The moment of truth! Some breakdown and it's probably very OOC, but it felt right this way. At least this was how I went through it once :P And this will have two more chapters with the last one being an epilogue and then it's over! So this will have exactly 10 chapters ^^ Enjoy the pain and suffering! 0.o

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It was time… Ken had already delayed it with a day, incredibly afraid of actually telling TK that it was over and that he had been cheating and all. It may be stupid to tell about the cheating if you're going to break it off anyway, but if he would suddenly be dating Davis it all would be rather suspicious, so it needed to be said. But it wasn't like Ken was really looking forward to it. And he hadn't been able to talk to Davis either after he left two days ago, although the parting had been pretty amazing and Ken's heart started beating rather roughly as he thought about that day. He had even talked to Wormmon and spilled everything, so of course his Digimon was also pressuring him into this.

So here he was, fresh of the subway, and walking towards TK's apartment he shared with his mother. Hesitating in front of the door, Ken sighed softly. He needed to knock. He really needed to lift his hand and just knock. Instead he chose to bang his head against the wood in frustration and then remembered that would also get some attention. Damn it, now he really did need to talk.

Footsteps started to approach and Ken could feel his cheeks reddening fast. This was it, the moment of truth. The door opened and a smiling TK stood there and guilt immediately started tugging on Ken's heart. How could he have done such a thing to such an amazing person as TK? This wasn't right. But Davis had done anything to get to Ken, so it had been rather difficult. But still, it was so stupid and TK just didn't deserve this.

'Hey,' TK said a little confused. 'Have I forgot about us seeing each other today or something?' he asked, cocking his head to the side as a smile stretched his lips apart. Ken shook his head, trying to keep his eyes casted downwards. It stayed silent for a moment and then TK just stepped to the side, an amused glint in his eyes. 'Want to come in then?'

Without saying anything Ken walked in, took off his shoes and coat and moved over to the familiar living room. He was grateful that TK's mother wasn't here. That made all this a lot easier. A bit surprised by the sudden movement TK followed after the raven and leaned against the wall as he saw Ken sitting down on the couch. The blue eyes were closed and nervously Ken started moving back and forth in his seat, his hands covering his mouth as to keep in the words he was about to spill.

'We have to… Talk,' he said, the words feeling very foreign and wrong. Everyone knew what those words meant. Everyone knew about the inevitable moment that was about to come. And TK did as well. Slowly he walked over to the couch and sat down beside Ken, keeping enough distance and the smile had disappeared. Something Ken definitely didn't like seeing.

Leaning his arms on his legs, TK stared out in front of him much like Ken was doing, trying to avoid each other as much as possible. 'Okay,' he murmured, waiting on Ken to continue.

This was it. This was the moment and Ken felt like crying. A sob left his lips and he quickly brought a hand to his lips, trying to keep the rest of the sounds in. And the good guy TK was, he wrapped an arm around Ken's frame and started rocking him slowly, murmuring soft words into his ears to calm him down. The blonde definitely didn't deserve this. 'I-I'm so sorry,' he said first and that was all he needed to break down, tears flowing from his eyes. So unlike him, but he couldn't stand the guilt and the pain he was causing or at least going to cause.

'It's okay,' TK said soothingly, his arms tightening around Ken's body as if he could push out this all and just stay happily together. This didn't need to happen. They were happy and that was all that mattered.

Ken shook his head again and moved out of TK's arms, feeling unworthy of them. 'It's not!' he said, wanting to rip the hair out of his scalp. 'I don't deserve you, TK. I'm a horrible, horrible person and I fucked up and you are worth so much more and…' He wanted to ramble on and one, but suddenly a pair of lips were pressed on his and he was silenced. His blue eyes widened as he looked up at TK, the other having his eyes closed as he desperately moved his lips over Ken's. When the lips left and TK looked at him through half lidded eyes, Ken finally spilled. 'I cheated on you.'

And that shook TK awake. Quickly he pulled away and stared at Ken as if he was something disgusting that shouldn't be touched. 'You cheated on me?' he asked unbelievably. 'You cheated on me while we haven't done shit yet?'

This was what Ken had been afraid of. The anger. The anger since they indeed hadn't done anything besides kissing while Ken had gone a lot further with Davis. So in response Ken only nodded his head, covering his lips again to keep in the sobs that wanted to spill again. Tears still flowed freely, but he knew TK wouldn't be impressed now.

