Choosing What's Best

by FeatherHeart1050

Reader (Kashika Wakanabe) is a forgotten kunoichi that lives in the shadow of the other ninjas. Nobody knows of her existence. One day she is reunited with her former crush and he helps her to find the bits of love hidden in the depths of her crumbling heart. To make matters worse, she is suicidal and has hurt herself many times. Desperste for help she had nobody else to turn to.

6. Her Hope

YAYYYYY!!!! IM BACK!!!!

Kakashi looks at everyone else around him. "We promise." I look sldown at my bandaged wrist. The white bandage had specks of blood near the bottom. Tsunade bent down next to me. "Don't do that again. You need to be the loud and spiritful young kunoichi you are inside. From now on that's what I want to see. The past is far behind you, okay?" I nod as I look into her soft light brown eyes. I look at the people who came to see me. Guy put his hands on his hips. "Finding the answer through pain is unyouthful and depressing." I look at him confused. I don't understand so I just follow along. "Y-Yeah. Ok." Shikamaru sighed. "That was troubles--" Temari slapped his arm. "Don't you dare finish that word!" Shikamaru sat on the chair next to the bed I was lying on. "Troublesome." Temari grumbled something under her breath.

Konohamaru interrupted the silence. "We're just happy you're okay, Kashika!" I looked at the visitors in front of me. 'Does this mean...? Maybe. Hopefully. If they waited this long they do care. Does this mean there are people that still care?' "Why...why would you save me Naruto? Why did you all come to see me?" Naruto spoke confidently. "Because I had hope for your life as a hero and regular person! Not only that, but, it's because we're friends." Sasuke looked deep into my eyes and smirked. "Yeah. Im agreeing with the dobe in the orange jacket." Naruto looked at his jacket. "Hey! Sasuke-teme that was unnecessary!" Sasuke just made a smug look. As always. Everyone included themselves with promising voices. "Yeah!"

In The Institution...

'Ugh! They did too much putting me in this staight jacket! Not to mention I'm in the white room. This is a bunch of bull--'

The buzz of the door alarmed you. A doctor and two nurses walked in with a needle. It contained some weird clear substance. It must be medicine. "Okay, Ms. Wakanabe, it's time for your mental check. Just to determine how long you stay in here. I got your suicide note and was able to determine about a week in here, yes, in the straight jacket to make sure. We also checked your home. It had glass everywhere on the first floor so that might be another four days. We checked your recently played songs and it's data said you played 'Jocelyn Flores' eight times, '1-800-273-8255' six times, and 'Say Something' by A Great Big World nine times. In one day. The childhood trauma you experienced doesn't help either. That adds psychological counseling for the next year. Now. I'll ask you a few questions to determine wheter you go to a more comfortable spot in the facility. Understand?" I turned around. I was already angry as it was. He was not helping. The rough burlap contraption was itchy. My nose itched too. The belts holding me in it were too tight. 'I might as well. I need to get the fuck out of here. If I end up calling one of my friends...WAIT! SASUKE! That thing he did to get Suigetsu out! He can just manipulate a nurse! Or Shikamaru! Maybe even Ino!" But that depends on who goes to see me.' I sigh before replying. "Fine."

He grabbed the needle and injected something into my shoulder when I turned around. I fell over on my side. I screamed. My body felt like it was going through all painful deaths repeatedly. It felt like fire, needles, bullets, acid, lava, being dismembered, being eaten by wild animals, inpalement, being hit by a truck, torture, being hung, stabbed, and a bunch of other hurtful things. I screamed. Tears fell from the corners of my eyes as I was abused by this. I squirmed and wiggled in the straight jacket as the doctor laughed at my pain and tears. I screamed for my friends. "AAHHHH!!!! SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME!!!! NURSE!!! DOCTOR!!!! NARUTO!!!! SASUKE!!!! SOMEBODY HELP ME!!! IT HURTS!!!" I cried and felt the pain get more intense by the minute. The doctor stood up. "Trust me. There will be more pain later. You may have already experienced. If you keep quiet and it tastes good I'll maybe think of letting you out of here. So be a nice little girl and do aa you're told. Oh yeah. That stuff lasts for weeks so you should learn how to get used to it. It only hurts more by the day." With that he walked out and closed the door and locked it.

The past week and a half was a pain. Literally and figuratively. I haven't seen natural light in a while. The fact that it's dark outside doesn't help either. I have to be tied to a chair to be showered. This is abuse. The room I'm in has no windows or lights or heat. I lay on my side on the cold stone floor. The pain got more intense. I felt like I was ready to die everyday. Nobody has visited either. 'Do they even allow visitors here?' Just then there was a buzz on the intercom on the ceiling. The secretary's voice echoed through the empty room. "Kashika Wakanabe, you have a visitor on the way to your room." I watch the door. My eyes flow with tears as the pain escalates. 'PLEASE GOD JUST TAKE ME NOW!!!' The heavy door creaked open. The tears flowed from my eyes as I saw the silohette of my friend, Sasuke. I struggled to upright myself. I couldn't do it. I choked out my hurt voice. "Sasuke...please. Help me. This place is a torture facility." He gasped and turned on his flashlight on his phone. "Kashika! What did they do to you?!" He asked concerned as he bent down and hugged me. "Sasuke...the doctor. He injected a liquid into my body. I feel like I'm dying by the day. I haven't seen natural light in days. Then they have me in this itchy straight jacket. I have to be handcuffed and tied up to take a shower. I have to be washed by nurses. They treat me like an animal! Then I have to be here for an extra month because I chose not to take my medicine. What a bunch of bullshit! I have to stay with a friend of their choice when I get out of here. So my friend can "keep me safe"! Sasuke I want you to do me a favor." He looked at your tear streaked face "Kashika I'll do anything!" He said with an even voice. "Sasuke kill me. Please for me. I can't live with this pain." He looked me in my miserable eyes. His eyes bared tears. "I'm sorry. I can't do that. I would kill everyone in this place for you but I couldn't live with killing someone I'm willing to kill for. It's already hard enough seeing how they treat you." I didn't want to tell him what the doctor said a few days ago. "Sasuke if you can't do that...just make sure to keep Naruto away from visiting me. I don't want any of you doing anything stupid and getting hurt. Okay, love?" He nodded. He kissed my forehead before the secretary announced for his hour to visit was over. He walked over to the door. "I promise. I'm gonna get you out of here. Even if it's the last thing I do. I'll kill. I'll torture. I'll die for your freedom from this hell house. I can't stand my friend being hurt like this. Being treated like an animal or a monster. Some type of science experiment gon wrong. I will get you out. Promise. " He then walked out the door. I lay scoot over to the wall and sit crying.

The door opened again. But it wasn't who I was expecting. "Oh. Hey Kakashi." I said sadly. He had a dripping bloody kunai in his hand. "Don't worry Kashika.. It's all over." He said breathing heavily.

Oh crap! This is really dramatic. Because that psychotic piece of me is. I feel like I will make a sequel.to this. (If I feel like it) Next chapter...Her Vengance!!!! (BWAHAHAHA!!!)