Thursday, July 8, 2020
6:46 PM
Lili came over today. She brought me my favourite snack: marshmallows!
I have been feeling weird about her ever since we met, and I feel like I need her by my side. I know it's crazy, but I really want her to stay with me. And when I get out of this hospital, I feel like I would never leave her side. She told me that if she could, she would stay here all day with me, but Vasch always has to bring her home. She can't drive, so she can't just choose when she wants to leave or come visit.
Today, I'm feeling weaker. It's a little harder for me to move my arms and legs, and I am beginning to lose colour. My eyesight has been failing me lately, and I think I might need glasses.
But I made a promise to Lili. We call it, "The Marshmallow Promise". I promised her that we would be together one way or another, and that as soon as I could, I would... (Well, don't laugh but) I promised I would marry her.
Yup. That's right. Before I die, I have only one wish. I want to marry Lili before I die. When I told her this, she started crying. I didn't want her to cry, but I also felt like crying as well. But I had to be strong. For her, at least. I can't let her see me weak.
We fed each other marshmallows until she had to leave. I wish she could stay, but I can't be selfish.
No, I have to be strong. I have to get better.
I have a life I want to live, and that is I life I will live.
7:32 PM
Oh, by the way, I'm in the same hospital bed, so that means I still get to talk to Mr. Braginsky. He told me he heard what I said to Lili, and said it was cute. He told me he wanted me to get better, and wished me the best. I thanked him, and told him my plans about getting better. He said it was a good idea, and that I should look into it.
I love the encouragement. It makes me feel stronger. It makes me feel like I have a chance. That I am wanted in this world. That it is not yet my time to leave.
Death, you're gonna have to wait until I'm old, because I won't be seeing you anytime soon.
I'm going to meditate now. I'm going to do this. I will save myself. Just you wait.
I hope you guys are enjoying this story so far!
As you know, Peter has been talking about this whole healing himself with his mind thing. This is true. You actually can do that. If you want to know how, you have to meditate. Let's say you have a headache. Sit down, meditate for a little, and you have to literally will it away. Think real hard. Tell yourself you don't want a headache, and you don't need it, and it'll go away. I know it sounds crazy, but don't hate it til' you try it.
Basically, that whole psychological stuff is true. I don't know exactly how far this ability goes, but I do know that it is enough to save your life. It is called "Self-healing"