June 26, 2020
4:27 AM
Can't sleep. Again.
Pa and Daddy are talking to each other about me again. I have to be clever now, because it seems that their once boring and useless conversations have proven to hold vital information about me hidden from me. So, now I have to be smart and listen carefully as to what they are saying. This time, I won't let big words get in my way. I'll have to try and spell the words as best as I can and look them up in the dictionary, or Wikipedia.
After all, Wikipedia is the source of all human knowledge.
D- "-results from Dr. Lupei?"
P- "Yes. They're going to need more samples."
D- "How much more could they possibly need?"
P- "Who knows? Certainly not them."
D- "What if... what if it's some sort of can sir?"
What the heck is can sir?
P- "-would have known by now. Perhaps it's some form of it."
D- "I wish I knew."
P- "Dr. Lupei diagnosed him with scitzofreneea."
Scitzofreneea. What a weird word.
D- "-can adjust to that somehow, right?"
P- "Probably."
I hear another voice, but I can't quite pin point whose it is.
No, wait, it's Uncle Al!
A- "-can't believe y'all are still up 'n runnin' yer mouths."
D- "Sorry, did we wake you?"
A- "More like prevented me from sleepin'. So what's all this y'all are talkin' about that it can't wait a few more hours?"
P- "It's Peter's condition."
Silence.
A- "Oh. How's the little feller doin'?"
D- "To be honest, we don't know."
A- "What the hell? What do you mean you don't know? Does he know y'guys don't know?"
Silence.
A- "Have you told him anything?"
P- "If we tell him, he'll freak out, and-"
A- "And so you're censoring him from himself? What kind of shit is that?!"
I've never heard Al curse before.
D- "We just want to protect him-"
A- "How would you feel if people were keeping secrets from you? Secrets that are vital to your health? This he needs to know! You can't just do this to him!"
P- "We didn't give him this condition!"
A- "No you didn't. But you didn't tell him about it either, did you?!"
Right, one thing you should know about Al is that he hates censorship. He uses this quote form Mark Twain I believe that says, "Censorship is telling a man he can't have steak because a baby can't chew it.". I think it means a lot, and makes perfect sense. I knew they were hiding something from me, and now maybe Al can find out and tell me about it.
A- "-to tell me everything! Stop hiding things for once!"
D- "But you can't tell Peter-"
A- "I sure as hell am going to tell Peter! God, why can't you just... just, say it! Don't be afraid! There's already too much happening for there to be any secrets. The kid is going to find out soon enough. How would you rather he find out? You telling him or the doctor saying it's fatal?"
Well, that escalated quickly.
I can hear them shifting around uncomfortably.
A- "So, what's going on? Is he okay or not? And don't you sugar coat it or beat around the bush."
D- "I... we... um, thing is..."
P- "...We don't know. This is something the doctors have never seen before. I think it's some sort of can sir, but there's a little more to it. And I don't know much about this."
A- "Does the boy know he's sick?"
Silence.
A- "Does The Boy Know He's Sick?"
P- "Most likely."
A- "Did you tell him directly or is he freaking out because he doesn't know what's wrong?"
Silence.
A- "Exactly what I thought. Grow a pair and tell the boy. I don't see what's so wrong in tellin' him so."
I can hear them walking their separate ways. I can feel the tension all the way up to my room. I'm going to try to get some sleep now.
10:24 AM
Pa and Daddy went to work early. Al says they have to work overtime to earn some more cash. I thought we were doing fine on money.
I asked Al if he has a job, and he told me he was an animator. He also used to be a police officer, and told me stories of his days in the force. He said he got injured real bad, and decided to quit the force, because he didn't want to risk dying again. He wrote a few children's books, and designs video games and makes animated shorts for YouTube. I thought that was really cool.
After that, I asked him if he knew what was wrong with me. He knelt down to my eye level, and said that no one knows, and that I'll just have to hope that the doctors figure it out and make me better.
That sucks, huh?
But I'm strong, and I have a big heart, so I know that I can make it even without the doctors.
2:16 PM
Al is going to go take me to one of his friend's house. His name is Vasch. He's from Switzerland, and served in the military. Now he just kind of relaxes in a nice big house with his little sister, Lili, who is around my age. Al says that we would probably make great friends! He lives pretty far, so I'm in the car right now, listening to music. I'll have to try to pass the time, but I have no idea what to do, so I'll probably just take a nap or something.
7:57 PM
I had a lot of fun!
Vasch kinda scares me though, but he reminds me of Pa in a way. Lili is so kind and nice! She's really pretty too. At first, I was embarrassed and I was afraid that she wouldn't like me. But she didn't even care if I wasn't perfect. She only judges from who you truly are, and that I find amazing in a person. I felt so confident with her, I told her my situation, my feelings, my conflicts, secrets, and in turn, she gave me advice and hugs, and also told me about her. She is literally the nicest, sweetest person I have ever met! I can't wait to see her again!
But I feel all weird about it. Maybe it's part of my sickness, but when I think of her, I feel all weird. I can't really think properly, and I feel weird inside, like there's static in there. It's so weird. I've never felt this way. And I can't stop thinking about her either. So strange!
I'm going to bed early, and maybe I can ask to see Lili again. She's really nice!
Alright! Thanks for reading this chapter! I hope you enjoyed it!
To clarify:
Vasch = Switzerland
Lili = Liechtenstein
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