Hello everyone! I'm back with chapter 3, and you were right when you guessed this chapter was about Adam!

So, just a heads up, this chapter contains some swearing, a kissing scene, and some abuse.

Disclaimer; I don't own Lab Rats!

~How I Was~

Adam stared absentmindedly at the TV. It was a strange feeling-not being absent-minded; he often felt that way, it was actually quite refreshing-it was being absentminded because he was thinking about something else. That is what bothered him.

He hadn't meant to hurt Bree's feelings so bad. He had just been goofing around, like he always was. Being the funny, lovable little Adam that everybody loved. The happy guy that was so childish and cheerful that it made anyone laugh.

Except Bree.

At least, not today.

Adam hadn't been meaning to upset her, honest! It was just a joke! A good-natured joke! How could someone get so upset over such a silly thing as a joke?

"I told you so."

"EDDY! BE QUIET!" Adam was yanked out of his thoughts-also something he wasn't used to-by Mr. Davenport's irritated voice.

"Alright, just wanted to be sure that we were clear on the fact that I was right."

Donald rolled his eyes as the emotion got in the last word before disappearing form the screen.

He quickly ran over to his wife and began speaking to her in an urgent voice.

"Hey, Tasha? I need Chase, something's gone terribly wrong in the lab."

"Oh, that's fair. So you spend all night working late in the lab and I don't even get a 'good-morning' from my own husband?" Tasha sounded irked.

"Honey, this is serious! I need Chase's help now, where is he?"

"He's upstairs."

"Great," Davenport made for the stairs, but Tasha reached out and grabbed his arm, giving him a warning look.

"Donald, I really think he needs to be alone right now."

"What? Why?" Tasha gave her husband an even harder warning look, which in one second seemed to be able to display about fifty words.

"You know Big D, if something's wrong in the lab, I'd be happy to help," Leo stood up from the couch and walked over to his step-uncle.

Donald looked at him suspiciously. Then he tuned back to his wife.

"Bree?"

Tasha shook her head.

"Oh come on Big D, you made me mission specialist just a few weeks ago! And I nearly saved your butt last night, so don't you think you owe me a little respect?"

"I think the only thing I owe you is about three-thousand dollars worth of bill debt for all my stuff you've messed up."

"Oh, give me a break."

"Fine! You can help me out. Just, hurry up! Go! Go!" Donald began shooing his step-son down to the lab.

"Hey, I can help too," said Adam, turning off the TV and beginning to get up from the couch as well.

"Yeah, I'm not so sure that's a good idea," said Donald in a slightly worried, slightly sarcastic tone.

"Why not?"

"Adam, this is an important job for smart people," Leo put his hand on his brother's shoulder. "We will call you if we need any of Big D's priceless inventions instantly shattered."

"I won't have to, you'll be right there, Leo, now come on!"

"Fine, fine! Hold your horses there little man! I'm coming! I'm coming!"

Donald and Leo left the room. Adam plopped back down on the sofa an turned on the TV. But as before, he still wasn't paying any attention whatsoever to the shows that usually captivated his child-like mind.

"So I guess that's how a good-natured joke can really hurt," he thought quietly to himself.

Time passed, and shouting could be heard every once in awhile coming from the lab. Tasha left to do some errands, and Adam was left alone with his thoughts. All this time the TV droned on in the background, creating a slur of sounds that no one was really listening to.

Finally, Adam turned off the TV and laid back on the couch, closing his eyes.

He had had the craziest dream last night, but somehow he felt; no, he knew that it hadn't been a dream.

For the first time in his life, Adam Davenport was completely convinced of something, and that something was the fact that last night he had regained the early years of his memory.

He had always wondered where he had come from. Not as much as he imagined Chase had, because of course his nerdy little brother had thought about things like that more, right? He'd probably even figured it out by now.

But Adam was just realizing that Douglas hadn't been his actual father as everyone had lead him to believe.

He was still having a hard time working through it in his mind. But to be honest, there was a lot to work though! First Mr. Davenport was their father. Then Douglas was. Now some other guy was. Some other guy that Adam didn't even know the name of!

Honestly, though, he didn't care what his name was. With luck he'd never see that person again.

Man, and Mr. Davenport thought Douglas would've made a bad parent...

