the corridors?" Kurt asked him as he picked out his clothes and laid them on the bed.

"No," Sebastian answered with the beginnings of a smirk forming on his lips. "But I'd be happy to bend you over a table and lick your asshole in front of everyone."

"How thoughtful," Kurt muttered sarcastically. "But on this occasion I will decline your generous offer. Excuse me," he said disappearing into his bathroom to wash up, taking his clothes with him.

While Kurt was in the bathroom, Sebastian made himself useful and remade the bed before sitting at Kurt's desk chair. Approximately fifteen minutes later Kurt emerged.

"Ok, ready to go?" Kurt asked making towards the door but Sebastian caught hold of his wrist.

"Wait, just one thing first," Sebastian said with his eyes closed. Before Kurt could respond, Sebastian moved in to press a swift kiss to Kurt's mouth, so quick that a passer-by would have missed the action if they'd blinked. "Sorry," Sebastian apologised releasing Kurt's wrist and looking at the carpet. "I just thought I'd give it a try before I started over-thinking. So… breakfast?" He stepped forward to open the door.

"Seriously?" Kurt enquired with a quirked eyebrow. "You call that a kiss?"

"It wasn't bad," Sebastian retorted defensively.

"I had better kisses with Brittany," Kurt replied.

"Gross," Sebastian commented.

"You know, maybe I should go back to wearing flannel and playing it straight," Kurt mused. "At least being with Brittany might improve my kiss-life."

"No way," Sebastian responded slamming the door shut and pulling Kurt to him by his waist. Resting one hand to the back of Kurt's neck, Sebastian pressed their lips together for a longer and deeper kiss. "You're way too gay to fool around with girls," Sebastian said between kisses as they groped at one another. "A guy like you needs another guy's cock to play with."

"Is that… mmm… is that an offer?" Kurt panted out as they staggered back towards the bed, collapsing atop the sheets.

"Fuck," Sebastian swore breathily as he dry-humped the boy underneath him, lips, tongue and teeth crashing against one another.

"Oh Sebastian," Kurt sighed thinking it was the right thing to say. However, hearing himself sigh it out loud didn't sound as romantic as he imagined it in his head. In fact, it sounded a little silly. "Mmm," he grunted bucking his hips upwards.

Pulling away from Kurt's mouth, Sebastian latched his lips to suckle at Kurt's neck as he pinned the boy's wrists to the mattress. Kurt moaned as he arched his neck before wrestling one hand free to grip at Sebastian's hair. He tugged roughly and forced Sebastian back up to his lips for another kiss.

Sebastian's hands trailed down Kurt's torso before slipping up his shirt. One of Kurt's hands travelled down to Sebastian's ass to give a generous squeeze before he snaked his hand up Sebastian's shirt and clawed at his back.

For a few kisses, Kurt reversed their positions and daringly palmed at the bulge between Sebastian's legs before finding himself on his back underneath Sebastian again.

"Mmm," Kurt moaned as Sebastian suddenly froze above him letting out a small whine.

"Oh no," Sebastian said before jumping away from Kurt and bolting out of the room.

"Sebastian!" Kurt called after him in askance but he received no reply.

Letting out a groan, Kurt moved off the bed and took a few minutes to sort his hair and clothing out and will his erection away. He wondered what he'd done wrong to make Sebastian run away so suddenly without explanation. Snatching up his cell phone, he called Mercedes but there was no answer. Not wanting to leave a voice message he called Rachel instead and the girl answered on the second ring.

"Good morning, Kurt," Rachel greeted cheerfully. "If you're calling for a song suggestion then I recommend 'Try' by Pink or 'The Winner Takes it All' from Mamma Mia."

"What? No, I don't need song suggestions," Kurt told her. "I just need to talk."

"First of all I would like to say that I am honoured you have chosen to confide in me," Rachel told him. "And secondly, although we find ourselves on opposing teams I am one hundred percent here for you. How can I help?"

"Sebastian shared my bed last night," Kurt explained and from the sounds of things Rachel fell over something out of either shock or excitement.

"Oh sweet Barbara, what happened? Give me details… but not too dirty," Rachel asked.

