Austin Carlile/Alan Ashby
Rated T
*Possible Trigger Warning*
austin sees that alans really sad after playing and show and then finds out that alan self harms and tries to make him feel better (OM&M)
The crowd cheered as Of Mice & Men finished their set and left the stage. Austin was drying off with a towel when he noticed Alan sitting alone, he was looking at the floor and playing with the hem of his shirt.
"Are you okay?" Austin asked as he sat next to him. Alan stayed quiet, only nodding his head 'yes'. Austin put his hand on his shoulder and Alan flinched. Austin looked down and saw scars on Alan's wrists, he grabbed his arm turning it so the scars were more visible. Alan snatched his arm away and covered it.
"Alan, hey look at me. Why are you doing this?" Austin asked concerned.
"I-I don't know. There's just so much shit going on and I feel like I'm trapped, constantly running away from this darkness that's trying to consume me. Everything just feels empty and without meaning. I need to bleed to know I'm still alive, that this isn't Hell. I need to cut to feel something, anything, sometimes I want to do more, go further but I don't. Something stops me but I just can't do this anymore." Alan was on the verge of tears, confessing everything to Austin.
"Listen to me, everything gets better. I know that's a cliche thing to say but look around you. Every fan who's lives we've saved, everyone in the band, on the crew, our friends. They all care Alan. I care. Everything gets better. It may be days, weeks, months even years down the road but you have to keep going until you reach it. I know it's hard, I know Alan, but there's so much good in life and you'll see that. I know you can get through this, I will help you every step of the way. You can never give up. Everything in your life right now that you don't like, everything that brings you down, eliminate it. Get it out of your life. However long it takes, day by day you'll see your life getting better. If you need to confront somebody, confront them. Tell something you've never told anyone, tell it. Do whatever you can to make your life better. Only you can do that Alan, but you can be damn sure that I will help you in every way I can." Austin hugged Alan,
"It'll be okay," He whispered. Alan stopped crying and smiled at him.
"Thank you." He said, Austin grinned at him and they left.