Another Chapter.

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I went to the kitchen and got some food. I'd be happy when Eric went shopping for me. He had only grabbed enough for a few days. I was also low on spices and extras to season my food. I was hoping he would let me go shopping for my own food. Its hard to just write a list of everything you need. I knew if I went to the store and saw things I'd buy a lot more.

I wondered if I asked nicely if he'd let me go. I had a feeling he'd say no. I felt a bit irritated but realized that not getting to go grocery shopping – which is really a chore – isn't the worst thing in the world.

Once I was done eating, I went back to sit with Eric. He talked to me about my paperwork. I was honest and told him I didn't keep the best track of things and usually had to pull out my folders to remember passwords, pins, and IDs. He shook his head at me, but knew there was nothing we could do about it until we retrieved my paperwork.

I stopped midway during our paperwork chat to mention food.

"Did you see my shopping list?" I asked tentatively. I was going to be very persuasive.

"I did. I'll get food for you tomorrow. My day man will pick it up."

"I was wondering….if maybe I could go get it."

"No, you don't have privileges to leave during your training."

"Eric. Please, it will be easier for me. Its hard to just write down food. I need to see the aisles."

He looked thoughtful. "Maybe. We'll discuss it later….now I've had most of your stuff packed already and some will be brought here tomorrow. I'll review it first and then decide what comes down here with us and what is stored upstairs."

My mouth fell open. He went into my apartment and packed it up already, with out telling me! He was going to decide what things of mine I could keep with me.

"Who packed it?" my voice was clipped.

"The men I hired. Why do you ask?" he asked amused.

"You know I'm private about my stuff." I replied, feeling my anger rise.

"My stuff," he corrected. "You own what I allow you to own and right now that's nothing. You should know privacy is a much larger issue for me than it is you."

I opened my mouth and he held his finger up.

"You understand I'm trying to not have to punish you so soon, don't you? That my leniency is being given more so than I normally ever give it?" He asked annoyed.

"Yes." I said, trying to control my big mouth.

"Good. You want to go shopping. Lets have you not get punished for another day or two and I'll take you shopping. Show me excellent behavior from now until then."

I nodded and didn't say a word. I could do this. I could be quiet in order to avoid being punished – something I was scared about – and so I could go shopping for my own food.

I reminded myself Eric was being good to me. I would also do this for him.

I gave my word and even if it felt like I offered a bit too much, too fast, I was in this now and had to keep my promise.

Eric nodded in approval of our agreement and went back to my paperwork. He was closing my bank account and opening a secondary one for me at his bank. He was going to turn off my cell phone and put me on his plan. I was getting an upgrade and we'd have unlimited calls between us. Not that it mattered since it didn't look like we'd be far enough apart to call one another any time soon.

We kept talking about things that were both interesting and boring. Boring because it was paperwork and things like moving around my accounts. Interesting because I was essentially having my whole life uprooted and I should be aware of what was going on.

I don't know if Eric ever realized how lazy I was when it came to little things like this. I guess he'd find out when he saw how disorganized my paperwork was because I got frustrated and threw it all together. I think he'd be shocked because I'm typically so OCD. This thought made me smile.

We rounded back to my grocery list and Eric brought up my health and appearance.

"I made you an appointment with a doctor who works well with supernaturals. Her name is Dr. Ludwig. She'll give you a full physical and can help me with any food issues you might have. I haven't eaten or shopped for food in a very long time."

I started to feel self conscious.

"Do you want me to…lose weight?"

Eric had never complained about my body. He always seemed hungry for me and ready to bed me.

"No," He pulled me close. "You are soft, curvy, and beautiful. You eat enough, but I don't know if you eat enough vitamins. The human body is very complex."

"It is?" I asked a little unsure of where he was going.

"Of course. I only need blood. I don't need any particular blood. Although, blood without disease and drugs is better. And of course some vampires prefer certain types….but humans need the right chemicals, hormones, minerals, and vitamins in their body at all times. It's very hard to keep a healthy human diet."

I thought Eric was over thinking things a bit. I was pretty healthy. I was glad to know he liked my body and this wasn't a weight issue.

I frowned when I realized if I fibbed to this doctor, like I sometimes did with my other ones, Eric would be very upset with me. I had a feeling she'd find a number of unhealthy things I could work on.

"I don't like doctors much." I tried not to sound whiney.

"But they are necessary. I'm also going to set you up with special stylist. I have some requirements for your appearance."

I bit the inside of my mouth. I was not going to say something and get punished and lose my chance to go shopping.

I wasn't.

"I don't wish you to cut your hair. You've trimmed it a few times, but seem to be growing it out. I hope to bring it down to your waist. I like your toenail polish. I want to make sure you get regular pedicures and manicures. I do not understand this anti-hair prejudice in modern society, so I won't be requesting any shaving or waxing…"

I cut him off. "Wait….I can't shave anymore?"

