Chapter 17
The Good Part

My eyes watered, if I was seeing right, which I knew I was for sure….Uta was right before me.

My hand reached out to touch him because this couldn't be a dream.

His eyes stared directly into my mine and a flash of that night was enough to make my hand stop and start to retract. But as I felt it I also felt his eyes moving away from mine and I knew the hesitation had struck him. It was beyond my control.

How could I have even acted like nothing didn't happen?

He's a ghoul.

The man I fell in love with was a cold-blooded murder who maybe at this point has a colony of dead bodies at his feet. There was no doubt in my mind that he was a ghoul like renji. Just looking at him and his demeanor made me knew he had the power to destroy at least thrice as the regular.

I leaned forward putting on my best coat of confidence as I stroked his cheek lightly and like that I felt my heart skip a beat in my chest. It hasn't changed. Every time I touch him, the tingling sensation which I would feel inside me- it hasn't changed.

I smiled a little as my fingers slowly trailed over his skin pressing lightly on the flesh beneath and over the bone structure-just remapping the face I had grown so use to. He was the only man I couldn't draw and because of that I was beyond fascination. Small clips of what I could recollect as memories scurried through my mind of when we just met as I blushed a little leaning forward to relax my body against his finding comfort in his built.

"Hug me." I begged softly as the scent of blood and paint mixed with leather and steel filled my nose, a scent that drove me mad because to me it was the best. My hands snaked around his waist and I felt him slowly hug me back as I slowly began to cry.

He was really here.

It's not a dream and it's really him.

I almost died- I almost lost him.

"Kaisa"

I rose a little looking up at him. The closer I was to him the more I could see into his eyes.

I was scared shitless fuck of ghouls, but I'm not scared of renji, Itori and him. His eyes are different. Way different.

"Yes?" I answered looking at him. The lamp from the room was the only light that had provided some visual within the hall even though it was faint and dim I was able to see him perfectly in this night.

He held my face looking into my eyes as he leaned over and pressed his forehead against mine.

"You shouldn't lose out on sleep….head back to bed."

"Not without you there."

"Kaisa you should-"

"Not without. You. There."

I was very determined.

He rose up as I held his hand I wouldn't leave without him. Not when I just found him. I felt him pick me up his firm muscular hands supported my body under my back and legs while I held on tightly around his neck. For some reason while he carried me I felt like to him I weighed a feather.

"Sleep beside me, I want you beside me. I don't want you to leave not when I know you're here" I said once he pulls the sheet over me and he's beside the bed and not in it.

"Kaisa, I'll watch you sleep. I'll stand right here."

"Lies, come beside me. Your eyes have bags and you haven't slept comfortably I can tell. I know you Uta…your avoiding me."

"I'm sorry Kaisa but I think your misunderst-"

"I don't care if you're a ghoul, my feelings won't change", the inner me froze, what was I saying of course I do care he is a damn ghoul he murders and kills people! For some reason the opposite words were coming out my mouth but also more strangely, part of me was okay with this. "Your my boyfriend and I won't give up on you, on this…..on us. Stop being stubborn"

His expression softened but he seemed slightly shocked and the same time…..relieved. how was I able to read his expressions so well I wouldn't know, but I could tell by his face that he was more relaxed than earlier.

"Come here." I murmured lifting the sheet welcoming him beside me as I shuffled a little. I watched him hesitate at first but then he slipped his shoes off and removed his sweater as he emptied his pockets of some small stuff before entering the bed lying next to me.

"Kaisa you're a very determined woman."

"I know that." I replied smiling as I rested my hand on his chest feeling hi exposed skin. I inhaled his scent humming softly as I felt him shuffle a little making himself comfortable.

"I like it." he added as his hands made small circles in my back and I blushed lightly. His touch was so relaxing and enticing- but this was Uta we were talking about!

This was my first night with him in a bed and he fell asleep faster than I expected. I guess ghouls are much like humans when it came to sufficient rest and sleep.

The next morning I was out of bed and in the bathroom brushing my own teeth Uta was doing his right next to me he seemed more at home than I did. How often does he come to renji's? He even has his own tooth brush. I look at him the entire time curiously in the glass as I stare at his teeth. They don't look that different than mine but they do look awfully white and his canines a bit sharper, remove a bit- his canines were extremely sharp.

"Kaisa-chan is staring~" he whined loudly as I blushed. I wasn't looking on purpose!

I washed out my mouth looking back at him as he dried his face with a clean towel. Does he ever deactivate his kakugan. Itori showed me hers when I asked and I wasn't quite comfortable with asking renji but she explained it was something she was able to control.

Uta never deactivates his.

"Uta, how often do you floss?" I asked seeing him skipping the floss and going straight to mouthwash.

"Only when I feed." he replied without looking at me as he began rinsing his mouth with the bacteria fighting liquid.

Bad question! He didn't even said eat but feed! I can only conclude that eating usually leave bits and pieces behind but outside of that because they don't eat course meals like humans there wouldn't be a necessity right?

"Kaisa, you should pay more attention." he said as he took the towel from my hand and dried my face properly. I felt like a child, I spent so much time ogling at him I didn't realize I got some of my bang wet along with toothpaste on my jaw. "Something distracting you"

"My very interesting boyfriend that's a ghoul"

His movement paused for a second then resumed. "It's my pleasure to have your attention but I would like however for you to not make a mess while's you're at it."

I nodded. I got scolded by my boyfriend for looking at him. Great. I can see our future mornings going well.

