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When Kol arrived home, he wanted to talk to Lana. He went upstairs to Rebekah. "Rebekah, where is Lana?" He was mad and confused. Why would she encourage him and then stab him in the back? Rebekah looked at his blood stained shirt. "She just left. I see Nik has gotten to you in time. It's a miracle that you're still alive." Before he could answer Lana exited the bathroom connected to Rebekah's room. "Thanks, Bekah. Finally I could take a shower without being ambushed." She laughed but she stopped when she saw a bloody Kol. "I told you, he would survive. Nik is not one to kill his brother." Kol walked towards Lana. "What were you thinking, telling him where I and Caroline went? I saw you at the grill, but I thought you would actually be on my side. Don't you want him back?" Lana tilted her head as if she was thinking really hard. "Well… of course I want him back. But apparently he doesn't want me back, yet. And seeing that this Barbie vampire would actually go on a date with you, should plant the seed for some doubt in him. I am sorry for using you, but if we work together our wishes may come true." Kol frowned. "But you know I will be the only one putting his life at stake?" Lana just kept looking at him with a hint of a smile. "Oh, you don't care? I wouldn't have thought you could be that much of an evil bitch." Kol glanced at Rebekah, who was clearly shocked to see this side of Lana. "Kol, I am not evil. I am just doing what I always did, making sure that he won't freak out again. May I remember you what he did when I left him? He built a Hybrid army and killed your father. Okay, the last thing wasn't really bad, but still… He needs someone to be there when he is about to let his little psychopath out. I still love him and that's why I will do whatever I can to take care of him. And that means getting him away from Caroline." Kol turned around, attempting to leave. "Caroline kept him from killing me today. I guess she took over your job." Lana slammed the door shut and blocked his way. "No… You are lying!" "Am not." He pushed her aside and left. Lana stared at Rebekah. She swallowed. "She replaced me. Bekah, she replaced me entirely." She was deeply disturbed. Lana was panting. She felt a sharp pain in her chest. Slowly she sank to her knees. "No, no, no." She whispered. Rebekah hurried over to her and took her in her arms. "Shhh… she didn't replace you. She can't replace a century of love. You need to breathe Lana. Calm down." Slowly Lana regained control over herself again. She leaned back against the door looking at Rebekah with big sad eyes. "I feel it. I have lost him. I never told you this but… we had a blood bond. When two vampires share their blood in a moment of true and deep connection over a certain length of time, they are somehow bound to each other. I can feel whenever he gets hurt. And I can feel when he betrays me. He is in love with Caroline and they shared their blood. I just know it. I lost my connection to him." "This can't be. You told me that you and Damon shared blood." "Yes, but I am not in love with him. That was just lust. But what Nik has with Caroline… It must be love. Bekah, believe me. Now it is almost over. He is almost gone." "You have to get him back. He can't be so stupid to love this bitch. I don't want her as a sister. I hate her. It's enough to see her around school. Lana, don't give up!" Lana's eyes were empty. "I need to go away for a while. I'll be back sometime." She got up and left without another word. Rebekah was desperate to stop her but she didn't know who to talk to.

