It's Saturday. I'm in Sonic Boom now. My dad's still at his convention. The house is still empty as always. I 'm little bit in a worse mood than usual, that's because nothing has changed since out talk. I thought that it would get better. Before Tuesday I had hope that everything was possible to get mend, but now I have no more hope. I thought that if I made the first move and suggested talking it would magically mend things, I have been just stupid that was foolish of me to think. We haven't talked since Tuesday. I wanted to talk to him and tell him that I forgave him, but as much as I wanted to make him happy saying those words, deep down I knew that I haven't forgiven him yet.
Those thoughts have been running through my head for these past days. I got a little psyched, I think from having so many thoughts.
It's hard to see for others, but we have been ignoring each other. When four of us are 'together' in Sonic Boom, it's Trish, me, Dez and Austin. Dez and Trish are talking or more frequently arguing. We are in totally different parts of the store doing something and ignoring each other. I don't want to admit this and I don't want it to be true, but most of the time I'm the one avoiding him. I know he has nothing left to say, at least not until he sees me drop my guard with him.
He's waiting for me to give him the reassurance that everything is fine; waiting to hear me say that I have forgiven him. But that's just it, I haven't forgiven him yet and I need to talk with him before it gets out of hand. We need something to start with. I think I need to go and talk to him again, and that's what I'm going to do as soon as I'll close the store. I can't wait for that cause this… this problem has been bugging me and I'm irritated.
The day's coming to an end and I'm closing the store up. I flipped the sign from 'open' to 'closed.'
It was a long day and I was really tired. It was late considering that I worked the shop as long as possible for my dad's request. The sun's not shining anymore. The only things lighting my ways are the street lights all along the street and the mysterious full moon shining above me. The street is practically empty only a couple of cars pass by from time to time.
When I got to his house, his car was parked in the driveway, but the house was dark. I thought he wasn't home or he was sleeping or watching TV or something. I wanted to turn back and just go home, but then somehow I ended up in his front door. I knocked, hesitantly, after a minute or so Austin opened the door. I could hear sounds of TV or movie.
Then I heard Austin's mom ask "who is it sweetie?"
"It's just Ally mom, we're going to take a walk. I'll be back soon ok?"
"Ok honey."
Her mom is the sweetest person I have ever met. She used to always hug me tightly every time we met and always complimented me. She is a really pleasant person to talk to.
He closed the door behind him and stood right in front of me.
"So… what brings you here so late?"
"Oh nothing I just wanted to talk"
"Ok, do you want to take a walk or do you want to go to my room?"
"We can take a walk, its ok."
"Good"
We started walking down the street, the opposite direction of both of our houses. You may think that it's a little bit weird that we live on the same street just few houses apart and we have never come across each other for 2 years; or I have never come across his parents or his house or haven't been on this side of the street.
Well we came across each other but we just never really talked. I have not talked to his parents those past years, it comes out that I'm really good at avoiding and ignoring people.
I don't really have to walk through this street to get home from the mall or from school or any other place in Miami. It was perfect. I could perfectly avoid him.
"So I guess your mom's pack right?"
"Yes, she came back this morning we were just watching one of her favorite movies "
"What movie?"
"It's French comedy. I can't remember the name. She loves French comedies, even if she's sad or tired those movies always make her smile or laugh."
He smiled. It was clear that he enjoyed spending time with his mother and he loved her. After that he seemed a little off like he was thinking about something.
"How have you been?"
"I've been good. Actually no, there is something that has been bothering me since Tuesday. It's about what I asked, you never answered."
"That's why I came here Austin I wanted to tell you that. Even though I want everything to be back to how it was… I really don't want to say that I haven't forgiven you yet and I don't want to lie about that."
His smile slowly faded and he took a serious expression. I got nervous again and I took a deep breath. I don't like this, this silence, this tension around us, that broken state we're in. I want things to be like before all this happened. The conversations seemed so easy between us; there was no need for silence, no need for deep thoughts or thinking. Everything was easy and everything was casual and we both enjoyed that.
I broke out of my thoughts and realized that he wasn't going to say anything. He was frowning and I could even see the disappointment on his face.