Adam shut his eyes tighter, trying to keep out of his own thoughts. It wasn't a very familiar pastime. Usually he had to try his hardest to even have thoughts.

But he wasn't as dumb as his family made him out to be. He could have thoughts of his own, too! He wasn't always clueless. True, it was inevitable every once in while, but sometimes he had really good ideas.

Like how to get Tasha back when they accidentally teleported her. But even then, his family had practically ignored his accomplishment. He had tried to hold onto it; really rub it in their face; trying to get just a moment more of that glorious attention they gave him when they thought he was smart.

But no, they were too embarrassed that they hadn't thought of the solution themselves. Therefore they simply chalked that up to basic human error, and stated that he had just been so naïve enough as to see the clear answer right away. Of course they would say that.

It was what he expected them to say.

Like how they expected him to be their strong, and extremely stupid older brother.

But what if he didn't want to always be the really tough 'empty box on a neck'?

What if, every once in awhile, he wanted to be the smart one for a change? If every once in while he wanted to be asked to lead a mission?

Adam suddenly chuckled at himself.

"Stupid self," he said quietly. "I know I would never want any of those things. I would never want to end up like Chasey!"

Adam's smile faded as he realized what he was really doing.

"I'm distracting myself again," he thought dejectedly. "Like I always do."

Adam knew that the real reason he didn't want to always be thought of as 'the strong, but extremely stupid protective brother' was not because he didn't want to always be dismissed as stupid; but because he didn't want to always be relied upon as strong.

His family's jokes had often cut him to the core. And not, as everyone would assume, because they never expected him to be intelligent. But because they always expected him to be strong. Really strong. In every way imaginable.

Adam could feel a few small tears pricking at the corners of his eyes as he thought about the terrible things that could result if he wasn't always strong.

What if one of his siblings needed protection and he wasn't strong enough to help them? What if his entire family needed him to help and he wasn't strong enough?

Adam had felt his first taste of weakness the night before. When he was locked up in Evil Uncle Daddy's little cage that deactivated his bionics. His siblings needed him, and he couldn't protect them. His family needed him. And he could do nothing but sit back and watch as Leo was killed, Mr. Davenport was attacked, and his brother and sister zapped with huge volts of energy and shock waves.

Adam's entire body shook as he thought back to one other person who had relied on him for protection; one other person that Adam had failed.

"Stop! Stop!" I cried, as pain racked my body.

"You want us to stop?" asked my father in a menacing voice, bending down inches from my face.

"Then I guess you'll think of that next time when we ask you to do something for us!" shouted my mother, her screeching voice coming out slurred. "And you'll do it faster!"

"I know, I'm sorry, I really am!" I shouted again as my father aimed another kick at my stomach.

"Yeah, I bet you are ya little wretch." My father stepped back a bit, then crouched down right next to my face. "Now I'm gonna go check on your little brother. And he damn well better have finished our dinner or he's going to be getting the same punishment as you."

"Oh man, you look so hot right now," giggled my mother in a silly voice.

"You bet I do," muttered my father, standing up and beginning to quickly kiss my squealing mother all over her face.

"Ugg," I groaned under my breath.

"Shut up!" yelled my father. Then he turned back to his wife. "Shall we go see if our meal awaits us?"

"Ooh yes, of course!" laughed my mother in a flirtatious voice.

Once this totally gross display was out of my sight, I gently lifted myself from the ground. Boy, did my side hurt!

I lifted my shirt to see a bruise forming. Ugh, that wasn't going to look pretty in the morning.

Just then I heard another sound; one that put my burning side completely out of my mind.

"Lenny!" I shouted, running into the kitchen.

"Please, please stop!" I shouted, running up to my parents, trying desperately to pull them away from my little brother.

"Stay out of this you little runt!" shouted my father, pushing me aside.

I jumped up and ran back at them, trying to shove them away, my brother's sobs and begging the only thing I could hear.

But it was to no avail. I wasn't strong enough. My father easily held me back with one hand, while he pummeled my baby brother with his other.

And I had to watch the whole thing.

Screaming and crying, and watching through my tears, the only thing I could think was;

"I wish I was stronger!"

Adam jumped a little bit, his eyes popping open. He hadn't realized how deep he had gone back into his thoughts. Now coming out of such a horrific memory into this well-lit house was a bit of shock.