"Nothing happened," Kurt answered. "We just slept. And I really thought I'd wake up this morning and he'd be gone but he was actually still here until about a minute ago when he quite literally ran away."

"He ran away?" Rachel asked in confusion. "What did you do?"

"I don't know," Kurt replied uncertainly. "We were making out and he was on top of me on the bed and then he just seemed to panic and run."

"That totally happened the first time Finn and I kissed," Rachel supplied. "To this day I'm not sure why Finn left so quickly but I wouldn't worry about it Kurt. After that awkward incident Finn and I went on to be the New Directions' power couple. Clearly a boy running away during a make-out session is a good sign."

"Right," Kurt sighed. "Thanks Rachel," he made his goodbyes before hanging up and calling Finn.

"'S goin' on?" Finn asked groggily down the phone.

"What made you run away the first time you kissed Rachel?" Kurt asked without preamble.

"Huh?" Finn replied.

"Engage your brain, Finn," Kurt huffed impatiently. "The first time you kissed Rachel you left abruptly… I'd like to know why."

"Um, dude, that's kinda private," Finn said sleepily.

"Finn, please, brother to brother, I need to know," Kurt pleaded. "Because a short while

a go Sebastian and I were making out on my bed and then he just ran."

"Wait, you're still friends with that guy?" Finn asked.

"I hope for us to be more than friends," Kurt answered. "And that's not what's important right now. I need you to tell me why you ran from Rachel in case it gives a clue as to why Sebastian ran from me?"

"Um… look, this is kinda awkward little bro," Finn said. "Were you two like… uh, you know… grinding?" He asked sounding like he really didn't care to know the answer.

"Yes, a little," Kurt replied feeling his cheeks flush. "We were kissing, grinding and groping."

"Well then, he probably bailed to… um… well, he was probably embarrassed," Finn suggested awkwardly.

"Embarrassed? Why? What did I do wrong?" Kurt asked worriedly.

"It's not you dude," Finn answered still sounding uncomfortable to be having such a discussion. "Look, I'll tell you why I ran from Rachel but you have to promise you won't ever tell anybody."

"I promise," Kurt replied. "You can tell me."

"Ok, I was embarrassed because kissing her made me… I came in my pants," Finn said quickly before ending the call.

"Oh," Kurt said to himself as realisation dawned on him.

XXX

After bolting from Kurt's bedroom, Sebastian headed to Jesse's dorm but found it to be empty. He then made his way to Blaine's room to find the two cuddled up in bed together, their hair an untamed mess atop of their sleeping heads. He slammed the door shut before stealing the quilt off of them in order to wake them up.

"Good morning Sleeping Beauties," Sebastian drawled as they looked at him through scrunched-up eyes. "Pardon my intrusion. I do hope I wasn't interrupting anything private. But out of curiosity… did you boys fuck?" he asked with an amused grin looking between the two.

"We were just sleeping, nothing happened," Blaine said patting down his curls self-consciously.

"Really?" Sebastian asked as his shoulders sagged and his grin formed into a frown of disappointment. "That's boring."

"You're just jealous you had no-one to cuddle with last night," Jesse teased as he slung an arm around Blaine's neck, pulled him close then dropped a kiss to his forehead before releasing him.

"For your information," Sebastian replied, "I slept with Kurt."

The other two looked up at him waiting for a further explanation.

"Well, how was it?" Jesse asked.

"You used protection right?" Blaine enquired.

"I imagine Kurt to be impossibly loud in the throw of passion. Was he loud?" Jesse wanted to know.

"Wait, you didn't sleep with him then leave before he woke up did you?" Blaine demanded to know.

"We just slept," Sebastian answered. "There was no sex," he told them with a tinge of disappointment to his voice. "However we did make out a little this morning."

"So if you've got a human being as exquisite as Kurt Hummel willing to make out with you, what the hell are you doing here?" Jesse asked looking baffled.

"I don't want to talk about it," Sebastian mumbled casting his eyes to the floor.

"Why not?" Blaine asked also looking confused.

"A gentleman never boasts about his conquests," Sebastian stated.

"You're not a gentleman," Blaine sniggered.

