Wednesday, June 24, 2020

8:17 AM

I'm getting ready to go to Mrs. Edelstein's place again. But I'm feeling a bit weird today. I have a headache and my eyes hurt, and I feel dizzy even though I wasn't even spinning. I told Daddy, and he got a bit worried and called Dr. Lupei. After some time, Daddy gave me some pills with kool-aid. I felt like an old man taking those pills. They made the pain go away though.

I'm in the car right now on my way to the daycare. And I know this is completely random, but I think Dr. Lupei would be so much cooler if he had a blue telephone box in his office.

10:14 AM

We had to pull over. I must have had some sort of panic attack. But I SWEAR I saw him.

There was a man sitting next to me in the car. I had no idea who he was, or how he got there. He just appeared from no where, and started calling me a freak. He said that no one truly loves me, and that I was a burden to everyone, and that I only took up space. I screamed for him to stop, and I did everything I could to try and make him go away. I yelled, I thrashed, and I hadn't even realized that the car had stopped and Pa was prying me out of my seat trying to get me to calm down. I stared at the man as Pa dragged me out. He was laughing with an evil grin on his face. And then he just disappeared. Just like that!

Pa and Daddy won't believe me. They said no one else was in the car besides us. But I know what I saw.

I just hope he doesn't come back.

4:36 PM

I locked myself in Mr. Edelstein's closet, and I have to be very quiet.

I can't face the others over there. It's just too much.

They're looking at me weird, and I hate it. Even Wyuna, my best friend. She must think I'm a freak too. I bet that guy in the car told her I was.

I don't want to go back out there. No one can make me.

I'll never be as normal as them, so why should I even bother?

6:40 PM

I woke up in my bed. I don't even remember falling asleep. Nor do I remember coming home. I guess I must've fallen asleep in the closet, and they found me.

I can hear my parents in the living room talking. They don't know I'm awake. It's difficult to hear what they're saying, but I'll write down what I hear so I can remember.

D- "He has to rest. It's best one of us stays to keep an eye on him."

P- "He should just stay with Dr. Lupei."

D- "You know he doesn't like him."

P- "Yes, but what other option do we have? He drove Elizaveta crazy looking for him earlier."

D- "Maybe he shouldn't go back there anymore."

P- "We need to find someone who is able to watch him closely. We need someone we can trust, and the best option is Dr. Lupei."

D- "He won't be happy there."

P- "Is he happy now? Is he okay?! Right now, it doesn't matter! At this point, we just want to make sure our boy is healthy! Do you not understand?!"

Pa is yelling. Pa. Is. Yelling. At Daddy. This is new to me. Okay Peter. Don't cry. Don't you dare cry.

I hear Daddy yelling now.

D- "-raising your voice at me like that? I'm just trying to get the best for our son, and yelling at me is sure as hell not going to make things better!"

This is all my fault. I made them do this. If I was normal, they wouldn't be yelling. I wouldn't have hidden in the closet. None of us would have to go through this. We could all just be happy.

It's not fair.

P- "-down now. He might hear us. It's not healthy to be yelling like this."

D- "It's just so frustrating. I... I can't... I don't know anymore. I just wish I knew. I wish we knew what was wrong."

P- "Please don't lose your temper. I'm sorry I lost mine."

D- "We should just go to bed. It's a stressful day, and we could all use the sleep."

I can hear them walking about now. I'm glad they're not fighting anymore.

But I'm scared. Worried. Sad. Frustrated. Angry.

And most importantly, abnormal.

When will it end?