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Chapter 28
Consuming the Darkness

I stared at her on the table my blood running cold as standing in this windowless ice-cold room was making my body scream and crawl in so many ways. I wanted to leave. I wanted to step out right here and now but with Renji leaning against the door I knew there was no escape.

"P-Please, don't…..I have parents, I have a life….I have a future ahead of me please don't kill me."

My eyes watered as I began hiccupping.

Her words stung. Her plead for her life made me feel so worthless that I couldn't help her, in fact, it made me feel responsible that I was the one who had placed her in this situation.

"Uta...please," I begged for her. I just couldn't do this.

She didn't deserve to die!

Itori looked at me as she gave me a stern look, I knew she didn't want me to act like this here and now but how the fuck was I to act when I was to watch a person be murdered before my eyes- by my best friend who was like my sister, my trusted and dependable confidant and the man whom I had loved so much that I wanted to spend my life with.

I just couldn't do this.

This was outrageous.

I felt nervous, fearful, pained and sorrowful- with so many other things but not angry.

Why wasn't I angry?

This was my fault.

She was going to die because of me.

I was the one who bought her; she was the subject of my lesson to teach me the truth about ghouls. To teach me about what i was going to become.

"Kaisa, you shouldn't cry." Uta mumbled but loud enough for us to all hear as he strapped her down tighter and removed his gloves.

"Wh-Why are you taking off your gloves….have you- changed your mind?"

"No. I prefer doing it with the gloves off."

My stomach sank. I could feel it. Everything inside me turning. My stomach was getting sick and I felt horrid to the core.

Itori was standing next to him looking at the female. She lightly caressed the woman's thigh and smiled, "She has lovely skin, soft plush fat underneath…from the way it feels i can tell its really chewy~"

I blinked and swallowed as Uta signaled for me to come closer and I shook my head. No…I didn't want to go any closer to see her.

"I'm not asking. I'm telling you- to come."

"I d-don't care if you g-get upset. N...N-No."

My body shook and I couldn't even keep my breathing under control.

Along with how cold inside the room was, it was also scary because I knew what they were going to do. How was he going to even kill her before he ate her?

He moved from around the table and walked to me as he gripped my hand and pulled me behind him while walking towards the crying girl.

I tried like hell to move as I felt him drag me with him to the table eventually coming to a stop looking down at the her.

"Would it be better if we cover her eyes?"

I felt the tears rolling down as I shook my head wiping my cheeks. "No, I- I have to see, everything." I answered sniffling softly.

I have to watch. I have to accept this. I got myself into this. I didn't want to be a part of this but- I walked into this. I was warned, I was being stopped but instead I carried on and I was stubborn and here I was regrettably. He told me, he said it- would you watch me feed? You wouldn't want to watch. Why did I push so badly? Now I didn't want to watch; I wanted to take it all back.

I watched him as he gently touched her fingers.

"Every ghoul has a favored part." He said softly as he took hold then bent it back breaking it.

The sound of the snapped bone echoed in the room followed by her scream of agony. I watched him twist her finger then rip it from her hand as the skin tore like a stretched fabric causing blood to spray then slowly ooze out leaving the other fingers in a fidgeting twitch.

She screamed out like someone had plunged a knife in her stomach. I could only imagine how painful that was. I covered my mouth in shock as my vision got blurred with tears. I could hear her weeping loudly starting to beg to just be killed. The blood dripped slowly as you could see exposed ligaments and blood vessels and the continuous uncomfortable twitching.

"I favor the fingers."

He placed it in his mouth and bit as he began chewing.

I watched.

I just…watched.

At one point it felt like I was watching myself watch as I realized I had been struck by shock.

One by one he began he began breaking them and ripping them devouring them slowly as she screamed and cried, wallowed and wept- slipping in and out of consciousness.

This was cruelty, this was gut-wrenching...

"I want the arm; the blood flow should still be strong by now so I'll be sure to get a good share." Itori said happily then walked around to the opposite hand as she held it at the arm and broke it.

"Some ghouls like the blood like Itori, she's what you would call a connoisseur "

She began twisting, dragging and wringing as she pulled the arm off a heavy sum of blood spray on her as she grinned licking it off her hand. It was an utter bloody mess.

"You never said she tasted this good."

"You have had better."

She smirked. "I have, but she is fairly decent."

I swallowed watching as Itori broke her arm into smaller parts as she drained the blood into her glass jugs smiling as she watched them fill up with eyes lit with fascination - like a child watching it's massacred insect try to move after losing its legs and wings.

Madness and chaos danced in those eyes. Her grin was almost haunting.

"Oh…Itori you killed her." Uta said in nonchalance.

I looked at the face of the body as her eyes were open staring into the ceiling stained tears running across her face as her mouth was slightly ajar.

She was dead.

My heart stopped. She was…she was really dead.

The body of the dead can do so much to the mind. The frozen life staring dead at you suddenly fading out as the ugliness slowly uncurled in the presence of death from the absence of life that was now there. The dead was ugly. The dead was scary...her dead arm-less body was haunting my mind.

