Hey everyone so one of my readers found me on twitter and asked me to update this story for her so I am ! For those of you waiting for Realizing Reality, I am working on it I swear. Here's chapter 3 for Hisboo. Here we go:

"No. Derwin please stay and talk to me." Melanie pleaded quietly.

"I have nothing to say to you Mel." He said not breaking his stride.

"Please, I have something really important to tell you."

"WHAT ELSE CAN YOU POSSIBLY HAVE TO TELL ME." He turned and yelled. "The last time you said those words to me you fed me false information, and strained things between me and my child."

Melanie dropped her head and began to cry. Derwin stared over the top of her head.

"Exactly. I don't want or need to hear it Melanie."

"DERWIN! DERWIN PLEASE!"Melanie cried after him. "Please." She repeated quietly to herself as she sank to the floor holding her stomach. "Please, we need you." She began sobbing.

"Mel, baby. Please wake up."

"Wake up boo."

Derwin had just left her so why was he calling her. It didn't make sense. And why is he telling her to wake . . .

Melanie gasped and opened her eyes at the same time.

Derwin was hovering her, tears in his eyes, concern written all over his face.

"I'm sorry. You were calling for me and crying. I couldn't just sit still and watch."

"Yet for the past few weeks you have Derwin." Melanie said as she sat up. "Please move I've got to use the bathroom."

Shocked by the outright bitterness and bluntness and Derwin could do was move from over her and sit bewildered on the bed.

As she went to the bathroom, he reviewed what he'd just witnessed. She was having a nightmare about him leaving. And judging by the way she reacted to it, that was hardly the first time.

The toilet flushes, water begins to run.

"She avoiding me." He mumbled to himself. "My wife is avoiding me."

Derwin lay back down and threw an arm over his head.

"Ugh."

"What is wrong with you?" Melanie asked coming out of the bathroom.

Embarrassed he peeked from under his arms "I thought I heard the shower running which made think you were avoiding me."

Melanie sat on the bed next to him.

"Yes you did hear the shower, I took a quick rinse. But no I am not avoiding you Derwin. That's no way to live. "

Derwin nodded and stared ahead.

Melanie followed suit.

"Look Boo, we got to talk."

"I figured as much, so talk."

Derwin took a moment; he turned to look at Melanie and waited till she did the same.

"I messed up; again. I left you when we needed each other most. And I ran to the absolute worst person that I could have. Baby I'm sick of this loop. I truly am. We both know we belong together. We know this because every time one of us leaves it's not for long. We always wind up right where belong in each other's arms. Come home baby. Let's do this right. Let me love you"

"Derwin I have. I've let you love me. I've loved to the point where it went pass myself and got me into a grip of trouble, got my marriage into a group of trouble. Even has me borderline baby mama. I don't know if I can continue with the loop. Not with a child coming into the picture… I don't know if I"

"Mel, baby." Derwin gently turned her head so he could look into her eyes. "Do you remember the vows?"

The instant he said it, tears built up in her eyes. She shot off the bed and retreated across the room; Boundary and wall in place once more.

"Yes Derwin. I always have. It was you that forgot them. Without them we have nothing."

"Come on Melanie, don't say that. Give me a chance. Give us a chance."

"Derwin, you don't know… you don't know the pain and the torture I went through waiting and waiting to hear from you to hear that you were ok, hear you say you just need some space, that you'd be back. You don't know the pain, guilt, devastation, and confusion I felt when I discovered I was pregnant. Derwin you don't know, and let's be honest you didn't give a damn." Tears streamed down her face. " You wanted me gone, you wanted to be gone. I hurt you, and you wanted to make me hurt. I hurt you and for once you couldn't handle it. And that was fine Derwin you're not superman. I wanted to help you. You pushed me away. I reached out multiple times. Till I finally realized, you did not want me. And that's what hurt. For better or worst my ass Derwin."

"Mel. . . I"

Once again Derwin was shocked but this time. . . because what she was saying held some truth to it. And that hurt him.

"Yeah I know." Melanie said wiping her tears.

"What do I have to do to make it better?"

"Pray. That's what I've been doing. God is the answer. He led me this far He won't leave me."

"Melanie I"

"'It's okay Derwin. Your child is fine, and regardless of the outcome eventually so will I."

"Baby, I love you."

Derwin's phone began to ring.

Melanie recognized the ringtone immediately.

"You need to get that. We'll give you some privacy." She said as she stepped out on the balcony.

"Mel wait." Derwin said as she closed the door.

"DAMN!" he yelled, then answered the phone.

"Yes Janay?"