Sunday, June 28, 2020

7:24 AM

Okay, so I found the number for Dr. Lupei. I took my Pa's cellphone, and I know I'll probably get in trouble for this, but I'm going to call him. I want to know everything they know about me.

I have the phone right now in my hands. and I'm going to call and write down everything we say. It's a good thing I am a speed writer.

I am waiting for him to pick up.

DL: "Hello Mr. Oxenstierna, this is Dr. Vladmir Lupei of the Dashner Children's Hospital, I hope all things are going well with you. Do you have any questions, comments concerns I must know of, Mr. Oxenstierna?"

Me: "Hi Dr. Lupei. Actually, it's me, Peter, your patient."

DL: "Oh, what a surprise. How can I help you?"

Me: "I am very curious as to what my situation is exactly. I would really appreciate it if you were to tell me all information that you have about my condition, if you please.'

DL: "Oh, no problem. Do you think you'll be able to keep up with everything I say?'

Me: "Yes, I believe so. I am writing down everything in this diary you gave me."

DL: "Clever!"

Me: "Can you talk slowly so I can catch everything?"

DL: "Of course. Okay, are you ready?"

Me: "Yes.'

DL: "Alright. Peter Kirkland. You have been diagnosed with scitzofreneea-"

Me: "Sorry to interrupt, but can you spell that for me?"

DL: "S-C-H-I-Z-O-P-H-R-E-N-I-A. Do you know what that is?"

Me: "No idea, sir."

DL: "Schizophrenia is a mental disorder that triggers hallucinations, paranoia, bizarre delusions and disorganized speech. You have the Paranoid type. This means that delusions or auditory hallucinations are present, but thought disorder, disorganized behavior, or affective flattening are not. We tried looking for the cause, and believe that it is genetic. Your biological parents may have passed it down within your genes, and in order to know who, we would have to test one or the other."

Me: "I see. That's interesting."

DL: "Very. We still don't know exactly what you're condition is. None of us at the hospital have ever seen this. We suspect it is some sort of unknown cansir, but we can't be to sure."

Me: "Sir, what exactly is cansir? And could you spell it for me? I'm not too sure if I am spelling it correctly."

DL: "C-A-N-C-E-R. Cancer is a broad group of various diseases, all involving unregulated cell growth. In cancer, cells divide and grow uncontrollably, forming malignant tumors, and invade nearby parts of the body. Again, it might also be genetic."

Me: "Is this all you know?"

DL: "At the moment, yes. Actually, there is one more thing. We also noticed that your lungs seem to be a bit abnormal. I can't explain how, not with words, but they prevent you from breathing normally. You might have to be treated like people with asthma to help your breathing functions, but it might not help. It seems to be a deformity, due to genetic problems. Hopefully, it doesn't restrict you in any way, but this is something where they could stop at any moment. Any breath could be your last."

Me: "Well... that's..."

I'm at a loss for words.

Me: "That's something I didn't know. I have one more question. Do you think that if I were to bring my biological father in to your office or something, that you would be able to help me out more?"

DL: "Possibly. You're very smart. I like that. You ask great questions, and your curiosity is going to help you out later on. I admire that, Peter."

Me: "Thanks. For everything. I hope I get better, or at least don't get worse."

DL: "I hope so too."

Okay I hung up now. Maybe Dr. Lupei isn't so bad.

Now, I have to find a way for me to get better. I have to improve my future. Now.

From now on, I'm going to eat healthier, exercise more, smile more, sleep more, and try to research using the internet how to make myself better. If I want to live a long time, have lots of friends, and be cool, I have to be well first. Now that I know my situation, told straight from the doctor, I can take safer precautions and make efforts to help myself be better, no matter how defective I am.

No matter how sick I get, no matter how bad it gets, I will do everything in my will to keep moving forward.

Because if I stop, it's over.

And we don't want it to be over.

4:36 PM

I forgot to mention that today Daddy doesn't go to work, so we are going to go grocery shopping. I have to be smart on what I buy. Or, what to ask for, since I'm not really paying.

I'm in the car right now with Daddy and Al on our way. I'm trying to think of a way I can convince my real father, Arthur into coming to the hospital with Dr. Lupei to get tests done. And I also have to figure out how to get to the hospital without Pa and Daddy knowing. I know it's a bit mean, but if Pa and Daddy can't tell me about me, then I won't tell them of my plans. You keep secrets, I keep secrets.

I'm going to avoid unhealthy foods and stuff, since I plan on living for a long time. I did a little bit of research, and found that some common ingredients used in foods were poisonous to us. Come causes cancer, while others provoke diabetes and ADHD. I don't want anything to do with that, so i'll avoid that. It's going to be cutting off a great deal of my normal eating habits, since I have grown up eating artificial flavours and chemicals and enhanced foods.

Alright, we're here. My first step in saving my life is just about to begin.

8:43 PM

Daddy was a bit thrown off by my new choice of food, but didn't question it. I'll list some things we got that I could remember from the top of my head.

Cheerios instead of Fruit Loops (because Fruit Loops has some sort of food colouring thingy that gives you ADHD. Same with Lucky Charms and other colourful cereal. I think it's like Red 42 kind of stuff)

Organic meat and veggies

Lots of veggies

Even more veggies

Fruits (instead of cookies and cupcakes and stuff)

Brown sugar (I heard it was healthier)

And other stuff without High Fructose Corn Syrup. That corn syrup stuff is made with toxic stuff and acids, and it gives you cancer.

I'm proud of my choices, because not only am I helping myself, but I am helping my family too, because they too are now forced to eat this stuff.

I'll be a hero just like Al!

I hope you enjoyed this chapter!

Okay, let me just clarify something. I'm not a doctor or anything, and I don't have a degree in medicine or anything of that sort. I'm just some teenager who found internet. My source is Wikipedia, so, um, yeah.

Also, that stuff mentioned about the food colouring and high fructose corn syrup is true, so watch what ya eat!