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Chapter 26
"Then what happened?" Sebastian asked from his position beside Jesse, the two of them spread on his bed with their hands behind their heads.
"I kissed him," Jesse answered simply.
"And?" Sebastian pressed sensing there was something more Jesse needed to say.
"The world didn't move," Jesse replied. "I didn't see stars… or fireworks… I didn't feel butterflies. My head didn't spin and my heart didn't skip a beat. But it was a good kiss… a great kiss actually but… no stars, no sparks."
"You don't love him," Sebastian said. It wasn't a question but merely a statement.
"No," Jesse admitted quietly. "At least not romantically. Blaine's my friend and I love the little guy… I just don't love the guy."
"Did you tell him that?" Sebastian asked staring up at the ceiling.
"Of course not," Jesse answered. "We stopped kissing and he was looking up at me with those god damn puppy-dog eyes. So I put on a show face and walked out of the choir room with him hand-in-hand. He's already updated his facebook status to 'in a relationship with Jesse St James'."
"Wow, it seems like you've fucked up, my friend," Sebastian surmised.
"Thank you," Jesse replied sarcastically turning his head to look at his friend. "Your support means so much to me."
"I try," Sebastian smirked and the corner of Jesse's lips twitched with mild amusement. "So… what are you going to do now?"
"Nothing," Jesse answered. "Blaine's a great friend and I know how lucky I am that someone like him sees something special in me. I don't want to be alone and I think Blaine and I could make one another happy. It probably won't last in the long-term but… I'm going to try to love him."
Sebastian remained quiet as he moved one of his arms to invite Jesse into a hug. He gently ran his fingers through his friend's curls and pressed a kiss to his cheek.
"I guess being my best friend for so long screwed you up a little, huh?" Sebastian asked rhetorically. "I ran around town fucking anybody I could and you followed my example. We know how to fuck and how to give a guy an orgasm he'll never forget. But we don't really know how to love or make an emotional connection."
"We've always managed to love each other," Jesse pointed out tilting his head up for a quick kiss on the lips. "And we do love Blainers. He's our little puppy."
"Your puppy now," Sebastian said quietly.
"Do you think I'm being selfish?" Jesse asked turning onto his side and leaning his head on his hand.
"We're human," Sebastian shrugged. "It's in our nature to be selfish."
Jesse frowned a little, obviously expecting a different kind of answer.
"Do you think I'm doing the wrong thing?" Jesse questioned. "Would it be better for me to be honest with Blaine? Or should I make the effort and see if this relationship can work, to see if I really can fall in love with him?"
"I made a stupid bet that I could make a boy fall in love with me and take his virginity," Sebastian pointed out. "I'm not the best person to ask for advice on right and wrong."
"Probably not," Jesse agreed. "But your friends with both Blaine and I and I value your opinion."
"I don't know, Jesse," Sebastian answered. "I really don't. Listen to your heart… isn't that what people say?"
"People also say homosexuals are an abomination so to hell with what people think," Jesse said. "Anyway, what's happening with you and Kurt?"
"He's my boyfriend," Sebastian revealed tasting out the word 'boyfriend' on his tongue, still trying to get used to the idea.
"About time," Jesse smiled and Sebastian couldn't help but smile too. "I hope this means you're going to stop brooding. The miserable and feeling sorry for yourself routine was really starting to bore."
"No more brooding," Sebastian confirmed. "And… I'm happy. A little panicked and uncertain at the same time but… but I'm happy."
"You deserve it," Jesse told him. "Even if you are a capital A asshole."
"Kurt wants me to go to Lima with him next weekend," Sebastian sighed. "I didn't particularly care for meeting the family when the relationship was all for a bet… I'm less excited about it now that the relationship is real. You only get one first impression and the one I presented wasn't the best. And that giant step-brother of his surely knows about the bet which probably means he's told Mr. Hummel. And if Mr. Hummel does know then I'm actually incredibly lucky to still be alive."
"His dad can't seriously be that intimidating," Jesse said and Sebastian just sent him a look that cleared said 'you wanna bet?' "Look, Kurt loves you despite everything you tried to do. If he can forgive your mistakes then I'm sure, in time, his family can come to accept you."
"Maybe I could say my name is Stephen and pretend I'm Sebastian's identical twin," Sebastian suggested. "I mean his dad went to a public school and owns a tyre shop so he can't be that intelligent and from the little I know of his step-brother he's dumb enough to believe it."
"Stephen?" Jesse repeated. "Of all the names you could fashion for your fake twin self you pick 'Stephen'? My sweet friend that is so beyond lame I actually pity you."
"Yeah, well, it's not like I care if Kurt's family like me or not anyway," Sebastian shrugged.
"Yes you do," Jesse stated knowingly and Sebastian glared at him. "Don't worry," Jesse grinned. "I won't tell anyone. You keep my secrets and I keep yours."
"I can't promise that," Sebastian replied.
"Making out with Kurt made you cum in your pants," Jesse reminded him cruelly. "A fact which everybody will be informed of if you dare share any of my secrets."
"I loathe you," Sebastian remarked, his embarrassment still fresh over the awkward incident.
"Love you to, Bas," Jesse replied sending him a charming smile.
"I was thinking," Sebastian said, "I wanted to take Kurt out for dinner one night this week. Perhaps you and Blaine could join us? It could be a double date."
"I guess I'd feel more comfortable on a date if I had my best boy with me," Jesse mused. "It's been a long time since I've had a proper date. Actually… it's been forever."
The two were quiet for a while before Jesse moved off the bed and ventured towards his DVD collection.
"What are you doing?" Sebastian asked as he sat up and rested against the headboard.
"You are finally going to watch the end of Cruel Intentions," Jesse told him decisively.
He set the movie up then shut the curtains and turned out the light before rejoining Sebastian on his bed. They watched the film together, the day when they first made the ridiculous and cruel bet seeming like a lifetime ago.
The final scene played out and a teary-eyed Jesse turned his head just in time to spy Sebastian wiping away a tear.
"You're crying?" Jesse asked him in amusement.
"What? No," Sebastian denied. "I have allergies."
"If you say so," Jesse nodded not believing him for a second. "So you liked the film?"
"I didn't expect it to end like that," Sebastian answered. "You know, it's stupid, but if I'd just sat through the entire film first time round I never would have made that bet."
"But you and Kurt would never have gotten together for real if we didn't make that bet," Jesse pointed out.
"You won't let me ruin things with him will you?" Sebastian asked.
"Not this time," Jesse agreed before getting up to turn the T.V off. He returned to the bed intending to make random conversation but his mind went blank as he caught the expression on Sebastian's face.
"I don't want you to hurt, Blaine," Sebastian said quietly but clearly.
"I know," Jesse nodded. "I don't want to hurt him either."
"I'll kick your ass if you do," Sebastian warned and Jesse just laughed.
"Oh please, we both know you can't take me in a fight," Jesse teased.
"Just try and be a good boyfriend for Blaine," Sebastian encouraged. "And I'll try to be a good one for Kurt. Deal?"
"Deal," Jesse agreed shaking his fellow Warbler's hand before they shared a quick kiss on the lips.
To Be Continued
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