"And you always boast about your conquests," Jesse pointed out. "Which means something embarrassing must have happened. Do tell us, Bas, I always delight in the humiliation of others."

"Currently the only humiliation occurring is the mess that is your hair," Sebastian retorted. "Both of you," he added with a sneer to Blaine's tangled mess of hair.

"Fuck you," Jesse swore immediately getting off of the bed to tend to his hair.

"Is my hair really that bad?" Blaine asked despairingly.

"I've seen worse," Sebastian shrugged just as there was a knock at the door. "Oh no, that's probably Kurt," Sebastian said looking panicked and running into the bathroom with Jesse to hide.

"Come in," Blaine called and it was indeed Kurt who stepped through. "Morning."

"Hey, is Sebastian here?" Kurt asked as he let the door close.

"He's hiding in the bathroom," Blaine answered in amusement. "Whatever happened in your make out session must have really embarrassed him."

"Sebastian?" Kurt called out moving to the bathroom door and rapping his knuckles on the wood. "There's no need to be embarrassed. We can just pretend like this morning never happened. Now stop being a baby and come out so we can go to breakfast."

"Hey Kurt," Jesse greeted with a beaming smile as he opened the bathroom door, his hair now perfectly groomed. "What happened this morning that was so embarrassing?"

"That really isn't your business, Jesse," Kurt answered.

"I know," Jesse nodded. "But as I am cast in the role of Sebastian's best friend it is my duty to mock him as much as possible. You must tell me of his most recent embarrassment so that I might tease him about it for years to come. Ow!" He yelped as Sebastian kicked him in the back of the leg. "Bitch."

Not making eye-contact with anyone, Sebastian emerged from the bathroom. He strode across to the main door and pulled it open.

"I'm going to breakfast, who else wants to join me?" Sebastian asked.

"If you tell me what happened I'll give you fifty dollars plus my limited edition signed copy of Patti Lupone's new book," Jesse bribed.

"Nothing happened, just let it go," Kurt replied and as he looked across to Sebastian their eyes met.

"Bullshit," Jesse accused. "Something definitely happened and I sense its something incredibly hilarious. Come on, Kurt, how about one hundred dollars?"

"I'm leaving now," Kurt stated before joining Sebastian. "Breakfast?" He asked with a gentle smile offering his hand to the other teen.

"Oh come on, I won't tell anyone else, I swear," Jesse insisted. "I won't even tell Blaine. Just tell me," he pleaded as he covered Blaine's ears to prevent him from hearing.

"Let's just go," Kurt said.

"No, he won't stop until he finds out," Sebastian said with a sigh as he closed Blaine's bedroom door. "Kurt and I were making out on the bed and I came in my pants, ok?"

"Oh shit, that's mortifying," Jesse laughed while Blaine elbowed him in the stomach.

"Don't be a jerk," Blaine hissed at him.

"Sorry," Jesse forced himself to say even as he giggled a little bit more. "As your friend, I will have to tease you about this but I promise not to do so in front of others and I really won't tell anybody else. But come on, it is hilarious."

"I hate you," Sebastian said dryly.

"Love you too, sweetie," Jesse replied bounding over to him and kissing him on the cheek. "Come on," he said wrapping one arm around Sebastian and the other around Kurt. "Let's get some breakfast. You coming Blainers?"

"I'll catch you guys up," he said before heading to the bathroom.

XXX

Breakfast was awkward. And the toast was burnt and the coffee was kind of chewy. Jesse had a permanent amused grin on his face, Kurt was babbling nervously about meaningless things while Sebastian seemed incapable of speech at all. Then Blaine appeared with a proud looking smile and wolfed down a muffin before making an announcement.

"I've figured out how I'm going to get you a boyfriend, Jesse," Blaine smiled.

"Really?" Jesse asked lifting an eyebrow in interest. "And how's that?"

"I've set up an event that could be considered similar to speed-dating," Blaine answered. "I've already gained approval from Wes to use the choir room as the dating location. You will make yourself comfortable there and eligible boys will enter one-by-one until we find you an appropriate mate."

"That sounds like hell," Jesse commented and Blaine's face fell a little.

"Well it couldn't hurt," Kurt interjected. "It's worth giving it a try. Right Sebastian?"