"Cause of death?" She asked looking at her as she touched her lips smiling while playing with her food, running her fingers over her body.

"Exsanguination and shock." Uta said as he pressed his hand into her stomach penetrating it as blood ran like a river.

"Stop Stop Stop!" Itori yelled getting her other jugs as she caught some of it. "Stop wasting blood! I can sell this at the bar at a good price, she could be a C classed wine."

"She tastes like a fair B." He said tasting the blood on his hands as he began opening her. I watched him push his hands under her ribs then open it apart as her insides were exposed. Her heart, her liver, pancreas, spleen, gall-bladder, kidney, stomach…everything.

It was the most excruciating sound I have ever heard. His hands sinking into her chest as he gripped underneath her rib cage. His fingers pressing on her bloody cartilage as the blood squished through the thin-fleshed muscles. Then the beginning of him pulling her chest apart as the ribs creaked and cracked loudly as you could hear the ligaments rip away from the sternum and the gurgling sound of her blood.

He sighed softly when he was at a contented width as he paused to lick his fingers. Her ribs protruded from her body as they were opened up like doors. Stiff, hard, permanent doors that were never to be opened this way or even moved.

He began taking them out as he rested the liver aside and then the heart as he began on other internal organs wrapping them in plastic. "After years of doing this you learn how to enhance the flavor in the human organs, it's similar to marinating the food you eat. Wrapping them in plastic while their blood-"

"Enriches the taste so it ends up tasting juicier."- Itori finished as she gnawed on the hand ripping the muscle off the bone as she chewed it like a tough piece of meat.

I looked back at Renji who stood there uninterested; obviously he has seen this scene a thousand times.

"He's not going to eat in front of you."

I looked at Itori who spoke.

"He won't do something like that before you; some ghouls prefer to eat in private- he's one of them."

I hugged my arm and looked down onto the floor as I swallowed. Why- why must I be here watching something like this?

"Taste something."

I looked up at Uta was he mad? I couldn't- I wouldn't!

I shook my head closing my eyes tightly as I heard him walk over to the table with the organs as I heard him shuffle the trays rummaging through something. I opened my eyes to see him walk up to me with what I suppose was a lump of flesh.

"Eat it."

"N-No."

He walked to me holding my wrists pushing me back as I stepped backwards until I hit a wall.

"I don't want it."

"Just have it-"

"I DON'T WANT TO!" I yelled looking at him. "I get it, you want me to see it; you want me to see that this is my new lifestyle that this is what I am. But I don't eat people!- I'm not like you I still eat my human food and I'm really content with that- I don't want to murder people and I don't want to eat like that!"

He looked at me as he tilted his head to the side. "You've suddenly become very interesting." He cooed softly as he stepped close to me our bodies weren't touching but he felt awfully too close.

You reek of blood.

I looked up at him staring into his eyes as he looked back at me. "What if I fed it to you indirectly would you swallow?"

I shook my head. "Can't you see…how afraid I am? How scared I am of all of this right now?"

"I can see but I believe you are being over-dramatic."

"How can a person be over-dramatic about watching someone die?"

"It's not the first time," He said as he put it in his mouth and began chewing.

I looked away as I swallowed wiping my tears. "Uta I'm sorry."

"Open your mouth."

His hands touched the skin on my neck as my body immediately cringed.

I rose my hand and slapped him directly across his face.

"I said no! Don't touch me…"

The sound of the slap echoed across the room.

It was deadly silent for a while as I felt the other two staring at us.

"Are you scorning me?" he asked as he turned back to me touching his lightly bruised jaw. He was surprised by what I did and so was I.

Why did my body react like that….I didn't want him to touch me?

My blood ran so cold and now my neck was covered in cold bumps where his skin had made contact with my skin.

It was a sudden eruption of instant coldness as my entire neck to shoulder felt numb and foreign to the rest of my body. Why did my body react like that?

"Don't…" I looked down to my feet as for the first time since today this all summarized itself perfectly.

I felt like it all made sense seeing the truth in front of me as I watched what he had done. Thought of who he was. Discovered him for what he did. Understood what he wanted to do and why he did it and finally, truthfully- finally saw him for the kind of creature he was. "Don't ever touch me again."

There was a difference between what I thought I felt and what I felt for him. There was a strong difference. And now it was so clear.

"Kaisa…" Itori mumbled softly as she came around the table slowly. Her mouth and chin smudged with blood as her hands were still dripping wet and her body completely drenched.

"You too! Don't come near me, none of you! "I looked up at him as I shook in fear at what his true nature was. "Worse you…Don't ever talk to me again…" I swallowed the lump in my throat as I didn't dare to cry in front of this…animal, "…it's over."

I walked away stopping at Renji as he stepped aside not arguing with me allowing me to leave.

I'm done with them; I'm done with this- they're not humans- their ghouls. They are all the same and none of them is different. I am completely, done with them.

Completely.

Wow, so Kaisa is quite determined eh? I hope you guys liked this chapter., feels like my best-written chapter.

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