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Dylan held Brenda against him and rubbed her back. He wasn't sure what was wrong but he knew that something was. He wished that he knew what was wrong so that he could make it better for her. He tried asking her a few times but she just cried even harder.

Finally he looked up at Brandon and said "What is wrong with Brenda? What happened to her? Why is she so distraught?"

Brandon looked at his sister and hated that he didn't know how to make her feel better and then he looked back at Dylan and said "She's pregnant and she just lost her husband two weeks ago."

Dylan's mouth dropped open that that. He couldn't believe that Brenda had been married and he didn't even know it. Hell when he looked down he saw her gently rounded stomach and he couldn't help but smile. He always thought that Brenda would look beautiful when she was pregnant and now he knew just how beautiful she is while she is pregnant.

He looked down at Brenda and kissed her on the head and whispered "Come on baby it's alright. You need to calm down if not for yourself then for the little one you are carrying. That's it baby calm down. I got you and I'm not letting go."

Brenda finally calmed down enough to say "God I've missed you."

Dylan's heart started beating faster at her words and he said "It's okay baby. I'm here now and I'm not going anywhere. You're fine and you will continue to be fine. If you need to cry then you cry baby. I have a hold of you and I'm not letting you go."

Brenda kissed the side of Dylan's neck and she whispered "It's my fault it's all my fault."

Dylan wondered what she was talking about and said "What's your fault baby?"

Brenda sucked in a breath. "It's my fault that Brice is dead. It's all my fault."

Dylan's mouth dropped open and he looked at Brenda in shock. He couldn't understand why she thought it was her fault that her husband was dead. He wanted to know why she thought that so he made the decision to ask her.

"Bren why do you think it's your fault that Brice is dead?" Dylan asked.

Brenda gulped in another breath and said "If I would have been sleeping with him he wouldn't have had to go out and screw someone else and he wouldn't have gotten hit by a drunk driver on his way home to me."

Everyone in the room gasped at that and Dylan said "Baby it was his choice to do what he did. Even if you weren't having sex with him that didn't give him the right to cheat on you. Come on baby you need to calm down even more. You don't want to get sick do you?"

Brenda shook her head and whispered "I only slept with him once and that's how I got pregnant. We got married because I was pregnant. After that one time I couldn't bring myself to sleep with him again. He was my best friend and I loved him yet I couldn't give him what he needed. Even sleeping in the same bed with him was hard for me to do. All I could think about was that he wasn't you."

Dylan couldn't stop the smile that started to form on his face but he wiped it off and said "It's okay baby. I'm here now and everything will be okay. When was the last time you slept?"

Brenda closed her eyes and thought for a minute and then said "I haven't slept in two days."

Dylan groaned at that and said "Well I'm taking you up to bed and you're sleeping. I'll stay in the house but I'm going to come back down and talk to Brandon. If you need anything you yell for me baby."

Brenda sighed and said "Will you promise to come hold me later? I just need held."

Dylan stood up and looked at Brandon who nodded at the question in his eyes and then said to Brenda "I'll come right back up and hold you after I talk to Brandon. I promise baby. Just close your eyes and relax."

Brenda sighed and did as she was told. She felt Dylan walking up the steps but couldn't even say anything. Before they were even all the way up the stairs she was asleep.

As Dylan entered Brenda's old room he looked down at her and finally smiled. It felt good seeing her and holding her. He has missed her so much. He just hoped he was able to help her through this. He placed her gently on the bed and took her shoes off and then picked her back up and pulled the blankets down. Once he had them pulled down he placed her back gently on the bed and pulled them over her tucking her in.

He stepped back and just stared at her for a minute. Even after all these years his heart still beat faster at the sight of her and at the sound of her voice. He was still in love with her and he couldn't remember a time when he hasn't been or wasn't ever in love with her. Just being near her made him breathe a whole lot easier.

He bent down and kissed her head and whispered "I love you Bren and I'll be back. I will get you through this. You're not alone."

He smiled when Brenda shifted a little as if she was trying to get closer to him. He turned and walked out of her bedroom. Once at her bedroom door though he looked over his shoulder at her one more time. He vowed that he would not let her blame herself for the death of her husband.

AN: Hi all I'm Randy and I edited this chapter for my sister. As I was reading over this chapter and checking it over for her I realized two things about my sister. She pours everything she is feeling into a story when she is writing it. The second thing is this story could be my sister so easily. It's like she is projecting some of what she has been through onto Brenda and that makes this story so much better. The words behind everything is heart felt and very touching. You are a great writer Sis and I love you but remember you have people who love you and who are here for you. For the person reviewing with the name Me you need to tone down your reviews please.