"I don't mean that I won't forgive you. I mean that one conversation is just not enough, so much time passed and I just feel like I don't know you anymore and you don't know me. Sure you haven't changed a lot, but things around you did."
"I think it should be easier because nothing serious happened. It just happened under bad circumstances and it caused problems. I'm sure I'm the one making this harder, it's just after mom died it got really hard to let people in my life again. I'm afraid that they are going to disappoint me and break me even more and will just throw me away. It's easier to guard myself like this, if I won't have anyone to hurt me. I won't get hurt."
" I will try to understand you. I think we should try to work this out slowly. We can meet up sometime, go somewhere…" he trailed off his facial expression softening.
"Maybe we can do that."
We continued walking down the street, the sky cleared from the clouds and I could see every star perfectly gathered up next to the shining moon. It was really beautiful I think I should take walks at night more often.
Although, next time I should bring a something warmer to put on, because it's getting colder as the seconds tick away. Each time a chilly wind comes my way, I bring my hands up to cover me as much as they can. I'm even trying to make heat as I rub my arms with my hands.
"You know I think that if not the music we would never have been friends and that's why this all happened. Music connected us and without music there is no more us." I said my thoughts out.
"Please don't say that, you know that's not true. Before all this music business stuff happened we had been friends for years. Don't you remember that? We both used to play music, but it was only for fun. We used to sing in my backyard. I used to play my guitar and we sometimes even made up childish rhymes, it used to be so much fun…"
And like a movie all those flashbacks from our happy childhood played in front of my eyes. I could see how we used to have fun, we always used to laugh.
"Years passed and you decided to be a songwriter and I wanted to be a performer considering the fact that I couldn't and still can't write songs to save my life. It just seems impossible for me to gather all those thoughts and put them in words... We decided to become partners. That's how our team gathered up, four of us you me Trish and Dez. It was our dream to become world known, together. Of course we had music, but our friendship was always on the first place."
After he finished talking he looked at me and smiled. That really brought a smile to my face not the fake one, but the real one. Those words warmed my heart; by the look on his face I could see that he meant it. He meant that our friendship was important for him. I never expected him to say something like that. I don't really know why, but I thought he was angry at me.
" I missed that so much…" he said still looking at me.
"Missed what?" I asked little puzzled.
"That smile, I haven't seen that smile for so long. You have no idea how beautiful you look when you smile, it just lights your whole face and I want to smile with you too."
I felt my cheeks getting hotter and I looked down to hide my face. "Thanks" I mumbled still smiling.
I felt him place his fingers on my chin, he made me raise my head and looked me in straight the eyes.
"Don't hide. You look cute when you blush."
I felt my cheeks get even hotter than before and I got that feeling in my whole body and I was in a good mood. I was happy with him.
After that we didn't really talk. He insisted to walk me home and we walked there in comfortable silence. That evening after Austin left, I was in the best mood I had been for a long time. I just couldn't wipe away the smile off my face. Every time I remembered him my smile grew bigger. I was happy…
Hey there lovely readers this was not the longest, but the chapter with the cutest ending I have ever written. I hope you enjoyed the chapter and if you did please leave a review and tell me which part you like the most.
To say the least I'm disappointed, I have followers and I know for a fact that people read the story, but you guys need to review, it will be enough to just say a couple of words, it's just reviews give me some kind of energy motivation to write and the only reason this update was so late, because I wanted to wait until I got any reviews, I only got one from jamesmaslow4evz and I want to thank her for kind of supporting me, even those few words mean a lot to me. I pulled my heart out ripped it into pieces and put it into every paragraph of the last chapter and all I got was one review. I know you guys can do better.
Before anyone gets a wrong idea or starts accusing me of something I want to say I don't write for reviews, if it was true I would have stopped updating long ago. I just don't really believe in myself and I doubt every my decision, (I know that's bad, but I just can't help it) I was even thinking about discontinuing the story.
Yeah I want to say that schools over and I got out of that hellhole for at least two months, I feel like dancing, it feels weird not having to wake up early in the morning :D
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Salome ;)
