One week later

Alex had been having a crappy last couple days. Winn was shooting her dirty looks every opportunity he had and Kara was being extremely distant for some reason.

She usually tried to drown it away with alcohol, but J'onn had found out about her recent... alcoholic escapades... and did not approve.

Alex hadn't really noticed anything weird with Kara until the day before. Previously, she had been too distracted by trying to cope with her father's situation to notice. She just assumed Kara was doing the same.

But yesterday, Alex noticed her sister out of the corner of her eye. She had a paper in her hand, and it looked like Kara had wanted to give it to her.

Alex didn't want to push her, because her little sister was finally going to make an attempt to talk to her. She watched out of the corner of her eye as her sister tried to work up the courage to talk to her.

It sent a stab of pain through Alex's heart that Kara need to work up the courage to talk to her. It should have been natural.

It should be natural.

As Kara finally started making her way over, she stopped and abruptly turned around a couple steps away. It broke Alex. What had Alex done? What was going through Kara's head?

After that, Alex had watched Kara fly away to wherever she had been staying recently. That was another thing that deeply saddened Alex. Kara wasn't staying in the apartment anymore. She didn't offer an explanation as to why, so Alex was completely in the dark.

Her big sister didn't even know where she was staying. Where she was sleeping.

Alex went to sleep plagued by these thoughts and questions. She told herself she would talk to Winn tomorrow to figure out what had been going on. To get some answers. If Kara had talked to anyone about any of this, it would for sure be Winn.

The next morning she hesitantly approached Winn, who was furiously reading over a paper.

It looked like the same one Kara had been trying to give Alex a couple days prior. That really piqued the elder Danvers sister's curiosity.

As soon as Alex tapped Winn on his shoulder, he whirled around and punched her in the face as hard as he could muster. Alex was taken completely by surprise and was sent stumbling backwards.

"Winn, what the hell was that for?"

Winn's eyes were welling with tears. "What have you done?! You ruined her and you don't even know it! How could you say any of that shit to her? All she's ever been is a great sister. She's done everything for you! And you treat her like this?! Screw. You."

With that, he threw the paper to the floor and started storming out. He needed to find Kara before she did anything stupid.

And Alex sat dumbfounded, frozen by shock.

A couple hours earlier

Kara tightened her cape. She was going to do it tonight. She had written a note to Alex describing everything. How she was going to get Jeremiah back. How she just wanted Alex to be happy. How sorry she was that she had ruined Alex's life.

Kara just needed to put a couple finishing touches on it, and then she would go turn herself in to Lillian. She left in a secluded room where she thought no one would find it, and went to go clear out some things from Winn's apartment.

Winn walked into the DEO to start his day just as Kara left through the back exit. He wanted to yell out to her, but things were still a little rocky between them after Winn had exploded at her the other night about her ridiculous plan.

He went to Vasquez to get his assignment for the day. She sent him to the tech room to get a couple parts. As he walked down the hall, he found a door that was slightly ajar. Usually, all the rooms were closed in the hallway.

Winn popped his head in to investigate and came up short. At first glance, there was nothing. Then he found a paper sticking out from behind a box. He took it and immediately recognized Kara's handwriting.

And the paper was addressed to Alex.

What could this be? Why is this here? Could she be going through with this plan? Is this a goodbye note?

Despite all his moral and ethical principles screaming at him not to invade his best friend's privacy, he opened it nonetheless. He just didn't want Kara to do something stupid or reckless, when she really didn't have to. He was sure Kara would understand if she ever found out.

If this was what he thought it was, he still hoped to be able to stop this before it happened.

Before it became too late to take back.

As he opened it and began to read, he teared up. It was horrible. Winn couldn't believe this.

That he was reading this. That he was reading a goodbye.

That he was reading a note about all the things wrong with Kara. Written by Kara.

Winn couldn't wrap his head around the fact that his best friend had written this dictated suicide note.

He started walking to the command center. Winn needed to have a talk with Alex. If he could just get through to her, then maybe they could stop this together. Alex was the only person who could possibly fix what she had broken so badly.

Winn had a plan. He was going to tell her everything she had said to Kara. Then he was going to yell at her and give her a piece of his mind. Emphasize that she could never get that drunk again.

Emphasize that she could never say those things again.

But later when the opportunity arose, he couldn't contain his anger from boiling over. He punched Alex with all the strength he had.

Winn was pissed beyond belief. Alex was the reason his best friend was planning a suicide mission tonight. She was the reason that Kara had decided life wasn't important anymore. And he couldn't deal with that.

He could have killed her in that moment. But he remembered that he needed Alex to stop Kara from doing this. So, instead, he just had a verbal explosion. And a very harsh one, at that.

Afterwards, he dumped the note at her feet.

And walked away.

He couldn't stand to look at her.

As the paper fluttered to her feet, Alex just stared in shock. She was unable to process anything that had just happened. She had no idea why Winn had shoved her the way he did, or why he had been giving her icy cold stares this whole week.

She had no idea what Winn was talking about.

What have you done?! You ruined her and you don't even know it, or realize it! How could you say any of that shit to her? All she's ever been is a great sister to you. She's done everything for you! And you treat her like this?! Screw. You.

His harsh words rang through her head. What was he saying? What had Alex said? She didn't even remember talking to her sister for the past week. When could she have possibly said anything? What was even going on?

The only thing Winn spat as he walked away was,"Read it in private."

And then he was gone.

So, Alex did what Winn had instructed, hoping this paper held all the answers to her confused and scattered questions.

Alex had found a private and secluded room and locked herself in. She wasn't taking any risks. If the only thing Winn had said to her in a week was to read it in private, especially after exploding publicly at her like that, then she would do everything possible to heed that instruction.

She opened it, and was shocked to find it entirely addressed to her. Why was Winn holding it then? Why was Winn reading it? Why did it make him cry? Why couldn't Kara give this to me herself the other day? What was going on?

She tried to clear away all the confused questions and just focused solely on the paper in front of her. It had Kara's nice swirly cursive covering the entirety of the surface.

Alex could have never predicted the amount of pain that note would bring her.

Could have never predicted that her heart could hurt this much from such a simple note.

But in that moment when she finished, it was all she could do to not break down and cry there on the spot.

Shit, what have I done?