'With Davis, right?' TK asked, his voice suddenly very low and threatening. It frightened Ken a little and he shifted further away, afraid he might get punched. Wouldn't be the first time TK would raise his hand at him. Ken just nodded, unsure what else to say. 'Fuck!' TK called out and stood up, looking like he was ready to tear something apart. Hopefully not him… 'I should've known! The way that damn bastard always looked at you and we all knew there was something going on between you two, even before we knew you were fucking gay. Except for that dimwit of course.' A growl ripped from his throat and slowly he sat down again, calming down a little. 'But fuck, Ken. How could you do such a thing? The bastard isn't even interested in guys and just doesn't like the fact that you are with someone now.'

Ken couldn't help but feel the sting in his heart at TK's harsh words. But was it true? It didn't matter right now. So he sat straight up and took a deep breath, his voice cracking a bit. 'This is not about Davis and if he has feelings for me or not,' he said softly, turning his eyes back to the ground. 'It's about you and me and how you deserve better.' And then he felt a fist slam against his cheek, making him fall to the side and looking rather dazed. That had hurt… He rubbed his cheek, trying to will the sting away.

'Not about Davis?' TK hissed. 'The asshole ruined everything. This with you would've worked out fine if he hadn't come along and tried his best to break us apart. I was perfectly happy with you and everything seemed to be going fine.' He sighed harshly and then buried his face in his hands. 'You have no idea how shitty I have felt before we got together. And when I saw you kissing a guy at that club it made me think. I was alone and miserable, but you were my friend, a good friend, who turned out to like men as well and everything seemed to be falling into place. I thought it worked.'

TK started to confuse Ken a little and the raven slowly sat back up, glancing over at the blonde as he rubbed his cheek some more. He kept silent, wondering where this was even going. It almost felt like this wasn't about him anymore. And then a sob resonated through the room and Ken was sure it wasn't his this time. His tears had dried out as soon as that fist had made contact.

'It's all his fault that I have to start all over again. And I hate him, I hate him so much!' he yelled out and TK gave a punch to the pillow next to him now, instead of choosing for Ken's face again. 'He fucked me up and then fucking left me to deal with it all myself. Because he didn't care about how I felt, it was all about his own feelings.' TK turned to face Ken again and the raven could see the wetness in his face fresh from tears, but also the anger rising from the blue eyes. 'He's an asshole, Ken. But no one seems to notice. They all love him, but I know that he's a fucking asshole.'

This couldn't be about Davis anymore. It was so strange. Ken just stared at TK and felt utterly confused. How was he supposed to respond to this? He felt like he needed to comfort TK. Slowly he slid closer to the blonde and wrapped an arm around his shoulders, rubbing him soothingly. 'What's going on, TK?' he asked softly. 'Who are you talking about?'

'Tai of course!' he spat and then he really seemed to break apart. He sobbed harder and harder and it felt like he finally let all the stress out. Maybe TK hadn't grieved yet for his lost love, but Ken had no idea if that was even the case. It seemed that way, but didn't Tai have a girlfriend? 'H-he made me fall for him,' he choked out. 'Of course Matt was already taken by Sora and somehow Tai thought it was a good idea to go for the little brother now. Maybe it was some sort of revenge act, but I fell for it all and then he suddenly tells me that he has a girlfriend and that we couldn't continue whatever the hell we had been doing.' TK felt silent for a moment and swallowed heavily. 'He didn't even dare call it by its name. We were fucking.' Not what Ken would've used to describe it, but he could imagine it felt right for TK at the moment.

But how respond to this? Soothing words, right? Be nice and comforting, because TK deserved this. But Ken wasn't very good at this. He rubbed his arm over TK's back some more and then opened his mouth to say something and only as he spoke he knew what. 'M-maybe he was just scared, TK,' he said softly. 'But you shouldn't put up with things like that. You are a very special person and you deserve so much better. Someone who loves you for who you are, so either prove to him that you are worth it or move on.' Was that the right thing to say? He wasn't sure…

TK turned to face Ken, his nose a little red and his eyes all puffy. 'And why couldn't that be you?' he asked plainly and that quite shocked Ken, but then a smile formed on his lips.

'Because I love someone who doesn't deserve me,' he said simply and TK couldn't help but chuckle at that.

'Davis definitely doesn't deserve you,' he stated. 'But that's what happens, right? The good ones lose their hearts to the bastards and then fall apart.' He sighed softly and then lazily rubbed a hand through his messy blond hair. 'You know I think I could really have fallen for you and then we would've been very happy.'

Ken still smiled and then shook his head. 'No, you wouldn't have. Your heart already belongs to someone else and you need to get over that first before you even try to fall for someone else. That's why I couldn't fall for you either,' he admitted. 'Davis was still in my head and losing that is too tough.' But now it would turn out alright. Because Ken was certain Tai had feelings for TK. The anger he had shown at the party should be evidence enough, but time will tell. TK would do fine. And Ken, Ken would have Davis. He was sure of it.

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