She had lost her sister. Silent sobs shook her as she sat on her bed. At the Salvatore Boarding House Bonnie walked up to the door. When she wanted to knock, she heard a noise behind her. Bonnie turned around; it was Lana who had just emerged out of the forest. "Hey, Lana. I was about to visit you." Lana seemed absent but when her eyes focused on Bonnie she found her way back from wherever her thoughts had been. "Bonnie. Hello. How can I help you?" Bonnie clearly was nervous. She bit her lip. "You seemed to know a lot about magic, and I meant to ask you something, since I don't have anyone to really turn to." Lana hesitated for a moment. "Okay, are you hungry? I'll invite you for dinner. You drive?" The girls drove to the Mystic Grill. The place was pretty empty. They sat somewhere in the back where they could talk without being disturbed. After they ordered Lana was curious what could have tortured Bonnie so much that she would turn to a vampire for help. But then again, she must have been feeling the connection they had. Lana still was her ancestor. Bonnie told her the story of how she stopped Jeremy's heart and brought him back to life. "… and now I feel this urge to use black magic. My mother warned me but I wouldn't have thought it could be this bad." Lana tilted her head and thought about how to say what she needed to say. "Well you have the choice between succumb to black magic or withstand and stick with the white magic. It is easier to just give in but you will have to live with the consequences. Staying away from it will be very hard, though. No one can help you in this situation. It's something every witch goes through at some point in her life. There is no way of using black magic in a good way. There is no comprising. You either want the ultimate power or you stick to the rules of the spirits. But remember the most powerful witch in history started her 'career' breaking wit the spirits and using magic so dark that even the darkest witches fear it." "You mean Esther." "Yes. She made her children vampires and used the blood of an innocent virgin and above all the blood of the doppelganger. No one else would have dared this. And believe me she thought about it for a while. She turned her back on her best friend and witch-sister." "How come you know so much about how Esther made her decision?" "I guess it is time I tell you this. My real name, the name my mother gave me but never used, is Aliyanna. I am Ayanna's daughter. I belong to your ancestors. I was the first human to be turned into a vampire. It was Niklaus Mikaelson who changed me." She waited for Bonnie's reaction. Clearly Bonnie was shocked. "Is that why I felt so strangely attached to you?" Lana nodded. "And you were a witch?" "Yes. But I hated it. My mother treated me so bad that I started loathing her and everything about her, which included magic. But still I learned everything she taught me." "How can you be with Klaus if he killed you?" "My mother killed me. You see, she thought I was a vampire's whore. So she stabbed me. And then I drank her blood and turned into a real vampire." "You and Klaus have a lot in common. That whole my mother hates me thing…" Lana laughed. "Yes, I guess so. When I was confronted with the question if I want to be a bad or a good witch I decided to stick with white magic. Why? Because I was scared of black magic." Lana had changed the subject, since she didn't want to talk about Klaus. "You were scared? Just because of fear you stayed good?" "Indeed. I feared my mother's wrath. But in the end it would have been less painful then being killed." Her laugh was cynical. "I am scared of what I will turn into if I give in to black magic." Bonnie whispered. Lana put a hand on her shoulder. "You are strong, independent and smart. You will choose the right path and you will turn into a witch that I will proudly call my descendant. Just stay true to who you really are. You are a Bennett witch." Bonnie smiled and nodded.
Suddenly Lana stiffened up; her gaze had wandered to the door. Elijah was back. He looked straight at Lana. He seemed very serious. But Elijah was always serious. Bonnie noticed the eye contact. "I am sorry but I have to leave now." She got her wallet out but Lana waved at her. "My treat. If you need me just stop by the Salvatore House, as you apparently know I am currently living there." Bonnie turned around and left.
Elijah walked over to Lana. "Lana. Rebekah called me. You are giving up on Niklaus? I think we need to talk." Lana felt an icy grip around her throat. "I feared you would come after me. But I thought I had a little time, I did last time I left." A slim smile curved her lips. "Well then, sit. And convince me, again." Elijah sat down. "I watched Klaus the last 200 years from afar. I saw his sanity fade away. And you know it was your fault. You were the reason why he didn't ramp and rage before. Your love held him back. And when you left him, you pushed him away and reminded him of our parents. I hated you for that. But when I failed to kill him, after the ritual, I went looking for you. You were the only one to stop this madness. I remember clearly how long it took me to talk you into considering forgiving him. And when you finally agreed to come back, I thought this insanity was finally over. And now I hear you are leaving him again. How can you Lana? How many people must die until you see that he needs you?" Lana was angry. "Well, it seems like you are all wrong. I told Klaus his little girlfriend is out with Kol. He followed them and in his rage he tried to kill Kol. And you know what stopped him? Caroline. Her tears stopped him. She has replaced me."
"Lana, her tears stopped him, which might work once or twice. But Klaus isn't one to care about tears for long. Sooner or later her tears won't affect him. He needs a deep and strong connection like you two have to keep him in check."
"What if I don't want to anymore? What if I have enough of it? I want to be loved and appreciated and not treated like property and locked up."
"Lana, I beg you to consider the chances Caroline has to calm Klaus. She will get hurt by him one way or the other. Do you want that? Is your hate that strong?"
"You think he would kill her?"
"He is unpredictable." "I don't really want her to die." She paused. "But she is old enough to know what she gets herself into."
"Is she?"
"…No. Elijah why do you always have to be so moral? I know the right thing to do would be to fight for Klaus and to make sure that his inner psychopath won't come out, but I have enough of it. I will stay in Mystic Falls and I will check up on him from time to time. But I won't go back to him. As much as I love him, I can't keep watching him betraying our love and forgetting about each and every promise we made. My heart is bleeding. He broke our bond." She stood up. "I need to find myself. Who am I without him? My life has always been about him. Even when I was away from him, Klaus was all that mattered. Now it is time that I get my own life. If Caroline wants to be consumed by him, then she shall be. She will see soon enough that even if his love seems like everything you could ever desire it also cages you in." With that she left Elijah. Lana walked to the Salvatore House slowly.
She knew Elijah wouldn't follow her. She had made her decision. Lana's thoughts wandered to Damon. He was probably waiting for her. She had to smile when she remembered how close they have gotten in the past few days. It wasn't the sex. Even though they had a lot of it. She thought it must be his eyes. These icy blue eyes that warmed up when he looked at her. She loved it. "I need to be open for other opportunities. I have an eternity to love." She told herself over and over again.
Then she was home. She smiled. "Home." Yes, this somehow had become her place of refugee. Even Stefan was now used to her. It was only Elena who still didn't talk to her. But Lana knew she would only need patience. Elena would soon figure a few things out about being a female vampire. The fact that she would never have a child and all that would soon be depressing. And then Stefan wouldn't be the right person to talk to. And Caroline, she was still too young to talk about that. Elena would eventually knock on her door. She was certain. And when her intuition told her something, it was rarely wrong.