Renji has left for work and I am home along with Uta. One thing I do admire about this guy is his talent for maintain absolute silence. However it didn't last long as my tummy demanded care.

"hungwwwy"

He looked over at me blinking as it was either him trying to verify what I said or him wondering if that sound really came from my stomach. I blushed a little feeling quite embarrassed.

"I'll make something."

He says standing up as he goes to the kitchen and I watch him begin going through the fridge and the cupboard. How do ghouls know how to cook if they don't eat human food? I start to smell eggs and the there is pancake….and then there is the scent of coffee. I rose up walking to the kitchen as he turns to me while flipping the pancake.

"You can cook?" I asked blinking as I looked at him and then my sunny side up egg resting on a slice of bread as the other had lettuce and salad- he moves fast! When did he even wash and chop these up?

"I learn, I don't know if it tastes okay though." he says as he puts three small pancakes in the saucer and switches off the stove.

"Well it smells- really really good" I said my stomach growling louder.

He looked at my tummy and then to me. Okay- that's it! I feel my cheeks light up as I quickly steal a pancake and run away.

Damn tummy creating a scene trying to get everyone's attention- HOW DARE YOU EMBARRASS ME!

I pout as I stuffed my cheeks in the corner of the couch feeding the bitch as she digest it perfectly.

"Someone looks guilty."

I blush looking up at him as he carries my plate of breakfast and a cup of coffee.

"Not guilty…just-"

He silences me resting the mouthwatering egg sandwich on my lap as I don't care about the warm plate but my mouth slowly watering. When was the last I ate food- almost an entire freaking month!

"I get hungry too Kaisa, everyone does." He said sitting beside me as he takes a sip of the coffee,- wait…..what?

I blink for a second, oh yeah….Renji did said they were only able to drink coffee, so if that was right water was okay too right?

I began eating, trying my best not to savage it all at once as Uta official makes the best sunny side up eggs and I can say that cause I love cooking- this ghoul deserves a medal of honor and ability for the coking and perfection of egg. I eat my pancakes humming happily as I chew my little blueberries smiling in delight.

"Seems like it was yummy."

"Very….I'm stuffed." I purred as I feel perfect right now…I hug the cushion before me and look at him as he rests the cup at his feet and reached over to me kissing my forehead.

I blush as I lean forward while he pulls away and kisses his lips feeling him pause as I return to my little spot blushing a lot. I miss kissing him.

He picks me up pulling me onto his lap as I blinked looking at him.

"My very daring Kaisa, no one is around," he says almost instigating something as I feel my cheeks get hot. I lean forward kissing his lips lightly as I pulled away-

"th-there"

He smirked pulling me closer against his body in his lap as I feel my chest press against his and my hands automatically rest on is shoulder as I get even redder.

This was embarrassing and extremely arousing, I barely in clothes so my very long t- shirt was doing me no justice as it rose up due to my sitting exposing my entire underwear. His hands gripped my thighs rubbing them as he leaned over his lips lightly brushing over mine teasing me.

"Pardon my behavior, it's been a while since I had my girlfriend"

I nod slowly as I can feel my heartbeat between us and his hand snaking up my skin as it travels up my back rubbing over my skin as I look down between us. I want to touch him as well!

My hands move to his shirt as I feel him pause looking at my movements as I lift his shirt to see his die hard torso. I freeze, and then I melt….and then I slowly start my journey to embarrassment.

This took a turn for the worse, I was supposed to caress him, not melt at the sight of his body beneath me- pull it together Kaisa!

I looked up at him and he grins as he takes my hand wrapping them around his neck as he leans closer. "Speechless?" he teases as his hands move to my stomach.

"nn..no….I just"

He bit my lip making me jolt a little. Lip biting and Uta's lip biting- are two very extremely different things. And now that I know he is a ghoul- especially his hickeys compared to a regular one.

Biting turns to sucking as he teases me feverishly beginning a hot and heated kiss only to stop right as it began and pull away with so light pecks.

He takes his time teasing me as I begin to feel restless. I wanted to completely kiss him and not lean forward to only get piece of what I desire so badly.

He pulls me in for the kill slipping his tongue inside my mouth as I moan softly feeling my stomach tighten. His tongue moves around mine flickering against it as I slowly match his speed, playing with him before passionately engaging us both in an intense prolonging kiss.

I feel his hands holding me close as mine started going through his hair undoing his ponytail as I begin balling locks of hair in my hand breathing unsteadily in the kiss.

He pulls away giving me a heavy lustful look as I release his hair watching it fall a little over his shoulders. I blush more admiring his new hairdo better than his usual as I lift the hem of my shirt pulling it up only to feel him pull it back down.

"I won't hold back if you do that." he mumbles looking at me as I can see the regret of just stopping me in his face.

"But I want…it" I mumble wanting it to get more…..intoxicating as I start to breath more calmly.

"I know Kaisa but-"

I pulled it off nevertheless as I swallowed looking at him. This was the firs my self-control lost a battle with Uta, I felt extremely…..into it- right now.

"I know you want it" I whisper leaning in kissing him as I shift in his lap moving closer to him slowly moving my hips, what in the hell was going on with my body right now?!

"Kaisa, I do…but if I lose control, I might hurt you….and now I want to do things to you that I shouldn't even think of."

I blushed. "Like?"

"Eating you."

I froze. I covered back my body with my shirt and moved out his lap.

Did Uta just tell me he wanted to eat me?

Sorry for the long wait i hope you guys loved this finnaaaalllllly i am finished with section two of my plot outline the drama is gonna start rolling in ^^