It took him a moment to remember where he was; that he was safe now.

Douglas and come and gotten him a mere week after this incident had occurred.

At least, after when Adam thought it had occurred. A few things in his memory were still fuzzy; he didn't have good sense of the timing of things, and he couldn't quite remember the little boy's name. But he knew the boy had been his brother. And Lenny just seemed like an appropriate name somehow.

Adam laughed to himself when he thought of how Danielle had once mistaken Leo's name for 'Lenny'. It seemed like a nice enough nickname, so it just sounded right.

Poor little Leo; he had been so devastated that day. Then of course it hadn't helped that Danielle took a liking to Adam's muscles rather then Leo's brain.

"It wasn't my fault though," Adam thought to himself. "It's not my fault the ladies are crazy for these meatballs."

Adam began subconsciously flexing his muscles.

"But I'm not completely sure if these meatballs will always be enough."

He lost himself again in thought. He was always making fun of Leo and Chase for being weaklings; but at one point in his life, that had been him. He went through life now acting like he had always had his bionic super-strength, but of course he hadn't.

And if Douglas had never taken him, and never given him his bionic chip, he might be just as weak today as Chase.

"But I'm not," Adam tried to comfort himself. "Im strong now. I'm strong, and I'm safe...but Lenny isn't."

Adam shut his eyes tight again, hoping silently that Lenny was okay.

"Wherever you are little buddy, I really hope you're doing okay. And I hope that one day I can find you, find you and save you."

"But you won't be able to." Said a nagging voice in the back of Adam's mind.

"You're not strong enough to find your long-lost brother you just learned about! You weren't even strong enough to protect your family from one little teenager!"

Adam could feel the tears he had been holding back begin to peep over his eyelids; then crash down on his face.

"I couldn't!" Adam exclaimed to himself. "I couldn't protect my own family! Even when I was genetically engineered for it! I am a total failure in every way imaginable!"

Adam then leaned forward, rested his elbows on his knees, set his face in his hands, and bawled his eyes out.

He couldn't believe he had been so weak.

So, what'd ya think? I didn't want to do Adam as being upset because his family always makes fun of his stupidity, since he seems to like being ignorant and I think he even mentions a few times in the show that he enjoys a blank mind. Anyway, so what did you think of my take on his past? Kind of different from Bree and Chase's, huh? They were just ignored and yelled at, while Adam was actually beaten around.

So tell me what you think in the reviews! I love reading what you lovely readers have to say! :)

Now for replies;

Dirtkid123-Really? Well I'm glad I was able to affect you with my writing! I hope you'll keep reading!

PurpleNicole531-Yay! Thanks! I'm glad you liked it, your kind words make me so happy! And good job guessing! :)

tennisgirl77-Yeah, really sad past. I would just hate to have grown up like that, everyone ignoring you? How awful. Yep, next one's, um, THIS one's Adam! Yippie! I'm glad you're excited for updates!

basketball2648-YAY I'M SO HAPPY! Will do, and I'd love to see more of your reviews. :)

daphrose-What?! You mean you haven't saved this story as your top-of-the-list priority?! Just kidding. I know, stupid world! Why do I have to do homework? I'm never going to use math in real life! And today I had to do like two...or three?...okay, so maybe math is kinda important. XD

I'm glad you thought my idea for Chasey was unique, and yes, it means that Adam, Bree and Chase are not related...for now. Oops! I'm still working out where I'm going with that. :D That's interesting, I guess the Lord was with you and your mother the day of your birth and decided to put one over on those doctors! But honestly, your mother must have been thankful. I can't imagine living my life like that and I'm so sorry for people who do have to.

I know, poor Bree. Thank-you for reviewing!

Leo Corp-Same, I can't believe Eddy hasn't been brought to the island yet! He's still back at the house with Tasha...man, that must be fun for her! It'd be a really great episode if we could see how they're getting along together. XD Hmm, Leo Corp voted for a Leo chapter! I did NOT see that coming... ;)

daughter of athena 2000-I...I...I can't explain how happy your review made me! I'm really happy you're enjoying this story and I hope you'll stick around to read more!

Okay, I think that's everyone. If I didn't reply to your review, say 'I'!

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Be quiet, villain! Anyway, I see that a lot of people are on Douglas's side now! Stay tuned for updates! Until then, comrades!