"No, it's silly."

My jaw dropped.

"Eric….I can't have super hairy legs and underarms."

I admit I get lazy and grow out a bit for the winter sometimes, but I couldn't go completely au natural. No way.

"Why not?" He cocked his brow.

"It will look bad. I'll be embarrassed if you take me out in a dress with fuzzy legs." I pressed my point in firmly.

He stopped for a minute.

"My opinion is the one that should matter more to you….but I'm not trying to embarrass you. I will monitor your shaving habits closely. I will have you bare if I take you out in public. I won't allow you to get rid of your public hair, however. I have no interest in bedding a little girl or a woman who looks like one."

I pushed my luck. I just had to.

"Trimming? Just a bit?"

He looked irritated.

"We'll see…..I have some more extensive requirements with your bathing than you are used to. A few times a week, I am going to have someone help to clean you inside and out."

My stomach lurched. Someone was going to bathe me? Did he just say 'inside' and 'out'?

"Dina," he said impatiently. "These are not bad things. I'm caring for you. You can't object. I know you are shy, but I promise I'm only allowing a strict professional near you. Do you really think I'd allow just anyone to see what is mine?"

I grimaced and felt strained to breathe. God, this was the hardest fucking thing I've ever done in my life. Eric began to rub my back and soothe me.

"I know it's hard. It will get easier. Perhaps we need to stop talking for a while. You need to focus on other things." He kissed my head. "Go to the bathroom. See to your human needs and wash your face. Take your time, I want you calm when you come back."

I nodded and went to the bathroom to compose myself. He was really being patient with me. But he wasn't budging much on getting what he wanted. He made few acquisitions, but I knew he wasn't obligated to make any.

I did as he said. I took deep breaths and told myself I could do this. I'd always been told subs were strong people. but I never realized how much it took to let another be dominant with you.

I came out of the bathroom and found Eric sitting on the bed. He stood and took my hand.

"Have I told you how beautiful you are today?" He asked me in a low voice.

"Maybe."

"Mmm…you're so beautiful." He kissed just behind my ear and sat us on the bed. His hands began to roam my body and his lips showered my face and shoulders with kisses. I almost forgot about my collar. Almost.

His hands rubbed my stomach and I felt self conscious once more and wiggled away from him. He pulled me close and kept massaging my belly.

"You turn me on so much lover….all of you."

He tucked my top down with his teeth and began to kiss my breasts. My hands fisted in his hair rand I felt very pretty in this moment. He pulled one of his hands away from me to free his erection.

His hands grabbed my hips and pulled me on top of him. I was thankful I didn't have panties on. I felt his cock pressing against my folds and I ground my hips. He moaned against my nipple. He looked up at me.

"Do you want me inside you?"

"Yes." I moaned at his words.

We moved our bodies into position and I slid down slowly on his dick. I sat with him fully imbedded in me. Even after having sex with him for a while now, he still felt so huge. I was still being stretched and it felt so painfully good. I wrapped my arms around and we moved together. I stared at his fangs as he opened his mouth wide, hissing in pleasure.

He was so beautiful and even if it didn't seem like it, he was mine.

Eric held me as we lay on our bed. (Was it ours now? Did I just think that?) My orgasms with him were always so intense.

"Are you ready to get back up?" He asked me.

"Yeah." I stretched my body out.

"Good, I want to get back to your training."

I rolled my eyes. He pulled me up and we were off and out into the living area.

Instead of sitting us down, he said something that was hard for me to digest.

"Put your hands behind your back and then get on your knees."

He wasn't motioning between his legs. He just wanted me to kneel beside him. He pulled out a pair of leather cuffs. I realized he was going to restrain my hands behind me.

Okay, I was being submissive. I could do this.

I had given myself more internal pep talks since meeting Eric than during my whole life combined.

I put my hands behind my back and turned so he could lock them up. The leather felt cold and rough. My fingers twisted. I was suddenly feeling uncomfortable. Once they were locked he sat down.

I knelt down and he stroked my cheek.

"You are going to do something for me. This might seem strange, but it's very important." He began and I looked him with wide eyes. "You are going to suck my fingers ; each one. You are doing this for two big reasons…"

I almost laughed when he said I was going to suck his fingers. I didn't because I was determined to not get punished and go shopping for my food. I hadn't been officially punished yet, but still remembered the way Eric grabbed and pinched my cheeks when I moved my hands. I was going to avoid that.

"First, you need to learn that not everything we do is about sex nor is it about orgasms. Sometimes I just want you to show your love and devotion to me. Sometimes I just want pleasure and not necessarily an orgasm. Just as when you kissed my cock, you will suck me not to get me off, but to show your affections."