Damon was staring into the fire when she entered the house. He looked up. "Hey Lana. I haven't seen you around much today." He seemed a little irritated. "I visited Bekah and then I had dinner with Bonnie." He nodded and resumed staring into the fire. Lana frowned. She didn't quite know what to think of this behavior. She walked over to him and leaned on his shoulders, her chin resting on his head. "What is wrong?" He shook his head. She could smell the bourbon.
"Damon. Tell me." He growled. Than he abruptly got up and walked about the room. He mumbled to himself. Lana didn't quite understood what he was saying, but it seemed like he was mad at Elena.
Damon looked at Lana. "How can I be so stupid? How can I actually believe she would have changed her mind after everything? Of course she would run to Stefan. It's always Stefan." He threw his glass against a wall. Lana was confused. Where did this come from? "Damon…" She didn't know what to say.
"I heard her. She told him she always knew it was him. She said she had never truly given up on him. Do you know what that means? That means that the whole time all my efforts, everything I have done for her, everything, was meaningless." He grabbed the bottle and took a big sip. Lana sighed and got two glasses from the shelf. "A toast to the people who ruin us." Despite his anger Damon had to smirk.

That night they didn't have sex. They just lay next to each other and talked. Damon was not himself, Lana thought. He told her so many things about him and about his feelings. It was just not the Damon she knew. But she accepted it. It was clear that sometime even he had to spill it and since Alaric was dead he was in need of a real friend. And Lana was a friend. She knew that Damon was the only one she could be truly honest to, not even Klaus could be trusted as much as Damon.
"I see where you're coming from, Damon. But you have to understand Stefan is Elena's first epic love. She will always feel drawn to him. Even if she changes her mind sometime, he will always be a part of her."
"But what should I do then? Should I leave them alone? I know they won't be happy as long as I am around."
"Oh Damon, you need to figure that out by yourself. I can't tell you what to do. If you think the only thing you can do is leave, then you should do that. But if you think you can… keep your feelings down and… I don't know… find another way to be happy or someone else to be happy with…" She left the rest unsaid, knowing that he would understand.
"And what about you, Lana? What are you going to do?"
"I can't give up on him. As much as I want to, I can't. I need to be around. It's not safe otherwise."
"Why?" Damon frowned.
"Because if I am not around him, who is going to stop him? Who is going to make sure that he won't loose it? You saw what he did to you guys the last 2 years. While I was with him, he was calmer. His greatest concern was his father, but now that Mikael is gone… I don't know what he'll do."
"But he can't build a Hybrid army anymore, Elena is a vampire now."
"That may be true, but you do know how Klaus is. If he wants to find a way to change that, he will. He would even find a cure for her if that is what he truly desires."
"And what if he really fell in love with Caroline?"
"Well then I would be even happier for him, because he deserves to be with the one he loves. Even if that means that he wouldn't be with…." She started crying. Damon took her in his arms. He knew how deep this pain could go. He knew exactly how she felt. She was left utterly alone. He held her tight until she fell asleep. All the while he was trying to figure a way out to get along with Elena, even though she did something he couldn't possible forget about… ever.

Caroline woke up next to a sleeping Klaus. This was the first time she had the chance to admire him. He was lean but strong. She knew how strong he could be. Her body was still a little aching from last night. Her sheets were full of blood and halfway torn. It had been a rough but intense night. She wouldn't miss it for nothing. She lay on her back reminiscing about what had happened. She felt consumed. Caroline knew that now there was no turning back. She was his, once and for all. And she enjoyed that thought. Lana's face crossed her mind and she flinched. She hated that woman. No matter what Klaus had had with her before, Caroline couldn't imagine that it could have been anything like this. And she knew she would confront Lana with this, just to make sure that Lana knew Klaus was taken now. She drew a finger up his back. He woke instantly, but he didn't rose he just opened his eyes and looked at her. His gaze was unreadable. "But maybe only because I have never seen it before." Caroline thought.
She smiled. "Good morning." He smiled back. "Good morning, love." His voice was raspy but it sent shivers down Caroline's spine. She had been falling for him all along and now she had reached the bottom. There was no way back. There was only him or nothing. And when she acknowledged this, she felt a surge of love wash over her.