"Mmm," Sebastian murmured uncaringly.

"Whatever," Jesse shrugged by way of agreement.

"Great," Blaine grinned latching hold of Jesse's arm. "Come on."

"What? We're going now?" Jesse asked.

Kurt watched the two leave with a smile before turning his gaze back to Sebastian and their awkward situation.

"So, um, would you maybe want to do something together today?" Kurt asked. "We could go to the mall and hang out. Or see a movie maybe. Or we could just go for a walk and talk about… um… stuff."

"Look, no offence, but I'd rather just be alone," Sebastian responded getting up.

"Is that because you're still embarrassed?" Kurt asked making sure to keep his voice down.

"Of course I'm still embarrassed," Sebastian hissed. "I'm so embarrassed it feels like I'm going to die and I desperately want the ground to open up and swallow me whole but it's refusing to do so thereby forcing me to suffer all the more."

"Sebastian, you don't have to be embarrassed. Not at all," Kurt told him. "I'm not laughing at you or judging you. In fact… I thought it was kind of… hot."

"You're a terrible liar," Sebastian replied. "But the effort was kind of… cute in its own lame way."

"Thanks," Kurt said with a sheepish smile. "So, are we good? Will you hang out with me?"

"Fine," Sebastian agreed. "I guess we could go for a walk or something."

"Great, I'd like that," Kurt smiled following Sebastian's lead.

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Meanwhile, Jesse was seated in the choir room not liking Blaine's 'speed-dating' plan at all.

"Ready for your first eligible bachelor?" Blaine asked him.

"Sure, let's just get this freak show over with," Jesse answered.

"And first up…" Blaine announced opening the door. "We have Wes!" He called the name out excitedly as he forcibly escorted Wes inside to sit opposite Jesse.

"Are you kidding me?" Jesse asked with a huff.

"What's wrong?" Blaine asked. "Wes is good-looking, smart and talented…"

"And also straight," Jesse interrupted.

"I did try reminding him of that," Wes spoke up. "He wouldn't listen."

"Oh," Blaine said looking embarrassed. "Sorry. I guess I got so excited about this idea I didn't think things through properly. Never mind. The next bachelor will be better. I will find you the best boyfriend ever, Jesse, I promise. Thank you for coming Wes," he said escorting Wes back out before bringing in the next 'date'. "And next up we have the dashing and delightful David."

"Straight," Jesse pointed out.

"Oh, of course, oops," Blaine hung his head. "Sorry David, but thank you for coming." He showed David back out before bringing in a boy in the grade above them. "Jesse, I'd like you to meet Alex."

"I fucked him last year," Jesse commented. "He isn't worth a second go. No offence."

Alex glared at him before leaving.

"Ok, the next guy," Blaine insisted. "The next guy will be better."

"Blaine, just stop it, this whole idea is ridiculous," Jesse criticised and Blaine looked crestfallen. "Sorry," he apologised noticing the look on his friend's face. "It's sweet what you're trying to do but this isn't the way to do it."

"I have a line full of guys outside that door," Blaine said. "Just give this a chance. Please… for me?"

"Damn you and those puppy-dog eyes," Jesse groaned. "Fine, send the next reject in."

The next boy from Blaine's line up was a younger student named Gareth who didn't seem to have even started puberty. He was followed by a boy named James who looked ready to wet himself when he sat across from Jesse. The next candidate was named Peter-Lee and Jesse quirked an eyebrow in interest as he looked the good-looking teen up and down.

The two sat together talking for a while with Blaine watching on before Jesse sent Peter-Lee away for having an abysmally poor taste in music.

"Ok," Blaine sighed nearly an hour later after Jesse had rejected boy after boy. "There's just one guy left," Blaine told him.

"If he's ugly just send him away now," Jesse drawled and Blaine shifted uncomfortably as he looked to the floor.

"Just give him a chance," Blaine said quietly before stepping out of the choir room door.

"This is hell," Jesse whispered to himself rubbing his eyes before straightening up in his seat and waiting for Blaine to lead the last boy inside.

The choir room door opened and a nervous looking Blaine stepped through alone.