I nodded. It was surprising how much he made sense. It was harder to disagree when he sounded so logical.

"Secondly, you should love all of my body. You should love me from head to toe. You should love my cock no matter what part of your body it's in or what it is doing to you. You should love my arms rather they restrain or cuddle you. You should love my hands when they are gentle with you and when they are rough," He stroked my cheek again, "You should love me rather I am pleasuring or punishing you….Now show me you love me."

He started intently at me. It felt like his gaze was wearing me down. He wasn't going to put his finger in my mouth like he did the night before while we had sex. He was going to have me do it. He wasn't forcing me. I was doing this with 100% of the effort.

I leaned forward and took his index finger into my mouth. I sucked him gently. I looked up at him and he nodded his approval. I kept going and pretended it was his dick.

I tried to remember this was different than a regular blowjob. This was loving and worshipful. And of course, submissive.

There was something very telling about our situation during this moment. I was on my knees. He was sitting above me. My hands were restrained. But only because I put them behind my back and allowed him to do so. I was sucking him. Granted these were his fingers, but it was still very close to another act. I was also not gaining any physical pleasure from this. I was giving and not taking. He was accepting without demanding and taking my love which could only be given.

I was still ambivalent at times. But this wasn't bad. Not bad at all.

I became concerned about what to stop and switch fingers. I just kept going. Eric's middle finger rubbed my check and I turned my attention on to it. I was thankful he guided me.

He seemed deep in thought and I just kept going. My jaw didn't get sore and I didn't get tired the way I did after going down for a while, but I knew a lot of time had passed. It was also very weird to have my hands held behind me. I felt kinda helpless, but not afraid.

I worked diligently on finger after finger.

He finally pulled the last one from my mouth. He smiled at me and I smiled back.

"Do you need water?" He asked.

"Yes, please." I replied.

He stood and rushed out of the room. I was left kneeling with my arms behind my this didn't feel too great.

He came back, sat, and put his hand behind my head. He helped to tilt my head back and poured the water into my mouth. I wasn't used to someone controlling everything like this and it made me feel uncomfortable. I also wasn't used to someone caring for me. arms restrained or not, he just checked on my thirst, got me water, and gave it to me.

"I'm still thinking about your contacts. I am warning you now. I will be strict about other men in your life and will not negotiate." I went to open my mouth and he held his finger up. "This isn't about me trusting you or not. I'm possessive. I'm a vampire, that's our nature. Pick your battle wisely."

I nodded, starting to feel annoyed. He picked up on my sadness over the idea he didn't trust me to not cheat. It was nice that he knew and I didn't have to explain, but I still felt a little invaded by our bond.

"I'm going to post on your facebook that you got a new job and have taken a short vacation with your bonus from work. We'll handle talking with your friends and family as they try to contact you."

I nodded and prayed they waited for as long as possible.

"I wanted to clarify something with you as well. Tomorrow when you open your journal, there will be something in there from me and you will respond to it. I will also give you a schedule for your day. It will be on the table."

I nodded.

I could deal with that. I was still thinking about Sook and Bill. I wondered if he forgot. I didn't want to bring it up if he did. But if he didn't I feared what he was going to do to them.

"Dina?" He questioned me.

"I want…I'm thinking about something." I stopped.

"You know you can talk to me about anything…place your head on my thigh and I'll remove your cuffs."

I leaned forward and realized I was practically bowing. I was grateful once I was mobile again, but my arms were stiff. H saw me flex and rub them.

He reached forward to massage me.

"That happens when you aren't used to bondage or have been bound for a long time. You were only in those for a little over an hour."

I couldn't believe it was that long and was nervous by his description "only over an hour". Was he planning on having me tied up for a long time?

"What do you want to tell me?" He asked and kept rubbing my sore limbs.

"I wanted to ask about…Sookie and Bill."

I was nervous. I hoped he wouldn't do something…drastic.

"I'm going to leave your friend alone. I don't care," He was lying about not caring, I knew it. "But Bill will be replacing me at Fangtasia until I'm satisfied with how you're settling in."

I scrunched my face, but said nothing. Bill was getting off easy. He hated working at the bar and would hate to be there until closing or later, but at least he would keep his fangs.

I got lost in my thoughts for a moment. Eric pulled me back into the present and away from the issues that my friends and family would have with the changes I made in my life.

"Go clean up. The doctor should be here soon."

"She's coming tonight?" I asked surprised.

"Yes, didn't I mention that? Go on." He replied.

I shook my head, got up and went into the bathroom. I wondered if she was going to give me a full exam. I blushed when I realized she'd know we just had sex not that long ago.

Eric had no modesty or shame and I had enough for the both of us.