Klaus looked as this blond beauty next to him. He couldn't believe that she was finally his. But still this thought didn't satisfy him. He knew there was more about this. He knew that there was Lana. And he knew that things between them were not over. How could they? It had been 800 years of love. True love. How could he forget about that so easily? But still… Caroline was different. It had been only a few days that they really had been going at it, but Klaus felt a pull towards this girl, that was unusual. How come? He asked himself again and again. But Caroline's sudden move interrupted his thoughts.
She was curling up against him. Automatically he drew her closer. He smelled her hair.
Klaus started humming "Sweet Caroline" and he didn't even notice. Then both of them fell asleep again.

When Damon woke up, Lana was gone. He got dressed and went downstairs. Stefan was nowhere to be seen, but Elena was. She stood with a cup of coffee in her hand next to the living room window. "Good morning." He said. She turned around a surprised look on her face. "Good morning Damon." He looked at her, not knowing what to say. "Damon, listen…" She started but he interrupted her with a wave of his hand.
"No. Just don't, Elena. Please." She looked down on her hands, obviously sad. "Where is Stefan?" he asked.
"He went hunting. I'll meet him at school."
"Want me to give you a ride?"
Elena looked at him, frowning. "Yea, sure."
They walked to the car. It was only a ten minute drive to school. They spent the whole time in silence. When he stopped in front of the school Elena was about to get out when Damon said: "I will never forget what you did, Elena. But I care too much to hate you forever. I made a promise to Alaric and I am certain to keep it, which is why I will be around a little longer."
She turned towards him and grabbed his hand. "Damon. I am really sorry, but it was the right thing to do for me, then. But I can't imagine a life without you. I hope we can work this out sometime."
He stared out of the window, his hand limb in hers. But his body was on fire. He had goose bumps everywhere and his heart was beating fast. He wanted to hold her, kiss her. It took all his strength to be strong. She kept looking at him, silently demanding a response. When he didn't move, she leaned her head against his shoulder.
She could smell him, hear his heart race. There was a strange feeling inside her. It was a mixture between lust, desire and regret. Immediately she felt guilty for wanting him, but this feeling came from somewhere deep inside her. So deep she could not reach it, not stop it. He turned his head towards hers. Elena lifted her head and was lost in his blue eyes.
A firework exploded inside her. It was as if her blood was boiling, but in a good way. She had never felt this with Stefan. This was much more than an epic love. This was a blood call. Damon didn't know who leaned in first, but they were kissing. Passionately.

What drew them apart was a loud noise outside. Stefan stood in front of the car, his fist buried in the hood. Elena jumped out the car and called his name, but Stefan was gone before she had the last syllable out. She turned around to Damon. He was clearly still processing what had just happened. Elena shook her head and started looking for Stefan. Damon walked back home since his car was wrecked. When he entered he could see a very angry Stefan and an upset Elena. "Stefan, please! Listen!"
"No Elena. I will not listen!" He stopped and turned towards her. "I was there the whole time, trying to be understanding. I can't do this anymore. I can't bear you right now." He turned back around and walked up the stairs. This was when he noticed Damon. He didn't say a word. Stefan just vanished into his room. Elena was crying. She looked at Damon standing on the porch starring at her. Then in a flash she was gone.

Stefan packed up his stuff. "Stefan, don't do this." Damon tried to talk to him. "No Damon. You won, okay? You can have her. I can't do this anymore." Damon didn't know what to do. Stefan was serious. "Stefan, don't leave Elena…"
"Damon, you can take care of her. It seems like that's the only thing that you think about anyways." Stefan was ready to leave. It felt as if his head was about to explode. The rippah inside him was about to break loose. He needed to get away, fast. He shrugged and brushed past Damon. When Damon tried to hold Stefan back, he was pushed into a wall violently. Stefan's hand dug deep into Damon's chest. He held his heart in his hand.
"I want to kill you. But I am not a selfish asshole, like you Damon. You are dead to me." With that Stefan turned around and left. „Oh come on Stefan! Don't be such a jerk! It was just a kiss. Just punch me in the face and we're cool, like always. No?" He called after Stefan. But there was no answer.

When Stefan got in the car, Lana was about to get off her motorbike. He drove off with screeching tires. Lana walked inside looking for Damon. She wanted to know what had happened. As far as she knew Katherine was not a very well liked guest at the Salvatore mansion. "Damon?" She called. When he didn't answer she concentrated on her vampire hearing. She heard his heartbeat upstairs. "Damon, why don't you answ-…" She stopped dead in her tracks when she saw Damon sitting next to Stefan's room. "What happened?" She knelt down and touched his shoulder. "I messed it up Lana. This time I really messed it up." Damon told her what had happened. "And where did Elena run off to?" "I don't know."