"Well, where is this loser?" Jesse asked before realisation dawned on him as Blaine sat down across from him. "Oh."

"Hi," Blaine said and Jesse just gaped at him unsure how to react. "Um… maybe this wasn't such a good idea. I could just go." He stood to make a hasty exit.

"Blaine, wait, sit down," Jesse said gently. "Talk to me. What's going on here? Do… do you have feelings for me?"

"I really should just go," Blaine replied looking awkward and embarrassed. "I'm not good at talking about these things."

"Then sing," Jesse requested. "If you can't tell me how you feel then sing it to me. I'm your friend, Blaine. You owe me that."

"Ok," Blaine agreed with a nod before releasing a long sigh, hoping his nerves would be released with it.

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"Sebastian?" Kurt asked from where they were seated on a park bench after growing tired of walking. "How do you feel about me?"

"Can we not talk about emotional stuff?" Sebastian asked. "It makes me uncomfortable just like public schools and nuns."

"Please, I know this is difficult for you and I'm trying to be patient but… I need to know," Kurt pleaded. "Just tell me everything you feel."

"I don't know how," Sebastian sighed.

"Try," Kurt whispered.

Sebastian stood up and took a few steps away from the bench before turning back to face Kurt.

"I don't know how to love him," Sebastian sang and Kurt gazed up at him in wonder. "What to do, how to move him."

XXX

"I've been changed," Blaine sang to Jesse. "Yes really changed. In these past few days, when I've seen myself, I seem like someone else."

Jesse watched him quietly, swallowing thickly as he watched the boy perform.

XXX

"I don't know how to take this," Sebastian continued to sing. "I don't see why he moves me. He's a man, he's just a man. And I've had so many men before, in very many ways, he's just one more."

Kurt watched on, captivated.

"Should I bring him down?" Sebastian continued. "Should I scream and shout? Should I speak of love, let my feelings out? I never thought I'd come to this. What's it all about?"

XXX

"What's it all about?" Blaine sang. "Don't you think it's rather funny, I should be in this position? I'm the one who's always been so calm, so cool, no lover's fool, running every show. He scares me so. I never thought I'd come to this. What's it all about?"

XXX

"Yet, if he said he loved me," Sebastian sang looking uncharacteristically shy. "I'd be lost. I'd be frightened. I couldn't cope, just couldn't cope. I'd turn my head, I'd back away, I wouldn't want to know. He scares me so. I want him so. I love him so." Sebastian finished and turned his back to Kurt.

"That was beautiful," Kurt said quietly. "Thank you. I know that wasn't easy for you."

"Can we talk about something else?" Sebastian asked uncomfortably and Kurt could see him closing off again. "What are you doing?" Sebastian asked as Kurt moved to stand in front of him.

Rather than answer, Kurt opted to close the gap between them and kiss the other teen who he was deeply infatuated with.

"Be my boyfriend?" Kurt asked breathlessly, both of them cringingly slightly at how corny he sounded.

"Yeah, ok," Sebastian answered and the two were kissing again.

XXX

Back in the choir room, Blaine was still as a statue as he waited for Jesse to say something.

"Jesse, please say something," Blaine begged when the silence became unbearable. "Even if you're going to reject me. Just… just say something."

"Your performance was stunning," Jesse praised him standing up and lightly resting a hand on Blaine's shoulder. "I…"

"Yes?" Blaine asked blinking up at him hopefully.

"I… I don't know what to say," Jesse admitted running a hand through his hair much like Danny from Grease; a nervous habit of his. "Blaine, honey, I don't want to ruin our friendship."

"No, no, you won't, you haven't," Blaine stuttered out. "It's fine. We're just friends and that's… that's fine. It's great. I'll just… um; I have this thing that I need to do."

"Blainers, wait," Jesse said gently holding the shorter boy's face in his hands. "I'm not rejecting you. But I'm not declaring undying love either," he told him. "You're good-looking and talented and I'm good-looking and talented… maybe we could have a shot at romance. But whatever happens, I don't want to lose you as my friend. I just need you to know that before…"

"Before what?" Blaine asked.

"Before I do this?" Jesse replied leaning in to kiss him.

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